Bella's Script
That anxiety

"Hom pim pa alaihum gambreng!" the sound of the children growling is clear in Devan's ear cavity.

"Haha.... Bella is the loser... So Bella's dyed...."

"Yaaa ayook Bell, sneak over here." The sound of the girl's voice followed closely followed by the shadow of little Bella who smiled cheerfully in front of her friends.

"You're the bride today. Where the make up, let me dress up." said one of the children while sitting Bella.

Bella just follow. They have promised that those who lose the game will be dressed like brides.

The four children began dressing Bella. Some give him lipstick, light color eye shadow also powder him until his face white.

"Haha.... You're funnyuu.." The children's light voices were heard again after their giggling laughter.

"I like green eye shadow, is it okay to change?" bella protest.

"NO!" one child immediately held Bella's hand which would rub her eyes.

"The bride's make up should be pink and red." Her return impression added a scribble on Bella's face.

After dressing Bella, they laughed together.

"Who does Bell want with his men? There's Wili, Afnan, Imam Sama Rafi." show me one curly-haired boy.

"Edmmm..." Bella seemed to think hard. Decide which man will be his bride.

"Abang Devan can?" point Bella at Devan playing ball with Ozi and his friends.

"Yongdian... Junior High children are no longer willing to play house-housing like us." reject friend Bella.

"I'll take her." said Bella confidently.

He immediately lifted the long dress dangling and walked quickly to the edge of the field.

"Devaaannnnn!!! Come hereiiii!!!!" he screamed at the edge of the field.

The boy playing ball stopped immediately. Their attention was immediately drawn to Bella who was standing on the side of the field with her bridal makeup.

"Why?!" sahut Devan was gasping for fatigue.

"Here I am, I want to talk!!!" Bella asks Devan to come.

"Ciieeeee Devaaannn... Hahahaha.." cheered Devan's friends who teased him.

There's no choice but for Devan to approach Bella. If not, maybe this girl will keep yelling at him.

"Why?" He looked at Bella curiously.

"Abang Devan won't marry me?" bella asked directly at the core of the conversation.

"Isn't that?" Devan scrunched up his forehead not understanding.

"Yeahaa... I'm playing house, and I'm the bride. I don't want to marry them, I want to marry you. We have a funny kid. Oh, I brought kitty." Appoint Bella on the Hello Kitty doll she sits on in the audience seat.

Devan just shook his head with a smile. There was a request from Bella.

"Next don't play wedding, I still want the ball. Just play cooking, make me fried rice, because it's playing football like hungry." Devan slowly removes the makeup on Bella's face.

"IIihhhh don't delete it!!!" Bella immediately brushed Devan's hand off.

"Say that Devan won't marry me." His lips immediately pursed in annoyance. He also sat down and turned his back to Devan.

"Yes, I'll play it at home. Instead, I'll buy ice cream. But now you want to play ball first the same cement." point Devan to his friends.

Bella just glanced at Devan's friends who were laughing at each other somehow laughing at what.

"Wouldn't! I'm going home!" Bella immediately left in annoyance. He runs away and Devan is forced to chase after him.

He realized that he had failed little Bella in his imagination. And a few hours ago maybe he had disappointed Bella for the second time.

If he had just agreed to Ozi's request to marry Bella, would this never have happened?

"Sniff! Why didn't we call an ambulance just now bang?!" ibra's panicked voice resuscitated Devan from his daydream.

Like the shadow on his head, he is currently running to bring Bella to the ER door.

So panicked, he did not think long and immediately took Bella to the hospital with his car. Throughout the journey Ibra continued to make him even more nervous by saying,

"Bang, why is Bella unconscious? He's okay, right?!" the teenager made her panic even more, just like this time.

Ignoring Ibra's rant, Devan chose to run into the ER with Bella in both hands. His entire body was drenched and the water droplets were still dripping from the broken strands of hair.

His face looked tensely mixed with anxiety, as well as Ibra who followed him behind.

“Please lay it here.” Said the nurse who greeted them at the ER door.

Devan quickly laid Bella down and followed the blankar that was pushed in.

“Please wait outside.” That sentence makes Devan must be forced to stop his steps.

“He's not dead right?” ibra asked, on tiptoes trying to see from the gap above the ER room door. His face was obviously very anxious.

Devan just turned his head, then leaned weakly on the wall that he made a backrest. He is still not out of thought, what would happen if until he was late to find Bella who chose to jump into the lake.

The lake becomes a silent witness when he first sees Bella's face worrying about her choosing to leave his house. And this time, he failed to hide the anxious look he always kept neatly.

“He's not dead, is he bang? Hemh?” ibra again asked with concern. And again, Devan was just silent.

“AKH SHIT!!!! Who made Bella sampe kayak gini?!” grunting Ibra while scrambling her coarse hair then wringing her furiously.

He squatted weakly on the floor while banging his own head. He still does not understand how Bella chose to end her life.

Devan was silent, his mind still filled with regret. He also looked at Ibra. Her eyes are very similar to Bella's. Special eyes belonging to the late papah Bella. And the proportion of his tall body was thin, very similar to Ozi. Maybe this is the sister Bella's been hiding all along.

Being away from Bella turned out to make him miss a lot of opportunities to know all about Bella even though Ozi often tells about this cheerful figure.

“Where are I?!” the voice of a man is none other than Ozi.

His eyes glared at Devan who looked down.

“He's fine, isn't he?!!” at the pull of the collar Devan clothes that can only be bowed lethargic in front of Ozi, like this man still does not have full awareness after bringing Bella to the mainland earlier and then ran to the hospital.

“ANSWER A QUESTION I DEVAN!!!” yelled Ozi with tears filled with anxiety.

Devan just shook his head. He pressed the corner of his eye firmly to ward off the tears that suddenly gathered in the corner of his eye. He doesn't even know what Bella's condition is. Is the woman still really breathing or is it just her feelings.

“AKH SHIT!” snorting Ozi who violently released the grip of his hand.

“Gue must be in!” he said while pushing the ER door that finally opened wide.

“Sorry father, you cannot enter. We are dealing with patients.” Said a female nurse.

“GUE HIS BROTHER!!! I have to squirm directly my adek condition!” timpal Ozi was rude. When his mind was in a fog, Ozi was indeed very rude.

“Ziii..” Devan tried to hold Ozi's hand but firmly but Ozi shook it. He still wants to come in.

“ABANG!!” saras who ran after his son.

“Iya son, yes. But we must wait for the doctor to help. Patience son...” persuade Saras who pulled Ozi out. His mind was as confused as Ozi but he had no choice but to wait.

Quickly the ER door was closed again by the nurse.

“Sit here son. We do’ adek from here, hemh?” Saras took Ozi to a seat. Link his fingers with Ozi's fingers then rub it slowly.

Ozi could only bow languidly, holding back her tears. The shadow he had a fight with Bella a few hours ago, back drawn on his head, made him grimace sadly. If only he could understand Bella better, maybe Bella wouldn't do something this desperate.

“This is wrong brother mah, wrong brother.. Brother failed to take care adek.” Ozi with full regret. Her tears even flowed without being asked.

“Ssttt.. dear...” Saras hugged Ozi from the side and rubbed her back to calm Ozi down.

From his place, Ibra could only look at two people who had just seen him but did not feel foreign. Her oldest sister and a woman who Bella always wanted to take care of her feelings.

Two people Bella prevents from knowing her dark papal past.

He can only be glued. But in his heart he asked, can he know the two people more closely?

*****

“Temporary diagnosis, patient has depression. His mental condition is unstable.” This sentence is the conclusion given by the doctor to the family and the police.

Viral news about Bella turned out to make the Ozi family have to deal with law enforcement. They were asked for some information this morning and the conclusion given by the doctor was the cover for Bella's suicide attempt.

Saras only sobbed at the words of the doctor before him. Several times he shrank the tears that fell on the back of his hand.

“For a while, I suggest only the closest people may approach in order to maintain emotional stability and mental condition.” The doctor who was taken understood by the police.

They were also let out of the consultation room after signing some documents.

“Patients have woken up doc.” Said the nurse who saw Doctor Miko.

“Good, thank you.” Follow him with a calm smile.

“We can meet him doc?” ask Saras immediately.

After being banned from seeing Bella last night, it feels like Saras can't wait to see her daughter's condition firsthand.

Yes, last night when Bella regained consciousness, the girl was forced to be given a sedative and tied to her legs and hands because of the constant rebellion. All of this was done to avoid a subsequent suicide attempt. Now, Bella is placed in an isolation room while waiting for better conditions.

“I will check it first. I will inform my mother soon. Please wait first.” explained doctor Miko firmly.

Saras, Ozi and Devan can only obey. Everything that feels best for Bella, they will follow.

“Good morning mba Bella,.. How are you today?” ask Miko's doctor when she walks into Bella's treatment room.

Bella only looked at Doctor Miko for a moment before turning her face back.

“What is there uncomfortable currently felt by mba Bella?” ask again.

Bella was silent. The sedative effect turned out to make him very weak. He could not even make a revolt when he saw the left and right sides of his clothes tied to the side of the bed.

“I check for a moment..” Doctor Miko's permission. He took out a stetoscope and began to attach it to Bella's chest.

For a while he listened to the heart and the sound of Bella's breath, quite calm in his opinion.

“Mba Bella, if you need something, can say it to sister Ana yaa... Sister Ana will help mba Bella here.” Doctor Miko glanced at Sister Ana who then approached Bella.

“Good morning mba Bella, introduce me sister Ana.” He said while touching Bella's bare hands.

Just a blink of an eye Bella gave and made doctor Miko nod small.

“I live first yaa.. Rest first so that the condition of his body refreshes.” The young man patted Bella on the shoulder and Bella remained ungodly.

“Mba Bella prefers open or closed windows?” ask Sister Ana who opens wide one by one the thin curtains of the treatment room.

Previously it was only half, worried that Bella did not like the light that was too bright or too noisy sound that entered through the window slit.

Bella did not answer but she also did not protest when the sunlight entered and hit her face. his eyes flickered softly as the sunlight fell onto his eyes making his brown eyeballs look radiant as it opened.

“You want me to get you a drink?” haggar Sister Ana is approaching.

Bella did not respond. His pale lips did not even attempt to make a sound or nod their heads.

“Emm, Alright. Outside there's Bella's family. They want to meet Bella. May I allow entry?” sister Ana asked carefully.

They still have not found the cause of Bella depression. It could be from family or certain people that cause Bella to feel depressed. But when touched on family problems, it turns out Bella did not reject it.

“Good. They I allowed to enter only about 15 minutes yaa... If mba Bella feel uncomfortable and want to end the conversation before finishing meeting them, can memijit this bell yaa... I will come soon.” Said Sister Ana while putting Bell next to Bella, so she could reach.

Bella's eyes blinked again slowly and Sister Ana just smiled. At least Bella gave little attention to her interaction.

She leaves the room leaving Bella alone. Bella just fell silent in place, trying to move her feet and fingers that felt heavy. His body feels very sore because since last night was in bed and minimal movement.

“Kriieett..” door sounds open and Saras and Ozi appear to enter the room.

The two sighed deeply, sighing at the sadness of seeing Bella being treated like this.

“Our patient placed in the isolation room. We minimize objects that can threaten his life to reduce the risk of patients doing experiments to harm himself. We are still wearing a strait jacket to prevent patients from getting out of bed. We will evaluate later whether it needs to be released or not.” Doctor Miko explained before letting them in.

And yes, this is where Bella is. Lying in one corner of the room. The window is open but blocked by iron trails so that it cannot get out. There was nothing but a bed, a table and a chair. Empty, like Saras's current feelings.

Saras tries to hold back her tears when she sees Bella still wearing a strait jacket. The ropes on the left and right sides of his body were still firmly tied to the edge of the bed. It felt like he wanted to cry when he saw his daughter being treated as a mental disorder patient.

“Mah,..” Ozi clean while rubbing Saras back gently.

“Adek again need us. Don't make her fall by looking at our tears. Hem?” Ozi tried to remind.

He wiped away the tears in the corner of Saras's eyes. Taking a few deep breaths did not make them feel better. The sadness was getting real but they had to endure it.

“Given the current condition of vulnerable patients, I hope that mother and mas do not bring a gloomy atmosphere in front of him.” Miko's doctor's message again ringed in Saras' ear.

For this reason he must lift up his heart.

“Iya bang,” he said with confidence.

With slow steps Saras and Ozi approached Bella. They could not hide the trembling feeling of seeing Bella who was just lying on the bed.

“Hay, dear...” greet Saras with choked voice. He almost failed to control his feelings.

He approached Bella, rubbed her head and kissed her deeply. Her chest cavity churned to find Bella did not respond to anything. Seeing Bella's cross-face look pale, making Saras' heart grimace even more.

“Same brother dateng, want nemenin adek. How are you today?” he asked after controlling his feelings.

Ozi who pegged in his place while clenching his hands held in anger. I don't know who the anger was.

Bella did not respond, she chose to look at another corner, a blank white pot like her current mind.

“Lo want me to buy chocolate? I also saw a pastry shop. There must be lo.”'s favorite sweet food Ozi spoke while sitting on the edge of Bella's bed.

He noticed Bella's pale face. His eyes blinked slowly like he was losing energy. Finally during these 15 minutes they just spent glued together. Busy with each other's thoughts without knowing where to start talking.

*****