I'm Just a Figurant
Ch 77 - Waiting for News

I was just crying. I wanted to be strong and not crybaby for this kind of business, but I don't know why my tears just keep flowing.

I cried while waiting for news from Alex. Although I was heartbroken because she left me for Diana, but I was still worried about her circumstances. I want to make sure that he gets to the country safely.

Alex took the flight at about half-time seven in the evening, supposedly at nine in the evening he had already arrived in the country.

I waited patiently, hoping to hear from him. An hour, two hours, five hours have passed, but I have not heard anything. I ventured to send him a message.

Mas, have you arrived yet?

My message only ticks one. That means Alex hasn't received my message. Should I call her? Ah, no... What if she's with Diana?

I better be patient until Alex calls me first. Yeah, for a while like that.

***

In fact, all night I didn't sleep waiting for news from Alex. By morning, I tried to call Alex but the man's number was always out of reach. In the end I tried to contact Winda, hoping that she would find out about my husband.

"Good morning ma'am, how can I help you?"

"Sir, sorry to interrupt your time. I'd like to ask, do you know where Alex is?"

"Sir Yohan to Sing*pura Ma'am."

"Do you know what he's there for? Why don't you come too? You're the secretary?"

"That's his personal business, ma'am. When it comes to personal matters, Mr. Yohan forbids me to accompany him. I only accompany when it comes to work."

"Do you know what he's into Sing*pura for? I heard she was visiting Diana..."

"I'm sorry ma'am, it's his personal business. I have no right to tell Mom about it. If you're not satisfied with my answer, you can ask her this directly."

Ah, I forgot. Winda was the one Alex hired, of course Winda would be more inclined to obey Alex than I am. This is the same as asking the enemy's weakness to his confidants. Really wrong way.

"Oh yes, yes, thank you..."

"Pak Yohan told me to accompany Mom during her time at LN. Now I'm on the road. Ten minutes to go I'll arrive at my destination."

"No need for the Sire. I can take care of myself..."

"I'm sorry ma'am, this is an order from him. I can't ignore it. Like it or not like my presence, I have to accept it."

A tone that cannot be disputed. Seeing Winda talk like that, it was as if I saw Alex talking directly to me. I can only accept it.

***

As he said, Vinda was with me the whole time. Even the woman used ART room to stay over. I do not forbid or approve. I just let him behave like that because I'm sure he did it because of Alex's orders.

It's the second day, but there's no word yet from Alex. My brain is spinning and thinking. What happened to Diana? Didn't Diana go to LN yesterday with Mama-in-law? Why did Alex catch up with him? What exactly is their purpose for LN? For sightseeing? A honeymoon? Or what?

They couldn't have been there for treatment, because as far as I could tell Diana seemed fine. But I don't know the condition of Mama-in-law. Could it be that Mama was sick and asked Diana to go with her for treatment?

I don't know anything about my father-in-law. I want to get to know them. I hope someday there will be a chance to get to know them.

For two days I was like an undead. I still eat a lot, take vitamins or drink milk just to keep my baby okay and healthy, but my mind still wanders everywhere.

Wherever I go, I always carry a cell phone because I'm afraid Alex will call me. But still no news from him. I'm getting confused and worried.

Mom made me strong. Convincing me that what happened to me did not disappoint him. Mother made me believe that their departure to the hometown was not because of the shame of having a child like me, but because my stepmother needed a visit. I know you're just trying to raise my heart, but I don't know why I'm happy to hear that.

Almost every day Sizil called me. The boy's joy is contagious to me. At least I can forget my sadness for waiting for news from Alex.

Sizil always told me about Andre. How he tried to approach Andre. Forcing Andre to drive him home, or just to ask for a meal. This time we sent each other a message.

Sizil : Ma'am, guess where we are?

Me: Where else is Zil?

Size: [sending pictures]

I noticed the picture Sizil sent. Seen in the photo Sizil was selfie, while behind him appeared Andre was singing. When you see the atmosphere, they are in a karaoke place.

Me: Are you in karaoke?

Size: Yup, yes Mom. This is again a broken hearted bachelor.

Sizil: [sending video]

I opened the video immediately. In the video, Andre is singing in a voice. Sometimes his voice broke due to sobs. It seemed like the influence of liquor made his mind disappear, so he did not hesitate to behave like that. Andre expressed all his feelings on the song. Isakan for the sake of sobbing accompany the song until it is finished. Seeing her like that made me feel even more guilty.

Nizil: How's Mom? Cool is the concert? Hehe

Me: Zil, is he okay? Does he seem to be drunk?

Sizil: Take it easy, Mom. It's still safe. Let him spill his grief. I will be the one to erase that sadness and replace it with happiness, aseekk... Haha...

Me: Zil, do you like Andre? Since when do you like it?

Sizil: Since Mom and her broke up. I never wanted anyone else's. So don't feel guilty to me. I didn't like it when Mom was his girlfriend. Aman Ma'am, hehe...

Me: Oh, thank goodness. Zil, don't go home at night. Quickly find someone to take Andre home. You'll be back to kosan soon.

Sizil: Relax Mom, relax... I'm not a kid anymore. I'll go ahead, ma'am. Met break my brother dear, muach...

Me : Be careful Zil. Anyway, I have to go back to Kosan. I'm waiting for your news.

We sent each other that message. I'm worried about Sizil. Andre's condition is drunk. I'm afraid Sizil is going through the same thing that I've been through.

Being too influenced by feelings, I was afraid that Sizil also gave his most precious possession to Andre. And it ended up like me. Pregnant and married by a man who does not love me. Struggled by feelings.

Being in a loving position is not very good. Always give up and be patient. Trying to understand and understand your partner. There is not even the courage to express what is in the heart and mind. Always withstanding the pain. Holding everything alone. I don't want Sizil to experience what I've been through.

I hope that Andre will soon be able to forget me and tether his heart to Sizil. I also wish Alex was like that, but when it comes to Alex, that's not possible. Alex will always number Diana, I'm only the second. Because I'm just a figure.

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[About this would be the case if Andre & Sizil were a matchmaker] 😁