Bella's Script
Feel blue's

“Hey,” greet Ozi upon arrival in Bella's treatment room.

He pulled up the chair next to Bella and tried to sit quietly there. He looked at the brother who was lying weakly and kept his eyes fixed on the wall beside him.

“How are you doing today deck?” ask him who tries to speak as warmly as possible.

“What do you feel? Is anyone sick?” He was about to grab Bella's hand but then he paused. Suddenly his heart grimaced at his own question.

Ozi bowed lethargicly, realizing that this question should be asked before today. Before Bella feels on the bridle for no reason, before Bella feels no one understands her and before Bella makes her own decision.

Yeah, it should have been before that.

Seeing Bella who was lying weak, with a straight jacket still attached to her body as well as her jaw that began to taper and her fingers that began to thin, making Ozi claustrophobic himself.

It turned out to be so hard to hold back the tears from dripping in Bella's presence.

“Sorry because I failed. Not only does it fail to take care of your physique, but it also fails to keep your feelings and mental." He started his sentence. Hope Bella gives attention to her sincerity.

"Gue always felt like you were a kid. I still have to manage, I have to direct. Sample I forgot to ask, what do you thinkin and what do you rasain now.”

“Lo bener deck, I use too much of my feelings to measure your feelings. I'm too hard on you but I'm weak on myself.”

“Not lo who actually fell in the black shadow, but I."

"Gue who doesn't want to try to get up. I don't want to try to solve my problems. I was too scared until I did what I couldn't do. I am,” Ozi sentence paused with tears that slowly dripped.

Her chest was getting claustrophobic and there was no sentence that could describe her regret for making Bella like this.

She should have understood better that Bella needed her help, not judgment from her.

“Gue does not know how to boil all my failures. But, if I may ask, please don't choose to leave before me. I can't deck, I won't be strong to lose lo.” He sniffled in front of Bella. Her defense fails to look strong in front of Bella.

“Lo want me to fight, yes I will fight. I'll find the best doctor to take the disease in my head. I will not complain anymore even if I have to take medicine every day. I will not be afraid even if I have to have an operation. I'll take all the pain for you. Because I want us to be together much longer.”

“So I beg you, you survive the same I deck. I'll fix my attitude the same. I won't be forced anymore. I will try to understand your mind from your point of view and I want to spend a lot of wonderful time with you and mamah.” Bright Ozi Long wide.

At the touch of Bella's hand that drooped on her side. He linked the tip of his fingers with the tip of Bella's fingers that were not covered by a straight jacket. His cold hands were also weak and Ozi could only cry in his place.

While Bella, she was still staring at the white pot before her. His eyes blinked softly and tears trickled along.

If only Ozi knew, he regretted everything that had happened at this time. Between him and Ozi, between He and Rangga and between him and his father who he had to express and even hurt everyone.

Huh, can everything be fixed? Especially the trauma of the memories in his head.

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Standing in front of the door, he stared in shock at the woman now in front of him. The girl was no less surprised but still tried to smile at Ozi for the sake of not looking stupid.

“Sore mas Bima,” say with doubt.

“Sore,” in a split second Ozi was awakened from the deadlock of his mind.

He pointed his hand at the waiting chair in front of Bella's nursery.

“Room 206, insulation.” Inka was still reading the writing in her mind before according to Ozi to sit on the chair.

They sat side by side without knowing where to start. In his hand, Inca brought a parcel of fruit that he put on the base of his thigh and he played his ribbon because of the wrong behavior to meet Ozi.

“Em, thank you for telling me about Bella's condition via messaging.” Said the Inca suddenly.

During his time in the office, his feelings were not good, so he decided to come directly to the hospital.

“Bella still not allowed in jenguk.” Ozi without looking at the Inca. He looked straight ahead, looking at the little boy enjoying the lollies beside his mother.

“I came not only for Bella, but also for Bima and aunt Saras.” Inca Timpal. This time his fingers were linked to each other.

“Thanks.” Ozi nodded small. He looked at the face of the girl in front of him and made the boy hide his face behind his mother's arm.

Honestly, there was a warm feeling when he heard the Inca's words. Can he say that the Inca made him not feel alone?

“Bella as small as it was the first time in the hospital because of high fever, because it does not seem to time nyokap say do not rain." Suddenly Ozi told a story without asking to make the Inca look at him full of attention.

"During his illness he did not cry let alone complain. He just fell asleep in bed, curled Barbie Rapunzel while closing his eyes in a forced manner. I am still squirming her eyeballs that move even though her eyes are closed.” her lips smile small reminiscent of Bella's behavior.

“Abang, adek want to go to school.. Temen-friends adek on nungguin. We have agreed to play jump rubber.” Quoting Bella's sentence first that made her anxious.

“She held my hand tightly and I could wear her still hot body.” Ozi then looked at her wide palm, where Bella put her hand there.

“She said, she's better. Taking the medicine also healed immediately. And don't say nyokap, because don't want to nyokap anxious. He was always full of energy when we knew he was no longer okay.”

“Persis like a couple of days.” Ozi clenched his hands in annoyance, there was anger that this time he showed from his cold expression.

“What's different is, this time I'm too selfish. I'm just focusing on Bella who can't stand her pain. Without me thinking about her feelings and ignoring that ending it all for her is very difficult."

"Gue didn't want to know how he felt. All I know is showing arrogance, making Bella comply and realize that her choice was wrong. Stupid!” grunt while gripping his head that throbbed dizzy.

The current problem can bring back the smile Bella who some days did not see?

“Bella is always strong.” Inka chimed in while looking at Ozi beside her.

“He never shows his difficulties in front of anyone. He's the sun between us. He gave a very bright light until his shadow was so black. He's a source of energy for me in the office. And squirms Bella dim, we feel everything is gloomy.” Inca.

The raucous Inca voice made Ozi look at the woman attentively. Look at her teary eyes. It's not a lie that this girl is worried about her sister.

Inka so remembered Bella who always laughed when given a joke by Roni. Bella who always says, “Lo do not have to worry, I can help lo.” to anyone who needs his help.

“Gaiisss happy jum’at, do not forget to mute group trachea and focus on your time to gather the same family okeeeyyy. Sweetheart you guys a lot... See you on monday!!” That's what Bella usually calls for once the notification of the absent reminder message goes home, goes to their phone.

“I love Monday, coffee breaknya I treat coffee let lo on the spirit okey!” the speech was often heard when Bella began to turn on the computer at her desk. The energy is always renewed.

Bella's words turned out to be very Inka misses. Her cheerful and warm voice so politely went into her ear cavity and gave them a shot of vigor .

He sometimes forgets, Bella was an ordinary human who might be slumped like now without being expected.

“Still come by.” Ozi said suddenly.

“Hem, equally. If Bella can already be found, can I ask Bima for my ngabarin?” pinta Inka is hopeful.

Ozi just nodded making the Inca smile in relief.

“Then I'll excuse you home. Greetings to aunt Saras. Mas Bima same aunt also do not forget to always take care of health.” Said the Inca who then moved from beside Ozi.

“Hem,” only that Ozi said before seeing Inka turn around and leave.

Seeing the Inca shoulder that was getting farther away, Ozi so remembered the words of Bella some time ago.

“Inka good boy. You can't benefit him as much as you like. If you don't like it, don't make him ngarep.” Bella said with anger.

And at this time Ozi could only look at the chat that the Inca had sent him. There was nothing he could reply to except the last message.

He tries to obey Bella's desire not to make the girl hope. But it seems, from now on they will be more frequent messages.

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