Mas Duda Looking For Mom Milk
Sharing Stories

In the afternoon, it looks like both can relax more because they have given MPASI for Citra. The experience of both of them is certainly very happy because Citra has entered a new stage in its growth and development. Babies who originally only drank breast milk now get additional nutrients from the MPASI they eat.

"Tama, the MPASI menu Citra is four stars?" anaya asked Tama that afternoon.

At that time the two were in the Citra room, because their job was to maintain Citra, while Mama Rina and Papa Budi were going to the Supermarket to shop.

"Yes ... Mas Bisma said it must have a four-star menu anyway. Why Ay?" ask Tama.

"Oh, not .. It was usually the first time MPASI, the baby was given one fruit or one vegetable only. Now it has to be four stars?" ask Anaya again.

"Well, there are two opinions here .. from the article I have read, WHO (World Health Organization) says that the first time MPASI should be only one single menu. For example, the first day is just a banana, the second day is just an avocado, so. While the second opinion from the Indonesian Pediatrician Association (IDAI) said that the MPASI menu should be a four-star menu that contains carbohydrates, protein, vitamins, and fat. Because, if you only get one variation of a single food, the nutritional intake is not balanced," replied Tama.

Anaya responded by nodding her head to listen to what Tama had to say. It feels as a father figure, especially a single father, Tama also equips himself with various information about childcare.

"You're cool, Tama .. until about MPASI you know," Anaya replied.

Honestly, Anaya felt really salute to Tama. Because, Tama who incidentally is a widower and a single parent, but really wholeheartedly nurture Citra. What he never tried, for Citra and so as not to lose the moment, Tama wanted to do it.

"Obviously, Ay ..however I am an imperfect Papa," Tama replied.

Yes, Tama himself feels that he is not yet maximal to take care and nurture Citra. Because, on Monday to Friday, Tama must work, make a living for the needs of Citra as well. Eight days, Tama has to work and leave her little baby to Mama Rina and Anaya.

"Life is like this, Tama .. there are things that make us have to constantly survive" Anaya replied.

This time the woman said it with her breath. It felt like Anaya was talking to herself. Because, Anaya was trying to continue to survive with his life full of twists and turns, there are likes and there is suffering.

"Yes .. without surviving, it seems I will not be able to at this point," said Tama later.

The only thing Tama tried and applied in her own life after the deep suffering she experienced was that she was trying to survive. Survival is the only thing Tama does. There are times when Tama tries to survive not for himself, but for Citra. For her little daughter, Tama will not give up. Even when she falls, Tama will try to get up.

"You're great, Tama .. I really salute you," Anaya replied later.

Hearing the praise from Anaya, it was indeed encouraging Tama. As a man who has been living alone for six months, there are times when he feels lonely, needs the support of those closest to him. During these six months, this was probably the first compliment Tama received. Yes, Tama was happy, her heart was warm to hear Anaya's words.

The man seemed to be telling Anaya his message and advice. Of course, this is also Tama's way of communicating her heart to Anaya. Because, Tama also wants that Anaya can survive.

"Thank you Tama .. only, my life is weird. So heavy. You want to know how my story with Reyhan started with Tama?" anaya asked with a sigh that felt so heavy.

Shut up, not responding. Because, fully Tama knows to open the past it takes readiness of heart and courage. There are times when the past is such a frightening specter. It takes courage to open it.

"If you don't want to share it's okay, Ay .. don't be forced," Tama replied.

"I want to tell you a little Tama .. might be able to relieve a little bit of tightness that squeezes my chest" said Anaya.

Completely, Anaya knew that indeed by opening the old box she had stored and closing tightly there would definitely be consequences. One of them with the reaction and response that Tama will show to him. However, there is no harm in sharing the burden of his life, right?

"My story with Reyhan started because we worked in one office. He's the CEO of a well-known telecommunications company in Indonesia, and I'm his subordinate, IT staff just like you. On one unlucky day, he gave me a drink that I was sure was mixed with medicine, and he finally snatched my crown" Anaya said.

Just telling me that, Anaya's chest was already so tight. Not young to open up his old story. However, today Anaya wanted to tell all that to Tama.

"The next morning I woke up hysterically. Which woman is not hysterical when she wakes up in bed with a man in a state of loss. I think losing my crown is the biggest loss in life, apparently not .. because 9 months later I again lost the more valuable in my life. Twice I lost the most precious thing in my life in less than one" Anaya told me.

Tama chose silence and listened to all of Anaya's stories. Don't want to interrupt anything. Tama promised that he would be a loyal listener. Sometimes those who tell stories, share the burden of life with you only need to be heard. Tama was doing that, listening to Anaya's story.

"One month after that one night, I went to Reyhan and brought the testpack evidence and told her I was pregnant with her child. Father was angry at that time, until Reyhan finally wanted responsibility by marrying me, but only by marriage under his hands. Two days after the wedding she went to Singapore and did not return. He came back a few months ago. You know Tama, there's one thing that makes me so hate Reyhan .. First is that he denies his son's existence, does not share his child's growth during the womb, he said, and lastly there was no helping of the hand of the Father who buried his own son, his own flesh and blood into the pit. My father did, received the body without his grandson's life and lowered it to a burrow. It was a deep sadness in my life, Tama."

A truly poignant story from Anaya. Until this time Anaya's tears fell. There is no power to feel the pain. The twists and turns of his life were truly full of fortune. Such a heavy day of mourning should Anaya experience in less than a year.

"That's all the answer to why I'm hysterical every time I see Reyhan. I don't like it, I hate it. After a long time, then he came and said he wanted to seriously marry me, recording the marriage under that hand officially. To me it was just a joke. After all, what was he coming back for after such a long time. When women who are married in series expect their marriage to be legalized, I expect the opposite, I want talak from him. Although legally religious, six months without clear communication the marriage could end, but I want him to say talaq. Just say the talaq over me and all the relationships are over."

Anaya is completely exposed this time, by sitting near Tama, she unravels all her poignant stories. This is Sunday, so the story told by Anaya is no doubt like the Sad Story on Sunday for Tama. Truly, Tama inwardly said that what Anaya had experienced was so heavy. This one year means it is one of the toughest years for Anaya.

"Ironis indeed .. It's just that I've asked and I'm waiting for the moment where Reyhan uttered the talaq over me. So that this must end, "Anaya's story again.

How relieved Anaya's heart can share her sad story with Tama. Somehow, how Tama's response and reaction ended all this, which surely Anaya felt so relieved because indeed she could tell a story and there was nothing else she hid from Tama. Openness is the beginning of recovery, and now Anaya is trying to recover herself openly.