Sharing Love: Winning Without Love
Uncovered Everything
The departure of Khaira without message and saying goodbye to Radit, is very shaking the heart and mind of Radit. After seeing Khaira's social media status on Dimas' phone, various thoughts and regrets raged in Radit's mind.
Dimas who knew his friend was not doing well finally invited Radit to hang out at the cafe for a while. Forgetting for a moment the problem, and getting excited again.
"Dit, hang out the usual cafe yuk ... in the Mall, while looking for food."
"Yuk."
With a 15-minute trip, the two finally arrived at a cafe inside a shopping center.
Dimas and Radit took a seat in the corner. Enjoy the afternoon atmosphere.
"Bro, I want dong" Radit said. "Khaira often make status updates on social media?"
"Why are you interested in Khaira?" asked Dimas while laughing.
"No, I last met him, he was abis scription trial so now it's already abroad" he said while scratching his neck that does not itch.
"If I think, Khaira is a strong-willed girl anyway. I heard also on campus he graduated yesterday can be predicated on the best GPA and the best thesis. His determination is great to pursue in education. But strange no, pretty girl, pinter, good kayak Khaira never dating try." The story of Dimas at length.
"You know where it came from?" radit asked with a face full of probing.
"That's. Her Instagram is just a few pictures, books, and football. His status was also mostly about his college. I felt weird when he said that he was married. If she is married, she graduated alone, there is no family and her husband. Graduation happy day, if the husband does not come maybe Khaira is not actually married or if already married means her husband is heartless."
Radit suddenly coughed as Dimas mentioned Khaira's heartless husband. Like he was slapped by the words of his own friend.
"Drink first Bro, cough up everything." Dimas told Radit to drink. Dimas shook his head looking at Radit who was coughing.
"How are you now with your girl? Be safe? But your face keeps getting tangled up?" Dimas asked Radit.
"Kok I feel free to let go, Bro, like the word like I'm the only one who fought here. The more days he becomes possessive. While the workload is high like this, if I'm overtime he's angry."
Dimas chuckles at Radit's story. "Toxic's relationship knows nothing. Just take it off."
"But I can't get away with it so much, I need a clear and compelling reason to leave him."
"Rather than holding on and hurting yourself? There are times when we have to let go of what we currently hold in order to gain something more valuable." Wisely Dimas told Radit.
When engrossed the two men were chatting, apparently Felly also came to the cafe by holding a man.
Dimas, who knew of Felly's arrival, immediately gave the code to Radit.
"Bro, you girls are coming. But the same other guy, put on your mask."
Dimas also took a portrait of Felly who was walking in a car with the man who was with him.
[To: Radit]
[Picture send]
"Liat mobile phone lo, Bro. I sent a message."
Radit nodded and opened the phone screen.
Felly, who is spoiled with the man, does not realize that Radit knows his whereabouts.
Because Felly and Dimas seats are not far away, so the conversation can both be heard.
"May, I'm staying in your apartment. But tonight can't be naughty ... Watch out for you if you're naughty." said Felly, chuckling at the man.
Radit who was also listening, silently clenched his hands together. "Oh, maybe Felly does not work the night shift, but nginep in the man's apartment." he murmured inwardly.
"Patience Bro, don't be rash. If you are emotional, we will lose. Because emotions won't change anything."
Radit nodded and followed Dimas' instructions.
"Gue guess now I have a compelling reason why I should abandon him and end this relationship, Bro." Radit's remarks responded to a nod by Dimas.
"It's better to be horrified now Bro, than later. Love is like cancer, it comes uninvited, but it ruins you so deeply that it kills you. Before the cancer gnawed at your body, mending directly you amputation right?" said Dimas at length.
"Yes, mending my immediate amputation."
"Yes, you've come home, rather than here you get hotter."
Eventually the two choose to go home, and Radit chooses to return to the house previously occupied by Khaira. He better leave Felly.
On his motorbike, Radit entered a residential area occupied by Khaira. As soon as he arrived at the gate, for a moment he observed that the house was still clean, even though it was quiet. Khaira's car is no longer in his garage.
Radit entered the empty house with shaky steps. "It turns out like this it feels like entering your own house in an empty state. But all this time you have survived, Khai.." Radit said as soon as he entered the door of his house.
After that, Radit climbed the stairs to the second floor. The first room he wanted to enter was Khaira's room. His memory goes back to how he left Khaira on his first night to marry Felly in series, how he escorted Khaira into the room when Khaira's legs sprained, the shadow of Khaira who only stayed all day in the room. Radit's gaze swept across the white-painted room, his eyes paused, as he looked at the piece of paper on the study table.
Radit immediately walked towards the study table, his hand reaching for the paper so prominent it was on the study table.
He slowly picked up the paper and read it.
To: Mas Radit's
How are you, Mas?
Deep in my heart, I always wish you good health and happiness. When you find and read this letter I may no longer be here.
I remember the first word you said after our marriage that you proposed to me without love. Honestly, that word scratched deeply into my heart. There was one day I wanted to survive. There was also one day where I wanted to end all of this. However, the toughest day is when you have to fight and survive on your own.
I once asked you to turn me in and free me from this complicated loveless relationship, but you wouldn't turn me in and let this relationship get bleak with each passing day. Other times, I just want you to be wiser. Fight for what you want, take responsibility for everything you do. Thank you, because even from you I learned what it is to learn, to fight, and to survive.
I learned to understand both of us. Learnt to know. Learn to accept your decision.
I struggle to live in a complicated, loveless world without a future.
I survive in loneliness and solitude that slowly becomes everyday.
Goodbye to Radit. Be happy with your choice.
Khairas.
For the first time in his life a Radit felt his heart ache. The betrayal he saw while Felly was with another man was not this painful, but as he read the letter that Khaira left behind, his heart felt cramped and sore.
"I'm a jerk, Khai ...."