I'm Just a Figurant
Ch 21 - Makes you Hate me

That day I decided to meet Diana. Anyhow I have to get them back together. I'll put aside my own pain and focus on Alex's happiness.

When the break came I went to Diana's class. From the classroom window I saw Diana sitting in her chair while being surrounded by her fans. I ventured into her class and walked closer to that connection.

"Mr Diana..." I'm trying to call. But nobody cares. "Mother Diana." I tried again, in a slightly louder voice. But again no one cares. I took a deep breath and tried again, "Sir Diana!!"

And that group of people immediately focused their attention on me. My loud voice was powerful enough to attract their attention.

Diana looked at me with a questioning look and disliked it.

"What's wrong?" ask without seeing my face.

"Sir, is there a minute?"

"For what?"

"There's something I want to talk about."

"What problem?" tanyanya indifferent.

"Can we talk alone?" I glanced at his other friends. It felt unethical and inappropriate to talk about Alex's problems while many children were surrounding them.

"I'm busy." Diana answered the jutek.

"A little while, Ma'am. Yes please..." I really have no self-respect. Whatever I do to make Alex happy and cheerful again.

Diana's staring. Seem to think and weigh.

"Okay, five minutes." Diana stood up and went out of class. I followed him from behind. Diana took me to a quiet place, where no one would possibly eavesdrop on our conversation.

"You've got five minutes."

"Yes Mother..."

"What are you talking about?!"

"Ma-issue Alex Ma'am..."

"What's wrong with her?!"

"Please... Please accept Alex again. In-he's sad about breaking up with you, ma'am..." I don't know what I saw wrong, I saw a faint smile on the corner of Diana's lips.

"We've broken up. It can't be back. But not now you should be happy, to be close to Alex every day. Your dream of getting close to the most popular guy in school we've already achieved."

"Mr... I-I have absolutely no intention of getting close to Alex. We're just friends with Mommy..."

"Oh be friends? A friend who can go anywhere?! Friends who always have secret meetings anywhere?! That's what you call a friend, right?! Just so you know, yes, we broke up because of you!! You caused it!"

I was stunned to hear Diana's words. I really didn't expect them to break up because of me. What cause? Is it because I'm too close to Alex?

"You're the reason we broke up! Now you're here to tell us to be together? Very amusing. What else is this acting?!"

"Your face is full of innocence and innocence, but your heart is very rotten. It's rotten!" Diana pointed at my chest. I feel claustrophobic.

"Have it, I don't have much time to talk to a kid like you!" Diana turned around and left me. Not wanting to lose a moment, I immediately chased after him and grabbed his arm.

"Mr... Maud... I beg Mama. Please accept Alex again. He really loves you, Ma'am. L'm... I'll do anything... Yeah, I'll do anything as long as Mommy wants to come back with him."

Without having any pride, I bowed before Diana. Begging him to accept my prince again. I just want to see Alex happy. Though happiness is not with me.

Diana watched in silence. Again he seemed to think and ponder.

"What are you really willing to do?"

"Y-yes Ma'am... Anything..." Ah at most I'll just be in the bully. It's okay to receive bullies for a while, as long as Alex can smile again it's a very commensurate price.

"Okay, I'm gonna turn Alex around. But there's a condition..."

"What are the conditions, ma'am?" I looked.

"Y-yeah Ma'am..." I stood up and faced Diana.

"The terms are only one. I want you to stay away from Alex. Make Alex hate you so much that he won't see your face again. Understood?!"

I was wide-eyed and dumbfounded. Too surprised to respond to his words. I didn't realize Diana had left me alone.

Did I not hear wrong? Make Alex hate me? Is there no other way? I was willing to be bullied and they played me as well as their hearts, but.... made Alex hate me? L'm... I don't seem to be able to...

Only Alex cares about me. Only Alex thinks I exist. Only Alex treats me like a human being and I have to make that guy hate me?!

What would I be without Alex?! Back alone and become a wasted girl? Lonely and languishing. Like there is and nothing. It was really a horrible moment that I didn't want to repeat.

I stepped into my class with a shackle. My mind wandered here and there. I really wasn't focused that afternoon.

Arriving at home is like that. After cooking for my brother and father, I decided to go straight into the room. My head's dizzy. There's too much I think. I have to think about this carefully.

Alex... Alex... Alex...

The name that always lives in my heart. The name that always dances in my heart. I didn't expect to be her partner, but just being her friend was already amazing for me. That is now banned. I don't deserve to be Alex. He was too tall for me to know and decorate my life. Should I really make Alex hate me?

The face of Alex's grief danced in my mind. I don't want to see Alex sad. I want to see Alex who is always happy. Looks cool and cool in front of others, but sometimes can also be nosy and childish in front of me.

Do I have to break it? The choice is two. Make Alex happy or make me suffer. It seems predictable I will choose which path.

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That day I decided to do as Diana asked. The more I put it off, the longer Alex's sad face will be seen.

When the break came, Alex suddenly came to my class. I'm gonna use this opportunity to make Alex hate me.

"Khansa, I wait in the usual place." he said as he turned around.

"I can't!" I said trying to sniff. Perhaps surprised to hear my tone of voice, Alex immediately turned back to face me.

"Why?"

"I'm busy." I pretended to open the textbook.

"Busy what? Any PR? Take aja. I'll correct as usual..."

"I can't!" Ahh, I can't act like this. If left too long, I'm afraid myself will cry.

"Khansa, what's wrong with you?" Alex approached me.

"I'm fine!"

"You're not as usual. Was it because of last night?" Alex's face looked clouded. A glint of sadness and shame crept onto his handsome face.

I didn't answer. I want Alex to speculate for himself.

"You must be surprised, see me like that..."

"Yes!! I was so shocked. Geez, I really didn't expect, an Alex crying out for being cut off by a woman! Hahaha, that's funny!" I want to slap myself. These words are so evil. I pressed the most sensitive point. I dare not look at his face again.

"Khanza!!" Alex's voice was high.

I strengthen myself. I stood up and faced her towering body. Act as if challenging.

"What?!" I'm waist-racked. "Originally you know yes, I'm close to you to use you! Using your brain! Your wealth and your popularity! Do you think I'm sincere?! No!! I was never sincere!"

"Your behavior last night also made me annoyed and fed up! Hey Alex!! You are not the only one who has problems in life! My problem is more! I don't have time to listen to your wits!" I was silent, breathing deeply. Just one more act then my job will be done.

"Oh yes, thank you for your help. Because your help my grades are improving and I don't have to worry about this payment-that's it. I think there's no harm in being close to you. Thank you friend." I pat Alex on the shoulder and walk out of class. Leaving Alex still standing dumbfounded.

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