I'm Just a Figurant
Ch 76 - In Leave

"Mas, wake..."

"Mmmm..." Alex is closing his hands around my waist. I pulled my body closer to him.

"What time's the plane? If we don't get up, we can miss the plane..."

"Sleep baby. Let me hug you..." Alex hugged me from behind. His hand caressed my stomach gently. His lips began to pop my head.

"I like your scent..." Alex is sniffing my neck.

"I stink, haven't had a bath..."

"Yes, it smells bad."

"Hhhhh!! Leasin."

"It was aja ngambek. I really like the smell, baby. Let me hug you. Shut up."

I was silent, letting Alex hold me. Though all night we've hugged, but there never seems to be satisfaction. I like to hug all day like this.

"Darling, do you think we'll just go on a honeymoon?"

"Honeymoon?"

"Yes. I want to be alone with you. No one bothers." Hearing Alex say something like that made me turn around. Our eyes looked at each other. Alex stroked my hair. Straining my cheeks with her knuckles. I held Alex's hand. The more the man's hand on my cheek.

"Khanza..."

"Yes?"

"Khanza... Khansas... Khansas..."

"What the hell is Mas?"

"I like to call your name."

"It's not clear."

"Here, I hug." Alex pulled my body back. Makes me back in his arms.

Can I feel happy? May I enjoy the treatment? I feel like I want to be like this forever. Both... Nope, no... Threes. Yeah, me, Alex and the baby we're always together.

"Where do you think we'd better go? Is there a place you want to visit?"

"I'm up to you..." As long as I can be with you, wherever I am, I will be happy.

"What abroad is it in the country?"

"As for me, I'll follow you..."

Dddrr... Dddrr... Dddrr...

The sound of the mobile phone vibrating interfered with our intensity. I looked around to see who was calling me early in the morning. It turned out that the vibrating was not my phone, but Alex's phone that was placed on the nightstand beside me.

"There's a phone..."

"Please get it baby."

I took Alex's phone. At first glance I can read the name of the caller. The caller's contact name was "home", was that Diana's phone?

I handed Alex the phone. As soon as he saw the name of the caller, Alex immediately sat down. The man immediately rushed to his feet and walked away.

"Yes, it's me." That was the last word I heard from Alex's mouth. The rest I can't hear their conversation.

Ah, it seems like enough to get here just the dream. Time to go back to the real world. Let's face this harsh reality. In fact, I'll never be able to have Alex completely, because I'm only the second.

I get out of bed. Clean up a messy blanket and bed cover, then go to the bathroom. I splashed my body with warm water. The water really woke me up from a dream.

I have decided to accept my destiny. Accepting Alex's every treatment on me. No matter how much treatment he gave me. So I must not have feelings of resentment, envy, hurt or jealousy. It's my risk of being a second wife. I had to get rid of this feeling long before it became a liver disease.

"Khansa, looks like we should postpone our honeymoon."

"Yes, yeah..."

"We have to go back to Jakarta. You prepare. Half an hour's drive will come."

"Yes." Yeah."

Gone is our romantic atmosphere. This happiness will not last. Just mere discovery. Just like a drop of water in the middle of a desert, which would eventually be eroded by the surrounding environment, it disappeared without a trace.

Along the way to the airport, Alex keeps a lot of silence. He seemed to close himself to the world around him. Alex is busy with his own thoughts. My existence became invisible. He became the Alex I didn't know.

He is near, but far away. Our relationship was very intimate, but there was never any openness like any other normal couple. Alex is too close to all his secrets, and I dare not reveal my heart and mind.

It's like walking on a sheet of ice, which I don't know when the ice melts and disintegrates. Yeah, we're rapprochement with that.

I looked at Alex. He still seemed busy with his thoughts. I wonder, what news did Diana bring to make her like this? Is Diana angry about not finding Alex in Jakarta? Does Diana know about our relationship? There were a lot of questions in my head, but I still did not dare to reveal them.

***

We arrived home when it was late afternoon. Alex seemed busy calling.

"Send, book a ticket to Sing*pura. Yeah, tonight too. One ticket only. Enough departure tickets. His return is not ordered. Already, that's it." Alex hangs up the phone and turns towards me.

"Darling, please pack my clothes."

"Where are you going, Mas? We just came..."

"Sing*purpose. I'm going to go after Diana. Please prepare it."

"Oh..." My heart that does not know myself is in pain. But I'm trying to hold him back. I don't want Alex to see my bad heart.

"For how many days? Do I need formal clothes?"

"Prepare for 1 week. Just prepare a traveling shirt. No formal dress is needed. Thank you, I took a shower, cup..." Alex came closer to me and kissed me on the forehead. Then he walked to the bathroom.

Don't ask me how I feel. Preparing the clothes of the husband just to let the husband meet his legal wife. I wanted to cry, but as much as I could hold it.

I prepared all Alex's needs. From clothes, pants, underwear, toiletries and others.

Half an hour later, Alex came out of the bathroom. I prepared the clothes that he would wear right then and there. As for the clothes in the suitcase are also ready.

Alex wears everything I've prepared. Not long after, the car invitation from the airline has arrived. We're going downstairs. The driver put Alex's suitcase in the car.

I drove Alex to the front gate. Prepare to do farewell.

"I'm leaving yeah. If you need anything, call Winda. He will help you fulfill all your wishes. Take good care of yourself." Alex embraced my body. Wanting Me to cry and holding her back from leaving, but I realized my position. I have no right to behave like that.

"Alkha, Papa leave first. Don't fuss. Don't take Mama, cup..." Alex kissed my stomach and caressed it. Then he came back to kiss me.

"Remember, call Winda if you need anything. Understood?"

"Yes..."

Alex kissed my forehead again. Then the kiss turned to my lips. He kissed my lips gently.

"It's fine." He stroked the top of my head and kissed it again before getting into the pickup car.

After Alex left, I went straight to my room. I feel like my body is very weak. I refrained from crying, but in the end my tears fell unstoppable as well. I cry in silence.

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NB: Sorry new update, for 2 days not feeling well. May still faithfully wait for AlKhans yes, thank you 🙏