Sharing Love: Winning Without Love
Thorn In Meat
"So where have you been all day?" felly asked as his eyes rotated in every direction Radit moved.
"I went to the old town, motoran. Why mother?" sahut Radit brief.
"Oohs... I guess where that is. Does the kid want you to take the motor to the Old Town?" ask Felly.
"You know, he didn't complain either" Radit said as he handed Felly a plate and spoon. "Why?"
Felly smiled at Radit, "It's okay. I'm just asking."
"Well, may I ask you a question?" Radit hesitates to ask Felly, but he must know something.
"Would you have terrorized Khaira a few weeks ago? I'm just asking?" radit asked and he looked carefully, after all Radit only asked and did not throw accusations at Felly.
"Hmm, yeah. That's because I don't want you to stick with him. Yes, even if I knew she was your rightful wife. But I was too scared when he finally stole your heart. I actually don't want to share you with him." he said with a look on his face that suddenly turned sad.
"But haven't I always prioritized you all this time, I even chose to stay here with you and let her there. I'm also willing to sell my car and use a motorcycle everywhere, all because I prioritize you. I was wrong because I didn't treat him well. Even though our relationship was long before my marriage to her, but I married you without her permission. She was my first wife, anyway."
Radit seemed to regret every word. It almost lasted five months, and he realized his mistake. Maybe he realized too late?
"So you're sorry Ay?" ask Felly by looking at Radit.
"I feel guilty. My parents would be so angry if I treated him this bad. And, his indifferent attitude and always making a boundary line was precisely what made me feel guilty towards him."
Radit also recalled the look in Khaira's eyes that he could not figure out the meaning of. Highlight those deep, sharp, dim eyes those eyes were silent. It makes Radit feel guilty.
"If you feel guilty, you can leave me alone, Ay. I'm just your wife. You only married me under my hands. In position and position the boy is much more victorious."
Hearing Felly's words, Radit rubbed his face roughly. On one hand he felt guilty towards Khaira, but on the other hand there was Felly. Even during this time both his parents and in-laws did not ask anything strange, it made Radit sure that Khaira did not tell anyone about her household problems.
"Don't get me wrong, Yang. Didn't I tell you from the beginning that I wanted to fight with you. Is everything I've done so far unable to prove my sincerity? And, please don't terrorize Khaira anymore. Let him live quietly. He was already living alone in such a big house, not even he complained about anything. So please, don't do anything reckless." Radit said seriously to Felly. Suddenly his heart worries about Khaira and wants to protect the girl he has married.
Felly was silent at Radit's words. Felly wants to take down Khaira, but he also doesn't want Radit to leave him. However, Felly still has a mission to complete with Radit. A mission that only he knows.
"OK, I won't bother him anymore, but don't see him again. How's it?" his sneaky offer once again came out, Felly really wanted to master Radit completely.
"Have I not fulfilled all your will all this time? As a husband, I don't treat him fairly. Whereas in religious law, as a husband I should be fair, but look now I hurt the girl" Radit then passed away from Felly's presence.
In his room Radit looked very frustrated. The woman he loved and fought for always pressured him and did not trust him, while on the other hand he began to think of Khaira, who should also deserve his attention and responsibility.
Radit rubbed his hair violently. His mind feels full right now. More so hear Felly's remark that the woman won't bother Khaira, as long as Radit won't see her.
***
While at his house, Khaira threw herself in her bed. His eyes were just staring at the ceiling of his room.
Khaira recalls how she spent the whole day with Radit, in fact, he remembers the events that shook his heart when Radit covered him with his jacket when it rained and when Radit pulled his hand and placed it around his waist.
Khaira even while raising her palms, she moved her hands. A memory flashed as both hands held on to Radit's waist.
"If only we hadn't gotten caught up in this complicated relationship, Mas. Today will be a happy day for me. And, if only in your heart was only me. How long will this situation last, how long can you choose between me and him, how long must I live in this solitude." - Khaira in her heart.
The sound of Khaira's mobile phone rang out his daydream instantly.
"Nero's?" Khaira scrunched her forehead as she learned of some incoming messages from Radit.
[To: Khaira]
[I sent you a picture of the two of us earlier.]
[Image 🖼 sent]
[Make mementos yes.]
Sent
Khaira read the message and saw a picture of the two on a paddle bike in the Old City.
Again Khaira's heart felt pinched. "This is my memory. Our togetherness can only be remembered, not lived every day."
Khaira's fingers move on her keyboard. He wants to get back a message from Radit.
[To: Nero]
[Yes, thanks for the photo.]
Sent
Far away there Radit who received Khaira's reply only hesitated a little, why did the girl only reply briefly. The message is quite long and only answered briefly.
"Do you hate me so much? Until I feel this message is so stiff, are you hurt so much right now? If I wanted to be fair to you, could it be that you accepted me and erased the boundary line we've all along created?" Radit snorted with various thoughts about Khaira that instantly filled his head.