Bella's Script
When everything is hustling

At 9 p.m., Bella decided to leave the house. Only in sleeping pajamas and hoodie, Bella sneaks out of the house and runs out of the yard. He stood up restlessly against the vehicle whose message had arrived.

A taxi takes Bella away from her home. There was nothing else he was thinking about right now other than meeting Rangga.

Yes, once again he will meet Rangga to fix everything.

In her head, Bella had conceptualized everything she would say. Sometimes he shook his head and squeezed his hair in panic as the discordant voices of those around him were heard.

“Focus Bell, focus.” His words are back trying to string sentences.

The taxi driver glanced up, noticing the agitated-looking Bella.

“You see who neng is? I don't think it's quiet.” The sound of the taxi driver disperse the words that Bella had worked so hard to string.

“Meet my girlfriend. I have to talk to him.” Timpal Bella thought again.

“Why not neng's girlfriend who came? Neng is a woman, she should come, not even tell neng. He's not worried about his girlfriend going out alone. How about,”

“LO CAN BE DIEM NO MORE?!!!” bella exclaimed in annoyance, making the taxi driver instantly speechless.

“Lo is a real nyetir. Take me to the destination address. Already! Not much bacot!” Omel Bella with a sharp look at the taxi driver.

“Good neng. Sorry father yaaa, already pretentious tau.” said the man who turned out to be old.

“HAISH!!” when Bella gets angry she gets out of control. Especially in this kind of stress. He was not aware of who the person being the interlocutor was.

“Sorry sir..” He apologizes. Then he bowed, leaning on his hands weakly. He should be able to restrain his emotions in innocent people.

It does not sound exactly what the man said, which obviously Bella still thinks of the sentence that he has strung in his head but now disappeared somewhere.

The man smiled a little. “Neng a good boy. Later will meet the soul mate is also a good person. Bissmillah ya neng..” that's all Bella heard.

Bella doesn't chim in. He tried to calm himself by leaning against the back of the chair while closing his eyes. For a moment he wanted to erase the noise in his head.

“Be careful neng... Want me to wait?” ask the middle-aged man when he arrives at the address. The man looked at Bella worriedly.

Bella doesn't chim in. He only took out a few pieces of money and gave the money to the driver. Then it came down.

Walking quickly to the studio, but only a quiet atmosphere found bella. The outdoor lights are dimly lit and the indoor lights are only a few that are lit. He still wished Rangga was inside.

At the push of the door leaf firmly and there was someone there.

“Bell,” greet Niko who was surprised to see the arrival of Bella.

Bella notices Niko who seems to be cleaning things up. Some of the band's tools aren't even in place.

“Lo want to go?” bella asked in surprise. Look at the room that is starting to empty.

Niko just smiled. He approached Bella and invited her to sit down. He was still surprised by the arrival of Bella who was so messy.

“Lo alone here? Up what?” niko asked, looking at Bella with worry.

“Gue asked, you want to go?! Which host?” Bella is still focused on the question that Niko hasn't answered.

Niko brushed her hair in frustration. He could imagine how destructive Bella was right now.

“Bell,..” grabbed Bella's hand but Bella quickly shook it.

He went from his place looking for Rangga to every room including his room.

Everything is clean. There are no more pictures of him and Rangga. Aesthetic lights that he arranged to accompany Rangga to sleep, or clothes that he neatly arranged in the closet. There was only an empty bed without a bed sheet lying on the bed.

“Rangga again out, later he returned again.” Said Niko who was standing behind Bella, looking at Rangga's empty room.

Bella ignored him. He took the rest of the photo on the floor. His face was torn there. If you notice this photo when Bella accompanied Rangga gig in Palembang, about 8 months ago.

Suddenly tears broke in the corner of Bella's eyes. He hugged the photo piece while sobbing. Rangga had thrown it away. Not only did his feelings change but also all the wonderful memories they had.

Niko who was standing at the back immediately approached. He hugged Bellaa from the side while rubbing her head.

“Lo must accept her decision Bell.. Lo can be happy even without Rangga.” Lirih Niko comforts Bella.

“How can I be happy if my happiness has gone with Rangga?” bella said with raucous. Imagining the loss of Rangga made his chest very tight. It is impossible to imagine how he lived his days without Rangga.

“Sometimes parting it does hurt, but surviving will be harder Bell. Lo must be strong.” Oghed Niko looked at Bella confidently.

The woman just sobbed before him making Niko sigh deeply and heavily. The feeling of destruction that Bella had ever felt 2 years ago. Exactly when Amara said that she could no longer pretend in front of Niko and hide her feelings.

“Lo knows Bell, when we've pinned our feelings on a human, we feel that if all of his feelings, we're holding him. He will move according to what we want.”

“Until we forget that even our loved ones are human beings who can make choices. And inevitably, we must respect that choice. Includes Rangga same option Ara.” Tukas Niko, stared at the woman who was only glued to the photo in her hand.

He shook. It's like denying what Niko said.

“Gue can fix it. Fix everything and maintain my relationship with Rangga. Maybe Rangga is saturated, but he does not really want to separate from me. He promised me he wouldn't leave me, Ko.” Steady Bella with bated cries.

“BELL!!” snapping Niko a little hard.

“Gue don't want to hear anything else from lo.” Bella quickly closed both ears tightly.

“If you give up your relationship with Ara, it's your business. But I won't give up.” He stays with his choice.

“Akh shit!” niko grunts, while flashing her hair rough.

Bella is stubborn especially when it comes to her principles and choices.

Not long after, there was the sound of a car roar that entered the yard. Bella immediately approached and her steps stopped when she saw Rangga and Amara coming down from the car.

The two were shocked and stopped their laughter when they saw Bella standing before him.

“Ga,.” greet Bella slowly. He tried to smile as beautifully as possible even though his tears did not stop.

Rangga did not chim in, he chose to enter and pass Bella just like that.

“Which else would you like to transport?” ask Rangga to Niko who was glued. He could read the tense aura in this room.

“Ga, I want to talk to you for a minute.”. He rubbed it with rough tears that seemed unwilling to stop.

Rangga who was taking a drum stick, throwing wood made a loud sound when it hit the drum.

“Alleta? Are we not finished?” Rangga looked at Bella coldly.

“Ngg-No, we're not done yet. You haven't explained anything about the reason you sent me. If your reasons don't make sense, I can take you again. I can apologize for all your mistakes with Ara.” He approached Rangga with his stride.

“I may be a lot of lack. If I am fat now, I want a strict diet so that my weight goes down again. If I'm less white, I can inject white, won't be afraid of needles anymore. If you don't like my hair that is a gini wave,” Bella took off her hair, made her curly hair fall apart.

“I can straighten it. If you're bored because I don't look beautiful and attractive, I'll learn all the science of facial care. Pake skincare, join the make-up class. Or studying with the Incas. She pinter make – up.” Cerocos Bella with stammering.

“I can do anything as long as you don't leave me Ga. I love you and can't lose you. Please, Ga...” he put his hands together in front of Rangga, lowered his head, begging expectantly as he sobbed.

“Udah is Bell, you don't have to believe this. I don't want to talk about our relationship anymore.” Rangga brushed off Bella's hand violently, making her body waver.

Niko quickly held him back but Bella shook Niko's hand back. He again tried to stand up straight.

“If it is my love alesan, why should we split Ga? Didn't you promise you wouldn't leave me? We've been through a lot. You always supported me and I never left you when you were at your lowest point. We,”

“BECAUSE OF THE SAME YOU EVERYTHING FEELS HARD BELL!!!!!” the inflamed Gertak Rangga. He was tired of hearing Bella whining.

Bella who heard Rangga's bluff seemed to flinch. One more twinkle of her tears down, this time without a sling.

“You know, just as you all feel useless. I can't act as freely as I want. You set me up, I have this and that. You are superior and make me feel always under you.” Light Rangga with fire. He looked at Bella with anger.

“I, I can fix it Ga. I,” Bella's lips trembled to say a sentence that she had assembled but now just disappeared.

He squeezed his head pulsating dizzy, where did the convincing sentence he was going to say to Rangga.

Bella stared at Rangga with her red and wet eyes. There was a lot of pain that he showed.

He approached Rangga Kembali, grabbed the hand of Rangga who was clenched tightly, difficult to persuade.

“LO WHAT THE HELL?!” amara quickly approached Bella and pushed her.

“BRUK!!” Bella fell on the floor.

“ARA!!” niko's bluff immediately helped Bella stand up.

“Lo delay yes!” niko was upset.

“Lo no need to interfere! You like Bella, why don't you take my ex?!” timpal Rangga who smiled cynically at Niko.

Amara also smiled sinisterly while closing her mouth, graceful.

“Bella, you are so stubborn anyway.” Amara approached Bella and pulled Bella's hair over her face.

“Sick yes?” the smiling one is satisfied.

Bella just fell silent with a trembling body.

“Let me tell you something Bell,..” Amara uncovers a strand of Bella's hair covering her earlobes. Closer his lips to whisper.

“Lo relationship with Rangga, nothing can be fixed. Shattered, broken.”

“And most importantly, the feeling he's not there for you."

"Lo see his eyes can not lie that he already does not feel the same lo?” Amara pointed at Rangga who was looking at her sharply, then turned her face away.

“He didn't even feel guilty at all when he answered your phone and called you dear, just a few minutes after sighing contentedly over my body."

"See? So, what else do you want to hope for darling? What you want to fix, hem” Amara smiled satisfied because he had managed to remove all the things he had saved so far.

This is your chance to get rid of Bella. Seizing the man he loved, he would never let go of this opportunity.

“Lo says Rangga is not the lo type, why now,” Bella trying to chimed in.

Amara tidied up Bella's hair violently and whispered back.

“Ssttt.... Denger l.” quickly Amara put her index finger on Bella's lips. He did not let Bella continue her sentence.

“Lo I already love banyaaaakkkk really time to be next to Rangga. But,"

"This time I don't want to beat Bell anymore. Lo is no longer the center of the world like the time lo SMA used to be.”

“So good, you are now home and neat appearance lo. Find another guy, maybe there are still guys who can understand the many shortcomings of you. Inget Bell, you're no match for me. Hem's? Understand baby?” he patted Bella's face with firmness.

Bella was just stupefied. He found out just how much poison Amara had stored for him. Amara who stood arrogantly before him. The woman just flicked her hand and asked Bella to leave.

“Ga,” lips kelu Bella blurted softly.

“All is clear Bell. Between us there is nothing more and you are nobody else in my life.” Strictly Rangga who immediately threw away the view of Bella, like reluctant to see the woman again.

Bella was in a lot of pain. He swallowed all the bitter pills he heard, as did the salivary that stuck in his throat and made it difficult to say anything.

He left with a shunt step. As Niko holds him back, Bella weakly releases Niko's hand.

He only knew he had to go, so he went as far as possible.

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“Aarrgghh shit.” Bella clutched her chest which felt tight and painful. First he rubbed it to eliminate tightness but until he hit it many times did not also lose his pain.

“Rangga,..” stuffing while falling staggered.

His long-running legs suddenly felt weak.

“I love you Ga, why are we so?” his mind with a blank look, nanar staring at the streets that like endless he tread.

He tried to get back on his feet, holding on to the garden fence he could reach. Only a few vehicles passed on the day that was getting late.

He never thought that he would hear firmly the statement of Rangga who asked him to leave. He did not expect that Amara had kept a lot of poison in her heart all this time.

Amara's words, like a film that keeps repeating in her head added to the memory of the memories with Rangga that continues to revolve in her head. It hurts so much.

Distinct voices from people in the office, the, the memory of his quarrel with Ozi and the pityful gazes from the people around him were like a ticking time bomb that increasingly gathered in his head to make the contents of his head very crowded.

Bella can't stop that. Everything was too painful and miserable at the same time.

I do not know how long and far he walked, he no longer ignored. Before him was a sheen of light from the ripples of water that seemed to ask him to come closer.

With a puffy face, swollen and red eyes, he stared at the ripples of water. Several times he closed his eyes, hoping that the shadow on his head could soon disappear. But the more he tried it felt harder. Everything was like a hot ball that flashed and left pain in every cell of his brain.

Bella wants to cry, screaming but she doesn't even have the strength to do it.

In the cold night breeze, he stood on the edge of the bridge to the lake. At that time he just thought, maybe by going into the water, his brain would stop thinking. All the painful shadows will fade then drown lost carried away by the cold water of the lake.

Yeah, that's what's on Bella's mind right now.

Stretching his hands across the edge of the bridge, he closed his eyes. He let the blowing wind carry with him the rest of his tears before he left. For a moment he wanted to stop thinking, stop imagining and stop listening to the voices in his head.

“Kak, don't go forward!” exclaimed a voice that Bella heard just after she stepped her feet towards the edge of the bridge.

He knows that voice.

“There is dangerous, here you give your hand to me okey.” Refer to the voice while extending his hand. Yes, Bella recognized the voice as the voice of her half-sister, Ibra.

Bella lowered her outstretched hand. Her pale lips smiled knotingly. How dare Ibra stop him. He was one of the shadows that swirled in his head.

With an anxious face and trying to calm down, Ibra approached.

“Trust me, give your hand to me. If there's anything, I can hear you. You can say everything is fine, no need,”

“Stop.” Bella Lirih. Slowly but firmly.

I was tired of hearing so many voices. He just wanted to get into the water and let his head stop thinking.

Ibrapun's steps stopped with a face filled with worry.

“Please stop. Stop feeling sorry for me.” Only his heart was in revolt and his lips remained silent.

“Okey, I stopped but please give me your hand to me,” Ibra with a stammering voice.

The words stopped, when Bella suddenly turned around. Showing her beautiful face that looks pale. Hair that is broken and messy. Her eyes were red and wet, and her lips were dry, deathly pale. Ibra did not expect that the woman standing on the edge of the bridge was a strong woman, whom she knew as Bella.

Bella only found out that more and more people were crowding, whispering to each other and some of them were probably loving her with curious gazes. He was tired of all those looks.

“Lo quiet okey.” Ibra settles closer, the steps are careful not to disturb the woman who looks desperate. Although in his heart asked how can a Bella have thoughts to end her life.

“Please hand lo to me.” He extended his hand again.

Seeing how messy Bella's appearance was firm, certainly not a joke if then she stood on the edge of the cliff and was ready to jump.

Slowly Bella nodded. Her tears that were already dry, came back dripping without a puff. His dry lips were shaking, like muttering but no sound was heard.

The teenager scrunched his forehead. Like the woman giving the last message.

“Gue not heard your voice. Whatever you want to takein, you samplein here.” Ibra started to panic.

Bella just shook her head, not wanting to mention anything. Then he smiled. No longer trying to talk, as his strength ran out. In the end, this is what he chose. Dropped his body into the water which voluntarily welcomed him.

“AAARRGGG!!!!!!!” some people shouted as the last voice Bella heard.

After that it was all quiet. All mute. There was no more frenzy like he had wanted all this time.

It's all over, isn't it?

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