Finding You, Again
David 6 - Truth - and It Hurt

I threw the crutch irkedly to the ground. The wand was more intrusive, rather than helping me with my walking.

Dr. Sidra patiently took it and handed it back to me.

Exasperatedly I grabbed him, and tried to move more firmly.

My bones haven't fully recovered, but dr. Sidra has given me permission to practice walking even though he still uses a cane.

Maybe I'm the first werewolf in history to practice walking with a cane. It's humiliating!!!

But, I have to work it out somehow. I don't want to show up at a funeral with a stick or look unwell. I don't want any news to leak out if I'm weakened.

Egon will dance happily to hear the news.

Ugh. I hate to admit it.

But my werewolf side is completely weakened.

Dr. Sidra casually, instead said, my body state is indeed weak for werewolves, but as for the size of a human, I belong to the category of a very healthy and strong human.

Does he think that by saying that to me, I will become more joyful and amused? Because, after he said that, I feel like a cr*p.

It was the worst consolation I've ever heard, when I've heard Roan speak so often. That sentence was even worse than just silence.

But I couldn't get mad at him after that, because he said it with a sincere face and full of smiles.

He was indeed a genius doctor, but for social skills it was zero.

But despite his extraordinary medical abilities, he still could not figure out what was the cause of all the chaos in my body.

He had done many tests and examinations but there were no results.

Though I haven't told you about the worst, which is my inability to transform.

Right now I'm the only one who knows about this, or maybe El knows. He hasn't asked me again about it

Well, maybe he'll ask, if only I'd given him a chance to meet me. But I refused a visit from anyone for these 5 days.

I met no one but Dr. Sidra and the nurse. I don't want to meet anyone right now.

All the incidents that have happened in the past few months, have managed to make my head fall apart.. That old man, how could he...

To be sure, I don't want to hear any form of consolation from anyone. I want to concentrate fully on healing myself. I'll put off any emotions I can feel if I can. Avoiding everyone is the key. Hhhhh......

It's really depressing!!. I better practice walking again, break me up.

I dragged my right leg which was still wearing a cast - and I hate this cast, it's so itchy--rounded my room. Not an ideal place to practice walking with couches and chairs, but I didn't want to risk any news of my condition leaking out.

I managed to walk about 10 steps, before the pain in my chest as the pressure from the crutch took over and made me stop.

My ribs have not healed perfectly. My bones are connected, but the bruises are still there.

I hate my body more now. And this is ironic, because I used to curse the fate of me who was born a werewolf and not a human. And this-when my body condition approached man, I hated him.

Yeaa. karma it's a b*tch, my mind is bitter.

Dr. Sidra checked the cast that wrapped my right leg, after she helped me to get back into bed. He then conveyed the good news, the cast can be opened tomorrow. And I'm very grateful.

After that, he bade out of the room.

My mind drifted back in no direction in this solitude.

I don't know what to do now. Should I stay? Or gone??

I care about this pack, but Alpha? I can't--- Not if I have to leave Bee.

During my time here, I half-deadly resisted the urge to contact Bee. I don't want to drag him into the complexity of this wild Inhumane world.

She's human, ordinary human. The inhumane world is too wild for Bee.

I'll see him after all the trouble here is over. Even if it means I have to hold all this longing in my heart right now.

Ohhh... I miss you so much Bee. If I could, I'd like to drown in your arms and forget all the hassle of my life here. If only I could...

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BLAKE!!!!

The sound of the door slamming made me almost cuss.

Uncle Rex suddenly entered the room without waiting for my approval.

"I won't care, even if after this you'll kill me. We need to talk, right now!!" he said, raising his hand, looking at the dislike gaze that appeared on my face.

I want a long, quiet break, can't they understand?

I just clicked my tongue as a sign of agreement. I didn't expect a time like this to come.

He sat on the sofa and placed his large, carry-on brown envelope on the table. "I'm not alone, I hope you'll let them in"

"I know you're not alone. I could smell them when you came in. But should you take the woman?" My aggravation is growing.

How many times do I have to tell her, I don't want to be close to that woman!

Uncle Rex closed his eyes and growled, he swallowed back whatever word he wanted to say to me. He did not want to start another quarrel and decided to ignore my words earlier.

"Come in!" he said, waving his hands at the door.

El, Roan and the fox lady entered the room. Relaxedly El and Roan sat down on the chair next to my bed, each on my right and left.

As for the woman, taking a slow step and then sitting next to Uncle Rex.

What happened to the fox woman? She's look awful.

His eye bags were thick and black, and his body was also growing thinner. He's been hit harder than I thought,. He looked really messed up after my dad left.

But that doesn't mean I'll forgive what he did to my mother, it won't.

"The other two days are Alpha Owen's funeral, we can't postpone it any longer" said Uncle Rex. The delay was because it waited until I was healthy. Because I'm the next Alpha candidate in this pack.

There will be a special ritual for a Scion at the event later. Usually after the funeral or the Alpha resignation ceremony, the coronation ceremony will be held the day after.

"Have you chosen who will be the Beta and Gamma pack?" ask her with a flat tone.

Whoa!! straight to the point.

"Who said I wanted to be an Alpha on this pack?" my rebuttal, which immediately made a frown on his forehead.

"You can't refuse to be an Alpha, Duke. Who do you think would replace Alpha Owen if not you?" ask with a higher volume of sound.

"You, you deserve to be the Alpha in this pack Uncle" I replied.

"Are you insane?" said uncle Rex while laughing dryly.

Then she grabbed a large brown envelope on the table and stepped closer handing it to me.

"Didn't you want to be an Alpha because of this?"

Curiously I opened and took out the contents of the envelope which turned out to be a pile of photos.

And those photos are photos of Bee!!!

Some were taken while he was with me, some were pictures of Bee doing daily activities in his studio.

A short, choked breath of surprise escaped my mouth. El I guess was also surprised to see the photo, as he suddenly stood up from the chair.

"Who is he?" roan asked curiously, while reaching for one of the photos of Bee eating at Cafe Burger with a woman with glasses and dark brown hair.

"How did you know?" my question, with a low tone.

My anger, which had never drowned far from the surface, slowly began to appear. I won't forgive, if they dare to disturb Bee.

"You think your dad would let the Alpha successor in this pack just walk away unattended?" answer uncle Rex.

"Qc.."

I suspected this was happening, Roan said, if Alpha tells everyone, that he's the one who sent El and I out of the pack, it's not that we ran away.

It turns out I was right - I would not be able to escape my destiny, nor my father.

"Can't you pick one of the siewolves in the pack, then turn it into this Zhena pack? Many siewolves have outstanding qualifications here, Roanna for example?" he said, in a desperate tone.

"Dad, one more word like that, I promise-will pluck your head." said Roan, sadistically.

The idea also sounded ludicrous to my ears, but his words meant that he had run out of ways to persuade me to stay and become an Alpha.

"Look, she's amazing woman, but she's human, you can't make her into Zhena in this pack"

If it wasn't Uncle Rex who said that, I would have definitely broken one of his hands this time as well.

"I don't dream of making it Zhena either, therefore I don't want to be the Alpha in this pack" My voice sounded growling, trying to hold back the emotions that had accumulated uncontrollably.

"You can't avoid your destiny, Duke. You're Scion in this pack" he said again in a desperate tone.

"I don't want to avoid my destiny as a werewolf, but I won't trade my life for a Bee, just to become an Alpha" I shouted firmly.

"Oh.. Her name is Bee? What a unique name" Roan suddenly said.

"No!! and I don't want to talk about it right now!!" my snapping.

El gave hiss a warning to be quiet, to Roan.

"You already know about this of course!" he said again, in an irritated voice while glaring furiously at El.

"I don't really want to tell you this, but you're so stubborn!!" said Uncle Rex, after being silent for a while in a serious voice. Until I felt like there was going to be a storm coming.

"What do you mean?" I was curious and scared.

My father knew about Bee, I was afraid to imagine what he would do after this.

"The woman.. That girl--" he said doubtfully.

"Continue!!!" I snatched impatiently.

"What do you mean uncle? That's impossible!!" I said frantically, Bee will not forget me just like that. It won't.

With a slightly trembling hand Uncle Rex handed another photo from inside his pocket.

The photo was of Bee walking with a man in a park, Queen's Marry Park. I recognize the yellow rose in the background.

"Maybe he's just walking around with his friend" I gave an excuse in a quivering voice. Those words sound stupid in my ears.

Because I know. Bee had no friends, not a grown man. Bee only socializes with his students.

"That's not the only photo of the two of them" Uncle Rex said in a regretful tone. I stretched out my hand asking for other photos of her.

"I don't think that's a good idea" El said, not wanting me to get hurt more, because I know how I feel about Bee.

I still reached out to ask for the photo. I have to see it.

Uncle Rex handed over a few more photos hesitantly.

All of the photos show Bee being with the man. They're.....

I didn't want to see him again.I squeezed the pictures and threw the blob on the floor.

As I took a breath, my emotions within me exploded.

!!!!!!!

I threw an infusion pole beside my bed, across the room with all my might. I'm sure the whole ward around me heard that noise.

Now all I want to do is, go to London and break anyone's neck in the picture.

"Can you all get out of here?" The polite tone of my question, just so that my desire to throw the item again becomes faded.

"Yes, of course! but before that, I want to apologize for something" said Uncle Rex while standing in a very formal style.

"Otherwise uncle?"

Frankly, I don't want to hear any words coming out of that mouth right now. Nothing else matters at this time. There's nothing more...

"Everything that's going on right now, between you, you and the woman in the photo I mean. All of that, maybe it's my fault" he said.

"A blank slug let alone this?" my snapping. I have absolutely no idea where this conversation is going.

"When Alpha Owen said he wanted to bring you back here, he asked me for my opinion on what the right way would be, so that you would sever all ties with the human world. I give you an idea, the best way is to lose your identity in the human world forever. And Alpha Owen agreed to it"

What does all this mean? Eliminate identity? I can't just disappear, there will be millions of people looking for me if I go missing, except...

"You mean, you all arranged for me to die? You guys got David Adalrik dead?" I finally understood.

"Yes, I arranged everything. I made a scenario of you sailing alone, then your ship was hit by a storm and gone. For the human world, David Adalrik is dead" he said, in a sorry tone.

"I don't know if it turned out to be as chaotic as it is now. I'm really sorry Duke" he added.

"Go!!" My atonement. I don't want to hear his words anymore. Enough of the damage it caused. The explanation just makes me sicker.

"Can I stay?" El asked doubtfully. I looked at him and saw worry emanating from his pale face.

I nodded slowly as a sign of agreement.

"Me too" Roan said as he sat back in his original position, after which he stood up.

"But be quiet." I told him.

With a slow nod, Uncle Rex and the fox woman - who had now started crying again - walked out of my room.

My heavy sigh was the only sound that was in the room for the next few minutes.

El just sat there. Roan picked up the photos I had thrown in all directions.

While I---- I need time to digest slowly, all the absurd information that I heard with lots and lots of it.

So---David is dead.

David Adalrik is the name I used when in the human world. I couldn't have used my real name there. Because I was running away.

And I also find it hard to imagine my real name-Duke Pacian Theobald-fitting as a musician's name. My name is better suited to medieval knights than musicians.

Then after I died, Bee was dating another guy? Well, that sounds normal. Normal but very painful for me.

"She's beautiful, a little short but pretty" Roan said suddenly, looking at one of the photos she had taken.

"Have you lost your memory? I tell you to shut up!" I snapped, I don't need a cynical comment at the moment.

"I know you're dead to her, but she started dating a new guy, only after 3 months did you come back here Duke. He doesn't deserve your defense" Roan continued, without considering how I feel.

"I don't need that comment from you, Roan! You don't know him. And how do you know about those 3 months?"  There's no way Bee's gonna forget me after three months.

He handed me one of the pictures of Bee eating with the man. They were having dinner together at the restaurant. Roan pointed to the number in the corner of the photo.

"This photo is the earliest dated of all other photos. I think it's the first time they've come out together" he explained.

"And he was already seen laughing happily back then, not looking like someone who had just lost his lover" he added kindly.

"Roan, Enough!!" This time El yelled at him. Because I don't have anything I can say to answer Roan's argument. My mind is empty at the moment.

"You don't have the right to talk like that about him, you don't know him. He would not possibly forget about Duke just like that. There must be another explanation for this" El said in a stern tone.

Roan simply flicked his shoulders while smiling wryly. But he did not reply to El.

El's words made me realize something. And I feel so stupid because I didn't think about this before.

The Bee I know, we're not gonna do this, we love each other, it's a fact.

Bee won't just forget me when I die. I believe this. So why should I trust the report from Uncle Rex or Roan's prejudice on this?

I know Bee the most. I know the nature and character of Bee.

"Give me your phone!" I said to Roan.

"Eh-why?" he said with a protective tone.

I hissed annoyed. "Because El couldn't have a cell phone at the moment, it must have been taken when we were brought here. Now give it and don't ask" I know Roan is a friend, but sometimes he likes to test my patience.

With a slight frown, he handed his phone to me.

I pressed the number I had memorized out of my head, and waited.

My heart was pounding hard as a calling tone began to sound in my ears. I trust Bee, but what will I tell her later?

How do I tell him I'm alive? What if he fell unconscious after hearing that?

Oh. I'd go crazy thinking about all those possibilities.

"Hello?"

The voice that filled my dreams and dreams with longing, greeted me warmly. In that instant, I realized how much I missed him, more than I thought.

"Bee?" I said with a voice choked by emotion.

"Who is this?.. I'm sorry but I can't hear you clearly. Hello?" he asked, with a little confused tone.

I was too nervous earlier, so my voice sounded unclear.

"Honey Bee?"I repeat it more clearly.

"You looking for Honey Bee? I think you're wrong Mr. There is no one named Honey Bee here" Bee replied, smoothly.

I turned off the phone automatically in surprise and surprise.

There's no one named Bee here? This was definitely not the answer I had expected and was far from what I had imagined.

"He doesn't want to talk to you?" roan asked in a lazy voice, from the sofa where he lay.

"That can't be Roan!! He wouldn't do such a thing to Duke" El snapped again in annoyance.

"I don't understand! "

She doesn't know who Bee is? But it's Bee.

Has he dumped me? But if it was true that he had been with another man, the answer would still not be like that.

"What would you say the first time, if someone you thought was dead suddenly called you?" I asked as I looked at Roan and El, who were now also looking back at me with confused faces.

"Shocked?" el replied doubtfully.

"I will freak out and throw the phone away" Roan said, more realistically.

W-That's the reaction I expected from Bee.

"But he said, he doesn't know himself!" I said still in confusion.

"What?.. that's creepy" said Roan, who had now sat down with interest.

"That's so weird" El thinks the same.

What the hell is going on?? Bee's answer made no sense. I can't predict what really happened to Bee.

I have to find the answer clearly, I do not want to make a decision based only on the confusion of strange news like this.

"You're right Eldred, this is weird and unusual. And to know the answer we have to figure it out there" I broke up with confidence.

All I know, the Bee I know, won't leave and forget me. I have to find the answer. And that answer I won't be able to find here. I need to get to London as soon as possible.

"And what are you going to do with this pack? You're just gonna leave him?" roan's voice threw me back, into the complicated reality that was happening.

"I care about this pack, but I wouldn't be an Alpha if I had to leave Bee, Roan. No, not" I said. I'm not just gonna give up.

"Hhhhhhh, you are stubborn, Duke" the village was in a dick.

"Duke just followed what he wanted. It's not something bad" defended El loudly.

"You guys.." No time for Roan to finish his words, my room door suddenly opened.

Uncle Rex entered in a hurry with a worried face. The fox woman was behind him and had the same facial features as Uncle Rex.

"Have you lost the ability to transform into a wolf?" ask without talking.

Oh.. **!! my mind, how did he know about that?.....