I'm Just a Figurant
Ch 32 - Announcement of Reunion

All night I thought about Andre. It seems like the guy is really serious to me. But I'm not ready at all.

Neither my heart nor my body can accept Andre. I'm really not ready for this relationship.

If I keep quiet like this, I'll hang Andre's feelings. Looks like tomorrow I'll have to give him an answer soon. Give him a certainty.

I picked up the phone and started checking my subordinates' reports. After the work was done, I started surfing in cyberspace.

I have a social media account, but I never upload my photos because I don't like taking pictures. The account I created was just to monitor my High School Group and Diana. Hopefully by monitoring both accounts, I will be able to find out the news and whereabouts of Alex.

I opened the High School Group and got a surprise there. The group admin gave an announcement that made my heart beat fast.

"*Hi friends all. How are you all doing? Sorry, mimin just told me. Mimin would like to give info here, for the 2008 generation of SMAN 1 who is currently or domiciled in Surabaya, if there is free time requested presence at Hotel Plum, if there is free time, on Sunday at 19:00 WIB for a small reunion. This event is free of charge alias FREE because there is already a BIG BOSS that finances all. For those who miss the legendary star of our school, can come soon yes. Yes, Superstar Yohan Alexander will be joining us!! Don't miss the chance to meet him. Mimin also can't wait to meet 😆

NB: For those who are fix present immediately comment yes, so that we can prepare everything, thank you*."

My hands suddenly tremble. I read the announcement repeatedly. I screen shot the announcement and read Alex's name over and over again. I really didn't read it wrong. Alex is really going to Surabaya? My alex?!!

I can't describe how I felt that night. I screamed, danced and swayed. I'm like a crazy person. My emotions were fickle, who initially laughed and then cried happily. In the next second became a cry.

My 10-year wait is coming to an end. I'll be able to meet him. My heart is very.very happy. Cannot be expressed in words.

"Alexes... At last... We will finally meet... Huuu... Hicks..." I stroked Alex's name on my phone screen, then kissed him. It's as if what I'm missing is the figure of Alex I've been missing all along.

I cried for a long time. Then I realized, I have not filled the willingness to be present. I commented in the group, stating I can attend.

My feelings are really mixed. I completely forgot Andre. My mind is full of Alex.

Questions haunt my head. How's it going now? Is she okay? Is she still with Diana? Is he married?

JLEB

The last question made my heart sting. I can't imagine Alex getting married. What will I feel like?

Ahh I have to think positively. Alex is not married. I hope... I hope you're not married.

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That day I woke up. Too happy to make me not sleep all night. By dawn I could close my eyes.

Andre came back to pick me up. He waited for me long enough. We were both late to the office.

In the office, we become the months of men. They teased We had spent the night together, that's why We came late. I smiled wryly, while Andre looked happy to be teased like that.

All day I can't concentrate. That day is Friday. A short day for workers like us.

Everyone seems busy completing their work. I can't wait to welcome the upcoming weekend.

My mind was filled with Alex... Alex.and Alex... I want to hurry up Sunday. I can't wait to meet him.

"The funding team and lending team, immediately to the meeting room. There's something I want to say. Oh yeah, the operational team too. No one can go home yet." My BM (Branch Manager) speech was greeted by the breath of his men.

After our work was completed, we all gathered in a meeting room that accommodated about 50 employees. Many complained that the meeting was holding them back.

"Good night all."

"Maybe you already know, there is a new GH (Group Head) replacement. I heard from the Kediri branch, the new GH will conduct a session at several branch offices in region 12 (Jatim). So I hope all my colleagues can prepare for everything."

"For the lending team, prepare targets and achievements that have been achieved. Same with the funding team. For the operational team, please fix all files. There is no lightening or incompleteness of the file. Doesn't rule out the possibility he will also check the operational team files."

"I heard the new GH is young. His soul is still high. Highly perfectionist and unwilling to accept the shortcomings of others. Killer and do not hesitate to fire subordinates who are not in accordance with how it works. So my team, let's get together to be perfect in his eyes."

My leader gave a long speech. But my head is floating. None of his words stuck in my brain.

My brain is just full of Alex... Alex. and Alex... I don't care about anything else. Even if the Directors are coming to our branch.

Almost an hour my leader spoke this - that, and all the talk was mental from my head. By nine o'clock in the evening, the lecture had just ended and we could breathe a sigh of relief from being able to return home to each other.

Andre was apparently called by the leader. I used this opportunity to escape first. I ordered an ojek online and went home.

Actually I want to answer and affirm our relationship. But because my head was not concentrated because the mind would meet with Alex, I chose to postpone it. I can reject Andre's proposal on Monday alone.

When I got home, my phone rang. Apparently Andre called me.

"Sha, where are you?"

"I've come home."

"Why not wait for me? I'm on your contract now..."

"I'm sleepy Mas. I want to sleep. It's already night, Mom. No need to come here." I gave an excuse. There was no sound on the other end, and Andre said.

"Then I'll pick up Sha tomorrow. Tomorrow we go yuk?"

Ah, the question I want to avoid. And I'm always looking for reasons to reject Andre's invitation for these two months.

"Tomorrow I'll take a break. This week has been exhausting."

"Oh so." Andre's speechless. Maybe his brain is thinking of finding a new reason.

"How about Sha Sunday night?"

"Sorry, I can't..." Ahh, I'm really mean. Monday I have to give her clarity. I can't forever hang Andre's feelings like this.

"Oh so Sha... Yes, met break ya Sha. I love you. A beautiful dream."

"Yes, thank you. Have a good rest, too."

And the call was terminated.

"Yourf..."

I really feel guilty. Andre seems very sincere to me. But my heart didn't shake for him in the least.

Is it my fault that I cannot accept his feelings? Is it my fault that I still expect Alex in my heart? I'm really upset.

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