I'm Just a Figurant
Ch 17 - You Want to Be My Girlfriend?

"We're not classy. What class are you in?" ask Alex to me.

"Uhm..."

"It can't be Ay's class. This year's class division is based on report value. That's why we can be a class, because we're both smart-brained." Diana was pampered in Alex's arm. I lowered my head not out of fear, but because I couldn't bear to see the scene.

"What class are you in, Khans? You haven't answered my question."

"Already Ay. It is not important to know what class. Come to the cafeteria, I'm the laper." Diana pulled Alex's hand. Alex finally followed him.

"I told you, don't care for other girls. I don't like you like this." said Diana.

"But he's my friend. Is it natural that I ask? Are you going to forbid me from talking to all the girls here?"

"Not all girls. Just him! I don't like you talking to him. Look at his eyes! She likes you Ay! Not realising it?"

"That's impossible. We're just friends. Your mind is too far..."

And again I heard their debate that others could hear within that 10-meter radius. I looked down so much at the many people staring at me. The look of not liking them was directed at me. It's as if saying that because of me they fought.

Never mind, I must not drag on in sorrow. I have to accept the fact I can't have one class with Alex.

Class without Alex would be what it's like? Definitely deserted. There was no broad back I could look at. There was no smile I could see. No eyes were staring at me sharply. Maybe my life will return to the way it was at the beginning of school. Alone, lonely, transparent, wasted and abandoned.

I've had those times. I would be strong if I had to experience it again. Khansa Spirit!!

***

As expected, in this new class, no one really thinks of me. I was back in the back seat, alone of course. No one hugs me when I speak. No one answered when I said hello. Everyone thinks I don't exist.

I really miss Alex. What the hell is he doing? Was he happy to be in class with Diana? Yeah, Alex would be really happy. Their relationship must be more intimate.

Suppose I had a good camera, I'd have photographed Alex and printed it. So I can look him in the face when I'm lonely like this.

It's been almost two weeks I haven't seen Alex. In the third week, I couldn't take it anymore. I ventured out just to take a walk to Class 2A which was located quite far from my class. Every passing class I looked up, hoping to see his face even if it was just a glance. Alex was not there. Looks like Alex went to the cafeteria with Diana.

I walked back to my class with a lethargic face. My hope is to see that face.

***

"Alkhnans... Your dad hasn't come to see you lately. Maybe he forgot where you were..."

"Meoong... Meowong..."

"He was happy with his new world. This time he could go to class with the Princess, he must be very happy..."

"Meooong... Meeoonnng..."

"You don't feel sad. Although my family eats it often lacks, but I will give you the same food that I eat. Don't be sad when your father has forgotten you. There's still Mama, okay..."

I spoke to myself like a madman while petting Alkhans, the stray cat that We picked up together. Actually Alkhans was not affected by Alex's existence, only I was looking for an excuse. I am sad that I haven't seen him in weeks. Looks like Alex completely forgot about me and this cat.

***

I try and try every day. But I still can't see Alex. Even I've tried to get to the cafeteria and library, but Alex wasn't there either.

I'm getting restless. We are still one school, but why is it so hard to meet? Do I need to go to his house? Ahh, it's very, very embarrassing and self worthless. Ta-but... I just want to see his face. I promise I won't say hello to him, like that's okay, isn't it?

Finding Alex's address isn't as easy as flipping a palm. The attitude of friends who ignore me is the obstacle.

Maybe God really doesn't allow me to meet? Maybe this is God's way of telling me to forget Alex? The young man who already had the owner?

I put my head on the table. I don't think I'm excited to do anything. I am so lazy to learn and do other things...

"Khanza..."

Maybe I was just hallucinating. I heard Alex calling me. That's very unlikely.

"Khan?" I feel someone holding my shoulder. I sat down to see who did it.

Dry throttling. The man I've been looking for for a few weeks is right in front of my eyes.

Alex's performance was not his usual. He used to be very neat. Hair and uniform neat. This time Alex's hair dangled in disarray. His uniform is like that. He's not like the Alex I know.

"There's time? Come with me for a minute." Her speech.

I automatically nodded my head quickly. She smiled a little.

Like a buffalo on his nose I followed Alex. I don't care about the views of the classmates who were astonished.

Alex took me to the back of the school building. The same place I cried because I found my physical value ugly.

We were standing there like two strangers. Long time no see makes us seem alien to each other.

Suddenly Alex pulled something out of his pocket and swung it. Alex smoking!!

I looked at him with amazement. Why is Alex smoking? What's wrong with her? Does he have a problem? I want to take that cigarette out of his hand...

"Why bengong? Shocked to see I smoke?" Alex casually exhaled cigarette smoke into the air. I still can't speak.

"Don't be surprised. I'm still the same Alex." He smiled a little. "How are the Fians and Alkhans? Are they healthy?"

I nodded my head spontaneously. I still stared at Alex unblinkingly.

"I won't throw away this cigarette even if you look at me like that." Alex smiled blandly.

I kept quiet, waiting for him to tell me everything. He must have a problem. He couldn't have changed like this if there was nothing.

"There's no cute girl in your class?" suddenly tanyanya.

"Huh?" I see Alex getting confused.

"Gorgeous girl. Not in your class?"

I still don't answer. Completely confused by Alex's behavior.

"You're confused. I broke up with him. So now I'm a free guy, hehe." Alex put up the V sign using his hands, a bitter and forced smile was very clearly visible on his face. Alex is heartbroken!!

"Why not answer my question? There's not a pretty girl in your class? I need a girlfriend. A young man like me can't stay in the mix for long..." Alex is still smoking his cigarette. Cigarette smoke appears to be rising in the air. He looked at the surroundings with a blank look.

Suddenly he turned and grabbed my shoulder.

"Or are you my girlfriend? Hows it? You agree, right?"

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