Sharing Love: Winning Without Love
Lost Contacts
Just a few days ago, Khaira felt happiness because of the affection she received from her family. Now he is lonely again. His feelings the other day were right, too much happiness that he received in the end only gave him sadness.
To shift his sense of loneliness and himself, Khaira immediately looked for English courses, he will soon need a TOEFL and IELTS certificate. Not only that, Khaira has also signed up for a scholarship by applying for a Bachelor of Educations study program at the University of Manchester, England.
Khaira's determination is getting stronger to study abroad, after all, too long to live in solitude and a relationship without love that there is no certainty just makes Khaira as if trapped in the wilderness alone without knowing he can get out of it.
There has been no news from Radit. Both of them gave no news at all. Lost contact!
"Is there still hope for this obscure marriage? Lately you've been nice, but in fact our household hasn't changed. When my heart began to be touched with a little attention, it still did not change this reality... Actually, if the anchors don't welcome, I'm going to let go. I'm tired of rowing this boat alone. Even long ago, I wouldn't mind if you ended all this and sent me back to my Father and Mother." Khaira spoke softly while looking at their wedding photos. Beautiful wedding photos, in fact, do not give beauty to the second household life.
"If I had gone far abroad, it would probably have been much better and I could have forgotten you even more without expecting you to visit me. Sometimes I'm like a fool just waiting to hear from you, but you haven't told me for days. I'm not your priority, Mom. But can't if you give me news. Only news from you I've asked for. A little bit of news in a single message was enough for me. Lost contacts like this have also become my daily life."
Khaira nodded at her temple which began to feel dizzy. Eventually Khaira chose to stand up and prepare for her English training.
Khaira got out of her house, she immediately drove her car to her English training ground. At least a little activity can divert Khaira to her marriage relationship that has no clarity like this.
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Meanwhile, in the office Radit is still struggling with various files that must be done as an audit report. Not infrequently the man had to overtime until the morning just to audit the banking financial statements.
Lack of sleep, lack of nutrition, and traveling long distances on a motorcycle make Radit stamina decreased, but he still works because the workload as an internal auditor is very high.
"Good, Bro." Sapa Dimas while giving coffee packaging cans to Radit.
"Thanks Bro.." he said while receiving coffee from Dimas.
"When this work is done, my eyes & eyes look at the endless rows and rows of tables on the laptop." Dimas grumbled while rubbing his spicy eyes because it was too long in front of the computer.
"Same, my eyes are also tired, sometimes the numbers look so tired piled up." said Radit, the man was equally tired of seeing a lot of tables on his laptop.
"Now you girls rarely contact you anyway Bro. You're still the same, right?" ask Dimas suddenly.
Radit also remembered some days he was very busy it was also rarely get a message from Felly.
"Maybe he's just been busy" Radit replied briefly.
"Andai nih Bro. If behind lo Felly cheating with another guy how? Your work is very busy. Sometimes girls can sulk because their partners are busy working." Dimas asked Radit.
When Dimas talked about the girl who was craving, he even remembered Khaira.
Radit patted his forehead without answering Dimas' question.
"Why you, Bro? Head lo dizzy?"
"Yes, I suddenly got dizzy." Radit replied while still kneeling his temple.
"Yes, you rest first, I want to go out to eat first."
"Yes..."
When Dimas was out, Radit took his phone and pressed Khaira's phone number, intending to call him.
"Call is connected but not answered. Where are you Khai? Sorry Khai, I completely forgot to tell you, my work is so much that I forgot to tell you. Let's pick up dong Khai's phone...."
Radit suddenly became restless, he felt so guilty with Khaira. But again, Radit could not leave his busy job.
"Well, I'll be home in the afternoon, Khai..." The man still muttered and was determined to visit Khaira.
Seconds changed minutes, minutes changed hours, and finally Radit finished to work today. Considering that Khaira had been unable to contact all day, she decided to head straight to Khaira's house.
Along the way, Radit drives off his motorcycle faster, he only hopes to get there soon and meet Khaira at this time. His brain is dead, only Khaira thinks. Even since he had gotten better and was not too indifferent to Khaira, it felt like he was starting to forget about Felly. Women who have long loved and fought for it just feels not to give peace and comfort to him.
More than half an hour drive away, Radit had reached Khaira's house. However, he sees no Khaira car, the house is still dark.
"Is Khaira not home? Why so quiet?" muttered Radit and he was reluctant to go inside. The man chose to wait outside the gate, still occupying his motorcycle.
As Radit waited, Khaira still did not come. The originally bright sky of the Capital had turned dark. "Where are you Khai? It's this hour until you haven't come home?"
Almost an hour waiting, Radit finally chose to go home.
When Radit had just launched his motorcycle, it turned out from the road opposite the direction Khaira's car had come. The two also failed to meet because Radit was the first to leave.
Again, fate does not bring the two together. Fate seemed to bring the two plunged into a dark and deep abyss.
Either the meeting or the farewell is a journey. A few days ago Radit and Khaira met until finally there was no news of the two, and now when they could barely meet, but fate did not favor them. Fate does not allow them to meet and mend their tangled relationship.