I'm Just a Figurant
Ch 64 - Meet Again

The chek up results that day were good. Baby's healthy. His heart rate is strong. Her weight is also in line with the gestational age. Jagoanku always did not disappoint his mother. I stroked my stomach with pleasure.

One thing that makes me a little upset. This idiot beside me was asking about "that".

"Last night we did. With a long enough duration. My wife also experienced a release several times. Is that okay for our baby?"

I wanted to put the man in a sack and throw him into the sea. The question really embarrassed me. I dare not look at the doctor's face again.

"Ehem... It's actually okay sir. But please slow down, and the duration should not be too long. Frightened wife Father exhausted..." I glanced at the young doctor's face. There was a flash of interest on his face when he saw Alex. I don't like to see it.

I saw Alex. Come to think of it, it's not the doctor's fault if you're interested in seeing Alex. From High School this man is already handsome. Many women beg at his feet just to be his girlfriend. That still happens until now. Moreover, said people, the older the age of men, then the charm will be more out. Inversely with women. Thinking about it made me even more upset.

"Why pout?"

"It's okay." We were in the car and on our way home.

"Why? Here say." Alex pulled my body and grabbed my face. Put my face to look at him.

"Not being honest?"

"Can't the doctor be replaced?"

"Why?"

"I'd rather have an older doctor..."

"According to Winda, the doctor was one of the best obstetricians here. Is something wrong?"

"I prefer the old. He said his experience was more..." I tried to swipe, unwilling to look Alex in the face for fear of the man reading my lies.

"Yes, the doctor we'll just change it. We're looking for an old doctor. According to your wishes." Alex pulled my body and kissed my forehead. I hugged the man.

The more I become selfish. I want to take Alex, just make him mine. I am afraid of this feeling.

***

For three days in a row Alex was at home. Not much activity we do other than eating, lying, making love. So it keeps repeating.

As the doctor suggested, Alex did it slowly and gently. But the matter of duration, he couldn't manage it. The duration is still long. And the end result, I've always been helpless.

I'm starting to get good at kissing, but not good at anything else. The lesson about the bed I cannot absorb well because I always fall down made. I've volunteered to always serve Alex because I love to see him call my name when I let go. It was as if I was the only woman in her life. Expelled the names of other women, including Diana. That's in my delusion.

On the fourth day, Alex started getting ready for the office. I prepared his clothes and shoes. Nothing yet I've been lonely.

"If you need anything, call. I'll have Winda order it for you."

"Hem."

"Why pout?"

"It's okay..."

"I promise, once the job is done I'll go straight home. You're fine at home. Don't leave the house without my permission, okay?"

"Yes..."

"Here are his lips." Alex cupped my face and kissed my lips. Digitized it small. Tempting me to return it. But being upset, I did not return the treatment.

"Don't pout anymore. I try to get home quickly. Husband leaving for work should not frown. Come kiss me." Alex grabbed my body. Inevitably I return her kiss to please her.

We held a long time before we finally separated. After Alex left, I came back alone. I don't like this feeling. I was lonely and felt useless.

Do you know what is strong to be silent without doing anything for the next three months like this? Looks like I'm gonna have to persuade Alex to let me work again.

***

Stock indexes are stabilizing. The issues that were circulating also started to disappear. The turmoil of customers to withdraw funds massively is also quiet, should Alex be able to go home soon later tonight.

Waiting for Alex to come home from work is like waiting for my love to be reciprocated by her. Longtime.

Every hour Winda always calls and asks the same thing. Alex never called me alone. Is being GH really that busy? Until he doesn't have time to call me?

Time has shown at five o'clock in the afternoon. I took a shower and dressed a little. I'm getting ready to welcome Alex. I went downstairs and started out on the terrace.

"Where is the lady going?"

"You're ahead."

"Say, sir, the madam cannot leave the house. If he goes out, he must have his permission..." Ma'am Asih, my ART in my late 30s followed in my footsteps with an anxious face.

"I'm just in front of Mommy's house. I'm waiting for him to come home."

"But Madam..."

"It's okay, Ma'am. He won't be mad."

"Then can I come with you? I will not disturb Madam. I just kept quiet and accompanied Madam..."

"Yes, it's okay. Please." Then I'm out of the house. Security hesitated to open the door. But after convincing me that I was not going anywhere, he opened the door for me.

It was like I got some fresh air. It feels so relieved to be outside the house like this, even though it is only limited in front of the house.

As beautiful as any house built, but if not given the freedom to do whatever we want it feels quite suffocating too. Just like a bird in a cage.

I took off my sandals and started walking back and forth. Ma'am Asih followed wherever I went. Seems really scared I'm gonna leave that house.

I haven't walked like this in a long time. Ever since I was pregnant I used to do small exercises like this. But since living in Jakarta I started to forget this routine. I've been too busy spoiling Alex, things I've never gotten.

"Usually he came home the other night, Ma'am?"

"I don't know much about Madam. I just worked here. All the workers here are all new."

"Can't you?"

"Yes. As far as we know, the Master has just bought this house, Madam. Looks like Master specifically bought it for Madam..."

I digest the information well. The sting of pain returned to my heart.

Yeah, well, Alex just bought this house. The man lived with Diana. Living with happiness. Because of my presence, she bought this house so I could occupy it without disturbing her life with Diana. It's only right when everything feels new.

But why is Alex always with me for a week? What reason did she use Diana?

Guilt hit me. For a week I've been in control of Alex. Diana was also pregnant. We both need Alex. Why am I so selfish? Want to master Alex to be mine completely? I was third in their relationship. Really don't know yourself.

I stepped while thinking. Tracing the road in front of the house without remembering with my surroundings. I didn't realize when a car suddenly stopped right next to me.

The passenger glass of the car was lowered, then it appeared a beautiful woman was tilting her head while calling me.

"Khan's... Khansa huh?" Hearing my name being called, I looked up. How surprised I was to see who called me.

"Di-Diana??" my voice also became choked.

***

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