Finding You, Again
David 19 - Beautiful Pain

I slammed the car door shut, as hard as I could.

In the corner of my eyes, some people looked on in shock. I didn't care about it, and kept driving fast, away from the Hamlest tower area.

Today was even two weeks, Bee didn't show up there. Ever since the news broke, Bee was never seen again at the cafe's lunch.

Id has given me info, if Bee is always in his house - Of all places, his father chose to build a house near the Blubell forest, he said, Bee once told me that it was because his mother loved trees and nature - - in the Park Castle area.

But I still hope he shows up. I want to see it, even if it's just from a distance.

Not seeing her at all like now makes me tormented. It was more agonizing than ever, when I couldn't see it at all, because back then, I didn't expect it at all.

This situation was like taking a forced, delicious steak that I was enjoying. Makes me want to be angry for no reason.

At one point, I thought about going to Park Castle, and desperately found him. But as soon as I imagined Bee's face lying weakly on the hospital bed, I immediately shook off that stupid thought.

After all, the job of breaking through to the Delmora mansion was not easy. The tightness of the guard there is almost the same as Buckingham Palace.

I wouldn't be able to get close to that house right now, unless someone invited me.

For three years with Bee, I haven't been there at all. All this time I met Bee a lot in LA and Paris. In London we usually meet in the city.

The absence of the info I received about Bee's situation, was frustrating me even more. The report that Id provided was very unsatisfactory, as it was certain that Oscar did everything he could to cover it up.

Id just said, Bee and.ck. They were invited guests of the soft opening restaurant.

The only new info I got from Id, which was different from what I saw and read from the news was, the fact that Bee came home first by taxi.

It's weird, what did that guy do that made Bee go home alone? Did they fight?

Oh. I really hope this is true, because that will be the best news I've heard in two weeks.

Oscar completely refused to answer my phone, after I yelled at him yesterday. I don't regret doing it, because it's true. But I suspect, that's why Oscar didn't give Bee any space to get out.

He wanted to prevent me from getting close to Bee.

I wanted to explain to Oscar my plan, hoping he would give Bee a little leeway, but Oscar's abandonment made it impossible.

I could have gone to the Delmor tower, but that meant I would have made a fuss, because Oscar would definitely not have accepted me.

Resolving business by behaving like a human is very annoying and convoluted.

As a werewolf I would have easily lunged in and met Oscar, but that was impossible at the moment . I hit the steering wheel in annoyance, but this time I still held back my strength.

About a week ago, I broke the steering wheel of the Regera I was wearing. I hit the steering wheel with all my might, because Bee's annoyance didn't even show up at Hamlest's cafe.

I stepped on the gas instantly as the light turned green. I'm going to stick to my plan to get close to Bee, no matter how.

I was going to fall and wallow with sadness again, but now I don't care. Bee is mine and I will make her fall in love with me again. I'll make him forget his new love.

I actually don't like this plan very much, am I going to be like my mother who destroyed whatever Zhena Juno and father had?

I know, Mom will continue to feel guilty for the rest of her life, no matter how many words of comfort I say.

Can I do that too?

But they're not married, refute my other heart. Not like Zhena Juno and my father. They haven't-will never get married!

My father met Mom after he tied the knot with Zhena Juno, different from me and Bee.

I was the one who first met Bee, and we loved each other. I won't let a foreign man suddenly come and have it.

But Bee, should you date her? He's not even very handsome in my opinion.

I've read in detail, the report the Id gave about the man. I know who he is.

The most expensive actor at the moment. He is also friends with Oscar, as they are both members of the same recovery group. That would explain why Oscar allowed them to come out together, he already knew the man.

But this surprised me a little, I didn't know Oscar had any health problems and needed a psychiatrist.

In the file that Id carries, it is mentioned that the man has a dependence on gambling. After undergoing therapy, during these 5 years, he never again engaged in gambling.

But for Oscar, there's no evidence whatsoever that I can get an Id. It simply says that they were in the same group because they were treated at the same psychiatrist.

That means, most likely what Oscar suffered was different to the man.

Ck... I pecked in annoyance, that man is no good to you Bee.

What would you do if he went back to his old habits? It'll just be troublesome. I can pin down hundreds of ugly men in front of you Bee.

You won't choose it after knowing all that. This may be a sneaky way, but I'll use it if I have to.

Whatever Bee's origin is back.

I parked my car in front of Lycos recklessly. Someone running a little towards me, he was Steve, one of the ordinary humans that Id hired to take care of this mansion.

I handed him the keys so he could get the car into the garage. I nodded in thanks, then stepped slowly into the mansion.

"Where have you been? You didn't answer the call on your phone" Roan said as I opened the door. He stood up with his hands pointed at me, and had an annoyed face.

Especially this? my mind is tired.

I don't want any scolding today. I did go out alone without him and El. But they're tired of advising me on this. They gave up and let me go alone, if it was only to Hamlest.

From the television room, El waved to me to get closer. El stood behind the sofa and his hand pointed towards the television in front of him.

I turned to see what they had been fighting about since. The brash man who was with Bee, he was giving a press statement.

Again I said, me and Ms. Delmora is a good friend. So I ask for help to all the reporters who are there now, please do not pursue any news about Ms. Delmoras. It was very difficult for her, because after all Ms. Delmora was unfamiliar with the artist's life.. Please understand it......

I didn't listen to his words after that. I immediately turned around and walked out of the mansion.

"Where else are you going?" ask Roan. I just pass by without answering, I want to get an answer now, not a question.

I'll get information from sources that are more approachable than Oscar.

my real id doesn't want to expose the truth if I'm still alive to him. But I have no other way right now. I need to know what their real relationship is.

My spirit rose again hearing the man deny his relationship with Bee. But from the experience of the celebrity world and the Oscars, that press statement could have been false. Oscar would have easily set it up, lest the reporter go after Bee.

I nearly collided at the door with Steve wanting to get into the mansion. "Where's my car?" I asked, cutting off his sorry words that had not been thrown.

"In the garage, I just parked it" he said confusedly. "Can you bring it here? I'll wear it again"

"Okay, sir, I'll bring it here soon" he said, running back to the garage. I pulled the phone out of my coat pocket.

I'll call her, but I also have a little doubt, how should I explain to her about my situation?

"Hello?" said the voice that answered my call across, the voice was still the same as I remembered.

"Charlie" called me in doubt. Does he recognize my voice?

While there was no sound whatsoever, I was also too afraid to make a sound, what if he fainted from shock? Charlie is over 50 years old.

Then Charlie's sobs sounded clear. Thank goodness she was at least conscious.

"Davids...Is that you? It's really you, isn't it?" He asked, with tears in his eyes.

"Yes, it's me David" I replied more steadily. Charlie again sobbed at my answer. "I can't believe this. You're really alive!"

"Alive and well" I replied calmly. I received the key that Steve politely handed out and stepped into the car.

"I can't believe it, when Oscar told me you were alive. But it turns out he was right, you're alive.. Oh my... " Charlie said it all in one breath, so I had to concentrate when I heard it.

"Oscar told me I'm alive?"

"Yes, about two months ago" he answered.

**--- I should have called Charlie sooner, no need to hold back.

"I want to meet"

I don't want to make small talk, and I have to get this over with. There has been a lot of time wasted due to my hesitant attitude.

"No. "Reported Charlie immediately, "I'm sorry, but you can't meet Lui. Oscar won't allow it. He's so mad at you. And Lui.dia.dia"

Her tears broke and could no longer continue her words.

"Yes, I know Charlie. I already know about everything. But I want to see you, not Bee"

Notnot now. I need to know what's waiting for me, if I'm gonna see Bee.

"discovered me? but I'm home right now, and Lui is too. I couldn't leave her alone at home" I heard a confused tone in her voice.

"I'll be there!" short answer. It's dangerous, I could've met Bee. But I can't take it anymore. I should know.

"Oscar won't allow it, you know that" he said in a fearful tone.

"I beg Charlie, I just want answers. I promise I won't see Bee, I just want to talk to you" I explained in a clear light. I don't care about my pride right now. I will continue to beg him.

"But..."His voice still sounded doubtful.

"Please....?" I plead desperately, I don't want to run into a dead end again.

For a few minutes, I just heard a restless mutter from Charlie, "Alright, but you have to be quick" he said, with a trembling voice.

"Yes, of course. I won't be long" I cried happily.

"I'll be here soon, thank you" I said sincerely. I know it's hard for him. Charlie never went against Oscar's orders, but he did it for me. I will always be grateful for this.

Without hesitation, I stepped on the gas of the car and immediately sped off. It took me about two hours to get there, but I plan to reach it in an hour. The roaring sound of the aston martin engine I was riding right now, convinced me.

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The gatekeeper of the house stopped me, and gestured for me to open the window. I obeyed him, as well as opening my sunglasses, to make it look clearer. I didn't want to make her suspicious before I met Charlie.

"I have an appointment with Charlie.I mean Charlotta Dexter"

I rectified it, because I saw him frowning. I forget that only Bee and Oscar call him Charlie. And also me.

He grabbed the phone that was stuck to the wall and briefly spoke there. I looked around the house.

I've never been here, but from all of Bee's stories, I feel very familiar with the scenery there.

I saw the guard again. He was seen alone in the post.

But from the scent that I smelled, about 30 to 40 people were standing guard around the house. Now I'm sure Oscar's really paranoid. Maybe that's why he needs to see a psychiatrist.

"Please.. Ms. Dexter is waiting for you" he said politely, the gate slowly opening wide. I drove my car slowly.

The view of the fountain with a fish sculpture that Bee favorite as a child, welcomed me.

The statue was surrounded by a beautiful garden, because it was autumn, I did not see any flowers blooming there.

I parked the car near the big, cream-colored door. This mansion was even larger than Lycos, but slightly smaller than the Blackmoon Manor.

Dominated by cream and white. The design is also very slick, on each balcony there are vines growing lushly. You can be sure this cool and green scenery is Belva's plan.

But I'm not that lucky. Charlie's face was still in a look of disbelief welcoming, as the door opened. He hugged me tightly, and I replied with all my heart.

Charlie was the first Bee family to know me. He was the one who accompanied me, when I was almost crushed when Bee went into a coma.

"I still can't believe this." she said as she sobbed in my arms. "Why did you disappear? taking off his embrace, Charlie looked at me.

"Are you doing the surgery again? Your eyes are turning brown!" he said repeatedly, still continuing to examine the look of my face.

"Yes, I'm tired of green. Can we come in?" ask me immediately.

I don't calm down when I have to stand at the door. "Of course, we can talk in the kitchen. Lui won't hear anything from there" he replied as he walked ahead of me. I stepped in to follow him.

The house has an expensive item interior design that is more or less the same as Lykos, only brighter. The stuff in Lykos is more black and dark.

"Come here" Charlie said in a voice almost like a whisper. "Lui is on the back porch, we have to be fast" he said, pulling me towards the kitchen.

He sat me in the front seat of the counter and poured me some water. Then Charlie sat down to face me. "What happened to you? Why did you disappear like that?" ask him impatiently.

"I'm sorry, but I can't tell you Charlie, I don't want to lie to you" I said with a heavy heart.

What can I tell him? The imagination of my lies is not deep enough to make up a convincing story. And I certainly don't want to lie to him.

Charlie looked at me for a moment, "You've ruined Lui because of it, and you can't tell me anything?" His tone was now a little upset.

"That's not what I want, Charlie, believe me. You know for yourself, if I'd rather die than make Bee sad" Oscar might not care about my explanation, but Charlie's different.

He took my hand and held it tight. "Of course I believe, I know what you've been through to be with Lui. You couldn't have left it on purpose" she said, looking at me with teary eyes.

"But what are you going to do now? Lui no longer remembers you, she-forgets everything about you" Her tears welled up as she looked at me sadly.

I removed it by hand. If there's anyone who can understand the most about my pain of losing Bee besides El, then that person is Charlie.

"I'm not giving up Charlie. Bee is mine" I replied shortly. Charlie shook his head loudly hearing that.

"You can't, Lui will be devastated to hear everything. He was already extremely agitated due to his extremely chaotic memories. You can't give him a big surprise like this. He's very fragile, Dave"

"I won't say anything about our past to Bee, just calm down. I'm just going to start a new chapter, I'm going to approach Bee as a foreign man who falls in love with her. Like before"

I have prepared my heart for this, but saying it as it is now, still makes my heart throb.

"You're gonna hurt David, he's not gonna recognize you. You're going to torture yourself" he said again, correctly guessing my heart.

"I know, but do I have another choice? I want to be with Bee. This is the only path I can take" My tongue is getting bitter about this.

"Can't you-can't you just forget about it?" Charlie asked in an unconvinced tone. Because he knows what my answer is.

I shook my head softly "That's impossible. She's my life. I'm nothing without her"

I inhaled the water from the glass in front of me to ease the emotion that was suffocating my neck as I said it.

Charlie sighed with a heavy breath at my answer, but he did not refute it. He knew I would never back down.

"If your heart has decided, why do you still want to talk to me?" tanyakanya. "I wonder, what exactly is the relationship between Bee and....the man?" I asked, with a voice that I had unknowingly raised.

"What do you mean Zeno?" Charlie looked at me while frowning in thought, I nodded, and waited for him to give an answer.

"I'm sorry David. Actually, I also don't really understand the relationship between the two of them. Lui's attitude has changed frequently regarding Zeno. Sometimes she looks happy when Zeno asks her out. But sometimes he looks nervous and nervous"

This is not the answer I expected.

Charlie's answer didn't help me at all.

"I just want to know, how Lui feels about him Charlie!" my firmness. "I want a simple answer yes or no! That's it"

"If I say yes, will you abandon your intention to approach Lui again?" he asked while looking at me sharply "Of course not!! I'll keep doing it" I replied quickly.

"If so, why are you looking for the answer?" asked Charlie in a light tone.

"Because of me.." My voice disappeared without being able to speak an answer. I can't answer, because I don't want to answer.

I covered my face with both palms. Trying to control feelings. Not wanting the feelings I held for these few months to take over my mind.

Charlie grabbed my right hand and held it tightly.

"You're angry, you're mad at Lui, for forgetting you. You're expecting an answer to justify your anger at Lui" guessed almost exactly.

"I'm not mad at Lui!" I answered slowly, without being able to look at him.

"You're still a bad liar David. I know you're lying. And I think that's quite understandable. You deserve to be mad at Lui" Charlie patted my back for a sign of understanding.

"No-I'm not entitled. I left him, I made him almost die of grief."

I deny with all my might.

"Don't you feel? You're too hard on yourself. You said yourself, if you have no control over what happened to you"

Charlie's question didn't calm me down, because my anger at the Bee I was trying to hold was growing.

"As I said earlier, I understand that this is all happening out of your control. You can't blame yourself for all the bad things that are happening right now David, it's just gonna hurt you, no wonder you're getting thinner" Charlie said with a small smile.

"I don't want to get angry at Bee, because it's not her fault either, she didn't forget me on purpose" I said.

"Of course it's not Lui's fault either. Your anger doesn't mean you blame it. You're just jealous" Charlie clenched his grip on my hand.

"I'm jealous because Lui looks happy without me"

I acknowledge the dark shadow that has enveloped my heart all this time. Charlie took a deep breath hearing my words.

"Dave, this whole thing is gonna torture you. Lui already has a new life" he said slowly.

"No---- I'm not gonna give up Charlie. I'll fight for it until Bee tells me to go" I almost yell all that, but the sanity that's still left keeps me in check. Bee can't hear me being here.

"Dave, I know you love Lui so much, but.."

I held onto Charlie's hand to stop his sentence, my ears hearing footsteps approaching towards the kitchen.

"Bee.." I whispered very quietly, but Charlie heard it. He got up and looked behind my back. His face immediately turned to panic.

In that instant, the scent that I so longed for greeted my nose. The aroma of coffee, chocolate mixed with the smell of the forest and the cool sun. My heart was laced with a comfortable warm feeling at the same moment as I inhaled that fragrant scent.

I waited tensely, as the footsteps drew closer. The move stopped when it reached the kitchen door.

"Charlie, who visited you?"

Bee's voice raced, down my heartbeat that was no longer regular.

I grimaced bitterly, as I realized more and more, this was not going to be easy. The sound made me happy, but the pain of Bee not recognizing me anymore, left a wide gaping scratch on my heart.

"A.what?" Charlie was unusually nervous his face was turning pale.

"He..?" his hands that were pointing at me right now were also shaking violently.

Oh come on Charlie, you're gonna make Bee suspicious.

"Charlie, are you sick?"

Bee asked out of worry now. How not? Charlie looks like he's about to have a heart attack.

I saw Charlie shake his head, "He's Oscar's friend, he wants to meet Oscar" Charlie said as he walked up to Bee, and took the glass in his hand.

The reason is so bad Charlie, my inner. And I'm definitely not Oscar's friend.

"Oh!. But Oscar's in the office right now." Bee said in an unusually astonished tone. I will behave the same. The reason Charlie did sound too far-fetched.

"Yes, that's why he'll be home soon" Charlie said as he extended Bee's glass of water. Ck. It was a sign that he kicked me out.

Come on Charlie. I want to hear that voice a little more.

As if reading my mind, Charlie now looked at me sharply. With a little weight, I stood up from my sitting position.

"Yes. I'm going to Charlie first"

I say goodbye to Charlie, turning around. And my eyes were swept away by the sight that knocked out my defense instantly

Bee-she was standing with a glass in her hand looking at me.

The smell of his intoxicating body grew stronger and stronger. His blue eyes looked at me without blinking.

But in those eyes, I saw no sign of it, if he recognized me.

Eyes as blue as the sky that night, was staring at a foreign man. Those eyes radiated curiosity due to his inability to recognize me.

The woman I love so much and miss in every breath, feels so foreign and distant.

Our distance, which was only two meters apart, felt like thousands of light-years away.

This fact immediately melalap depleted the feeling of happiness because of this meeting.

As Charlie said, it hurts. If this pain were to bleed, then I would be standing in my own pool of blood right now.

Those eyes were still looking at me, and began to carefully trace the details of my face, trying to map the shape of my unfamiliar face to his brain.

Tightness and anger now gripped my heart and made me unable to breathe.

I have to go !! I won't be able to say anything to him. It's not what I imagined.

I gotta get going.

I wanted to use this opportunity to get close to Bee, but this pain destroyed my ability to speak.

I stepped past Bee, trying to ignore the tantalizing scent emanating from her. The smell made me want to hold her tight. That scent made me want to hold her hand and ask if you didn't miss me, like I missed you so much?

Without saying anything, I left the room. I came out by slamming a large, cream-colored door. The anger and the mixed longing made me feel torn apart.

I squatted down in front of the door for a moment to calm down. My knee suddenly lost its strength. Seeing Bee that close after all this time, it turned out to have consequences I never imagined.

I was overconfident, but when I met Bee, I couldn't say anything to her. You stupid Duke, my mind bitterly.

My phone's ringing an incoming message, from Charlie.

Sorry if the meeting hurt you. I'm sorry I couldn't give you any clarity about Lui and Zeno. Before you meet Lui, talk to Oscar first, I don't want you in any danger. I can't say why, but please do. Forgive Lui, I will always support you and Lui, because I know how much you love her. L U'S.

Charlie knows about the Delmora family's other businesses, so he warns against falling out with Oscar. As for Bee, there is nothing to forgive, this anger is just a reflection, if my heart is not as clean as I thought. I will learn to endure this pain.

I pick a name on my phone and then make a call. My call ring was answered instantly.

"Uncle Rex, I need your help"

This meeting might hurt me, but it gave me an idea.

I know how to meet Oscar.

The End of David.......