Finding You, Again
Us 26 - Fixing and Proposal

Heavy!!!

Something prevented me from moving my right hand. I can feel the prick of an infusion needle on my left hand, why can't I move my right?

My eyes, which still felt heavy, overcame my desire to open my eyes.

But then, the warm breath that hit my shoulder opened my eyes automatically. I smell coffee and chocolate very strongly. It's Bee's scent.

And there he was, Bee curled up next to me, asleep hugging my right hand like a bolster.

I know this is excessive, but instantly my heart was struck with immense happiness.

I might even forgive Elder Victor if he asks for it this time. Happiness wipes out all the anger and hate in my heart, just for now of course.

I stroked the blonde head gently. Didn't he sleep in that position? At least I'll straighten his legs.

"What are you doing?" A whispering voice, accompanied by a check, appeared as my hand moved to grab Bee's leg.

That's Mom, why didn't I notice her presence earlier? I think Bee's whereabouts sucked all my attention.

Mom suddenly grabbed my head and turned it around, so that my face would face towards her in full.

I looked at him while glaring inexplicably. For a few seconds Mom was seen scrutinizing my face closely.

What's up again? I tried to ask, but Mom prevented it by covering my mouth with her hands. He gestured while shaking slowly towards Bee. He didn't want Bee to wake up because of our conversation.

Mom pulled her phone out of her pocket then typed something in there, after she finished thrusting it at me.

Your eyes are green, your eyes are green. How could? What are you feeling?

Write it on mobile.

Ahhhhh. I understand, history is repeating itself.

I pressed the front camera button and saw the face reflected from there. And rightly said Mom, my eyes turned green again, just like they used to. I smiled as I typed in an answer to Mom, to reduce her anxious face.

I'm fine Mom, don't worry. I've experienced it before. My eyes turned bright brown again after I returned to the pack. I used to not really understand the cause, but I think it has something to do with mate. Most likely these green eyes appeared because I was with Bee again. I used to experience it when I was with Bee

Mom breathed a little relieved reading my explanation. And write something back.

I didn't know meeting your mate would change the color of your eyes, but since the color of my eyes and your father's are so similar, I don't think that even changing will be noticeable. This is so exciting!!

Mom looked me in the eye without blinking for a long time.

The subtle snort from Bee made me turn my head again. His position clearly looks uncomfortable. I remembered with the intention of fixing his leg position earlier. Then I grabbed his right ankle.

But once again Mom prevented me from moving Bee's legs. I tried to signal, if I was just going to fix Bee's sleeping position. But Mom shook her head slowly, then then thrust out the excuse she had typed for a few seconds before.

He was so nervous yesterday, that I let him be here last night, you better not bother him. Let him rest.

I looked at Mom in disbelief. Bothering? What am I going to do to him?

I'll just straighten out his sleeping position. He looks uncomfortable curled up like that!! 

I squinted my eyes as Mom read my writing.

Mom nodded in understanding. And write back a reply.

You dared to propose to her, she was upset and very confused. It was fortunate that her cries did not faint!!! 

Mom's face looks torn between wanting to praise me, but at the same time worrying about Bee's state.

She crying?? Wh why? 

I don't want my proposal to make Bee sad or tormented.

Mom rolled her eyeballs as if I was asking her a very obvious question.

He was proposed to by a Werewolf Lord whom he had only known 3 weeks ago, from a land in the middle of nowhere, of course he did not know how to!!! you forgot he was a regular human? Have you thought about Oscar? He would kill you slowly if he heard this! 

Mom's writing made me feel as if a block of ice was sliding into my body.

Heeh. yes of course!! Oscar, I forgot for a moment about the existence of this annoying creature that Bee loves so much.

If Oscar objected to our togetherness, Bee would of course be sad. There's even a chance Bee will leave me if asked by Oscar. I know how close Bee is to Oscar.

From his visit yesterday, I knew Oscar hoped Bee would never love me again, and would soon be back in London if all these problems were resolved.

Mom pushed her phone back, though,

I haven't even given you a ring yet

The ring? I cringed asking. Mom reached into her pocket and took out a small dark blue box from there. When the box opened, a white gold ring with a black diamond appeared.

Your father gave me this ring. And I want to make a tradition for Zhena Blackmoon to wear it

"Mmmmmm....."

The movement around my right hand made me turn my head, Mom who was also looking at it, with lightning fast keeping her ring box back in the pouch.

Bee squirmed and slowly he opened his eyes. She's unbelievably cute!!

With a sleepy face, Bee widened her eyes when she realized that I was awake. After that he sat up straight while rubbing his eyes.

"Duke!! Are you conscious?" His face looked relieved with a happy fluffy smile.

"You're wrong Bee, I'm awake. I was just sleeping instead of fainting" I said, squeezing his nose in a fit of anxiety.

I got up and tried to sit down, with the infusion hose now starting to feel very disturbing.

I know, the use of Alpha mindlink in that long time, let alone having to share it with the entire pack will be bad for my body. I'm sure Dr. Sidra put me to sleep for a long time so I could recover my strength.

"No!! You fainted. You fall when you walk. Of course it was fainting" His protest while putting on an unhappy face.

"You fainted and regained consciousness after 2 days" he continued, grinning in annoyance.

"Hmm well, I fainted, and now I'm conscious, how?"

Bee smiled slightly, satisfied with feeling victorious arguing with me.

"Agh!!.. Green, your eyes are green!!"

Bee shrieked, shocked to see my green eyes.

Her reaction was exactly the same as it used to be when she saw my eyes change for the first time. And obviously at that time I couldn't reason, if I had just had surgery, my eyes changed color when Bee was with me.

My eyes changed after I kissed for the first time with Bee, I remember for sure.

As soon as I opened my eyes again after kissing, Bee gave a startled cry like that. And of course I have to explain about the inhumane afterwards. No human can change the color of the eyes suddenly after kissing.

But I kissed her at night when we went for a walk yesterday, why have my eyes just changed now?

Ugh... This sucks, this question can't be answered by anyone. The risk of becoming a rare creature.

"Don't worry. This happened because we had kissed yesterday" I replied in a normal tone with no intention of teasing her.

But my answer made Bee's face blush instantly. Bee seemed to want to ask a few more things, but his mouth was only open and closed with no sound coming out.

That was some priceless expression, I love it so much.

I smiled amusedly, while removing some of the scattered messy hair around Bee's ears.

As if just waking up to her condition, Bee brushed her hair in a panic then stood by the bed and tidied up her slightly tangled clothes from falling asleep in a strange position.

"I.i.." Bee looked down embarrassed, unable to look at me.

"What's wrong? Don't tell me you're embarrassed when we've just spent the night together" my god, holding back a laugh, saw Bee's face become even redder hearing my words.

"Stop teasing him Duke" Mom turned my head slowly while shaking her head.

Once again, I forgot that there was someone else in this room besides me and Bee.

"Wand Lui, I'll have someone bring breakfast up. Can you get up and walk?" Mom turned to look at me, after Bee half-runningly entered the bathroom.

I nodded, then put away the blanket and walked towards the sofa while pushing the infusion pole.

"I'll call the nurse downstairs and tell her to pull out the infusion. I don't think you're gonna need it after this"

I nodded back while half daydreaming, as my mind had already drifted a little far away.

I'm relieved Bee wasn't acting stiff or weird after reading Mom's writing. But I have to discuss my proposal more seriously after this.

I'm well aware of what the source of Bee's anxiety is, he said this long before he lost his memory. Just a small talk, but with my proposal earlier, I'm sure the burden of the problem becomes heavier.

After all that, I still have to figure out a way for Oscar to accept us and not make Bee sad. Oscar will most likely give up if Bee asks, because he never says no to Bee.

But I also know Bee wouldn't have asked Oscar for anything, if his request would have brought sadness to Oscar.

And I feel like a coward if I let Bee beg Oscar. I'll handle it myself.

"I'm done Scion" The heavy voice said from next to me, almost making me jump.

The infusion and also the needle stuck in my hand had been completed.

When's? I didn't hear him come in or anything!!

Looks like Dr.'s medicine. Sidra has not completely disappeared from my body, I feel a little dull now.

I nodded in return for the respect the nurse gave me, as she said goodbye.

Tok..butts!!

"Lake in!" I don't think it's Mom, because she has a habit of not knocking if Bee and I are in this room together.

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The face reflected in the mirror now looks a little better.

I almost fainted from embarrassment, knowing Duke had woken up earlier than I did.

Last night I was planning to get up and move to Myra's room before morning. But of course it failed, and now the Duke sees me in a more humiliating state, than when I was only wearing a silk nightgown yesterday.

You must stop embarrassing yourself Lui!! my determination while combing my hair. Don't forget that the man in front is your future husband!!

Aghhhh......

I covered my face with my hands, unable to accept the attack of shame. Just thinking about those words alone makes me this red. What would I say if the Duke asked again later?!!

But I also couldn't possibly dodge, and hide in this bathroom forever!

I came out, found Duke sitting quietly crossing his legs, looking at the snow on the balcony.

A sight that would make anyone have trouble breathing.

The good looks sculpted on his face, as if coming from a painting. So classic, beautiful, and not good for my heart health. Hhhhh----

Duke's appearance had changed, his hair was neatly combed and his clothes had already been changed with a casual long-sleeved t-shirt.

I think he used the bathroom in another room, because I also smelled a faint bath soapy scent from him.

I took a slow step, but Duke did not react. Didn't he hear me open the bathroom door? But that was impossible, his ears were sharper than humans. Or maybe he's daydreaming about something weird.

His face did not look calm.

A mischievous idea immediately formed in my brain. I walked around sneaking close to him, this is a rare chance I can surprise a werewolf. I doubt this opportunity will come twice.

"Aghhhh.....!!"

I screeched as the Duke suddenly pulled my hand when our distance was close. He just pretended not to be.

His pull made me fall flat on his lap.

"Nice try girl! But I won't be fooled that easily again. I can smell your scent from many meters away" he said in a sexy hoarse voice.

Too close!!!

I sat on Duke's lap and his breath hit me directly in the face. Suddenly my lungs shriveled, along with the fastening of my heartbeat.

I tried to go down, but failed miserably, because I was not a balanced opponent for the Duke's hand.

The Duke held me in his arms.

"Please, stay like this for a while" Duke's voice softly begged.

Of course I will grant it willingly. Although my heart may not be able to bear the consequences. I put my hand around her neck in response.

And that hug is very comfortable.

I was still curious about those green eyes. There's no way it's just because we kissed yesterday.

But maybe I won't be able to ask. The intense glances of those green eyes, made my throat become dry. I grabbed the hot chocolate at the table and took a slow sip, just to calm myself down

"You must be very agitated and scared" he said slowly.

I nodded "You suddenly fainted, of course I'm scared"

"Sorry--" Duke stroked my hair slowly.

I shook my head "You mustn't apologize for something you can't control the Duke" I said quickly.

I was indeed scared and agitated yesterday, but the Duke did not need to apologize for that.

"I apologize for my proposal that might have been too bold"

Duke looked out the window again, grabbing the brown cup in my hand and drinking it without hesitation.

I don't need to blush just because of such a thing actually, but of course my cheeks don't agree.

My face warmed, watching Duke easily make the distance between us closer to a very trivial deed, like drinking chocolate from the same glass as me.

"But I don't regret it, because that's what my heart really means!" This time the Duke's eyes turned sharp, reflecting a round determination.

I was so envious and also flattered to see that. How could he be so sure about something that would make his life change forever?

"What makes you so sure? I don't understand, we just met a month ago"

Duke fell silent and thought. His forehead creased for a while.

"Love-maybe?" The Duke replied with an uncertain face.

"You don't know?" I was a little upset to hear that doubtful answer.

"All I know, is the fact that I won't be able to spend the rest of my life with you, Bee. And you ask why? I don't know why I love you, because everything in you is never wrong, you're perfect as it is. That's all!"

Again, a sentence that could flip my world, he said in a light tone as if without burden.

I closed my eyes trying to calm my crazed heart, in order to continue this conversation. I should be prepared to take such an attack.

"But I'm Duke's man, I'll be old and dead long before you. I won't be perfect in 15 years. While you won't change, maybe in about 100 years"

I said that with trembling lips, because of the anxiety that had been haunting me since yesterday.

"You mean, I'll stop loving you just because you're wrinkled and your hair turns white?" Duke's tone of voice no longer sounded soft.

I did not dare to nod, as the Duke was clearly enraged.

"Is that why you judge my heart? Is that why you judge my feelings? I'd leave my status as a Scion or a werewolf if I could. It will be a human for you, Lui!!"

"No!! Don't say that" I can feel tears starting to form in the corner of my eye.

Don't cry Lui!! inner, annoyed. I can't cry.

Duke did not even yell or say in a loud tone, but I'm sure he was really angry. Because he no longer calls me Bee.

"I don't want you to leave anything to me Duke, that-that, I don't need any sacrifice!"

My words faltered a bit, but I managed to control myself again.

The Duke smiled and grabbed my left hand, which he then grasped.

"That's just Bee's parable. I can't be human, no matter how hard I try. Same for you, you can't be a werewolf, even if you try anything. I will continue to love you without caring about your entity Bee. You are you"

"A-I--- also love you, whatever you look like" Emotions once again snared my neck.

A wide smile formed on the Duke's lips, his hands raised carrying my left hand to his lips and dipping them softly.

My face without getting bored is flushed back. I really wish I could prevent it, so I could hide my feelings better.

"Are you sure this won't cause any problems with your status as a Scion?"

I worked hard to say things, which made me nervous. I don't want anything to stop later.

"Of course it will be a problem, but I've already solved it!"

The Duke's face looked relieved, but the answer surprised me.

"How's?" I asked, we were together about 3 days ago, and he spent 2 days fainting

How could?

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Bee had to stop looking at me directly with those eyes.

Frankly, my self-control is at a very low point right now. My body actively desires to******* Bee's lips are pale, because the temperature of this room is a little cold.

I'll keep her warm and flushed again, within 5 seconds with my lips.

My mind was distracted when I saw Bee struggling to hold back the urge to cry, wanting to finish this conversation calmly.

Explaining my intentions and desires without mentioning mate as well as our relationship in the past, was indeed as difficult as I had imagined.

Moreover, all my memories with Bee for the past 3 years, still imprinted real in my memory.

I don't need to explain how I feel about Bee if that memory still exists. Bee knows how I adore him unconditionally.

But I'm glad Bee easily confessed her feelings to me. It made me remember the words El, if in the corner of Bee's heart, there is still love for me that is hidden. I'll assume that opinion is true.

"I've already explained to all the pack's residents that you were my chosen Zhena candidate at Brawl yesterday, and they accepted it"

"Brawls? At that time there was no relationship between us, I still thought Roan was there because I was worried about you!" Bee's face was in a great confusion.

Hmmm...... What do I have to answer for this?

"I don't know how you feel about me Bee, but I know exactly what I want, which is you!"

A pretty decent answer in my opinion, and again Bee's face flushed to hear it. I will not get tired of enjoying it. Bee's cheeks flushed with embarrassment are my favorite facial expressions.

"Why do you call me a candidate for Zhena? I heard people calling Myra with Zhena. But your last name is Theobald, so there's no way that Zhena is Myra's last name" Bee asked innocently, which made me not have the heart to laugh at her.

"Not Bee, Zhena is the title given to the Alpha pair. And you know I'm Scion, the Alpha candidate. And that would make you Zhena, wouldn't it?"

My explanation made Bee look embarrassed, but his face also looked satisfied with understanding.

"Owww- yes of course. Now it all makes sense. I can't believe it took me this long to understand this"

Bee sounded anxious because he realized it too late.

"Don't blame yourself Bee. The werewolf world is completely new to you. It's only natural that you don't know much. After this, ask anything about things you don't understand. I will answer with pleasure" Comfort me.

I now know why Bee's mind is a little slow and sometimes unpredictable when it comes to what's going on around him. It was Oscar and Belva who closed the world.

I'm gonna open up your world slowly Bee, my inner, my sliced.

"Hmmm. oh yeah. Myra once said, if this house will not be hers after a few months. I guessed, that the tenure would be over first, but I guess it was wrong because Myra laughed out loud when she heard it" Bee's eyes laughed at Mom's conversation.

"That's because Mom knew that she would no longer be Zhena after there was you. This house is the perfect residence for Alpha and Zhena. But Mom's a little exaggerated, she's gonna stay here, even though I've become an Alpha"

Usually Zhena or Alpha who has disappeared will occupy one of the houses around Manor. But I'm not gonna leave Mom alone.

"Wait on!! Myra said that the first time I came to my senses after fainting in the South Down forest! You-" Bee's eyes widened in disbelief.

"Yes, Mom knew how I felt about you from the start. As I said before, I would never bring a human here except with good reason. And I think the candidate Zhena is a very strong reason"

Again, I really enjoyed moments like this.

I saw how slowly the red color was no longer just spreading on Bee's cheeks, but also on her neck. Finally, unable to bear it, Bee shrieked softly while burying the face in her thigh to calm down.

"I can't believe this. I can't believe this!" he nodded slowly in panic.

"Why?? You have nothing to be ashamed of" I laughed amusedly, leaning my body towards him trying to make him lift his face. Bee still shook his head but with a slower tempo.

"Since when---?" Bee didn't finish the question, but I knew what he was going to ask.

The first answer that came to my mind was, since we first met, three years ago. But I've learned from bitter experiences.

"Since we first met Bee" My answer was short, and I certainly didn't lie.

Just the first meeting I was referring to and the one in Bee's memory, was very different.

"At the Delmora mansion? We met for a few minutes?" Bee exclaimed in disbelief, turning his head tilted still with that strange position.

But she turned around quickly when she saw the position of my face right next to her.

I just voiced out a soft laugh in response.

And once again I don't have to lie, Bee will automatically interpret it as yes. I've been much better at dealing with things like this.

"You must have been very angry and hurt when I called you a monster!" I recognized the tone of regret within that muffled voice.

"Bee...." I raised his face with a little force.

"You can't burden your heart with things like that. I'm not gonna blame you for something you can't control Bee" I flipped over, and he smiled.

"I had acted foolishly back then" Bee's eyes began to turn red with tears.

"You were never stupid Bee, ignorance wasn't stupidity, and now you know it all"

Maybe not all, but this is enough for me. Bee rubbed his face to prevent his regretful tears from falling and nodded.

"What's being Zhena a heavy thing?" I know Bee changed the topic so I could forget her crying .

"Hmmmm---I don't think it's going to be much different from your work at Delmor. Zhena and Alpha are responsible for the well-being of the pack. You don't have to worry about it, I'll help"

Mom is usually busy teaching at the academy. I think Bee can teach there, too, especially about human life. That's a topic that is rarely discussed, because the teacher is Uncle Rex. He was busy with Monath.

Bee still looked doubtful, but she fell silent.

"Is there anything else you want to ask?" I asked, to make sure there was no more burden on his heart.

Bee shook his head with a serious face, thinking.

Well, I guess this is the time.

I got off the sofa and knelt before Bee, clasping her hands tightly together.

"I'm sorry, because I didn't do it right yesterday. That's why I'll repeat it"

I tried to hold back the smile, because Bee's face was beyond red. He knows what will happen after this.

"Eluira Ignes Delmora, do you want to accept myself to be your husband?" I said with complete determination.

I took out a box with a ring in my pocket.

Millions of emotions flashed on Bee's face. Shame, awkwardness, confusion, but in the end a wide and sincere smile becomes the ultimate.

I was relieved to see Bee's slow nod "Yes, of course" he whispered faintly.

That's enough for me. Without wasting any time I stood up while pulling Bee and hugging her tightly.

I did a miracle in less than 7 days El, you're wrong this time. This is absolutely amazing!!!

I lifted Bee's body and carried him around while exclaiming joyfully. Bee let out a startled cry, but not long after, his laughter broke out over my cheerful cry.

I stopped and looked at Bee who was still in my arms, with legs that did not touch the ground.

"I promise with all my might, that you will never regret your current decision Bee" The blue eyes widened for a moment, but then closed again accompanied by a slow nod of the owner.

"Thank you for loving me, even though I'm just a human being" she whispered, hiding her face around my neck in shame.

"And thank you for loving me, even though I am an inhumane" I replied with a big smile.

I'm finding you again, Bee!

And I'll make sure, I won't lose you again.

"I think we should go to London tomorrow" I said heavily, which made Bee flinch and jump down from my arms.

He looked at me with questioning eyes. "We need to see Oscar. Ah-not. I have to go to Oscar to ask for your marriage license next week" I explained.

"Next week?! We're getting married next week?" Bee exclaimed with a face - once again - looking like he had just seen a UFO landing on the balcony....