Mas Duda Looking For Mom Milk
In Front of the Pusara
"Darling, wake up Honey .. Why did you leave me like this? You said you'd only sleep for a while, but why did you sleep forever?"
Tama was crying and roaring. Half his soul has gone. The stingiest reality must be felt. His legs felt wobbly, just to support his weight alone can not. The entire strength he possessed was shed instantly.
When the Doctor says that Cellia is gone, Tama is blown to pieces. The heaviest heartbreak that broke his heart and left nothing.
"Pak Tama, calm down. We know, this whole thing feels heavy. It's just that God loves Ms. Cellia more" said a nurse who tried to calm Tama down.
You can only cry. If people say that men should not cry, to hell with it. Losing her heart made her broken. All the power just disappeared. Just raising your feet is hard. Her tears just broke. The most bitter loss Tama has ever experienced in life.
"Patients experience a lot of postpartum bleeding because if you look at the lower part of the patient's body drenched in blood. Maybe because the patient is sleeping so that it does not look like the blood he is removing. So much bleeding makes shock and organ malfunction," explained the Doctor to Tama.
Postpartum bleeding is indeed the cause of some mothers die after giving birth. Blood that comes out continuously from the birth canal with so much, can make shock and end with organ failure. This is also what experienced by Cellia, until now the beautiful woman really sleeps forever. Leaving Tama and Baby C for granted.
Between the limit can last and the limit of fragility. Tama felt tight, really did not expect the severe bleeding experienced by his wife. There was guilt in Tama's chest, when she did not check on his wife. Cellia was just saying goodbye to sleep and now his wife is going to sleep forever.
"Ikhlas yes Mr. Tama .. little baby Daddy also needs Father. Ikhlas Bu Cellia, because he is not asleep," explained the Doctor again.
Tama sighed, she looked at Baby C who was still crying. Cellia's gurney is being moved to the morgue for cleaning. Tama closed her eyes, then tried to hold Baby C with her trembling hands. A very bad distress. In the moment she wavers, but she has to raise her hand and also hold her little baby who is still red.
"Mama has left us, dear ... Baby C only has Papa" he said with a mouth that shook violently. One fact that Tama is trying to say now is that the baby only has a Papa because his mother is gone.
Feeling a little calm, Tama reported to his family with bitter events this time. The whole family was so shocked by the news that Tama had just delivered. At home, with the help of some neighbors, funeral preparations began to be prepared.
About two hours later, an ambulance arrived at the residence of Tama's parents with Cellia's body wrapped in a shroud.
Mama Marina and Papa Budi cried when they saw Tama coming home with her condition broken and heartbreaking. His son was holding his little baby, while behind him officers from the Hospital began to carry Cellia's body. All the families, relatives, even neighbors who came crying had to see this heartbreaking event.
"Mama, Cellia, Ma ... Cellia left Tama" Tama told Mama with tears that could no longer be contained.
"Prophey yes Tama, Papa knows all this is heavy for you," said Papa Budi who also strengthened his son. The middle-aged man also patted his only son on the shoulder.
The view is sad, he should be able to go home with his wife and child. However, what he brought now was the body of his wife who was ready to be buried. The hardest day of Tama's life. But this is what has been written for him.
The holy verses of the Quran began to be proclaimed, and some neighbors came to offer condolences. Some relatives were also present, one of which was Kanaya and also Bhishma. Not only Tama, Bisma and Kanaya were also hit hard.
“Sabar ya Tama .. we all just live what God has outlined,” said Bisma by patting the shoulder of his relative.
Tama sighed, “I'm careless Mas .. I didn't check Cellia's condition. When she gave birth she was so weak. To push, until it must be fitted with oxygen. Her breathing was already congested, but she managed to give birth to Baby C. However, seven hours later, she said goodbye to sleep and asked me to wake her up if Baby C cried. Apparently, he did not wake up, Mas ... he did not wake up,” Tama's story so poignant.
Bisma patted the shoulder of her relative. “Sabar, insyaallah, paradise available for latehome,” Reply Bisma.
Tama nodded her head, “Amin .. only, did I and Baby C without Cellia, Mas,” Tama said with complete uncertainty.
After all the procession is complete, they will now immediately bury Cellia, in a public burial place. Tama also entered the line to carry the coffin of the corpse. He himself had to do this poignant incident for his wife. Even Tama, also entered the pusara burrow, helped lay the corpse of his wife for the last time.
“I love you, Cellia ... always love you,” Tama said in her heart accompanied by tears that just fell from the corner of her eyes.
The ground was slowly buried, fully burying Cellia's rigid body encased in a shroud. Now, only mounds of earth and a sprinkling of flowers are visible in the navel. Tama crouched down, her face so close to the mound of earth and the sprinkling of flowers.
“Rest, Cellia ... I'll come here often and visit you. You are happy with God in heaven. What about me and Baby C, Cell? Is it possible that we could live these tough days alone without you?”
The whole family, including Bhishma, still stands behind Tama. “Sabar yes Tama .. ikhlaskan. Strengthen my heart, Baby C needs his Father,” said Bisma.
Tama closed her eyes, slowly the man stood up. “I go home Cellia, I love you .. love you so much,” Tama said this time with a bated cry that made her face so red.
The screen is really expanding. All happiness must be changed by sadness. All dreams disappear, in front of the navel of the beloved wife, there is a sense of being hit, there is a sense of disappointment, there is a sense of loss that is not diction enough to say everything.