Bella's Script
Recognition

The sound of laughter and chatter warmed up the cold night in Bogor City. Bella is still away from the crowd because she has not finished her call with Ozi over there. Her feelings are always not calm if you have not heard from her brother.

“The medicine has already been drunk?” This is the fourth question Bella asked. Exactly the police who are investigating and need a detailed explanation.

“Udaaahh.. Udah enter the stomach also times and otw in the same absorbent intestine.” Bright Ozi while chuckling. Hearing Bella worry about him turned out to make her feel very loved.

“Good. You don't drink coffee or tea, do you? Said it inhibits the work of the drug.” Bella quotes one of the sentences she read in the article.

Since Ozi was sick, he did so often read articles about Health.

“Ngak. I've managed to get my ego to heal, so you don't have to worry. Drinking coffee now makes me mules. War times the same effect of drugs in my stomach. Which even makes nausea.”

“Lo nausea? Vomiting is also not?” Ask Bella quickly.

He was very surprised to hear Ozi nausea because this is one of the signs of worsening the condition of the brother's body.

“Ngak, Just nausea doang. Red sugar is also cured. By the way you know about me mulu. How are you there? Not feel at home? In gakitin gak?” Ozi tried to divert the conversation. Making Bella more anxious is also sometimes unpleasant. He knew very well how overthinking his sister.

Bella was stunned for a moment, of course at this time Ozi news is more important among other news.

“Lo is not busy alone, right there? Roni same Devan keep you, right?” Ozi asked again.

Bella gave a small smile at Ozi's consecutive questions. He looked around the camping area and the warmth of togetherness in the camping area was clearly felt. Like repeating the memory a few years ago where Bella while in the artistic department had filmed in the open like this and ended with camping. Ozi has even caught up with him.

Each took on a role without being asked. There are busy handing out cutlery, arranging food layouts and there are also teams busy preparing barbeques. Togetherness like this is always fun to repeat.

“Seru, here exclamation.” Bella said with certainty.

“Lain times, we camping ya bang, same mommy too.” Bella Lirih. He did not exactly remember the last time they went on vacation together, spending time chatting and laughing.

“Iya. Lo bring your own mama. Just got back from the boutique. Today his right index finger is skewed again.” Ozi presses the loudspeaker mode to let Saras hear their conversation.

“Abang mah instead says.” Saras pinched the cheek of the child who was lying down and made his legs as a pillow.

“Mah, are you okay?” Bella asked, suddenly sentimental.

“Nothing dear. Your brother is the one who is more.” This time Ozi's nose is pinched by Saras.

“Hahahaha. Basic the crybaby.” Ledek Ozi from a distance.

“Ehhh.. Later really want to go home and desperate, new tau rasa.” Saras slightly kept her phone away so that Bella did not hear but Bella's sneaks still heard it.

He smiled crazily as he sighed deeply then he thought, after what he had decided two days back, can he still hear this crisp Ozi laugh? I'm afraid Saras' anxiety is only limited to worrying about Bella who likes to eat late.

“Mah, bang, sorryin adek yes..” The flow is full of seriousness.

Slowly he rubbed his tears that fell dripping down his cheeks. He tried not to sniff.

“Sorry why baby?” Ask Saras who is getting anxious.

Bella did not answer. He kept his phone away and raised his head to prevent his tears from dripping. Akh, it feels very tight and heavy when breathing in hela. He cleared his throat to neutralize his voice.

“Perhaps, in the next few days there will be someone coming to the house. Adek apologized, for inviting someone without asking permission mamah and brother first. Sorry...” Bella can't hide her stuff.

One thing that is now on his mind, he cannot continue to be unfair to his sister. It is true that the child not only needs a home to shelter, but needs warmth in it. That's why he told her home address and invited Ibra to come, whenever he wanted.

“Don't cry baby. Thank you so much for telling me. Mom and brother will prepare themselves if one time he comes to this house.” Saras said with a warm and soothing voice. Although Bella knew, her mother was holding tightness in the chest.

“Thanks mah.” That's all Bella can say.

“Ya already, adek nemuin first temen-temen ya mah. Mom is taking care of health. Adek dear mamah same brother.”

“Iya dear, mamah also dear adek. Take care yes son..” Only Saras is talking and I don't know where Ozi's voice is now.

Call ended. What remains now is Ozi and Saras who are both pecking around. Ozi who remains lying down with both feet Saras as a cushion. His eyes stared at the empty spot before him.

Likewise with Saras, he was glued in place with his right hand still on top of Ozi's head but no longer rubbed it gently. His mind was both bright, thinking about what he would do if the child came to his house. Can he be friendly?

While Bella, she squatted weakly on the wet grass. He bowed his head over the arm that he made a cushion. He cried a hiccup there, a cry that he endured when dealing with Ibra. Only this time he could spill his emotions that he had originally endured.

He still remembered how helpless the expression Ibra was showing back then. And for some reason, that memory was judging him. Judging his selfishness for continuing to set aside someone he should have acknowledged to exist.

Until that day, his mind suddenly opened. He made a big decision in his life. The decision that he should have taken a long time ago, so as not to torture Ibra and himself.

Yes, while ignoring Ibra, he realized that it was not only Ibra who was tormented but himself. It is like keeping a chaff of anger, disappointment and disbelief if there are people who should not be present in his life. His life should not be like this.

Increasingly, the husk turned into a flame that burned her own heart, leaving a scar that Bella herself did not know how to treat.

But unexpected things happen. Precisely when he decided to let Ibra come in and get to know his family. The rest of the flame in his heart was like extinguishing by itself. Mentioning the home address and inviting Ibra to come turned out to make the pain and tightness in Bella's heart reduced. Like this was apparently the feeling that arose when he managed to defeat his own ego. Relief, yes relief that Bella has never felt before.

One sentence he remembered just before he left,

“Kak, papah's death is not your fault. He left not because you were too hard chasing him and he did not want to ignore you as you thought all along.”

“She just thought, that at that time she did not have enough courage to face the people she hurt and admit all her mistakes. Make papah, you're the best daughter he's ever had and always will be. And you must remember, no one can resist god's destiny.” Ibra was weak in front of Bella.

Bella's like being slapped. But somehow the slap was like resuscitating him to the guilt of the accident that happened before his eyes.

At the same time, Ibra's speech was like a cure for her guilt. He always wondered, if only then he had not stubbornly called his papa, chased him and forced him to explain everything, maybe his Papa would not have gone forever.

And unknowingly, the incident gave him a feeling of guilt that he kept deep.

“If only I didn't make papah feel in the corner, maybe me, brother and mamah wouldn't lose papah. No child will be forced to be an orphan because of me. There will be no child who does not know how to face tomorrow with fear.” Bella thought at the time.

With all that guilt, he tried to make up for it. He tried not to be a burden to either Ozi or Saras. He has been standing on his feet since he was a teenager. He also took over the responsibility to meet Ibra's needs. Until without realizing it, the needs of the people around him are not just material needs.

“Do not do that again brother. Don't be too hard on yourself. You do not have to carry all the burden and put it on your shoulders. I don't need anything else, other than you near me and confess my existence.” Ibra wrote on the message she sent and always looked at Bella.

The little boy had apparently grown into an adult teenager. He has made Bella aware of many things. And for some reason, from that day on Bella felt the burden on her chest was no longer as heavy as it used to be. The tightness in his chest was not that painful.

Now he can admit to the world that his papa died in an accident. He left behind a son who later became a sister to Bella. What was this confession that made her feel even more relieved?

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