Finding You, Again
Us 21 - Brawl and Awestruck

If I could, I would choose to drown in the ground rather than be here, right now.

All the eyes I could see, looked at me with an inquisitive look. Is this the only human being here?

Myra jerked my hand slowly, asking me to walk with my head held high. I could no longer look ahead because of all the attention I had.

For the last few minutes, I was just looking at the end of my dress. Pastel blue dress with white lace on top of skirt. I hope my short body doesn't ruin its beauty.

The punishment-Brawl event, they called it so-called that Myra told me yesterday, was carried out on a field shaped similar to the stadium located at the end of the pack settlement. I passed through a dense forest separating this building with the main settlement pack, to reach it.

Once I arrived, I was immediately stunned.

The building is shaped like a football stadium with a slightly smaller size. But I didn't find the row of seats that usually dominate the stadium.

Instead, on each side of the fence there are only wide steps that are getting higher back, so the view looks like a rice field retreat on the mountainsides, but without the green color of the plant.

And the place is now full of people who have arrived. I expected, we would be in a row of spectators like the others. But Myra said, our place was in the large stands opposite the entrance. It means we have to go through the middle of the pitch to get there.

I almost cried when Myra explained it.

But I couldn't dodge, so now Myra and I walked across the field into the stands. Tita and another woman I didn't know followed behind us.

My face has warmed up because of the shame. I really hope the distance of the entrance and the place we were watching won't be this far.

I tried to obey Myra and raise my head to look ahead. But now my heart had an unexpected attack, because I saw a body standing firmly in front of the stands.

It's Duke!

And he's perfect in his long black shirt. Gold embroidery adorned the neck and front of his robe. I can't believe he can look more handsome than when wearing a suit.

Behind him El and Roanna stood with the same attitude.

My heart immediately shrunk weakly seeing that.

What was I expecting? Of course Roanna will be here, and be next to Duke. I have absolutely no right to be disappointed with that.

I tried so hard not to show a change of face so as not to make Myra ashamed.

And Duke's not helping at all. He smiled when he saw me coming. Don't you know if his smile isn't good for my heart health?

Myra held my hand as we got closer to the stands, and like the others, the stands were also without a seat. Just a guardrail, and wide steps.

But then I saw a chair with an elaborate carved decoration near the guardrail.

It doesn't take a smart brain to guess who the chair is for. Do I need a chair because I'm human? Is this event going to last so long, that I have to sit down because it won't be as strong standing as they are?

Myra kindly pointed at the chair as a gesture for me to sit there. I was eager to ask why only I would sit, but the other residents of the stands had already arrived as well. Myra greeted them warmly. I awkwardly stood in front of the chair.

"Lui..!" Myra suddenly called out to me, in the middle of her conversation with a person who looked very old.

"Include Elder Firmo, this is Eluira Delmora" he said, in a polite tone and smiling widely.

I welcomed her outstretched hand and also smiled politely. "It's nice to meet you" I saw him smile wider when I heard my words.

"You're even prettier, than the news I heard about young Miss" she said, which immediately made me misbehave.

I can't believe they think I'm beautiful, when there's a creature like Roanna not far from here.

Myra also introduced me to a few others. But Elder Firmo was the friendliest among them all.

They welcomed my hand very politely, but at a distance. One of them named Elder Camille, even made me shudder with her cold gaze.

Other than those Elders, some people also occupy the stands we are in. And again they looked at me with curious eyes.

Some of them - some girls with pretty makeup - gave me a dislike look in secret.

This certainly amazes me. What wrong?

I've never met them before today!!. No need to hate me for no reason, I've had enough of a sad thing a few weeks back, my mind in annoyance.

After some small talk between Myra and some people - I don't know what they're talking about, my mind was busy avoiding those people's eyes, Myra pointed back at the chair and told me to sit down. Myra herself stood gracefully next to my chair.

I implore you in my heart that this show will begin immediately. I can't stand all the gazes I've received.

And then my prayers were answered, the sound of howls split the field, the atmosphere instantly turned silent. I was no longer the center of attention.

All eyes were on the Duke, including me.

The Duke had raised his hand to give a cue.

One of the doors in the corner of the field opened and out came a group of people with 4 werewolf escorts. It was clear they were the rebels and their guards.

I looked closely at the werewolf that was walking slowly. This was the first time I could see them without fear or worry.

Forget about the usual wolf, werewolves do look like wolves, but with a size of 2 or maybe 3 times larger. Not to mention their eyes, reflecting a higher sense than just an ordinary wolf.

The group stopped in the middle of the field, then they stood across from where the Duke stood with a distance of about 10 meters.

Without warning Duke undid his black shirt and showed his body muscles a--- yeah, it's in perfect shape. My face, without being able to prevent it, instantly warmed up.

I clearly heard the adoring snoring that came from some woman who had glanced at me with annoyance. They really enjoyed the view that the Duke presented in the field.

Ck.... Their eyes need to learn a lesson to respect one's privacy!!

It's none of your business to be mad at them Lui!! That's Roanna's business, my sensible side rebukes sharply.

But what did Duke do? Should he take off his clothes in such a dramatic manner?

I looked sharply at the Duke who was now stepping forward. And a moment later. My eyes darkened, Myra closed my eyes with her hands.

What was?

And 3 seconds later after Myra lowered her hand, I came to understand. Myra's blocking me from seeing Duke change.

On the field I saw a jet-black wolf with a little white near his ears, with a size larger than any other werewolf.

The duke stepped with his big feet then raised his head, and howled long towards the sky.

The howl felt so magical. My hair bristles automatically. I have no idea what that lologan means. The sound of howling spread throughout and reverberated filled the air.

"Close your eyes for a moment Lui" Myra whispered right in my ear. I reflexively followed his orders, though confused as to why I should do so.

A familiar noise in my ear answered him. Is Myra transforming as well as Duke?

The slow twitching on the cheeks made me flinch and open my eyes. My breath was restrained in surprise when I looked towards where Myra was standing. A graceful werewolf with the most beautiful form of all I've ever seen standing there.

Myra's feathers were snow-white, her yellow brown eyes striking among the white feathers.

He glanced at me, then his muzzle was pulled back. Is he trying to smile?

If so, the experiment failed. His canine teeth were now visible, and that made him even more terrifying.

But I'm not scared at all. I knew who she was, and those eyes still looked at me with warm attention, just like the usual Myra.

I feel even more stupid now. How could I consider them monsters?!

I looked into Myra's eyes and smiled, touching the fur around her neck. The fur was very soft, making me have a crazy desire to coiled comfortably there.

"You are so beautiful Myra." I whispered right in her big ear. Myra shrieked softly and leaned against my body gently. I hope it means he likes my compliments.

And at that moment, I realized that I was the only human in the stands.

I circled my eyes and understood why there were no chairs in this place, because they would not all need to sit. The pack citizens present here, have all been transformed into wolf like Myra.

A sea of feathers and claws was slapped before me now!!

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I tried to suppress the tickling in my stomach and also the pounding of my heart when I saw Bee coming in.

She's more than just beautiful. I love Mom's choice of dress.

The dress seemed to complement Bee's charm today. Bee's hair is arranged by Mom so that it forms a beautiful braid next to the head, the rest is decomposed freely on Bee's back. Do not forget to embed wildflowers perch perfectly between her hair.

I couldn't help but smile, as I watched her walk towards me.

I pulled the anchor's memory to shift my mind. This Brawl show will turn into a drama if I keep thinking about Bee as the show goes on.

I raised my hand as a gesture to get Brawl started, because all the guests I wanted were in the stands with Mom. A second later the sound of howling answered my signal.

The field atmosphere is automatically silent.

The open door at the corner of the field delivered a group of patients I really wanted to chew into the middle of the field.

Most looked down without daring to look at me, but I recognized Amon, who still had a bit of pride, chose to stare blankly in the front.

I threw my shirt to the side and called out to my wolf. There was no need to delay the bad luck that would befall them, the sooner they died the better.

I could see the eyes staring at me in horror from the few people in front of me. Heeh. they should have thought of the consequences like this before they acted stupidly and attacked Bee.

I howled towards the sky as an order to all the werewolves to immediately transform.

In unison, the entire stadium moved and before long, all the spectators had stood on four legs. Including the sickly horde that was in front of me.

Slowly, I began to open the Alpha mindlink to connect with the rest of the pack.

Some thoughts of them immediately attacked me unintentionally, because suddenly I had knowledge of the new price for meat and various kinds of food.

Not a bad thing of course, at least their worries about the trivial.

"Silent!!!" I command using Alpha Tone to the whole pack.

My mind was clear again in an instant.

I looked fixedly at Amon's eyes, which now appeared to be a cream-colored and white wolf in the abdomen.

"Git!"

No need for complicated questions. As soon as I mentioned the name of the curse, Amon's mind automatically displayed a line of memories about Egon.

I was disgusted to see that memory. Egon had more or less planted a seed of envy and envy on Amon since he could transform. How does he reverse all the facts, to convince Amon if he's the rightful heir to this pack.

It was only fitting that Amon could still behave so arrogantly after all his deceit was exposed. He still considers all his actions to be natural.

Somehow all of a sudden the memories I saw were as if they were covered in a thick fog.

Barbaric werewolves!! He was trying to hide his memories!! Ck. very free action.

"HOW DARE YOU!!" I growled furiously, throwing the memory of my father's body at him. Immediately the anger and hissing sounds coming from the entire pack filled my brain.

I had to work hard to ignore it, because those emotions made me really want to attack Amon right now. I had to dig up all the information before killing him.

The fog faded from Amon's memory, he must have felt the sting of anger from the pack's citizens and wouldn't fight it.

Back in his mind showcases how Egon and him, plotting a cursed night when Crispin kills father. Egon planned it very neatly.

Amon is tasked with making a distraction, by killing several humans in Forestville and making it look like a vampire. With that, Egon could convince if the news of the attack was true.

I was upset that during the assault, Amon had no part in it. He stepped aside so that his mind would not be filled with strange things. He deliberately engineered his memories out of fear of Elder Victor.

"Crispin"

I mentioned the name of the Vampire, and Amon's memory soon changed to the meeting between Amon, Crispin and Egon. After all the chaos Egon and Crispin promised to give the Alpha title to Amon.

Werewolf t*l*l!! There will be no pack to lead if Crispin manages to destroy Blackmoon.

I went back to carefully examining Amon's memory, hoping to gain more information about Egon and Crispin, but unfortunately there was nothing left in Amon's memory.

He was just an insignificant lowly pawn, so they only gave out trivial information.

It's annoying!!

The next memory made me no longer able to hold back my anger. He attended my father's funeral with a satisfied heart. I could feel how his memories made him so happy.

Disgusting!!.

"Cursed wolf!!! Come out and fight me" I roared in my mind and howled in anger.

Hundreds of angry voices from all over the pack also supported me. Ammon's actions can no longer be tolerated.

Amon snorted, but he stepped forward without being able to go against my orders.

"Attack me with all my might as a despicable creature!!" my snapping.

Not only did I hear a burst of spirit filling my brain, but the sound of barking and boisterous cheering filled the stadium. They also could not wait to see Ammon's blood spilled.

Amon stepped up while growling furiously. In his mind, I saw he was sick of not being able to fight my Alpha tone.

Didn't he realize, that fact was proof that he couldn't possibly be this Alpha pack. Stupid werewolf!!

He pounced with all his strength. I dodged it easily. Amon's speed and ability to fight a little better than a werewolf.

But he's not an opponent for me.

Amon pounced from the left now, deftly dodging me and jumping pretty on it. I lightly swung my claws. Amon screeched as the claw successfully tore off most of his back.

His red blood feels warm in my claws.

He will not die from that wound. I reduced my strength intentionally. I don't want to kill him quickly.

His breath began to sting. I could feel it in Amon's mind, and saw his fear begin to appear. Pathetic!!

Amon attacked again, but no longer with coordinated movements. He attacked blindly.

As fast as lightning, I grabbed one of Amon's legs and jerked it away to the edge of the field. The sound of broken leg bones and also the impact with the fence on the edge of the field, drowned by the joyful howls of the pack citizens.

Some of them jumped up and down excitedly where they stood. Werewolves are always excited at the sight of blood and fighting, it won't change until anytime.

Amon was still trying to stand on his three legs. He dragged his body closer to the exit of the field. He wants to escape his fate? I'm really disgusted by his cowardice right now.

I mercilessly ran back and grabbed one of his healthy legs, then threw it back into the middle of the field.

The atmosphere again became boisterous, and a single word filled my mind.

"By pleasure!!!" I returned the call of the pack occupant who shouted the same thing.

With maximum speed I charged towards him. This time I was looking for his neck.

No need to hold back. It was enough that he embarrassed himself. The whole pack can see clearly through my mind how fear and cowardice rule Amon. I'm gonna finish this now.

I grabbed his neck and broke it in one bite. I clutched his head and with a single jolt, Amon's head separated from the neck.

I threw the head towards the prisoner wolves who were waiting their turn. I hope it will give you a little idea what will happen to them.

My throw was again received a warm welcome from the audience.

Howls and barks filled the air. My head was full of cries of joy and contentment. They praised with various words that immediately made my heart as light as a feather.

They're happy that one of my father's killers is dead. I howled long to shout my victory. Sahutan gleefully and salakkan filled this place. They were very pleased to see Amon's fate.

I glanced towards the stands, Mom stood up and howled her praise for me. Pride filled Mom's mind at this moment. And next to him, Bee sat with a face I could not understand.

"Duke" The warning shout in my head came from El.

Ops.I'll immediately recall the memory of my father's funeral. One strand of my thoughts about Bee must be put away.

I stared intently at the rest of the assembly crowd who were all bowing their heads. I can see Quinton behaving the same way.

"Show me!!" My fizz.

Quinton closed his eyes and his memories flowed smoothly into my mind.

Ammon!!

Ammon with all his charms like Egon. Expertly he manipulated Quinton about Bee. He convinces Quinton, if Bee doesn't deserve to be Zhena at all.

My emotions rose uncontrollably, seeing how Quinton strongly agreed with that opinion. He approved Amon's plan to kill Bee!!

Quinton blatantly looked down on Bee, just because he was human!!!

A growl of anger filled my throat. Without a second thought, I lunged at Quinton who could not dodge.

My attack landed smoothly, he was thrown several meters back.

A scream of pain rang out from his body, which was now trembling trying to wake up.

"What makes you think we're better than humans? What makes you think you can judge someone you've never met?!!

I screamed anger in his brain.

"What makes you feel like you can get away with something like that Quinton did? You want to kill Zhena of my choice, and you still wish all your actions were true?" 

Quinton's mind was once again filled with his conversation with Amon, but before long, Quinton's true feelings were apparent.

A heavy heart full of regrets. I got this feeling pretty good. This is how I felt a few months ago when I heard the real story about my father.

"Scion, I will not give any statement of defense. It's purely my fault. It was my decision to believe all the words of Ammon. I should have thought better before making this decision" he said, stammering.

"I will accept with grace any punishment that will be given, but I beg you to forgive them"

Quinton pointed at the wolf pack docked at each other, looking at my anger earlier.

"They just follow orders from me. They're innocent"

Once again Quinton pleaded this time with his head lowered deeply. His worry about the fate of his men was clearly plastered in his mind.

The horde that was now standing behind Quinton grinned softly in sadness. They didn't want Quinton to take all the blame and punishment from me.

I know Quinton very well, he was a loyal werewolf and would never do such a despicable deed as Amon and Egon.

The only weakness he had was that he never thought long. He would take for granted any news in black and white. No smell-gray color to consider. It was well used by Amon.

The voice of the pack citizen that sounded in my mind started to color, unlike when I faced Amon. Some pack residents also doubt Bee. They are confused about what will happen.

"What makes you think she can't be Zhena in this pack?" I asked firmly.

Soon my mind was silent.

"Is it because he's human?". The answers that rained down on my mind were very diverse, it was impossible to translate one by one.

"At this time Blackmoon has collaborated with hundreds of people. You do business and trade with them. You still think humans are inferior to werewolves?"

"We just can't imagine what would happen if our Zhena was a Scion human!!"

Elder Firmo's heavy voice broke the silence.

I looked back, and saw her step forward to Mom and Bee.

"I don't have an answer for that future. Because this is the first time I have Zhena and become an Alpha. I don't have time to train to become an expert" I replied, sarcastic.

Some laughter from the citizens slipped in my mind.

"I chose Zhena with all my heart that loved her. I chose him, because he loved me and accepted me as I was not human. I will affirm this once again, I will not choose any other Zhena besides him. Not after everything I've been through to be with her"

I looked at Bee.

Bee was currently standing, with Mom walking around him. It was a challenge for the pack citizens who still could not accept Bee. Mom will fight anyone who still wants to hurt Bee.

His furious feeling was clearly reflected, and I passed it on to the pack citizens with pleasure.

But with much of my attention turned on Bee, my mind began to slip. I painstakingly held back all the memories of Bee who immediately wanted to take out a large portion of my brain.

"Duke!!" this time Roan and El growled simultaneously.

I pulled my memory anchor once more, and breathed slower to calm the emotions. I began to listen to the minds of pack citizens globally.

And I was satisfied, as many of them voiced support for Bee.

Their hearts that had been filled with doubt, were now warmed even some were moved. I can't hide my joy now.

"Duke!!!"

Mom, El and Roan were yelling loudly at once to warn me that my mind was wandering wildly.

With a heavy heart I pulled the anchor of my memory and killed all the emotions earlier.

Ake looked towards Quinton and his men who were now standing neatly lined up.

"I don't blame you if you're afraid of all the decisions I've made about Zhena, but that doesn't give you the right to kill him. Your decisions are bar-baric, even to werewolf standards. You know that, right?" I asked Quinton.

Werewolves are brutal creatures and love to fight. But to kill us requires a very strong reason. Quinton's reasoning was completely unacceptable.

I folded my back legs and sat up straight looking straight at Quinton. He looked at me without coercion. Regret once again filled his mind.

"You're a very loyal and amazing werewolf Quinton, but your highly impressionable nature this time is close to making you die!" 

Some protests erupted in the crowd of spectators. They read the meaning of my sentence, and realized, I'm not going to kill Quinton.

"SILENCE!!" I snapped, impatient.

"I'll spare Quinton's life, because I don't want to lose someone so loyal a friend and a great fighter. I'll lower your stratum to » (lambda)"

That meant Quinton would only be an ordinary warrior without any men.

An incredible joy and relief burst into my mind. I turned my head and saw the source of it was a she-wolf in a pale brown color, who was standing with a trembling body next to the parapet.

That's Quinton's wife, her relief and excitement overpowering all the votes of the pack citizens.

"And for you" I turned my attention to Quinton's men who were now standing trembling.

"Show me what's wrong in your actions"

They obediently drained their memories.

The memory I saw made me angry,

"Get the two of you out!!" 

There were two werewolves who took pains to hide a memory from me.

I saw how they met Egon along with Amon after the attack on the pack!!!

Another traitor has appeared--

They screamed in fear, but walked forward. Without further ado, I pounced on them. With reflex they tried to fight me at the same time.

But of course it was stupid! I easily dodged, then grabbed the neck of one of them and twisted it with my snout.

The crunch of a broken neck bone back together. One werewolf left, now looking at me in horror. I will be kind enough to end his suffering quickly.

He was still trying to run away when I approached him, a futile deed. I grabbed the back leg and tore off most of the meat. The pain did not stop me.

With a single breath, I swung my paws at his head. His body drooped with a portion of his head crushed, and his breathing was now already inaudible.

Cheers and howls filled my head and the stadium. The excitement of the pack citizens is very contrary to the fear, which I feel from the rest of the sickly horde that is now increasingly standing docked.

"Show me!".

Their memories began to flood back.

The remaining werewolves at this time, purely taking orders from Quinton, without Amon or Egon's interference.

But I won't ignore the jealousy that runs through their minds. Their target is Bee, but their hatred and envy are on El.

Nauseate!!!

With that memory, a sense of anger began to sound again from the audience. Especially from the omega, they do not accept the treatment received by El.

What happens to El is an example that strata are sometimes unimportant. To them El was a symbol of victory, and the gentry wolves, stepped on him mercilessly.

"Calm your minds!!" 

I rebuked because now my mind was too boisterous to just talk.

"I was very surprised by your childish way of thinking. Your side goals are so pathetic. You guys are not satisfied with me, because I chose Beta from the Omega? You forget that trust and brotherhood cannot be forced, let alone planned. Your current actions prove that the status of Theta and Iota is not worth your attention. Your envy and envy for El really disgusts me"

If I could I would spit on the ground, unfortunately my muzzle shape could not accommodate that insult.

"From today on your status I will reduce to omega! Be thankful I still need your energy in the pack"

"Thank you, Scion. They would accept this punishment with pleasure" Quinton looked down solemnly, and all his men also lowered their heads.

There was only an overwhelming sense of relief and also gratitude that was on their minds right now.

I stood firmly on my four feet. As planned, I will present the problems and situations that the pack will face with regard to Crispin and Egon.

"Silent!! I cleared my mind once more, so that what I said, could be conveyed more clearly.

"There are a few things you should know about Egon's betrayal and the vampire attack that happened a while ago. This problem is bigger than we imagined. The group of vampires that attacked yesterday as well as Egon, has become a threat to all inhumane beings not just werewolves".

Confused and furious rumbles sprung up in my increasingly tired mind. I need to get this over with before my mind gets tired. Dividing my mind in a prolonged manner completely drained my energy.

"Their group had destroyed several other werewolf packs, elven sanctum, and also the witch coven. It didn't take long before they would attack this pack again. That's why I ask all the warriors and residents of this pack to prepare if something bad suddenly happens" 

Anxiety spreads like a flame to the rest of the pack.

Some of them were panicked, but some were excited. I don't have to figure out where that spark of impatience in the war came from. Roan's fighting spirit lit up brightly like a bonfire.

"But we won't wait for them to come of course!!" my sergeant, hurry to defeat all the fear that also spread.

"Yeahahoo!!!!"

Excited cries came from several angles, before long the fighting lust of the entire warrior began to lash out at me.

"Today the Hunters and other inhumane people are also looking for a way to destroy their group, but have not yet achieved good results. Therefore they asked for help to this pack to fight against them. I gladly accept it. I gladly accepted their offer to destroy Egon!!"

My anger at Egon spread and they welcomed him.

It was not easy for them to forget the terror that Egon had thrown out that night.

"But in order to realize the plan of attack, I need all of you to understand that this war is not just for us, but for all inhumane beings. That means we'll be working with other packs, as well as other inhumane creatures" 

A moment of silence, they were all digesting the shock. Collaborating with other inhumane has never been in this dictionary pack before.

"At this time the world has changed to be wider for Blackmoon packages. We become the largest pack of werewolves that will serve as a hope for other inhumane creatures to destroy the group. And I hope your generosity makes this happen"

I ask for their understanding with all my heart.

I could have forced my will without hearing their opinions. But it was a stupid deed, and I wouldn't do it.

A moment later, hundreds of thoughts rained down on my mind, they were worried, scared and also once again confused. My head began to feel an unusually heavy burden because of it.

"We the Elders fully support your decision Scion, I hope victory will be on our side in the future!!!" 

Elder Firmo with his heavy voice, was sticking out among the sea of thoughts in my mind.

The worried and confused thoughts slowly began to dissipate. Just mumbling understand. Elder's voice indeed could not be underestimated at a time like this.

"To follow up on that plan, a meeting between the inhumane and Hunter creatures will take place here next week. Your help will mean a lot to the smooth running of the event. That is!" close me up, and I decide my mindlink right then and there.

I can feel my energy drained and almost drained now. Some disgruntled voices who want more answers, have to do it by mouth. I can't hear them anymore.

I turned my head up and howled long, as a sign that Brawl was over.

I need a long sleep without a dream. Being psychically tired is more excruciating than just being physically tired.

"I think that's pretty impressive" I stood still, waiting for Roan and El to walk up to me.

"Don't joke, you made the whole pack knowing you were crazy about Lui. Your brain is traveling too far!! Just keeping you from straying just makes me tired" Roan said.

"Don't worry, your feelings make them understand and accept, if Lui is indeed going to be Zhena here" El added in a cheerful tone.

"Good!! Now what's left is how I convinced Bee to become Zhena in less than 7 days"

My brain is getting heavier now.

"Well.. Good luck then" said Roan, he tried not to scoff, because of the sight that filled my mind.

Hearing Roan's friendly tone, made me know, the problem was more complicated than just Brawl's fight, because Roan could not even make fun of me.