Finding You, Again
Eluira 7 - Date or Not

The girl wiped her tears. With determined eyes he stood up and began to step his feet.

Then he ran, kept running. But the hallway seemed endless. And a new door kept popping in whichever direction he ran.

Giving up, the girl flung her body, then leaned against one of the doors and stared blankly ahead, giving up. 

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"really? " Jovi's eyes widened, "I wasn't too surprised to hear that, he asked a lot of questions about you when we danced" he added with eyes glaring at the events of the party.

"Aren't you angry?" I asked Jovi, who started taking some clothes out of the closet.

"Why should I be angry?" he looked at me not understanding.

"Well.you know---" I doubt it, but I have to say, "Didn't you like Zeno?" i say, finally.

I told her that Zeno asked me out tomorrow, which was supposed to be last week, but Oscar forbade me from going anywhere after that champagne incident.

Zeno finally rewinded his schedule this week.

"HAS................Ha.....Oh!!!!"

Raut understood him immediately being replaced by his unusually loud laughter. Jovi to put down the clothes he was holding earlier, so that the event was not interrupted laughing.

"You're..really.." He said he was still in laughter.

Looking at it like that, it was obvious that something was wrong again with my way of thinking. I decided to wait for the laughter to subside, as there would definitely be a lengthy explanation after this.

I put my body on her bed. "Yes.please satisfy your laughter, be careful that your mouth may be torn" I murmured with slight annoyance.

" I'm so. sorry" he said, still with an amused chuckle.

After wiping the amused tears from the corner of her eyes, she walked over and laid down next to me.

"Lui, he's an actor. A very handsome actor. Of course I like him, he and maybe 15 other actors who are also handsome" he explained.

"But do I want to be her lover?, of course not. He's not even my type" he said again. I turned to look at him.

"So??" my many.

"You're free to go with whoever you want Lui, you want her too, right?" ask her more seriously now. Maybe he saw doubt in my eyes.

"Stop it.." I replied. "I myself don't understand what I want, part of me wants it, but part of me says it's wrong"

"Wrong?" jovi asked, in a surprised tone.

"Yes, I feel very guilty, and don't ask because of what , I also have absolutely no idea why "my answer is grim.

A look of confusion that I could understand, was present on Jovi's face.

"I first thought that since you were the one who also liked Zeno, after hearing your laughter earlier, I should be relieved. But no!!, until now I still feel this is not true"

Finally I spilled everything I felt on her, probably going to make my heart feel a little lighter after this.

From yesterday I thought about what was roughly the source of my uneasiness and uneasiness.

At the end of the day, I concluded the source came from the fact that Jovi liked Zeno. I actually had my doubts about the outcome of this thought, but that was all I could think of as the cause of the guilt that hung over my heart..

"You know.maybe you're just confused because.well you know, your brain and your mind are not in a good condition" he said with a face to face apologizing.

"Hhhhhhhhh.. maybe you're right"

I exhaled heavily, trying to expel the restless who were back present.

I hate this feeling!!

Because if this guilt isn't from Jovi, then this senseless guilt comes from my misty memory. I want to forget so much that this fidgeting doesn't always lock me up.

For the past few months, I have been trying hard not to think about it anymore.

But--always there was a conscience that seemed to want to remain heard, rejecting my orders to forget it. The voice continued to struggle tirelessly, whispering a sense of happiness, longing, warmth and sadness.

The joy and warmth that sometimes make me wake up with a carefree heart. The sadness and longing was so intense, that sometimes in silence and in my dreams, I shed tears.

Not to mention the existence of nightmares, I strongly suspect that the dream also comes from foggy memories.

I felt so stupid, how could a feeling that even I did not know anymore because of what, able to drag me into the pit of sadness, anxiety, panic and even longing and happy.

That glee started dragging my emotions again. I tried hard to hold back my tears from dripping.

I don't want this day to break.

Today, a rare day, I was invited by Jovi to visit her apartment.

I've never had a very familiar friend, an activity like this is completely new to me. It would be amazingly bad if I suddenly cried badly and fainted right now.

I need to get my mind off immediately!!!

"You know. I have an idea!" Jovi said in an unusually carefree tone, as if reading my mind.

"How about today we go shopping for clothes for your date tomorrow?.. It's your first date, it should be special"

"Come on.." I replied with relief.

Yes Eluira...Be glad. After 23 years, someone finally asked you out.

"Wait a minute, I'll get ready" Jovi stood up, grabbed the clothes lying on the chair, put them back in the closet. Then start picking some to wear and running towards the bathroom.

Jovi decided to postpone the shirt sorting activities.

Today Jovi actually invited me to sort out some of the clothes that now fill his closet.

We --this is Jovi's idea of course, I just followed him - planned on donating a still-worthy shirt to a charity in the Jovi neighborhood. For that I brought 3 large boxes that already contain my decent clothes, here.

Two days earlier, Charlie unloaded my closet and chose whichever shirt I could donate.

He did not hear any protest from me while doing so. I could only look in horror as the casual clothes-weird clothes according to my Charlie-favorite almost all went into the cardboard.

Jovi took longer than I expected. Ten minutes had passed, there was no sign of him coming out of the bathroom.

Not wanting to drown in agitation again, I grabbed the remote and squeezed it. Songs flow from the speakers next to the TV.

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Your human scent always make me drink

Your human scent always make me high

But I love it so much

Your human scent is like a dew

Your human scent is like rain

And my heart is parched land

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That voice... that song, I know him!

I've heard it, I'm sure. And of course I don't remember when and where I heard it. What a rotten brain.

I'm not a fan of music. Pop, rock, RnB, blues, jazz, or whatever it is.

The only genre of music I hear is ballet. Well.. You can't dance ballet without music, can you?? Oebly ..

So---where do I know about this song?

The melody and the verse felt so familiar.

Dance of The Sugar Plum*- believe me, I've heard and danced with this song maybe a thousand times---. *That song I accidentally heard, left a sense of comfort and calm in my mind.

"I'm ready"... Jovi with a neat makeup, appeared next to me.

" Let's go!!" Jovi sounded too excited.

I pulled my hand so I could stand. Then I stepped towards the door following him. I hate shopping, my mind.

And according to what I imagined.

Jovi took me to some boutiques that he thought were very nice. He looked at my black credit card with a big smile. It will open some very expensive doors he said excitedly.

I just nodded when I didn't understand what he meant

And that's it, the rest of the day we spent in and out of boutiques and malls just looking for clothes that Jovi thinks I deserve to wear tomorrow.

And she agreed with Charlie and Oscar on this, my fashion sense was bad. He rejected all the clothes I chose with a horrified face.

At the first boutique, Jovi handed me nearly ten dresses of various colors to try.

I resignedly followed her wishes, but out of the ten dresses, none of them satisfied her. We left without buying anything.

The second shop, I got shoes. Jovi didn't make me wear high heel, but he gave me shoes with very short heel.

That would be enough for a casual dating event she said. I also like the shoes of his choice, because they don't bite my feet like they do at parties.

For the selection of clothes, it really became a challenge for me. Jovi made me go out into a number of boutiques that I can't count anymore how many exactly. And finally she chose a soft green short dress for me.

She hugged me happily as I walked out of the fitting room. I also laughed happily because it meant that this grueling journey would be over.

But I was wrong, Jovi pulled me to the next boutique to look for hair accessories suitable for my dress.

I almost pulled him home at that moment. But seeing her genuine smile to help, I became heartless, I ended up just smiling and following her again.

He even called Charlie using a video call, asking for his opinion. This meant that this quest became longer than the previous one, as Charlie's taste was also very difficult to satisfy.

After eating pasta for dinner - I'm not really hungry, but I'll give you any reason to sit down. My feet had reached their threshold when Jovi wanted to take me to the 12th boutique - and drive Jovi back to the apartment, Alex took me home.

I'm so tired. Jovi is an amazing friend, only sometimes he is very excited for things that I cannot understand.

I still love it, though he makes my feet almost like jelly right now, my mind with a small smile.

**Dance of The Sugar Plum: Ost. Ballet the Nutcracker