The Love of Habib
Season II: Senandung Misses (16) End
I stared blankly at the scattered grass in front of the staff dorm building I live in now. I don't know what's interesting about the view ahead, I don't know. It felt empty, nothing really pulled just the dirty grass, but strangely my eyes could not understand this. These eyes just kept looking in that direction while my mind... Oh my God, I feel confused.
Everything feels boring and exhausting. Really, it's really exhausting. My heart was very tired, and my physique was not much worse than what I felt.
I used to be most excited about starting a new day. Every time I get out of bed I look forward to every episode that happens in my days. But now... Maybe exactly since I learned the news about Kak Danis' engagement to a beautiful woman from the next town, my heart feels broken, sick... It really hurts.
At first I refused to believe it. No, Brother Danis is unlikely to accept another woman because... I'm pretty sure Brother Danis has the same feelings as me. If not then why has Brother Danis always been attentive to me?
Brother Danis took care of me several times, gave me a very expensive chocolate, and occasionally gave me a small breakfast. This attention is very important to me. And because of this concern I have confidence in my heart that it is possible that my brother Danis has reciprocal feelings for me.
What did I see and hear that day?
I was made to laugh, to laugh out loud without even realizing that my tears had overflowing on my cheeks. The pain I felt, only God knows how painful it was. Only God knows how devastated and dashed my hope is when I see with my own eyes how Brother Danis is chatting with a beautiful woman I have never seen in a boarding school before.
People say her name is Aisyah, she is a veiled woman, the daughter of the founder of the Darussalam boarding school in the next town. I never saw what Aisha looked like, but from those two eyes I knew that she was a beautiful woman again bathed in the science of religion that nourishes the heart.
And stupid me... Although my eyes saw for themselves how they were chatting I still refused to believe that brother Danis had received the woman's proposal, I did not want to believe it.
Don't ask me what I felt at that moment. Crying out?
Haha... Wrong big. I can't cry anymore because maybe my tears have been spent wailing. Not that he was crying, but instead... I smile.
Hum, I was also surprised, when my heart was throbbing pain why could I still smile?
But yes, after that night I finally learned to recite. After all I was very self-conscious about my own abilities and about my flaws. A tenth of Aisyah - oh, no, perhaps more precisely the tip of Aisyah's fingernails could not compare to my despicable self. How can God bring together and unite His obedient servant with my sin-filled self?
"Lho, this isn't our pesantren cottage artist? Yesterday he laughed with arrogance when he met Danis, but why have I seen recently he often puts on a grim face? Have I missed anything?"
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Assalamualaikum, everyone. Sorry, just updated now. It turned out that Gisel's story was not as short as I thought so it was decided to make another book specifically for him. The title is Mahabbah Cinta, insya Allah up tonight or tomorrow, see you there💦