Sharing Love: Winning Without Love
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By late afternoon, Radit and Khaira bid farewell to return home. The next morning, Radit must return to work and Khaira will return to college. Things that neither of them can avoid.
Along the way, both Radit and Khaira are silent. Radit focused on controlling his car and Khaira only looked at the view from behind his car window. After driving for more than half an hour, they finally reached home. Only the two enter the door open, Felly has poured into Radit's arms.
"Ay, kangennn.." said Felly while hugging spoiled Radit.
"I miss too, Yang. Sorry I didn't come home last night."
"When I wait. Well, my mornings are grey because there's no one to accompany me."
"You can do it Yang, tonight I'm looking for ya."
Khaira who was still standing behind Radit was as in the dead image, as if her presence was not considered at all by Radit and Felly.
"Hem... Excuse me, dong, I'm going through." Khaira then passed by and walked up the stairs to her room.
Radit did not realize that Khaira was still behind him. Radit just stared at Khaira who passed up the stairs to his room.
While in the room, Khaira immediately threw herself on her bed. He felt tired, especially his heart.
I can't make fun without seeing it. Are they intentional or what? I don't love Radit yet, but why does it hurt to see him with Felly?
I was his first wife, but I was like someone my own husband didn't expect. The definition of the word "Ironic" quite defines me at this time. Why am I stuck in a marriage like this God? First I married someone I didn't love, I was betrothed by my parents, the first night of the wedding my husband came home with his wife, and their affection was both before my eyes. My heart feels tight, God. Do I not deserve to be happy either? Could it be that my husband's heart, soul, and body were only for me and not divided with any woman.
Khaira is sad to think about her life after marrying Radit. The feeling of happiness seems to have vanished from his life. All the happiness he felt with Father Ammar and Mother Dyah had all been lost, now there was only suffering and wounds. Increasingly bitter, because he lived everything alone, no one wrapped his wounds, only he himself had to struggle to heal and rise.
However, Khaira also remembered the promise he made to himself, he did not want to show his weakness and fragility to anyone. Even if he wants to complain, God is the only place to complain.
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The next day, Khaira went back to college. As a final-level student, Khaira certainly has a very busy lecture hours.
Together with Metta, Khaira felt able to forget for a moment her marriage that was like a tangled thread.
"New bride healthy?" Sapa Metta welcomes Khaira.
"Udah is not a newlywed, Ta. It's been a week."
"A week is new. People who are married a year are still called newlyweds."
"Ahh, there is aja deh.", continued Khaira while holding the hand of Metta.
"Khai, abis lectures to Cafe yuk. In front of the campus is a new cafe. Since you got married, we've never been hanging out pretty."
"Yes, yuk... But I can't take long, right now there's something I have to take care of at home." Khaira was joking with her best friend.
"Yes, I get it. There are mamas at home." Metta while pinching Khaira's waist.
"Well, there's no mamas at home."
Suddenly Khaira and Metta laugh together, even if only the two, but they can fill each other as a friend. The joy of these two friends apparently did not escape the sight of a popular student on campus named Tama.
The popular student who is famous for being smart, rich, and handsome seemed to smile watching Khaira and Metta who were joking. He immediately got up from his iron horse, then walked towards Khaira and Metta.
"Hey, Khaira how are you?" apparently Tama only intends to say hello to Khaira.
"Hey, Tama. Okay.." reply Khaira.
"Where are you going? There's no lecture hours?"
"Hem, no. I think it's empty, I want you guys to hang out. To the new cafe in front of campus."
"Sorry Tam, I have class. I'm the same as Metta going in first."
Khaira passes by with Metta leaving Tama there.
"In my opinion, it is likely that Tama has a crush on you deh Khai... It's not usually, he's killing someone else first."
"Don't GR just yet, Ta. The person he is also just yawpa, do not say anything. Just a few days ago."
"Lo emang yes, Khai... My feeling is strong."
"Iya-iya believes Nyai Metta.." both laughing, light chatter while joking makes Khaira happy.
Both of them left the campus and went into their classrooms. The 120-minute lecture was followed by Khaira and other students in an orderly manner.
"Udah finished this class, to the cafe in front of yuk?" take Metta to Khaira.
"Yes, yuk." the two then walked together to the cafe in front of the campus.
Khaira at once ordered the lunch menu, because it was already lunchtime. Special fried rice and Milk Tea were ordered by Khaira, while Metta ordered Chicken Cordon Blue and Strawberry Juice.
"Come, your wedding story dong, Khai... Since marriage, you haven't told me anything."
"Yes gini-gini is nothing special." said Khaira while taking a cellphone in his bag.
"Ahh, lie. All married people must be special, build a household together. Must be a smile."
Khaira seemed to think, "Lo didn't know the reality of Metta. I'm not that happy." Khaira muttered in his heart.
"Hem, yes you are married, but it is normal. Happy also do not need to be excessive, ultimately it is not good. Aren't you?"
"It's very wise, Khai..."
"No, it's a normal time."
"What about your first night? Story dong... Sick no? To me."
Khaira just smiled, "My first night alone, the morning my husband came home with his wife sir. Nyesek will be me." Khaira said to herself.
"What the hell, Metta. In the afternoon, the heat is hot like this how nanyain kayak anyway."
"I'll let you have a picture tomorrow if you're married."
"Don't have a picture. Sin tau. Mending the hunt married deh."
"But you're really happy, aren't you Khai? If there's any similar story I am, Khai. We're in office, don't keep anything yourself..."
"Gue's fine, Ta. Relax yes... Do I see how that is?"
"Hem, no hell. Ever since you got married, I've been thinking of you."
"Yes-iya Nyai Metta, whose feeling is strongest..."
Khaira and Metta laughed together. That is how important a friend is, he who is beside us.
A friend is loving at all times, and becomes a brother in distress.