Finding You, Again
David 9 - Biggest Trash in the Universe

"It's just an Uncle fairy tale!" I interrupted, before Uncle Rex continued the story.

I've heard of this 'Mate. But it's just a children's legend.

Some of the human fairy tales I know are, Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty. In the world of inhumane - especially werewolves - I knew the fairy tale 'Alpha and Zhena'.

The legend tells of how they were a couple (Mate) who were destined to be together, therefore they became very strong, defeated enemies whatever their form, braved obstacles together before finally they were happy together.

It's just a cheap fairy tale I read as a kid.

El didn't even glance at the book at all. In his opinion, all fairy tale books are rubbish. As for Roan, I don't remember him ever reading it or not. Like Bee, he's a little allergic to books.

"No, you're wrong. The story is real. Elder Galen explained to us with evidence. That's him and his wife. They are Mate" he argued sternly.

"You're kidding Dad!!" Roan said still in disbelief. I think he read the book too, just like me.

As for El, it was still the same confused face. Fairyland is not her capacity.

Uncle Rex shook his head to Roan, then he stood up and picked up the pile of books lying on the fireplace table. He gave the book to each of us. The book was small and thin, no more than twenty pages long.

"The thing I wrote in this book, is everything Elder Galen explained back then. Some parts I completed after I got the chance to ask him directly. This book now contains a complete about anything about mate "he said steadily.

Without delay, I opened the book and read it.

Mate is a couple that has been determined by fate for each of the werewolves that have existed in the world since they were born. Each werewolf has its own mate. But not all werewolves are lucky enough to meet their mate. Because the meeting itself was also destiny.

If the mate pair manages to meet, then the bond will form instantly. Mate has a deeper bond than just love. A mate bond is not only made up of feelings and body language, but is a bond between two soul mates.

That solid bond is formed both in trust, loyalty, love and also in all sorts of emotions that bind us to other werewolves.

There is no force in this world that can separate that bond. So any effort made by outsiders, or the mate itself to break the bond, is certain to fail.

No words can explain the specificity that occurs, when we meet our mate. But for sure, love and the desire to have that is felt is mutual.

But not all mutual love between two werewolves means they have found mate. Again, mate is more than mutual love. Mate is the soul that was destined for us. Mate is our other soulmate.

A very interesting opening, for a fairy tale.

"You sure this is all real uncle?" ask with skepticism. Uncle Rex nodded and gestured for me to continue my reading.

Mate couples who have met and have had a bond, will be very dependent on each other. They will be strengths as well as weaknesses for each.

Strength, because if they unite then the werewolf and the siewolf will become stronger than the others. Their souls are complete. Their strength would exceed that of other werewolves who had not met his mate.

On the contrary, if the bond were to separate, the werewolf and the siewolf would lose half their souls, and they would slowly weaken. Most conspicuously, they would lose their abilities as werewolves.

They would be weaker than ordinary werewolves who did not meet the material.

This mate bond is like a double-edged sword, it will be unusually strong, but if it breaks you will become very weak and fragile.

The death or breaking of the forced bond will only bring disaster to the mate.

No werewolf can bear the grief caused by the breaking of mate. They usually die soon too.

They might actually be able to survive with a weak body, but the void due to half the soul that had been lost, was not easy to cure. The surviving mate will usually give up and eventually die.

Awareness knocked on my head, I looked up at Myra, the last sentence of the paragraph freaked me out. "Are you going to die too?" I asked Myra, worried.

"Continue Duke!!" Uncle Rex answered him firmly, before Myra could say anything.

But for mate couples who have offspring, cases of consecutive death like this usually will not occur. Because with heredity, it means that the soul has another soul to love. Most likely they will survive. For they have another soul that links them to the world. New souls coming from their soul mates.

An overwhelming sense of relief enveloped me for a moment. I glanced at Myra, and found her looking at me. Our eyes met for a moment.

And at that moment, I could feel the love he had been pouring out for me. And also the guilt, the more it is mounting in my heart, considering my treatment of him for the past 8 years.

Not wanting to drown in guilt depression. I returned my gaze towards the book in my hand, and tried to concentrate.

In addition to death, the mate bond can also be broken because of his own desire, which is if the couple really wants it.

Which almost never happens. Because of the pain from the shadow of that decision, it could already make them feel as if they were dead. And if that bond can really be broken, as discussed above, only death awaits them.

My heart beats reading this.

The shadow that I would part from Bee always left me devastated. I will not be able to endure that suffering. I'm not going to trade Bee for anything in this world. I wouldn't care if I lost everything I had, if it was for Bee.

He's my world. Like Myra who found her world in dad.

But am I and Bee also included in this? Human bee. Is it because me and Bee are now separated that my werewolf is getting weaker?

I don't want to believe it, because it's too absurd.

Tightly roll up, as the understanding of what Bee meant to me became more and more real. I want to run and go to his side right now.

"Can we continue the story?" I asked slowly to Uncle Rex, my mind would be even more depressed if I kept thinking about Bee. I need a distraction.

"St.." Uncle put his index finger on his lips and signaled for us to look towards Myra.

Myra fell asleep. His eyes closed, and his breathing sounded regular.

Uncle Rex pulled my hand out of the room. El and Roan followed behind me without a sound.

We slowly walked out of the room towards the reading room on the west side of Manor. The room was soundproofed, a great place to discuss.

After expelling all the omega that were cleaning the room and locking it, we sat around one of the tables. Without further ado Uncle Rex continues his story.

"The situation was immediately in an uproar after Elder Galen gave his description. Many Elders did not believe in all Galen's words. But not to lose, many also believe. What evidence is needed? Elder Galen was 425 years old. That's enough proof, he does have extraordinary strength. All this time we thought Elder Galen was the result of a cross from a werewolf with another inhumane nation, but back then we all knew what the cause was"

"Holly cow!!!" Roan exclaimed in surprise. I was also very surprised to hear it.

I wouldn't have thought, if I had met a werewolf who was over 425 years old. Elder Galen looks like someone who is 90 years old. The other elder looked older than him!

"Without much more consideration, I went to the Moonrise pack to pick up Zhena Myra. Your father and Myra were very sad at the time. They are both very weak. Especially Myra, because she was pregnant. I had to go to great lengths to get her into this pack on a human trail. I almost gave up taking him to Blackmoon, afraid he wouldn't survive the trip. I even had time to propose to bring Owen to her, but when I heard that Owen was also sick, Myra refused him outright"

"They finally met again at Blackmoon, I was the only witness when they met again. The memory of it was still very clearly imprinted on my mind, as I was finally completely sure what Elder Galen said was the reality"

"The reunion between your father and Zhena Myra after a long time apart made me almost cry, it was the only time I cried other than when I lost Mother Ana. No doubt, they were destined to be together"

The voice of the uncle Rex was filled with emotion because of those memories.

"What happened to my mother?" my question, I mean here Zhena Juno of course.

"Juno is a very obedient type of woman, Duke. He obeyed all the words of his father who was also a Gentry in this pack, almost without objection. Until now I also did not understand what he felt at that time. But his resignation was put to good use by his family and supporters" Uncle Rex's furious face returned.

"The Elders, who did not understand the burden of the Mate couple, took it lightly as Elder Galen said, Those who do not want to lose power because of Juno's ouster, make threats to your father, that they would stage a coup if Zhena's position was replaced by Myra's. But with the improvement of your father's condition as Zhena Myra's presence in this pack, makes no less Gentry and also Elder who supports Myra. The Pack situation was heating up. Some support Juno and some support Myra. Back then, I was sure that there would be a civil war in the pack for the first time"

"Zhena Myra, who always felt guilty, finally made the hard decision, which was that she promised not to become Zhena, but she would remain in the pack environment so that your father could stay healthy. Your father was very angry when he heard the decision. But he finally accepted, because your father knew Myra made the decision to prevent any bloodshed in the pack"

"Not only that, Myra also promised, after you were born, that she would willingly surrender yourself to Juno. With that sacrifice, the Elders and Gentry who were about to rebel became calm again. Especially because of you. They know how important a Scion is to the survival of the pack"

"And so, after you were born, Myra got away from the main residential area, and lived together with Elder Galen's family in the far corner of the pack, to keep your father fully werewolf"

"You might be wondering how your father felt back then. I will answer with certainty, that slowly your father and Zhena Myra are heading towards its destruction. Your father may look sick no longer and be able to transform again. But the pain I felt through mindlink, every time we transformed together, was able to make me cry. Once again what Elder Galen said was true, no matter how hard they tried to part, it would be of no use"

The returning Uncle Rex was trapped in emotions, taking a deep breath to calm down.

"Then when you were 5 years old, that fateful night happened. Only Egon and Alpha are in Manor, because I'm out of the pack to take care of Monath just starting to develop. As the night approached, Alpha Owen sensed an intruder. He directly called the warrior on duty and asked"

"One of the warriors gave a startling report, that the border guard warriors went back inside to the manor in a state of severe injuries, because the Stray had attacked the house where Elder Galen lived. Hearing that, Alpha and Egon immediately transformed and ran at full speed into the forest where Zhena Myra was. Your father knew that Myra was alone there, because at that time, Elder Galen was in the hospital, accompanying his wife who had a fever"

"The Stray were so violent, they ransacked the house until it was almost flat on the ground. But from the scent trail, Alpha knows that Myra managed to escape. Without wasting any time, they followed that trail"

"Not long after, they both managed to find Myra at the northern pack border. Myra was severely injured back then, which I think was a miracle, because the number of strays chasing her was more than 10. An angry roar from Alpha rattled the forest trees that night. Quickly your father and Egon cleared the horde".

"But there was one Stray that escaped their guard, the wolf then jumped up and targeted Myra who was already helpless. Your father, who was away from her, howled in panic. Know that he won't be able to prevent it. Just then, a young gray werewolf appeared and saved Myra. The werewolf confronted Stray with his body. Stray's sharp teeth were stuck right in his neck. His neck was torn apart and fractured by the bite. That gray wolf was Juno. He died right then and there for protecting Zhena Myra"

Unable to bear the rush of grief because of the story, I got up from the chair, then stood in front of the library window, hoping to get some consolation from the green scenery outside.

God d*mn it!! I swear in my heart. I know this is gonna be a sad story, but this-this-is sadder than I thought. No wonder Myra kept crying. I also feel like crying right now.

I need to stop calling her Myra, she's my mom. The sharp jolts back pierced right in my heart. On top of all the suffering she had endured, I had added it to my foolish hatred.

I have broken his heart. I can't imagine, how could he accept the barrage of scolding, as well as the hateful utterances I've thrown at him?

How deep was the wound I had inflicted on his fragile heart? I tore that heart out with my mouth, I made it suffer more than it had gone through.

...........!!!!!!

I smashed through the window in front of me with all my might, as tears fell down my cheek. I feel like the biggest trash in nature.

I violently wiped away those tears. I can't cry. It will not bring comfort.

Roan's screech, and the cry of El who was shocked by my actions, momentarily brought me back from the realm of endless regret. El pulled out my injured right hand, while Roan tore off the end of his shirt to wrap it.

"You can't heal fast. You idiot!!! What do you mean do this?!!" Maki Roan, with a blaring voice.

Uncle Rex who was also near me, shut Roan's mouth instantly, preventing him from saying more. My body condition is not something that can be freely announced in front of an open window.

"Stop Anna!!.. You go to the hospital, call dr. Sidra come here. Don't say anything that isn't important. We don't know anyone we can trust right now" he ordered Roan, who immediately moved even with a bumpy face.

El pulled me away from the window, then forced me to sit on one of the chairs.

"Your face is full of blood" he said as he moved to the corner of the room. He brought back some tissues and water. El stretched out a wet tissue to me.

I wiped the blood on my face in silence.

"What do you mean by 'we don't know who we can trust, uncle?" I asked, half-heartedly. I just don't want to think about the things that make my heart hurt any more.

Slightly surprised by the sudden change of topic, Uncle Rex paused for a moment before replying.

"Yes, that's what you heard. I'm not sure only Egon was involved in this plan" he replied grimly.

"You suspect someone else is involved?" I'm starting to get interested.

Uncle Rex nodded with confidence. "But I don't know who! And it sucks, it makes me sleep less well"

"Uncle, how could Egon plan all this without my father knowing? If you're transforming, won't you easily find out through mindlink?" ask me in wonder.

Mindlink is the way werewolves communicate when we're in wolf form. You won't be able to talk to the muzzle of course. Mindlink will continue to connect if the werewolf is in the pack area.

But when outside the pack area, the mindlink will only connect up to a distance of 10 kilos, more than that the werewolf will not be able to hear each other again.

Mindlink doesn't just happen between werewolves. Mindlinks are only formed between werewolves who have trusted and been loyal to each other. I currently have a mindlink connection only with El and Roan.

More practical indeed, but it means there will be no more secrets afterwards. Mindlink does not have the luxury of being able to choose what we can share.

Once our brain is connected, all the flavors, stories even the shadows that at that time crossed your brain, will be the consumption of werewolves that have a mindlink with you.

It takes a great effort and almost impossible to be able to withstand the flow of thoughts when doing mindlink. Unlike a mouth that can lie and sort out what you want to say, a mindlink will unlock all your secrets. Even when that thought just happened accidentally.

Therefore, there was no way Egon could keep that plan for years without being read by father.

I know Egon has great mind-link control skills, Dad told me once. Even on purpose, he had me learn to him about mindlink control. But I'm a lousy student.

But still, hiding such a plan was an almost impossible feat.

"That's because the mindlink between Egon and your father as well as with me, was shattered the night Juno died" his tone grew even more grim now.

I looked at him in shock. It's absurd!!

Mindlink disconnect is a rare occurrence, where it happens because of great hatred and anger.

If you want to break the mindlink relationship, you should really be very intent on breaking that relationship, without the slightest doubt. That's not an easy thing.

Mindlink is formed based on trust and loyalty. If it has been disconnected means that the taste is gone. No more trust after that.

And again Egon has violated the pack rule. Loyalty to the Alpha pack is absolute.

He's disconnected his mindlink from Alpha, which means he's lost faith in Alpha.

It wouldn't be a problem if you decided on a mindlink with another werewolf, but not an Alpha, because Alpha is the heart that goes through the pack.

Why would my father still let Egon here? He should have been kicked out. You can't dump Alpha, then hope you can still be a pack member.

"After that night, the mindlink between Egon and your father was shattered. Your father and I realized it. But we only had the opportunity to question him after a few days, because we had to clean up all the mess that came after that. Especially investigating how early the Stray came in, which until now we still do not know how it happened"

Uncle shook his head with regret filling his face.

"At that time Egon explained, shortly after Juno died, he felt very angry and resentful towards your father. Juno and Egon were indeed very close like brothers. They grew up together. He reasoned, at that time he was only carried away by his anger, so decided mindlink without thinking long. He also vowed, if a few seconds after the mindlink was broken, he felt very sorry. Egon even promised earnestly that he would remain loyal to Alpha and this pack. But all that will not be able to restore the mindlink that has been destroyed, right?"

I'm nodding. Mindlink is also formed due to closeness and sympathy. Like between me, El and Roan. Since we were able to transform for the first time, our mindlinks have formed automatically.

And I plan to keep it intact at all times, for it is impossible to restore the trust and sympathy that have been torn apart to the fullest. Trying to forget a mistake or forgive can be done, and may work, but the scars of the wound will remain at any time.

You may be able to put together broken glass, but those cracks will never go away. That's the nature of mindlink. When it breaks up it can never be connected again. A little doubt will continue to hinder the formation of the relationship.

There are special rules for Alpha regarding this mindlink. Alpha has the special ability to be able to do mindlinks with anyone citizen pack, but it does not go on, only when needed.

Sounds practical, but it's not!

One risk is not as unpleasant as being an Alpha. It would be very unpleasant, if you accidentally spill too many details of your life onto the entire pack.

Or rather it would be embarrassing!

"According to the rules, your father should have kicked him out, but Egon begged and kept swearing he'd stay loyal to this pack. Your father finally collapsed, and still allowed him to become this Beta pack. I also agreed to the move, because I did not want to lose a friend again, not a moment after Juno died" Uncle Rex continued, with deep sadness.

I realized, dad had told me about this.

Egon, Uncle Rex and also my mother are best friends. Like me, El and Roan. But their friendship is tragic, as it ends in blood and betrayal.

Not long after that gloomy talk, Roan appeared to be followed by dr. Sidra, who immediately looked on disliked my bloody hand. The cloth that was burdened by Roan earlier, was now covered in blood.

With a decision, dr. Sidra opened it, then pulled out some small pieces of glass that stuck in my hand diligently.

"It's not the right time for you to get hurt, Scion" he said, in a bored tone.