The Love of Habib
Chapters 23.12
Habib Khalid silently did not answer. Due to the habitability of the habib, Aira felt that she still had a chance. Maybe he has something that habib cannot accept and can still be fixed.
"Because I'm too shy or I have something you can't accept. Just tell me what it is, I promise to fix it and live up to all your expectations."
Habib Khalid shook his head refuting what Aira said. He was tired of talking to Aira. Why is this girl so hard to deal with?
They had only spoken for a few minutes but the habib was exhausted from it. He did not know where the problem was so that it made Aira very difficult to understand. If the girl standing in front of the habib now was not Aira, then they would not have the confidence to stand in front of the habib and leave immediately. But why isn't Aira?
He had lost face after being completely rejected by the habib. Logically, he would not want to stay here anymore.
"You can't change anything because I don't like everything that comes from you. No need to fix it, because you are still you. Besides, you've done something I hate. There is no way to change it. And if you ask me what my hope is for you, I will answer it honestly. I hope that you don't appear in front of me in the future. Feeling uncomfortable. I feel very disturbed. Satisfied now? There's nothing we need to talk about anymore. Excuse me."
Without waiting for a reaction from Aira, he immediately went towards the living room. Leaving Aira still frozen in place tried to digest what the habib had told her. He was humiliated, rejected, and humiliated. In an instant, his heart was smashed to pieces by the habib.
Is this what it feels like to be rejected by the man you love and expect to be in a night of sleep?
Is this what it feels like to have love clap one hand?
Be ill,
Aira touched her aching chest. Squeezing his clothes to vent the pain felt. The pain did not want to go away and made Aira tormented.
Why did the habib refuse?
He heard from all people who understand religion, whether it's ustad or ulama, whether it's a teacher or a person who just passersby, he said, all told that Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala will not abandon the servant who surrenders to Him. God loves them and will not disappoint them.
Why am I disappointed today? Why did God not grant my prayers and turn over the heart of the Habib only for me. All this time I have tried hard to follow the commandment to follow Your commandments, O God. I who do not understand religion force myself to learn. I also tried to observe the sunnah fast on Monday, getting used to refrain from speaking harshly, and being devoted to parents and teachers. I have done all that, but why have You disappointed me today, O God? My request is not difficult. I hope to be united with the Habib of Thalib, then we can spend the rest of our lives together just like my parents did. This request is not difficult, and again this is what makes me confused, why do You not want to grant my prayer, O God? Do You not feel how broken and jealous my heart is when I see my brother with the habib of Thalib, while I who fight hard cannot do that? My brother always breaks Your commandments, disobeys parents, and refuses to obey Your commandments? Haha... Funny he who does not do any effort even You are happy, but me here who fought ended up getting nothing. Oh my God, I am so sad now... If You will not let me unite with the Habib of Thalib, then I will make way for myself. I am compelled to do this, O God, and it is You who compel me on this path. If you do not disappoint me over the rejected prayer, then I cannot get to this path. This time alone I beg you not to obstruct the plan I have made... I ask You, O God...Inner Aira complained to the Almighty.
If the Almighty will not grant his prayers, Aira will make a decision for herself. This is a great sin because he blames God and is ill-judged of God, he knows but his heart is covered with pain and jealousy.
In any way. He will realize his own dream.
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"Sister Khalid?"
Habib Khalid entered the room. Aish and Grandpa had already finished their conversation. The look on his girlfriend's face looked rather moody. Aish was sad when she found out that her mother had left her own family to live with her father. And what makes me most sad is that Dad does not accept Mama's love and prefers to sing again with Mama's best friend. She could imagine how Mom felt in that position. How deep of despair did Mama feel to the point that she did not trust Dad's family and made the decision to hand Aish over to someone else. In other words, Mama has predicted that Aish's life in the house. On the one hand Aish feels grateful that Mama made a good decision for her, but on the other hand she is very angry that Mama foolishly sacrificed everything for Dad.
Only pain is obtained.
"How now? Is everything clear and your curiosity is answered?" Habib Khalid asked Aish.
The habib sat down next to Grandpa and started massaging Grandpa's hands.
Aish's cheeks instantly became hot. He still vividly remembered what Grandfather had said just a moment ago regarding his relationship with the habib. It turns out that oh turns out, they have been engaged for 16 years, more precisely since Aish was 2 years old. This is very crazy because without him knowing God has prepared a good man and attention as his life companion in the future, the man who will help him walk the straight path and be guided by Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala.