I'm Just a Figurant
Ch 44 - Dream

Towards the adzan Dzuhur reverberated, I arrived at the kosan that I had ordered before.

I decided to host a house because I thought it would be too big for both of us.

I need a safe, quiet, peaceful environment that is good for my son's growth and development. It is quite difficult to find such a cosan considering my current condition.

I've tried to contact some commonly used boarding houses for families, and the landlady always asks about KTP and marriage book.

Actually there is another option, which is to choose free costs. But it's not good for my baby's development. After searching and searching I finally got this cost.

The kosan is three-story and the building forms the letter U. I chose the first floor to make it easier for me to move.

The princess's special innocence is guarded by a security so that makes us who are in it feel comfortable. The kosan also made a strict rule, which is not allowing male guests to enter the room.

Before I managed to order the boarding, the hostess asked me various questions. I told her my true condition, that I was pregnant. But I lied about my husband. I told the hostess that I married a betel and my husband was working out of town.

At first he hesitated to accept me. But with a little persuasion and extra money, he finally accepted me. I decided to host the place for an entire year and pay the payment in advance.

The travel driver dropped my things off in front of the boarding house and security helped me carry them into the room.

I opened the door and looked around. I am satisfied with the condition of my room. The facilities in the room are quite complete. There is a small living room, comfortable springbed, television, refrigerator, AC, kitchenette, and bathroom inside.

The room was like a house in miniature. Everything I need is in it.

"This is our new place Deck. May we stay here. Now let's take a break first, later in the afternoon just find a meal, okay.hehehe..." I rubbed my stomach. I have a new habit. I love talking to my baby.

The doctor said, inviting the baby to talk is very helpful in introducing the baby to us. Babies will be familiar with your voice so that the inner bond will be more easily formed. Imagining another life in my stomach really amazes me. I'm not alone anymore. I have a purpose in life now. I'll live for this baby.

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I woke up when my stomach started to rumble. I checked the clock. It turned out to be five in the afternoon.

"Well, your pantesan is hungry Deck. We've been sleeping for five hours. Let's go get some food."

I took my jacket and covered my body with it. I got out of the room and started looking at the neighborhood.

It is located near the campus of Br*wij*y* University so it is very crowded and there is a lot of culinary there.

I looked at the merchants while drooling. I want to buy all that food. I decided to eat Soto. I also pack other heavy foods like chicken and satay.

I anticipate going hungry in the middle of the night because these last few weeks I've been going through something like that. I also wrapped snacks like bakpao, egg rolls, grilled sausage, peck, martabak and moonlight.

"Wah our food stocks are a lot of Dek. Hope you don't go hungry tonight. Let's go home, hehe..." Talking to my baby somehow makes me so happy. Makes me very valuable. I'm the only one this baby has. I will do anything to make her happy.

I went back to the boarding house and put the food on the table. I picked up the phone I forgot to leave in the room. It turns out there were some missed calls. I saw my father's number calling me.

My feelings became warm. Only my family cares about me. I decided to call my dad.

"Assalamu'alaikum Father..."

"Va'alaikumsalam Nduk... Did you call me not pick up?"

"Yes, well, the phone missed..."

"Where have you come?"

"Let's just relax, Nduk. Here we go to watch TV. Your sister as usual, dating. How are you Nduk? Are you all right?"

"Yes Dad, Khansa is always fine. How's the family doing there?"

"Alhamdulillah be healthy all Nduk." I was silent, then went on. "Mother... Daddy dreams are bad. Dad immediately thought of you Nduk..."

"What dream is Dad? Khansa is fine Well, no need to worry..."

"Daddy dreams of catching Nduk birds."

"What does it mean, Dad? What does it mean ugly?"

"If from the primbon book that I read, the bird is a sign of the son of Nduk. There's no way you're gonna have another kid. Your mom and dad are old. Suddenly I thought of You Nduk..."

"Uhukis... Uhuk... Uhuk..." I immediately choked on my own spit. I am not eating or drinking anything.

"Dad... Already Khansa said don't like reading primbon. Dreams are just sleeping flowers Well, they mean nothing. Khansa is fine, Dad..." Hah, I'm getting good at lying. I don't know since when I started doing it smart.

"Yes, I'm sure Dad's son must be okay. My son could not do such a thing. Stupidly I believe the same dream Nduk. Oh yeah, maybe that's another sign of Nduk. Maybe your soul mate is close. I can't wait to see you marry Nduk..."

The feeling of sadness immediately grabbed me. Every word my father poked my heart. Feelings of guilt and regret come. I feel so guilty for lying to my family.

"Su-Havansa said Father, the dream is just a sleeping flower. Don't think too deeply about it..."

"Yes Nduk, yes. Have you eaten yet?"

"It's Dad. It's just gonna eat again."

"Tumben's son Daddy ate it a lot, hehe. Keep your health in check. Don't be too tired of work. Get enough rest. Yes, continue your activities. I'm going to rest too..."

"Yes... Dad too yeah. Take care of your health, Dad. Greetings to Mother. Khansa love you all..."

"We love you very much too Nduk. Precious daughter and pride of all of us. Met isihat Nduk, assalamu'alaikum..."

"Wa'alaikum..."

I sat down feeling guilty. I really let my family down.

"Sorry Dad, Mom... I've been lying. I'm afraid, when I'm honest, you're gonna tell me to throw this baby away. I'm afraid you'll be looking for him and holding him accountable. Let me give birth to this baby. After this baby is born, I'll tell you about your grandchildren. Hope you don't hate him. Pl-please... Please jangn hate him. Forgive your stupid daughter... I'm sorry, Mom... Please accept this baby. Please love him as much as you love me. Please don't hate him... Because besides us, who else would love him..."

I stroked my stomach sadly.

"Sorry, Dek... Maafin... You were born like this. You should have been born into a happy family. But in fact you were born to a mother like me. Deck... Don't hate me... I will do anything to make you happy. Grow healthy and be born into the world. That we may be together forever.

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NB: Some future chapters may only tell about the pregnancy of Khansa yes, please do not bosen-bosen reading it while waiting for Alex out and We hit the rame-rame. Thank kaseehh 😆

~ErKa~