Finding You, Again
David 18 - Crushed Plan

I know, this is wrong. But the temptation to see Bee overcame any risk I might bear. Including the aftermath of Oscar's threats, and also the possibility of me being arrested for being a stalker.

So, this is where now, I was at the same cafe and at the same hour, was watching Bee having lunch with her friend.

Id's right, almost every day Bee eats at the booth.

I looked at him while smiling happily. Today Bee came on schedule, because yesterday I waited until night, but Bee didn't show up.

This cafe waitress looked at me suspiciously yesterday because I was here too long. But because I ordered approximately 5 cups of coffee and 6 glasses of ice americano, as well as by routinely pretending to type on the laptop that is now in front of me, finally they concluded I was just a novelist looking for inspiration.

My efforts to grow sideburns, and always wear normal-lensed glasses, support my disguise, I also no longer paint a white tinge on the hair above my ears. I as David never miss painting it. Even Justin doesn't know about this white hair.

All the striking features that were in my body, very far from the figure of David Adalrik.

There were some visitors who whispered that I was indeed similar - - in terms of good looks of course - to David Adalrik, but that was it, they did not react any further.

After all, as far as they know David is dead. There was no reason for them to think I would sit down and enjoy coffee and relax at the cafe.

If you want to blend in, behave and dress up like most people.

I'm absorbing knowledge from Mark, who today I can't see where he is. But that doesn't mean he doesn't exist. I'm sure he's not far from Bee.

"You know what, if your attitude looks terrible? Smiling while looking into the distance. You look like a pervert looking for prey" Roan said, once again stirring his drink in boredom.

I just shrugged, continuing my activities looking at Bee.

For the previous three days, I managed to sneak into this cafe without them knowing.

But yesterday, when I came back too late, El and Roan were nagging, because they thought my act of going alone here, was very dangerous. Because of Oscar's threat, and given my untransformed circumstances.

Until that point, I considered using Alpha Tone to keep them quiet.

They sow salt on my wounds!! There was no need to mention my weakness when I was very desperate.

That's reason enough to use Alpha tone to them. But of course I don't use it. So now I'm in this cafe with El and Roan.

Roan's cell phone ringing made us jump at the same time.

Roan screeched with annoyance before answering him. "Yes.. Dad?"

Uncle Rex called. Roan shifted away from his back to El, to talk to his father.

"You can't go on like this, Duke. We've been in London for almost 3 more weeks, and we're still walking in place" El said, in a quiet voice.

"That's because whatever choice I make after this, I'll risk it for the rest of my life, El. It's only natural that I need time to decide" I growled.

"Optional? You wouldn't consider leaving Lui, would you? You will lose your wolf forever, if not with him" El said to me in a soft voice, but in an angry tone. He does not want me to be weak.

"Yes-if it makes it live. I don't want to kill Bee just because I want to!" I answered slowly, but firmly.

El shook his head in disbelief hearing my answer

"You're insane bro! If he doesn't remember you you'll die" he said, a little spicy than usual.

He saw how my body improved once I saw Bee. El won't forget how I sucked before.

For three days alone staring at Bee, the thought slowly surfaced.

Bee looks so bright and happy with his life now. He had friends, unnecessary work, and maybe even a lover - I resisted my urge to vomit when I remembered this - he said

I did want Bee to remember me and have it again, but I also didn't want to disturb what he already had right now.

But he's mine!!

The selfish inner voice whispered another choice.

She's my mate. It could be that El was right, in one corner of his heart, there was still Bee's love left for me. All Bee needs is a memory of me for that love to reappear.

Not to mention I need my werewolf to be an Alpha. I don't want to break my promise to Dad. I have to be an Alpha.

"Just get a new one Dad, you've lost it! What else can you do?!" Roan's voice that was talking to Uncle Rex suddenly rose.

Making El give her an annoyed look that Roan doesn't care about.

Roan's words tickled my worried feelings, then it was as if a whip had whipped my brain, presenting a brilliant idea.

I smiled triumphantly. I know what I have to do!!

My big smile slowly turned into a loud laugh, besides being happy to find another choice, I also felt stupid. Why was this unthinkable to me before?

It may not be easy, and it may not work. But I'll try. This option won't create any meaningful 'damage' on Bee, if it turns out to be unsuccessful.

Roan looked at me with concern, thinking I had gone crazy, while El looked at me with his mouth open in surprise. This time, I'm sure El can't guess what I'm thinking..

"Let's go" I closed the laptop and left. Bee and his friend had left the booth about 10 minutes ago.

El and Roan followed me with steps, not at all expecting a change in my heart.

"What happened to you?" el asked, when we got in the car.

"Do I need to call a psychiatrist?" roan asked, almost simultaneously.

I flicked my hands excitedly, telling them to shut up.

"Calm down, I'm okay! I laughed because I finally knew what to do, and I felt a little stupid for not thinking about this idea before!" say

"What?" Roan asked for an explanation impatiently.

"I'll build a new one. As you said to Uncle Rex earlier" I looked at Roan with a big smile.

Unfortunately, my explanation further deepened the frown on Roan and El's forehead.

"I don't understand! You're gonna buy a new watch like dad?" ask Roan.

"What?? of course not! Why did I buy a new watch?" I was confused by the direction of the conversation.

"Well, that's what dad's going to do, he's going to buy a new watch, because he's already removed my mom's watch" Roan explained with an unusually confused face.

"That's not what I mean!!" sergeant hurry.

I began to understand my mistake in explaining to them earlier.

"My point is, your words to Uncle Rex gave me an idea. I just have to build a new memory with Bee. I don't have to make him remember what I used to be. I just have to make her fall in love with me again." I explained in a steady voice.

"Ow.." a look of understanding began to form on their faces.

El nodded his head "I think that's a very brilliant idea" he said, smiling.

"But can you make him fall back in love with you?" roan asked with a skeptical tone.

What a killjoy...!!! I was eager to pull that sharp tongue so as not to be able to stay still for a while.

"Can you be more positive?" El hissed at Roan from behind the steering wheel, glancing at him ferociously through the rearview mirror.

"Hey..I was just thinking about every possible thing that might happen!!" roan said, not to lose.

This is a sign for me to close my ears soon, because their debate will be very long.

A better debate I don't listen to.

I'll keep doing it of course. I'll approach Bee like any normal guy, like when I first met him.

The memory of our first meeting brought a smile to my face. I remembered Bee's annoyed look at the time. His angry face was enough to snare me in a matter of seconds.

After I thought about it over and over again, I'm sure Bee was also a little shaken when I saw my face back then.

I often hear people regret my bad temper, because it is very contrary to the good looks I bear. And that's enough to give an idea of how ordinary people judge me.

I won't lose out on competing with that actor in face and appearance.

My first meeting with Bee, was actually not a good example to illustrate the charm, because Bee had a bad impression of me back then.

He even scolded me for reasons I didn't understand. But I won't forget how a few seconds before Bee's blue iris looked at me without blinking.

I once asked Bee this in a joking tone, whether he was indeed fascinated by my face at that time. But bee refused to answer and immediately turned her flushed face away from my sight. I take it as an answer yes.

I put away Oscar's face that was beginning to form in my mind. I'll think about it later.

He had no reason - maybe there was, like that I wasn't human, but I would think of a way to explain to him later - preventing me from meeting Bee in this way. I'll just walk away from Bee's life if this doesn't work.

Ck. I immediately put away this thought all the way, imagining this plan failing to make me nauseous again. I better make up my mind how I'll approach Bee later.

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But it didn't..!!

It's 3 in the morning now, and I'm still nervous. Many times I wake up and fall asleep not soundly. Fidgeting over my planned meeting with Bee.

Though I've repeated the 'first' scenario dozens of times in my mind.

But the nervousness is not gone.

Diligently, I also convinced myself, if this will be easy. I already know what Bee's nature is, what she likes, what she doesn't like, I know all about Bee.

But still, the shadow would talk and meet Bee face to face making me uneasy. What if he doesn't like me? As Roan said, humans are very difficult to predict.

I should have stuffed Roan's mouth with socks, so there was no need to hear those pessimistic words.

But too late, now the words are ringing in my ears, alerting to destroy all the wonderful thoughts and plans I have formed.

Exasperatedly I threw the blanket to the side and walked towards the balcony of the room. The cold autumn air was warm to my skin.

One of the advantages of werewolves, you don't have to worry about winter. Werewolves are immune to cold. We wear coats in the fall and snow, just as a habit so as not to be seen as strange by humans.

I stepped towards the guardrail. The crescent moon in the sky was beginning to recede the morning sign was coming soon. I took a deep breath, strengthening my resolve.

C'mon Duke...!! It's not like yourself.

You usually hit any obstacle without mercy. Where is the determination that took you away from the pack 8 years ago?

It has proved to be foolish, but it took a great deal of courage to do it, as it is today.

Maybe my decision right now, would be a stupid one too, but that doesn't mean I'm going to back down.

It's part of my responsibility to be an Alpha, I have to come back as a whole werewolf at all costs. I had to fight for my feelings of love for Bee, to some extent.

The sound of footsteps thumping from the direction of the small forest bordering this house, caught my attention. Soon two werewolves in their wolf form ran out of there.

El's reddish-brown fur reflects the dim moonlight making it look shiny.

Roan's wolf was almost black, with white coiling around his neck like a necklace. They had just returned home after running through the narrow forest.

However, the werewolf takes a while to release its wolf form.

While still in LA, I will drive for about 3 hours northwest towards the forest in Ventura Country.

The forest is still quite dense, I can freely run all night without fear of anyone catching me. Well, even though sometimes there are some teenagers who are sometimes there, whether they are doing what.

I who can smell them from a distance of several kilometers, usually immediately run away. It is uncomfortable indeed, but it must be done, so as not to cause a furore due to the appearance of wolves with a height of more than two meters.

My muscles twitched as if to join them. I miss my serial figure. The feeling of freedom when running, united with nature around me.

I clenched my hands to endure the overflowing feeling.

El and Roan now walked slowly towards the house, they looked at each other without a sound. But I know, in the mindlink, they are of course arguing.

I don't miss that part. With human ears, I could still ignore their debate, but in the form of a wolf, I was forced to listen to it to the end.

If it had been like that, I could only sing out loud in my heart, hoping they would hear it and stop. But more often that way I fail.

El's brown head suddenly turned towards me. He looked at me and was silent for a while.

"I can't hear you El" I sighed softly. But I knew El heard it, because then he bowed his head sadly and continued his steps towards home. Roan just glanced at me.

I have to get my series again.

I must!! my resolve with a round. I went back inside and put myself in bed. Hope the sleepiness comes soon.

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I looked at the mirror with satisfaction. Ivory turtleneck t-shirts and long black coats are my clothing choices today, because Bee once said, if I look more charming when wearing a turtleneck shirt .

I think my appearance will be enough to attract Bee's attention. It might be a bit of a cheat, but I will spread the charm to the maximum in front of him today.

I grabbed the cell phone lying in bed and then went out of the room for breakfast. My appetite had improved and I was able to eat 0.5 kg of steak for breakfast.

On the way to the dining room, I saw Roan and El glued to the television. It's an incredible sight in my opinion.

Roan usually watches the morning show on television, but not with El. According to El, the tv show will only kill brain cells for free.

"What are you guys doing? Is breakfast ready?" my question, which makes them flinch. The jolt meant that they were so focused on the TV show, that they didn't hear my footsteps. That's not unusual for a werewolf.

Roan was startled to see me, while his hand quickly grabbed the remote that was next to him and pressed the power button.

El glanced at me nervously. They are obviously hiding something.

"Nothing, let's eat!" roan said as he got up from the sofa, trying to divert the conversation.

I immediately turned my gaze to El, who at that moment also turned her face the other way, avoiding my eyes.

"Tell me, before I force you guys in a way I don't like!!" my orders, with a dangerous tone.

El then let out a long sigh "Light it up again, I think Id will report to him even if we are silent" El told Roan who shook his head in disapproval.

A bad feeling came right up to me.

I glared at Roan as a sign that my patience was running out. With an unwilling face, Roan finally turned on the 55" luxury television with the remote in his hand.

The striking running text at the bottom that was inscribed with those uppercase letters, immediately caught my attention.

'CAPABLE ACTOR ZENOBIA TERENCE, CAUGHT WET DATING HEIR DELMOR CORP'

That one sentence alone, immediately made my blood rise to the head.

The female host, flirtatiously explained, if she was so jealous and curious, how the mysterious heir of Delmor - of course what was meant here was Bee, not Oscar-had managed to hook the heart.

My brain doesn't want to say his name.

I squeezed the phone in my hand, which instantly made me think of Oscar. I squashed and waited for a connecting tone to be answered.

"Yes?!" The voice across there sounded rude and irritated.

"What are you doing? Why would you let news like that come out?" ask me not to be less rude.

With the corner of my eye, I still saw Bee's picture on the television screen. The photo was a little vague, but the caption read by the host explained in detail Bee's identity.

"You-you-not-right-" Oscar's voice replied in a disjointed voice out of indignation.

"I am still entitled, because Eluira is mine. No matter what you do, he is mine" I cut him off by shouting, My selfish side no longer cares about anything.

"Now tell me what their real relationship is?" I still ask roughly. Not answering, Oscar simply turned off his phone.

"You son of a b*tch!!" my makiku loudly, while throwing my phone to the television screen. I don't want to see news like that again...

"No.no!!" roan tried to stop me, but it was too late. The phone, which was about two weeks old, stuck perfectly in the middle of the television screen that was immediately extinguished.

Id came running in a hurry to hear the commotion. His gaze swept across the entire room in wonder.

"Id, I need you to find out what really happened and immediately give me a report!!" my orders to him.

I passed back to the room, not caring about Id's view, who was still confused because I didn't understand the purpose of my orders.

"I'll explain" there was an El voice below, before I slammed the door shut.

The swearing vow I wanted to shout clumped up in my chest.

And soon, my stomach pushed the contents down my throat. My last meal was yesterday afternoon. I immediately ran towards the bathroom and spewed stomach acid into the toilet.

I hate my life.my mind is limp.