I'm Just a Figurant
Ch 34 - I Miss You

Our gazes are totally glued. I can't read Alex's expression. His eyes looked deep and sharp. The feathers of kudukku bristles. My body trembles. That look seemed to be staring at me. Makes me helpless.

Yes, I remain helpless. I am the same Khansa. Still helpless in front of Alex.

"Here Lex, we haven't seen each other in a long time." One of the men pulled Alex by the hand, taking her to a seat.

"Ehm yes." We do not want our eyes to be cut off. Alex is back busy serving his friends questions.

After Alex arrives, the core events begin. The chairman of the committee gave a few words of welcome and told Alex to do the same. After that the non-formal event went on as usual.

I'm still sitting in the corner of the room. My eyes were endlessly staring at Alex. Sometimes our eyes meet, but soon Alex takes his eyes off.

My mind wonders, does Alex still hate me? But if Alex hates it, why did he help me in so many ways? I always wondered about it.

Event after event continues. Many were not satisfied the event was coming to an end so they decided to continue the second session event.

They decided to karaoke. They choose a karaoke place that is still within the scope of the hotel. Half of the members present decided to come along, while the other half decided to go home.

Maybe I am the shameless one. I'm waiting for Alex's decision. It turned out that the man was at the second session, so I followed him.

There were about 30 people who came. It consists of nearly 20 men and 10 women, including me.

I don't care if they think I don't exist. I just want to see Alex. Wanna talk to him. Apologizing and thanking me for all the things that man did to me.

The karaoke event was very lively. Everyone seemed excited for the vote. The night was getting late, the atmosphere was getting hotter.

I don't know who ordered it, but the booze started coming into our room. The men started the drinking party, while the female companion kept singing cheerfully. Cigarette smoke began to fill the room. Room lights become dim, replaced by flickering lights. The atmosphere of the room already looked like night entertainment. I feel so careless. I'm not used to this atmosphere. But I'm trying to hold on, I want to talk to Alex.

The show continues. The drinks never stopped coming. As soon as it ran out, another drink appeared. I saw Alex chugging a couple of bottles. As soon as it runs out, open a new bottle, and so on.

Seconds turn into minutes, and minutes turn into hours. One by one the occupants of the room began to leave the room. At exactly 23:45 WIB, the room looked empty. Just leaving us both. Yes, just the two!!

I looked at Alex who still seemed to be drinking. From the gestures of his body, the man was already drunk. Although sitting position, but his body already looks limp.

Alex took another bottle. I moved quickly and held his hand.

"Enough Al." I kept the bottles out of Alex's hand.

Alex looked. Stared at. Red eyes. His eyes were no longer focused.

"Khaaaaaaa... Temaaan... Khaaaaa... Hehe..." Alex chuckles. The man was really drunk.

Alex's body came closer to me. He held my head and stroked it.

"Khaaansaaa... Cantiiikkk... Khansaaaku... Aaakuuu pramaa... Anaaak good... Anaakk..." Alex patted my head.

I'm just stunned. My body cannot be moved. I really don't think Alex remembers me.

Alex held both of my shoulders and held me in his arms.

"Khaadjana... Akuuu misses you... Saaangaat... Saaaangaatt... Kaohansaaakuuu... Jaangaan... Jaaangaann beenciii... Kaohansaaa..." Alex kept hugging me. His mouth did not stop tearing.

I was really confused by his attitude. Shouldn't Alex hate me? Why did Alex say I was forbidden to hate him?

Alex's presence so close to me choked me. The smell of cigarettes and booze on his body did not prevent me from receiving his embrace. There was no disgust or disgust for the touch of skin as I used to feel when touched by another man. I just feel so familiar with this touch. Like going home.

I returned Alex's embrace, enjoying this taste. My eyes glazed. Alex... Alex... Alex... I'm touching it. This feeling I can't express with words. I just want to enjoy this longing.

Long We hugged. Suddenly I heard her breath. Looks regular and rhythmic.

"Al?" my whiskey. But I didn't hear an answer. "Al?" I called back. Alex did not answer. Only his smooth snoring was heard. I'm keeping our bodies away. As I thought, Alex is asleep!!

Either be angry or laugh at his behavior like this. It's our important meeting, but he's asleep instead. Huft.

I leaned Alex's body against the couch. And stared at his face for long.

"Al... Miss you... Very-very homesick... I waited for you... Why are you coming now?" I ventured to walk down Alex's face with my hands.

I still don't believe it. The man I loved for a dozen years was in front of me. My feelings are really breaking.

"Al... I apologize for my old attitude. I regret... Really very sorry... Al... Iloveyou..." I felt that face I loved so much.

Ten minutes later, I spent talking to myself while waiting for Alex to wake up. I reveal my heart that I have not been able to express.

CLAMPS

Suddenly the door to the karaoke room opened.

"I'm sorry, I think there's no one. Let's continue." A hotel worker entered our room.

"Wait."

"Yes? Can I help you?" The worker turned and looked at the two of us.

"Can you help me to lift this man up? I don't know where he's staying. I can't leave it here."

"Oh good, ma'am." The man approached Alex, getting ready to pick him up. He looked at Alex deeply. "It looks like this guy's a guest at the hotel We're Ma'am."

"really?" my many.

"Yes. If not, he just checked in today. Can I check his body? I want to find the room key."

"Please." And the worker was looking for the key in Alex's pocket.

"Here we go." The worker shows the room key in the form of a key card. "Let's Mom, I'll help get him to his room."

The worker draped Alex's arm around her shoulder and grabbed her body, while I followed behind her.

Alex's room is located on the 4th floor, in the form of a king exclusive room with single bed facilities.

The hotel worker placed Alex's body in a large bed carefully. When he finished, he turned to me.

"Is there anything else I can do to help Mom?"

"none. Thank you." Thank you." I gave a number of tips and the worker resigned.

Now it's just the two of us. I was so confused what to do. This is the first time I've been in a room with a man.

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