I'm Just a Figurant
[POV Alex] Ch 96 - He Hates me

I'm glad Khansa can accept my excuse. Indeed I lied to him a little, although not really lying. I'm like this not because I broke up with Diana, but because of the betrayal both of them committed.

Given their betrayal and my fear of being completely hated by Khansa inevitably made me cry in front of her. This is so embarrassing. I showed my weakest side in front of him. I wish Khansa hadn't seen me like this.

I was so stupid. Why do I have to ruin myself like this while they don't feel guilty? What am I doing it for? On the other hand, there is something that I am so afraid of. I'm afraid Khansa hates me and leaves me. This feeling is far more frightening than having to lose two people from my life.

I, decided to improve myself. Leaving things out of my habit and returning to being my old self. There's Khansa beside me. He wants me to go back to being the old Alex. I'll be fine for sure.

Pers*tan with two br*ngsek it. They don't deserve my attention. They are a matching couple. One is brainless, and one is cheap. They fit so well together. I will not ruin my life just for such people!!

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I decided to straighten my hair and return to looking good. Leaving cigarettes, booze or random girls unclear. Dino was so happy to see my change. Dino hugged me and cried to see me who she said was back to how it was. I think there are still a lot of people who love me. I just need to focus on those people.

I was so excited for school this morning. The misunderstanding with Khansa is resolved. I can't wait to meet that girl. Now I don't need to have any guilt to meet him. I'm a free man, not in a relationship with anyone. I'm free to be close to Khansa whenever I want.

Imagining spending time with Khansa makes me happy. Study together in the library, meet secretly behind the school building, streets when school is off and other activities. I smiled to myself.

Maybe true, said Dino, this feeling is not just a feeling for friends. Khansa is so special in my heart. The shadow never left my mind. His existence means so much to me. Without me knowing I already liked that plain cat.

Since when did this feeling appear? Has it been since I borrowed a type X and stared at those innocent eyes? Or when I saw his stout figure, pedaling a bicycle without feeling ashamed? Or when I intend to kiss her at that moment?

I didn't know when it was, but now I'm pretty sure of how I feel. I like you, Khansaku.

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As soon as I entered the break, my feet immediately stepped into 2E class. I was so excited to meet Khansa. I'll approach Khansa slowly. After making sure Khansa has the same feelings for me, I will express them. It would be nice to be her boyfriend. Just imagining it makes me want to scream pleasure.

I leaned against Khansa's classroom door and stared at the girl for a long time. The girl looked dreamy. What is it that is being dreamt of? Even her dreamy face looks beautiful. Unknowingly I smiled a little. A smile that recently disappeared from my face.

I walked towards Khansa. Every step I took made my heart flutter. Maybe because I've realized my feelings for her.

"Khansa, I wait in the usual place." I said as I turned around. I'm so sure Khansa will follow my lead.

"I can't!" Ketus Khansa's answer made me immediately stop the step. I turned back and looked at Khansa full of question marks.

"Why?" my many.

"I'm busy." Khansa answered again. What's up with him? He's not like he used to be. Is Khansa having any problems?

"Busy what? Any PR? Take aja. I'll correct as usual..." I tried to persuade him.

"I can't!" The tone of Khansa's voice grew. Makes me believe that something's wrong with him. My brain is starting to guess.

"Khansa, what's wrong with you?" I'm getting closer to him. I'm starting to relate the changes to recent events. The last time I met him was last night. Has Khansa changed because of our meeting?

"I'm fine!" Khansa still answered with a sniffle.

"Yes!! I was so shocked. Geez, I really didn't expect, an Alex crying out for being cut off by a woman! Hahaha, that's funny!"

DEG

Khansa's answer was as if slapping me. To make my world stop for a moment. I was so shocked and stunned. Unknowingly my tone of voice also began to rise.

"Khanza!!"

"What?!" Khansa replied I was no less tall. He stood and ruffled his waist in front of me. It's completely out of my estimation. He's not Khansa. He's another guy whose face looks like Khansa...

"Originally you know yes, I'm close to you to use you! Using your brain! Your wealth and your popularity! Do you think I'm sincere?! No!! I was never sincere!"

"Your behavior last night also made me annoyed and fed up! Hey Alex!! You are not the only one who has problems in life! My problem is more! I don't have time to listen to your wits!"

"Oh yes, thank you for your help. Because your help my grades are improving and I don't have to worry about this payment-that's it. I think there's no harm in being close to you. Thank you friend." The Khansa-looking guy patted me on the shoulder and walked out of the classroom. Leaving me who was still standing dumbfounded.

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My body was riveted, completely riveted. My mind was empty, as if my body was no longer there. A trembling feeling spread in my body. I'm trying to figure out what just happened. But as if I had no brain, my mind stopped.

Like a fool I was standing in that class. Become everyone's spectacle. Feeling humiliated? No, that's not the feeling I feel. I don't think about shame anymore. I was just trying to figure out what just happened and my brain failed to do it.

I don't know how long I've been standing there, until I feel someone pulling my body and taking me. I don't care where I'm taken, my mind really isn't there.

My eyes were open, but I could not feel the presence of those around me. As if I were alone, hiding myself in my own world.

I really tried to examine his words, but my brain still could not digest them.

What do his words mean? Why did Khansa say those words? Is it true everything he said?

Khansa's sick of me. He's sick of seeing me like this. Tired of seeing my wit. Complaining like a child over my own problems. Khansa doesn't like me. Khansa hates me!!

"Nwoof? You're all right? Why?!" I feel someone patting my shoulder. I looked to see the origin of the voice. I saw my best friend in front of me. His gaze was so worried.

I looked at Dino with a laugh. Understanding the fact that Khansa hated me made my tears unconsciously flow out.

One thing came to my mind... Khansa. And it was a crushing blow that I was somehow able to accept all this pain.

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