I'm Just a Figurant
Ch 45 - Healthy and Not Fussy

The morning came back. That day I decided to make a new life plan.

"Mama sold the car. We need a new transport Deck. Today we will buy a motorcycle. Second is okay, the important thing can be directly made. After that friendin Mama looking for work ya Dek. Healthy and strong yes. Don't fuss, okay baby..."

Like I said, I'm looking for a used bike but the quality is still very good. I need a motor to mobilize. If I decide to become an insurance or banking product agent, at least I need a motorbike to be able to move around.

I went to a used motorcycle dealer and looked for a bike that I thought was in very good condition. After a heated debate, that afternoon I managed to bring a motorcycle with a good brand and condition with a price in accordance with my offer. I'm very satisfied.

"Yeay, we've got the Dek bike. Where are we going now?"

Krucu... Krucu... Kruccuk.(.My stomach is ringing)

"Geez Dek, are you hungry again? All right, let's get some food. You can eat as much. Mama doesn't care if you get fat, the important thing is that you stay healthy..."

I went around in Malang square and tasted many of the food there. I don't know how much food I've eaten, but my stomach seems to hold everything.

"Geez Dek, eat you strong. You must be a guy Dek. Even though your father does not eat much you know, how can you eat so much?" I shake my head. Looking at my belly that was bulging from the satiety but my mouth still felt like eating something.

Your papa...

Ahh, subconsciously I mentioned those words. Suddenly my heart became melancholy. I sat on the garden chair and looked at the passerby.

"Dec... What is your father now? Must be work again, huh? Where does papa work? Deck, would you like to see Papa's picture? Just a minute, Mama pointed..."

I took the phone and opened the gallery. There are lots of photos of Alex there. Actually it's reunion photos and of course Alex is not alone. But I cropped the photo so there was only Alex's face there.

"Here you go, Papa... Look Deck, your daddy's handsome. Mama hope you're a Dek guy, so you can be as handsome as Papa. If the girl, Mama is afraid later Mama's genes more. Your face won't look good anymore Deck... Ahh but whatever your gender, Mama will still love Dek..."

"Dec... Don't hate Papa. Papa is not with us now. But that doesn't mean he doesn't love. Papa doesn't know where you are Dek. Let Papa live a quiet life, Dek. We can't interfere with Papa's life. It's a pity that Papa will be sad."

"But Adek can't be sad. Although there is only Mama, but Mama will love you many times Deck. My mom will do anything to make you happy. So grow up healthy and strong, okay?"

"Next week we'll find another doctor. I can't wait to see your growth Dek. How big are you now? Given the amount of food you eat, you must be as big as Mama's fist, hehe..."

I'm talking to myself. I don't care if people think I'm crazy. What matters is that I and this child are happy.

***

As I planned, I decided to work as an agent of insurance and banking products. I contacted some banking and insurance in Malang city. Tell me about my experience and my interest in being their product agent.

There is no fixed salary. There is no career. There is no attachment. There are no rules. Only one is certain, the commission/incentive will be liquid when I successfully sell those products.

I don't feel sad working like this. I took the positive side. At least by working like this I'm free to use my time as I please. I'm free to go check the contents or to the place to eat as I please. There are no binding rules. The income issue, it will come according to the effort I put out. It's okay, I can do it all.

***

During the day my feelings will be filled with optimism. But by nightfall, the melancholy feeling came back.

I still look at Alex's pictures while crying. I've been completely sincere to let go and forget about it, but my little heart can't be lied to. This feeling still exists. I don't know why I'm so stupid and stupid when it comes to Alex. I don't know when this feeling will continue?

I cried while keeping my mouth shut. I'm afraid my baby will know that I'm sad. I don't want him to be sad. I just want her to grow up to be a healthy and happy child.

***

I've listed the H-1 and that's also I still got the tens number. I don't know how many hours I'll wait there.

I saw dozens of couples already standing in line there. Almost every woman is accompanied by her partner.

A hint of envy flashed inside my head. I imagine Alex is also with me. Waiting for the queue together while pounding knowing the development of our baby...

"Dec... Can't be envious. Everyone has their own portion of happiness. Adek will also be happy, because Mama will give love to you many times Deck, okay?" I spoke in my heart while stroking my stomach.

"Can we sit here?" Suddenly a young man with his partner came up to my side and pointed at the empty chair next to me. Maybe they're a newly married couple. The man's hand hugged the woman's body which looked very messy.

"Oh yeah, please." I answered politely while shifting positions so that the two of them could sit down.

"Thank you." The man sat his wife, then he himself sat down so that his wife's head could rest on his shoulder. The woman looked very weak. His face looks very pale.

"Abself?" ask the man again.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Where's husband?"

"Work." I answered uncomfortably.

"How many months pregnant have you been?"

"You're 3 months' walk."

"Oh, same with my wife. My wife is also 3 months pregnant. But how do I see this is so fresh? Are there no complaints?"

"The complaint? Meanin?"

"My wife can't eat rice during pregnancy. Every time you eat rice or other heavy food, always go out again. Only milk and juice can come in. That's why his body is so limp. I also slept bedrest a few times. Great mom yeah. For the size of a young pregnant woman, she looks very healthy. Is there a secret, ma'am? Maybe food or vitamins you're drinking?"

"No. There is no secret, sir. I eat it a lot. Four to five times the normal portion. I think all pregnant women are like me?"

"No Ma'am. It means your pregnancy is not fussy. Nice being your husband Ma'am. No need to bother with strange requests. The baby is really strong and not fussy. I hope my wife will get better soon too. This is her first pregnancy..."

And that pretty chatty guy still keeps talking.

I stroked my stomach gently. A feeling of gratitude and joy filled my body.

"Dec... You're really nice. You know that Papa is not with us, that's why you never fuss. You never made my mom sick. In fact, you are making your appetite increase. Thank you, dear, for being so understanding. Thank you for being such a strong and fussy baby. Stay well with me, Mama loves you..."

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