Sharing Love: Winning Without Love
Seasons 2 - Painful Feeling
At night, when Arsyilla and Arshaka are both asleep, Khaira usually uses a little time at night to chat with her husband for a moment before they both go to sleep. As if wanting a new atmosphere, tonight Khaira and Radit sat together on the balcony of his room.
“Where is this day Sweetheart?” radit asked his wife. As if asking his wife's agenda throughout the day becomes a routine question on Monday to Friday.
Because, by hearing stories from his wife, at least he knew what happened throughout the day. How are his children, and also he can hear the complaints of his wife who is of course still in an adaptation to take care of two children at once with conditions that have not fully recovered.
“Bby story, Mas ..” said Khaira this time.
Radit then nodded, “Of course I can. What story do you want, my dear?” ask this time to his wife.
“Tadi Syilla was jealous of Shaka, and asked a good Mama for him. He said he wanted to play with Mama and read a book with her. My heart aches, Mas .. painful feeling will be.” the story this time to her husband.
“How to?” ask Radit again.
“First right, he was crying this morning not wanting to take a shower. Choosing to watch children's channel broadcasts. I wait, I keep talking again. I finally went upstairs to my room. Apparently he also followed me into the room, cry Syilla continued directly I bathe. There she said she wanted a good Mama." Khaira told her husband with teary eyes.
Radit listened to his wife who was telling a story, the man was able to catch how both of Khaira's eyes were glazed over, as well as her voice that started to hoarse and vibrate. The man then linked his fingers on each finger of his wife.
"Then, how?" ask Radit again.
"Yes I explained well to Syilla anyway that Shaka's sister is still a baby. Later if his sister is getting bigger can lie on her stomach, sit on her stomach, walk, until running later Shaka actually became a playmate for Syilla. Now we take care of Shaka together huh." Khaira's story again, he seemed to repeat his words to Arsyilla this morning.
Radit looked at his wife. Slowly the man grabbed his wife's shoulder. "Here Darling .. Surely you feel guilty when Syilla wants a good Mama?" ask Radit slowly.
Khaira nodded, "Yes .. as if, being Mama is not good for her. Though every afternoon, once Shaka has been bobok yes I take care of Syilla, nemanin he plays and learns." he said which is indeed feeling painful feeling at this time.
"Will I have a babysitter?" tawar Radit this time.
Khaira quickly shook her head, "No, in the kitchen there is Bi Tinah. So, to babysit the kids let me be alone. Besides, if I go back to teaching, it's also only taught once a week, Mas. Let me nurture and raise the children with my hands." she asked this time.
"If Syilla is sulking a lot how? I actually feel sorry for you. I know your body is still not fully recovered. Still the puerperium, tighten his stomach, but every afternoon can not rest because they have to take care of Syilla and Shaka." said Radit this time.
The man felt sorry for his wife, but as Khaira said he wanted to nurture and raise Arsyilla and Arshaka with himself.
"Wrong is it, Mas, if sometimes I feel guilty can not accommodate the needs of Syilla? I've tried to be fair, but maybe my attention and focus is reduced anyway. It is undeniable to share time with Shaka." Khaira spoke to her husband. Share her feelings with her husband.
Radit shook his head, "No matter what. I feel sorry for you, you don't care about yourself. Sometimes, give yourself time, dear." ask his wife to pay attention to herself as well.
Even if she only saw from her point of view, but all that Khaira had done was the sacrifice of a wonderful mother. Radit knew that the time of his death was only ten days, and after that his wife was the one who struggled to take care of both children. However, it still requires adaptation not only for Khaira but also for Arsyilla.
“I was also sorry to Syilla, hopefully she can understand all this. I adapted, he did too. Usually at home full 24 hours for him, now have to share with Shaka. At least I know what Syilla feels. Although I used to be an only child, but I know what it's like to be Syilla.” Khaira's story again.
“No problem, Mas .. yes you have to work. I'm okay anyway. You can tell the same story you feel relieved. Because, if I do not tell the same story you want the same story who else try?” tanyakanya.
Radit then nodded, “If there is any story, then I am ready to give my ear to you. Listen to your story. I'm even glad you can share with me.” said the man with full confidence.
Khaira then smiled, “Thank you already want to hear me.”
“Iya .. equally Dear. If using babbysitter is also nothing, who come in the morning and go home in the afternoon to accompany Syilla to play. So you can focus on Shaka.” Radit said again. At least there are those who focus on accompanying Arsyilla to play.
“Neither .. I took care of Syilla and Shaka. Next year Syilla will be in the playgroup, so no problem. Let Syilla also learn to be a Sister.” Khaira speaks and reveals that it is fine for her to nurture Arshaka and Arsyilla together. Although he will be more tired and there is no rest during the day, but Khaira is willing to enjoy all that as long as she can see the growth and development of her two children.
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