I'm Just a Figurant
Ch 40 - Guessing

I decided to rest for two days. On the third day I decided to go to work again, but my body did not improve. I became easily tired, jovial, shivering. While my stomach was still cramping.

"Zil, the AC will be turned off, please."

"Solar Ma'am. Mommy's not that hot?"

"I'm cold Zil." I took my jacket and put it on.

It was very hot. AC temperature only 22°C. But I'm cold. Body shivering.

"Mom still not feeling well?" Sizil approached and held my forehead. It's great that I got such a little treatment.

"Oh my God, Mom's body is still hot. I'll drive you home, Mom? You shouldn't have to force your way in today."

"Cuman in the usual wind Zil. You don't have to be lebay. Many of you have not yet reached your target. I don't want to lose my men because I'm fired because I'm not Zil's target."

"Mom doesn't have to think about us. Think of Mom's health. We will try to find our own Mom. I'll take Mom home, will I?"

"No need for Zil."

"This is Mom's sweaty forehead. Mother was cold again. Your face is pale too, Mom. Let me drive you home now."

After a long debate, I finally lost. I asked Mr. Arif for permission to go home first.

Sizil took my ignition key and drove my car. Along the way he talks about health. As if he was the expert.

Sizil turns the car in a different direction from the direction of the contract.

"Where is Zil going?"

"RS."

"Well?"

"Meriksain Mama. I was sick for three days, but not healed. Just check it out. Once the insurance from the company dipake Bu. Let's just make it a point to get that card."

"No need for Zil. Belokin's back home. I'm coming this month. Don't be weird. Shame to know to RS just because it came the moon. Home." I said with a firm tone. Making Sizil reticent. With a sullen face he changed the direction of the car and headed for a contract.

***

For the next few days I was still showing those symptoms. It's been almost seven days that I've been in the same pain. On the eighth day my body improved.

I was relieved to see the spots on my underwear. That means I'm coming to the moon.

"You come months until you get sick for days, ckckckck." I shook my head, feeling strange about my body getting spoiled.

The following days I no longer experienced those symptoms. It's just that I feel astonished. I've started to flek, but why not come to the moon?

I thought, this must be due to stress. Stress makes my body easily tired and makes my monthly period irregular. Yeah, it must be because of that.

I started working as usual. Creating a target report. Product marketing strategy. Pipeline visits and so on. Every day I accompany my men to visit the agencies and associations of the rich to persuade them to put funds on Us.

I'm busy myself. Trying to forget the heart. I can get past the cyanh, but I can never get through the night.

When night falls my feelings are always sad. Sadness always comes. I try to shift my mind by watching movies. But when the shadow comes, I will still end in crying.

I've been trying to make my life. Trying to accept the reality that is in plain sight. Trying to cast his shadow, but still can not. It seems like it will take longer to get rid of it in my heart.

***

"Mom, I didn't visit today... Huhh..."

"You why Zil? You sick?"

"Custom Ma'am. Cramp my stomach. The first day comes the moon." Sizil held her stomach.

"You've already had Zil's period?"

"Yes Mom. It's the schedule, duuuh..."

"It wasn't supposed to be me first huh? If it's not wrong we're almost 2 weeks apart right Zil?"

"Yes. Come on, I'll take you home."

I drove Sizil back to his boarding house and told him to rest. Along the way I thought. It's been almost two weeks I've been through my menstrual cycle. This is the first time it happened. Usually my menstrual cycle always comes on time. Did that little flek yesterday include menstruation?

Should I go check myself out?

Ahh, it's still two weeks late. There are even women who have not menstruated for three months. My case is nothing.

Yeah, no need to think about it. My focus right now is only on work. There is no goal to marry or have children. Just by working my mind is a little more distracted.

***

"Mom, how come you eat so much now?"

"Yes Zil, so hungry." I scooped up the super spicy lontong rujak and devoured it deliciously.

"It was only an hour ago that I ate chicken noodles. How do you eat heavy food again? Yesterday was too. I count Mother eating it can be 5-6 times. Watch out fat Mom. It's a pity slim body Mom if fat."

"Well, how else would Zil. My stomach is hungry. Maybe there is a genie, yes... So eat as much as you want to stay hungry, hehe." I still eat my food with pleasure.

"Not the genie but the baby times. Eh forget, there is no way a mother Khansa who is innocent and perfectionist there is a baby in her stomach, hihihi. Sorry Mom, kidding. Don't be mad."

CLOTAK

I dropped my spoon.

"Lha, why fall down the spoon? Wait here, ma'am, I'm mintaining a new spoon with my brother." Sizil approached the street vendor and asked for a new spoon.

My eyes began to twinkle. Cold sweat began to pour. All sorts of events seemed to be glaring.

Infants... Infants... The baby?? Is there really a baby in my stomach?!!

Unknowingly I was holding my stomach still flat.

Ahh it's impossible. Where it may only do one time directly produce a baby. Yes, it won't be possible.

"Mom, here's the spoon. Eat the right dong Bu. Do I need a bribe?"

"Can." Unconsciously my mouth spoke.

"Seriously? Ihh tumben really spoiled. Here, I'm bribing. When will my beautiful boss ask to be bribed." Sizil took my plate and began to bribe me.

I don't know why I feel so happy. I feel really at my darling. My eyes are glazed over.

"Thank you Zil, I've been paying attention to you."

"Hhh what the hell, ma'am, so much. Here eat a lot. Let the baby, uh the genie get fat." Sizil bribed me with vigor. Every time Sizil mentioned the word baby, it always made my heart tremble. But I try to put that aside and throw those thoughts away.

***

I'm getting restless. I really didn't get my menstrual cycle. When calculated from the calendar, it's been almost a month I didn't get my cycle. Foolish thoughts started haunting me. Sizil's words were ringing in my brain again. Infants... Infants... Infants...

For a month I didn't really recognize my own body. Usually I eat once a day, but somehow my appetite grows to be many times. Something is strange about my body.

The shadow of that night came to me. I was so lulled and lulled that I didn't pay attention to the other details. B-but if you remember it again, it looks like they did it without safety.

A-is having just one such relationship possible to lead to pregnancy? Wh-is that possible?!!

My mind started to get mixed up. I don't really understand the symptoms, because only this time I experienced them. People say, when a woman is pregnant, she will experience symptoms such as nausea, vomiting, not eating well, starting to get tired, often sickly body and others. But my appetite is so big. Only in the beginning did I experience those symptoms, the rest of my appetite grew rapidly.

Not wanting to second-guess, I immediately searched my phone and read about pregnancy from various sources.

Instantly my body became limp as if it was boneless. Pregnancy can occur even in one time of intercourse. With a note sp*rma men are in very healthy condition and the woman is in fertile period.

W-was I in the fertile phase that night?!!

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