Sharing Love: Winning Without Love
Tama's Remorse
On the other hand, Tama also regretted having injured Radit and Khaira. Even if, he thinks he did it accidentally. However, Tama still heard how Khaira screamed and shouted her husband's name.
Still lucky for Tama, because he was not judged by the people after crashing Radit. However, the man looked regretful. Just because she could not control her heart and mind, now she had to see the woman she loved lying on the street and shouting her husband's name.
The roaring cry so struck Tama at this moment. With the help of several eyewitnesses, Tama obtained the address of the Hospital where Radit and Khaira were treated. Unfortunately, right now he did not have enough courage to meet Khaira.
The guilt that he experienced made Tama seem to be a coward who did not dare to show his nose after making a mistake. In the evening, Tama left her home. This time he braced himself and his heart to be able to meet Khaira and apologize in person.
Some time later, Tama had been in the Hospital where Radit was being treated. She entered the Hospital and asked the treatment room on behalf of either Khaira or her husband.
Tama slowly headed to where Radit was being treated. His heart was beating faster, his biggest fear right now was not Radit. But to Khaira. He was so afraid of facing Khaira at this moment. But what to say, Tama must strengthen himself and admit his mistakes. He doesn't want to be a loser.
Tama stepped out her legs and raised her hand to knock on the door of the place where Radit was being treated. He started knocking on that door.
Not waiting long, Khaira herself opened the door. As her eyes glared at Tama, Khaira was astonished. Why would Tama meet him here? To his knowledge only his family knows that he and Radit after an accident.
"What's up, Tama? Why do you know I'm here?" khaira asked in surprise.
"I'm sorry, Khai .. I actually came here to apologize" he said with a look of remorse.
Khaira scrunched her forehead, she indeed did not know what Tama's relationship was and her arrival to apologize. "I'm sorry for what?" asked Khaira curiously.
Tama immediately lowered her head, her eyes as if unable to stare at Khaira. His tongue was confused because he wanted to apologize, but it was very difficult.
"Can we talk for a while outside, Khai." he said, asking Khaira to speak outside for a while.
Khaira nodded her head and closed the door to her husband's treatment room.
"Say, Tama ... What's up?" khaira asked as soon as she had stepped out and leaned against the cold wall of the Hospital.
"Actually .. I'm guilty, Khai. I was the one who hit you and your husband this afternoon. Sorry." said Tama bluntly, implied regret in each speech.
Hearing Tama's confession, Khaira felt unable to speak anymore. She did not expect, it was Tama who made her husband injured to receive a cast attached to his leg.
"What do you mean, Tama? You're that motorcyclist? The motorcyclist who hit me and Mas Radit this afternoon?" khaira asked with teary eyes.
"Yes .. I'm a motorcyclist. I'm sorry Khai, I was completely unintentional." Tama said regretfully.
Khaira was no longer able to hold back her tears. The one who bumped into her and her husband was Tama. The one who apologized to him for a few days, and now Tama came back to admit another mistake. The mistake that made her husband was now on the bed in pain.
"Is it really unintentional? But why is it so perfect to hurt Mas Radit?" asked Khaira bitterly.
"I was completely unintentional, Khai .. when I drove my motorcycle fast, I didn't know if there was a crosswalk and it was you and your husband. I'm really sorry and sorry" he said with his head bowed.
For Khaira at this time either intentionally or unintentionally that surely her husband is in a bad state. The accident left her husband with a broken leg. Khaira's heart really can't forgive Tama right now.
Not because she was reluctant to forgive, but when her husband was in pain like now, she was the one who was in more pain at the moment. The man she loved so much had to experience pain for several weeks or even months.
"Did you really judge Mas Radit as inappropriate for me until you hurt him? Intentionally or not, you have already hurt her, Tama." this time Khaira said with emotion and a rumbling chest.
Tama shook her head. "No Khai .. all pure accidents. I was not intentionally. Really." his confession with a deep sense of regret.
Khaira wiped her tears and smiled bitterly. "Better get out of here, Tama. That's a lot better." gently push it away.
"No Khai .. I'll be here. How can you forgive me, Khai? I will take responsibility for the mistakes I have made. I'm really sorry to you and your husband." said Tama.
"There's no need to be responsible for anything, Tama. Just get out of here. Oh, yes .. I have to tell you, Tama. Only Mas Radit, my husband is in my heart. He's the only man who deserves to be with me. Everyone has a past, but I accept all my husband's past. Please Tama, let go of your feelings. I'm a married woman. Please ... don't hurt us anymore." Khaira solemnly told Tama.
"Well Khaira .. if that's what you want. I'm really going to throw this feeling away. I'm not gonna hurt you either, this whole thing was a pure accident, all this happened by accident. I'm sorry, Khai."
After saying that Tama then turned her body with steps that slowly she began to walk away from Khaira.
Tama sets her heart that she will truly let go of her ever-present feelings for Khaira. It is true what Khaira said that Khaira is a married woman. It's not worth wanting what someone else has. Khaira's words actually pierced Tama's heart, but there was nothing wrong with love. It's just that his love is indeed at the wrong time.
So deep is Tama's regret at this time. Sorry from Khaira he did not get, also he had to leave without being able to do anything, even just being responsible for what he did had been rejected by Khaira.
His love that clapped one hand for many years was sick, but the mistakes made and did not get forgiveness from the woman he loved were even more painful than Tama.