I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Starla's Sadness.

"DON'T GOIIIII.... "

Lucas cried when he woke up from his daydream. His eyes looked red, with breath feeling tight. The memories of 10 years ago are again present in his memory, not even just tonight, in every previous night Lucas will always be haunted by painful memories to make him feel tormented with the shadow of his past. Where when he had to lose the girl he loved so much just because of a mistake that he never even did. And that has made him suffer so much that he is now. In fact, he could not do anything when his father arranged a game that made him have to lose the girl he loved so much, the girl who was not at all wanted by the father, the father, a figure who loves him very much and considers if he is the most valuable treasure in this world.

Whatever he wants, the father will be happy to grant it all, but not with the blessing of his relationship with the girl who has long been his lover. Even his father never gave a clear reason why the father was very opposed to their relationship.

"If you ask for this whole world, I'll give it to you, but not with Dad's blessing, until anytime, I won't approve of it."

Those are the words of the father who always ring in Lucas' ear, he realized that his lover did not come from a family that has a high position, abundant wealth, power and from a high caste like himself. Only that made him sure of his father's reasons for not respecting his relationship with the girl he loved.

Slowly Lucas got up from his seat, stepping into his room. The only place where he could see the face of his lover, a place where he could express his longing, because that is where all the photos of his lover filled the entire wall of his room.

"I'll find and bring you back Honey."

Lucas muttered with a smile while kissing one of the biggest frames there

With increasingly teary eyes as Lucas re-dissolved into his daydream, the beautiful daydream that always made him smile a little.

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* GERMAN (MUNCHEN).

This morning there was something different from the scene at Cafe Alpha, too quiet than usual, and that is not unusual for Starla who has been waiting for a figure who has always been her happiness in the morning. Who else if not the sweet face of an Alpha, the man who always makes him smile in the morning and evening.

"Did he not go to the cafe today? But what's up? Is he sick?"

Starla muttered, still standing beside the street near Cafe Alpha, while occasionally looking at the clock that was circular in her arms, which is now showing at 10 a.m. Even his feelings were getting more agitated with all the questions he did not get the answer to, and it was enough to make his body instantly relax.

He slowly stepped closer to Cafe Alpha, standing in front of a closed entrance with a CLOSE writing board hanging from his door. Slowly Starla put her face on the door of the Cafe, until her smooth forehead stuck perfectly on the surface of the door. Starla tried to peer through the glass door, hoping she could see the figure she wanted to see two hours ago.

"Kyaaka.. Aahs.. Ma's.. Excuse me.. Excuse me.. L'm.. That, earlier.. "

With a shocked face and perfectly widened eyes, Starla stepped back, as her face almost kissed the face of Alpha who suddenly opened her Cafe door and stood quite close, right in front of Starla, even their distance only separated a few centi meters. While Starla with a reddened face and heart that began to beat fast can only be bowed while condemning her carelessness.

"What's wrong?"

Tanya Alpha who actually has since noticed the movements of Starla from behind the door of the Cafe which is very clear from inside the Cafe but not visible from outside the Cafe. Even Starla's behavior became entertainment for Alpha who had smiled widely when he saw the girl who had been standing in front of his Cafe for two hours with a confused expression.

"What tone is something?" Ask Alpha again.

"Ah nothing, that was me, I thought you weren't at the Cafe today. I was thinking if you were sick, you were okay." Reply to Starla who spoke on the table to cover up her nervousness.

"Alpha," said Alpha.

"Huh?"

"Call me Alpha, Miss... "

"Ah yes.. Alpha, I'm Starla, Starla Galenka,"

"What's looking for me, Starla?" Alpha asked again while looking at the nervous face of Starla who was raising her head up so that she could clearly see the face of Alpha who was now standing right in front of her.

"Nothing serious, I just felt weird not seeing you this morning," replied Starla who finally fell back down as her reply left Alpha speechless with one eyebrow slightly raised upwards.

"Any? So you've been waiting for me all this time?" Ask Alpha who's making Starla even more nervous.

"Of course, uh.. No. gabe. I meani.. Ja.. Sorry."

Starla replied that the slight flutter was enough to tickle Alpha's stomach and make her barely laugh, and fortunately she could still hold it, especially when he saw the blushing face of Starla who suddenly bowed when Alpha's eyes were back on him.

"I'm sorry, I'm used to seeing you every morning, so I felt something was different when I didn't see you, I thought you were sick." Said Starla slowly.

"I'm fine, come in.. "

Reply Alpha while opening the Cafe door and immediately step inside, then followed by Starla who immediately sat herself in a chair right beside the window, the chair he sat on when he first entered the cafe.

"I've been here since this morning." Alpha said while making two cups of Cappucino for himself and Starla who had already sat there sweetly.

"really? I'm the one who came late,"

"Not really, it seems like you're always on time, I'm part of it, there's something I need to do, too." Alpha Reply.

"Ah yes.. Thanks." Starla smiled as Alpha served her a cup of cappuccino and sat right in front of her. And of course it made Starla thump, an event she had never imagined before, can sit alone with a man who has been in awe for a long time accompanied by a cup of cappucino made and also the strains of classical music.

"So you're the girl who's standing there every morning?"

Alpha asked as he sipped a cup of his cappuccino, while the one who got the question could only smile nervously while squatting his fingers that he had purposely hidden under the table, right on his lap.

"Look.. Jaa.. Excuse me.. Did you realize it?" Ask Starla slowly.

"Hm.. But it doesn't matter, I didn't realize it was Yoon who told me." Answer Alpha casually.

Bucket mouth, just watch out for you if you meet me.

Starla's mind while scratching her true nape did not feel itchy at all.

"Since when?" Ask Alpha.

"Huh?"

"You always stand there?"

"Ah that, since two years ago," replied Starla tampa staring at Alpha's face.

"Two years? That long?"

"Yes.. Do I look like a stupid girl?" Ask Starla slowly.

"Well, exactly not like that, you're just a little.. "

"Inhazardous?"

"Do you feel that way?"

"Huh? Ja.. It was embarrassing, but somehow, that shameful thing made me so happy." Replied Starla who seemed aware showed her smile.

"Why?" Ask Alpha.

"Because I like it,"

And I like you too, Mr. Alpha.

Starla's inner self again could only be bowed to cover her nervousness.

"I'm happy to see you always." Starla mumbled that was still down, she actually really did not want to answer all the questions from Alpha which she thought was very embarrassing, but there was no other choice, he said, because he knew that Leon must have told him everything, and Starla also believed that Alpha asked him again because he just wanted to convince her, because according to Starla personally, he said, Alpha is an intelligent man, though never sensitive to the circumstances around him, to make Starla again curse Leon once again.

"I'm happy because I can make you happy" Alpha said, smiling as if he were stale.

Edrea is also very happy to see me.

Inner Alpha who again remembered the figure of Edrea, but he realized that at this time Starla's heart was about to explode because it was happy, what happiness doubled for Starla this morning, this morning, because Berta's man who in his mind is an arrogant, cold, and irritable talk turned out to be just nonsense. The truth is that Alpha is a very pleasant, smiling and very kind person.

What a nice simple guy.

That was what Starla had in mind and mind at the moment.

Until the sound of the doorbell rings, a sign if someone enters the cafe.

Don't tell me if what's coming is...

Starla's body suddenly sagged as what she thought was true, right, because someone who had been cursing since then is now stepping towards him with a special smile that makes Starla want to shrink and run while squatting in the corner. In addition, Leon is currently showing a grin to tease Starla who suddenly changed her facial expression that had looked so fresh now looks very withered.

"Hey, is he our first visitor this morning?" Tempt Leon while pulling up another chair that was beside Alpha and directly sitting beside Starla.

"I beg.. You don't need it here,"

Starla muttered slightly while maintaining her smile in front of Alpha, while her eyes glared slightly at Leon who was only widened when he saw Starla's behavior.

"Have you forgotten that I work here? I'm even more in need here." Reply Leon while raising his eyebrows many times.

"Well, why don't you go to the pantry to wash dirty cups, or take out the trash, or you can clean the toilet, too" Starla said.

"Yak.. A handsome man like me deserves to do such a job" protested Leon.

"Stop flirting with each other" Alpha said.

"WE DON'T FLIRT WITH EACH OTHER."

Leon and Starla replied simultaneously which made Alpha gasp in shock.

"Yes, Yoon, can you handle everything?" Alpha asked with a faint smile.

"Of course, you can leave now" replied Leon nodding softly.

"All right,"

"Hm.. Be careful."

Reply Leon, as well as Alpha who immediately stepped up from his seat, and did not forget he threw a smile at Starla before he stepped towards the exit, up to 5 minutes later the Alpha motorbike is seen leaving the cafe, telling Starla and Leon who are still staring at each other.

"What else?"

Leon asked when he found Starla staring at him in horror. But immediately the gaze turned to sparkle with a face filled with a smile to make Leon shudder in horror while fingering the nape of his neck.

"Stop, you're so scary with that kind of expression." Leon Said.

"Ish why you're so insensitive, aren't you going to ask me something?" Ask Starla smiling.

"Tampa asked I already knew what was going on" Leon replied casually.

"really?"

"That's very visible on your face Starla," Reply Leon while rubbing the tip of his nose like a habit he often does.

"But.. Where's Mr Khandra going this morning?" Starla asked a little curiously.

"Taking care of something, he'll be leaving this place soon." Leon replied which surprised Starla.

"Huh? You mean this Cafe? Where else would Alpha go?"

"Alpha?"

"Mr Khandra, after all Alpha himself asked me to call him that." Reply Starla.

"really? Wuuaaoooww's chat.. Pretty fast progress, looks like Alpha has accepted you to be his friend,"

"meaning?" Starla asked.

"He never cared for the name that people referred to him, but for Alpha, you were the first person he allowed to call him that. But Alpha's not just leaving this Cafe, but this country, and going back to his country." Reply to Leon who made Starla limp for a moment.

"Ma.. You mean Alpha's leaving? Butwhy? Is he going to open a new cafe branch there?" Starla asked with a sad expression.

"Huh? Ca.. Branch Cafe?" Reply Leon frowned confusedly.

"Hm.. Didn't we? There's no way Alpha's going back to his country and going to be unemployed there?"

Leon who heard Starla's words just now could only take a deep breath, he forgot that in Starla's eyes, Alpha Khandra was just an ordinary man who owned a simple Cafe. Even Starla never knew what kind of man and how rich an Alpha is in her country. As a President Director at BRT GROUP Company, Alpha Khandra very successfully hid his identity and replaced him as an ordinary man, and that's the fact that Starla has known so far. As if he did not want to argue with Starla, Leon could only nod his head at Starla's question, which now looked sad.

"What else is with your face? That feeling of your face was not as tangled as it is now," asked Leon upon noticing the different expression of Starla.

"Why should he go?" Starla asked who really looked sad, even her eyes looked glazed to the point of making Leon a little worried.

"He had a reason to leave." Answer Leon slowly.

"Reason? Is he getting married?" Ask Starla.

"Not at all, let alone to marry, lover only he has none."

Replied Leon who made Starla instantly look to breathe a sigh of relief, although it still left sadness in his heart. It was not even an hour ago that he finally spoke and smiled with Alpha, until the moment he heard the news that Alpha was about to leave was enough to take him down.

"You don't have to be that sad as Starla, she just left this country, not left this world." Said Leon who was trying to calm Starla.

"Stay, not seeing him for a day makes me sad,"

"Do you love her so much?" Leon asked, looking at Starla's face.

"I don't have to answer your question, do I? And I think you know the answer, too." Starla replied trying to smile with tears already dripping from the corner of her eyes.

"Well, I know how you feel, I just didn't expect you to react the way you do today." Reply Leon while wiping the tears of Starla that pierced from the corner of his eye. Even he did not understand why Starla could be this sad.

"You okay?" Ask Leon slowly.

"No, you know Yoon.. "

"Don't be like this Starla,"

"Then what should I be like Yoon? Alpha doesn't even know how I feel about her yet" replies Starla, who is still trying to smile.

"Why don't you just say it? tell me if you like it."

"It's not that easy" Reply Starla bowed.

"Who said you should say it, right? That's not a hard thing."

"But I... "

"Fear that Alpha's gonna turn you down? You haven't even tried it." Leon Said.

"Why are you so easy to say that word Yoon?"

"Because it's not a difficult thing Starla, I suggest, you should be quick to say it before it's too late, as Alpha accepts you or not, it's a later affair, the most important thing right now is that you can express your feelings, the feeling that you've had for two years is a damper."

"Come Yoon.. I'm just afraid, you know, it's the first time I've ever felt in love and liked someone again, after.."

"I know, and it's not time to remember the past, is it?" Reply Leon while rubbing the head of Starla who is still down with tears that come back from the corner of his eye. The past he had almost forgotten now re-shadowed him.

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* TO BE CONTINUED.