The Love of Habib
Chapters 15.7
But looking at this tall male gesture, Gisel had a slight impression. She may have seen him in the cottage but was not sure either because his voice was quite unfamiliar.
"I do not know what mistakes you have made in this life to make yourself become desperate and question your own worthiness before Allah SWT, to be sure, I do not know and do not want to know because it is your business with Allah SWT, the Almighty. But what I want to tell you is that Allah SWT never closes the door of repentance to His servants who want to return to Him. Remember, no matter how great your sin, except to associate with Allah SWT, you still have a way to continue to move closer to Him." The tall male voice was filled with a warm touch of maturity but at the same time had a sense of distance that was not camouflaged.
Who he was, Gisel had never felt so submissive when talking to someone. He was curious but at the same time lacked courage. And it's a pity that tonight the sky is just filled with a sea of stars with no moonlight. Oh moon, where did he go?
If only he was here, then he could help him illuminate what this tall, estranged man's face looked like.
"Is God really not angry with me?" Ask doubtfully.
The tall man then replied in the same tone, "The key is seriousness. If you sincerely repent, regret everything that happens then Allah SWT will always accept your repentance. But if you do not really repent, then the results do not need to be asked again. You will not have the pleasure of a faith and the sweetness of a longing for the Almighty, Allah SWT."
Gisel lowered his head wistfully. It is undeniable that his heart longs for what people feel when they long for the Almighty. And he was even jealous at how obedient the women around him were. They were raised covered, using a long cloth that blocked the view of the kind friend with a very commendable character. Gisel was jealous, wondering if he could also stand in this position?
"But I don't think I'm worth it.." The sad Gisel whisper.
The tall man frowned unhappily upon hearing Gisel again humbling himself. This is the doubt that Satan whispers to the servants of God who want to repent or emigrate. It is not uncommon for humans to be trapped inside.
"Allah SWT is Oft-Forgiving. No matter how much sin you have committed, Allah SWT will always give you the opportunity to repent. The key is only inside yourself. As I said earlier, whether you mean it or not is the most important point here. And do you know that Allah is pleased with His repentant servant. Compared to a servant of God who never sinned, God is more pleased with a sinner who turns to repentance to Him. And do you know what the reason is? That is because Allah SWT always loves His servant and never leaves His servant alone. Allah SWT is always present and present at every step of His servants. Remember, Allah SWT said in the Hadith of Qudsi that, 'if a servant of Mine approaches Me by walking, then I will approach him by running. When he approaches Me one inch, I will approach him one cubit.'' (Bukhari and Muslim HR). What else do you doubt? Allah SWT has laid out a wide path for His servants who want to repent and also fear. Then step up, pursue and continue to draw near to Allah SWT until your voice is heard by Him. Imagine how incredible that feeling would be when Allah SWT returned your regretful cries? I'll make sure you never regret it."
Gisel. Her wet eyelashes from when she blinked lightly were swept away in the beautiful words that the man said. How sweet, Gisel involuntarily wept in silence bound by such sweet longing.
Don't hesitate, don't be afraid. Allah will never abandon his servant. These words continued to reverberate within his head as if emphasizing that he should not give up.
"Papa...Papa, where?!" The sweet voice of a girl suddenly interrupted Gisel's speech.
Gisel subconsciously closed his mouth while directing his eyes to look towards the source of the sound. Not long after, the girl actually appeared here and immediately sprinted as if she had a spring on her leg before throwing herself into the arms of the tall man.
"Father!"
Gisel immediately gawked on the spot. From the many guesses, he never thought that this man was the father of this daughter?
Gisel was fooled - he himself thought that this tall man was still single!
"Sina why are you here? What mom and why didn't you get Sina?" The tall male's tone involuntarily warmed up while talking to his daughter.
"Mama's outside talking to auntie, Pa. Pa.ayo's home. Sina is already sleepy ~"
The tall man smiled gently with his hands raised touching the top of his beloved daughter's head.
"All right, let's go home. Papa is sleepy too." Then his body tilted to the side and spoke to Gisel, "Then we go, assalamualaikum." His greetings were polite before bringing his long steps slowly away from Gisel.
Pensive gisel,"Waalaikumussalam." Whisper replied.
Strange, his heart suddenly felt uncomfortable.