I Can'T Have Your Heart.
EXTRA CHAPTERS.

...ALPHA STRUGGLES. ...

* flashback.

"All... "

"Rirly.. Excuse me.. If I ask you to meet in this place."

"No problem All" replied Emery who immediately sat in front of Alpha who immediately felt something strange in his heart that had been pounding ever since. Emery in her pink dress made Alpha not look away at her, her eagle eyes staring with a warm loving gaze, a gaze that Emery had never seen in all this time, the look that made Emery's heart warm.

Since when he looks so different, it's because I haven't noticed him all this time, so I never realized, how graceful and beautiful Emery is. Alpha. You're so stupid, you're so stupid,

"I ordered a strawberry Cake for you" said Alpha who immediately thrust a Strawberry Cake towards Emery, to cover up his nervousness when faced with Emery who immediately smiled.

"What's wrong? Don't you like it?" Ask Alpha when he sees Emery who has not touched the order Cake since.

"Sorry.. But I don't really like strawberries,"

Gosh darn.. Fool, why don't I know if he's allergic to strawberries. Alpha.. You're a really bad guy. It turns out there's a lot I don't know about you. I I feel so sorry now.

"Ah, sorry.. I'm thinking.. You like it, well I'll replace it with... "

"No need for All... " An Emery replied, holding Alpha's hand as he was about to call a Cafe waiter.

"But you don't like it,"

"No problem All.. I'll eat it,"

"No," Reply Alpha who immediately distanced the Cake from the presence of Emery.

"Ry.. Can you say anything you don't like? and what do you like? L'm.. I really want to know, because I don't want to make any more mistakes."

"Besides Strawberry, I like everything All.. "

"Include me?" Ask Alpha.

"Huh? Ja.. I mean.. " An Emery replied blushed with a flushed face. And that sight was enough to make Alpha's heart beat again very fast.

"Rirly.. How you been doing all this time? I mean, as long as we're apart.. Do you feel any difficulty? sorry. if I ask this."

"It doesn't matter All, if you want to know, but... I don't have anything wonderful to tell you."

"Are you really in trouble? and as long as I'm with you, I'm sorry.. L'm.. "

"All.. It's all over, and it's good we don't bring it up again." Emery said slowly.

"But I really want to know how hurt and hurt you are."

"What knowing it can make you relieved? I don't even want us to remember it anymore, because, in our old days, there were bitter and painful memories, both of you and me."

"I knew... I just want to find out how sick you are, and I... Wanting to make up for everything, I want to feel your pain and..."

"All.. That's not what I expect from you, I beg you, let there be no more torment among us, we now have happiness, and... "

"Are you happy now?"

".......... "

"Rirly.. Anwser me. Do you have your happiness?"

"All.. Ever since I met you again, I've been happy, and... "

"Daniel's.. Has he really replaced me?" Alpha asked with a sharp look, a look of hope that Emery did not say the word 'Yes' 'Right' or even a nod.

"......... "

"Rirly... Can you answer my question?" Ask Alpha. "I don't even want you to be with her always."

"Can you tell me why? why?"

"Because I.. Still want you Riry.."

"Are you sure?"

"Whatchu mean? Of course I'm pretty sure."

"All... Don't you already love another girl? The girl who was in the hospital back then, wasn't she? the girl who made you question that time?"

"I... "

"All.. You should think again, believe your feelings, enough. And I don't want to anymore, we made the same mistake."

"Rirly.. "

"Listen to me All.. Maybe you're confused right now, I can understand if you say you still want me, and fear of losing me, maybe it's a natural feeling because we've forgiven each other, but... if all these feelings are present because of love. I'm not sure, and I don't believe it at all. Excuse me... "

"Rirly.. Can you hear me?"

"All.. Until now I still feel afraid, to expect more from you I really don't have the courage to."

"Rirly.. "

"We'd better go home, I'm pretty tired today."

"Sorry.. All right, I'll drive you."

"No need.... "

Even after finishing his words, Alpha immediately moved from his seat and pulled Emery's Arm, holding onto even the slender waist of Emery who was only silent and resigned when receiving Alpha treatment. Even if they realize if they both have become the center of attention of everyone who is in the Cafe.

"All.. Isn't this too much, I..."

"Shut up and let me embrace you like this,"

"But... "

"I like doing it. Can you just obey? I don't want people to see you like that, let alone a few men there, it feels like I want to kill them one by one." Reply Alpha who again floated his gaze towards a group of men in suits who were enjoying their Coffee. Until their gaze shifted as the sharp eyes of Alpha eagles clashed with their eyes.

Up to 30 minutes later, Alpha's car was parked in front of Emery's residence, silence was immediately accompanying them, not a single word came out of their mouths, only a heartbeat was heard between them.

"Thank you for coming with me." Alpha's speech broke the silence between them.

"Yes All.. Goodby.. "

"Wait."

Serga Alpha slowly grabbed Emery's hand. Grasping it tightly, and the other hand stroking Emery's hair, content to play with Emery's long hair, Alpha's palm again stroking Emery's already blushing cheeks, the, and slowly bring Emery's palm to touch his chest.

"Can you feel it?" Alpha asked slowly as he stuck Emery's palm on his chest, and felt how strong Alpha's heart was at the moment.

"Actually I was tired, kept holding back like this, no matter how hard I convinced myself that I didn't want you, no matter how much I avoided my feelings that came so suddenly, but it was so difficult Emery, he said, the more days I think about you, the more I get tired of my hard feelings of compromise, the more I get tired of lying to my heart, and now, I can't help it anymore. I know, if I really wanted you that much from then on, I even had the fear of losing, I know you wouldn't believe it that easily either, but this is the reality Ry, I.. Ilove you. Really am... I want to get you back."

"All... "

"And... I want to see if you feel the same way." Alpha cupped Emery's face back and looked at her with a warm look.

"All.. What the.. "

Emery's sentence came to a halt when Alpha suddenly brought his face closer, until it was only a few cents away.

"Let me kiss you" whispered Alpha slowly with a face full of pleading, even the look of her eyes not shifting a bit from Emery's reddened face.

"Just this once, I want to know if you still feel the same way."

Alpha said, tilting his head and directly sticking his soft lips to Emery's lips, which immediately closed. Alpha gently rubs both sides of Emery's cheeks feeling the softness and warmth provided by Alpha, even tampa in realized Emery if he had wrapped both his hands around the neck Alpha who still kissed him. Until their kiss ended. Alpha gently rubbed Emery's red lips, rubbed her face back and stroked her long hair.

"Thank you Emery, for allowing me to kiss you" whispered Alpha while trying to catch her breath.

"And, sorry... " Smell Alpha slowly.

"For what?"

"Because I still want it,"

Alpha whispers that again kissed Emery's lips, even before Emery answered him, Emery can only resign while receiving the touches given Alpha, honest touch made him drift and forget everything, the touch that he never got so far, until finally he realized with a breath that had been thinned, even Alpha did not give it space to breathe oxygen. Emery slowly patted Alpha on the back, making Berta Man aware if Emery needed oxygen.

"I'm sorry... I can't control myself" Alpha said in a heavy voice, bowing his head while gripping his hair firmly.

"I have to go in now." Reply to Emery coming straight out of Alpha's car.

"Wait," Serga Alpha before Emery steps away leaving him.

"What's All?"

"Are you mad at me?"

"........ "

"I'm sorry... I really can't control it, I'm sorry."

"I understand, Go home... " Emery replied smiling and immediately stepped away leaving Alpha looking very sorry.

Alpha violently hit the wheel, clutching her hair firmly, while sticking her forehead on the steering wheel.

You should be able to control yourself, you idiot, you're even making him almost out of Alpha breath.. And look, what you've done. Stupid jerk...

Alpha is busy cursing himself. And with a heavy heart, Alpha drove out of his car, leaving Emery's residence before he looked up at the balcony of Emery's room, which was still covered in curtains.

* * * * *

With his eyes still slightly sleepy, Alpha got out of bed and continued walking down the stairs while tidying up his hair that looked quite messy. Even his eyes had not opened perfectly as he was already standing at the end of the stairs and hearing the sound of chatter in a voice that was familiar to him.

"Good afternoon Alpha... "

"The.... Siang Emery... Aisssh... " Alpha quickly turned her back, hid her still-disheveled face and immediately ran up the stairs to her room.

"You... Why run like that? Who's after you?"

"Why not tell me if Emery's downstairs? and Mum? when did you get back from Germany?" Ask Alpha while shuffling his waist.

"Sad, so now you're embarrassed if Emery sees that ugly face of yours?"

"Shut up you fuck... " Thumpat Alpha who suddenly remembered the kiss between himself and Emery the other day that made his face red.

"Are you okay? What's wrong with your face? Last night I and Dareen picked up Aunt Aleen at the airport, and when Auntie got to bed, so I'm sorry if I didn't tell you first. But.. I'm still wondering, where were you last night?" Leon asked as he looked at Alpha's suddenly flushed face.

"Are you intentionally pranking me? Aiisssh.."

With wide strides, Alpha leaves Leon and goes back into his room instead of answering Leon's questions. While Leon can only smile with satisfaction when he managed to prank Alpha.

On the ground floor of the living room, Mrs Caroline and Mrs Aleen were talking. While Emery who listened only fell silent, while listening, to one discussion that suddenly made Emery nervous.

"Caroline... I'm sorry to discuss the matter now, but there's something I'd like to ask Emery." Mrs Emery said in between their chat.

"Of course Aleen, you can ask anything."

"Emery.. How do you feel about Mother's Son, Alpha?" Asked Mrs Aleen who momentarily made Emery speechless.

"I'm.."

"Mom wants you to be honest" said Mrs Aleen, clutching Emery's palm.

"I'm sorry, I don't really want to talk about this now either, but... Hearing the recent Alpha change in attitude that is not as usual makes Mother worried, even Leon also said if Alpha is always aloof with a face that looks sad, and that's because All often thinks of you."

"........... "

"Maybe Alpha is still confused by his current feelings" continued Mrs Caroline.

"Yes, it could be, but this time Alpha looks a lot different. So, I just want to say, if you still want All, I want you to be able to open your heart to him, and give him one more chance, I'll be very grateful to you Emery. But.. If you don't want him anymore, I'll try to convince All to let him forget his feelings, and I'll take him back to Germany."

"Mothers... Can Mother Aleen give me time to think?" Ask Emery slowly.

"Of course, honey, I'll wait."

"And I also hope this time you can make the right decision." Continued Mrs Caroline while rubbing the hair Emery, Mrs Caroline who already understood the feelings of Emery can only take a deep breath while continuing to look at Emery's face filled with anxiety.

I know, if you still really want an Alpha.. I give up Emery, hopefully you can make the right decision this time. And whatever your decision, whoever you choose to accompany you, I will accept it. I just want you to be happy.

Until the clock shows at 12 noon, Mansion Alpha again looks lonely, because the Cullen family has left the place. With a feeling of disappointment Alpha stepped towards the living room sofa and immediately spread his body there while folding his hands under his head to make a pillow.

"All... "

"Yes Mother.. "

"It looks like you're going to have to work even harder if you want to get Emery back,"

"I know Ma'am," Reply Alpha who immediately confirmed his position.

"Emery still doesn't trust me" continued Alpha with a face filled with worry.

"That's natural, All, and you just need to be patient."

"When is Mom?"

"Until Emery really believes that you love him and want to come back with him."

"I know, I'll try to do everything, but.."

"What's All?"

"What if Emery still doesn't accept me? Not only Emery, not even Aunt Carol has accepted my feelings for Emery."

"All.. I understand your anxiety, and, no matter what happens, whatever answer Emery gives you, I hope you can accept it with sincerity."

"But, I'm not sure I can take it all, I.... "

"All... "

"I really want Emery." Muttering Alpha slowly, even when he heard the answer from his mother, Alpha immediately moved from his seat, and continued to step out. Until not long ago Alpha cars were heard leaving the garage of his Mansion.

With frightening looking eyes Alpha kept looking ahead. His heart that was suddenly filled with wounds could only fall silent with clenched hands upon seeing the unusual sight before him. Where he can clearly see when Kang Daniel was hugging tightly Emery's body which looks visibly dagged in Kang Daniel's arms.

Do you really feel pain now? Did I hurt you until you came back crying? butwhy? Why would Daniel.. You're driving me crazy Emery.. Really am.. You're driving me completely crazy right now.

Quickly, Alpha started the engine of his car and immediately drove it at a very high speed, crossing the highway seems to concern some of the screaming and shouting of other drivers who are disturbed and afraid of the speed of their cars that have exceeded the average speed limit. Alpha keeps driving like a doormat, man, his heart and mind that has been filled with anger and jealousy makes it look like a depressed person who does not think at all if the speed of the car he drives can cause an accident and end fatally. Until the car stopped at a nightclub, which there was already lined up some sexy-dressed women with seductive smiles, their gaze was immediately fixed on the figure of Alpha who could be said to be a near-perfect male figure ranging from head to toe. A figure that is no stranger to some people who already know the family surnamed Berta.

"Good night Mr. Berta, we will..."

"Don't touch me." Answer Alpha flat with a cold, scary-looking look.

"Ah, sorry Mister, I just.. "

"Sway.. While I'm still being nice." Alpha reply to one of the women who was about to touch him.

With a widened stride, Alpha walked into the Club, headed for a counter and began ordering a glass of The Winston Cocktail to the bartender and began to gulp, even up to 3 hours passed, Alpha was still there, even though he had finished a few drinks and made him drunk. Realizing that he was unable to continue drinking again because his head was heavy, Alpha moved slowly until his body fell because it could not hold its balance.

"Sorry Mr. Khandra, you're so drunk now, I'll call..."

"No need... I can... Go home yourself.." Answer the Alpha who immediately shook the bartender's hand.

"Don't touch me... No one can... Touching me, do you understand... Only Riry can touch me.. Stay away from me... " Advanced Alpha who was trying to walk on his own.

"Mr Khandra, be careful, you will fall if.... "

"UNHANDLE... DON'T TOUCH... DO YOU ALWAYS TOUCH PEOPLE?" Amuk Alpha who lost control, his mind returned to Emery who was in Kang Daniel's arms. Even with the anger that was not controlled anymore Alpha slammed some tables in the room and made a commotion, to make some customers who did not accept the Alpha action become angry.

"So your attitude sir... "

"What are you... HOW DARE YOU PERSUADE ME MOTHERFUCKER.. " Alpha screams that immediately release one punch towards one of the Club visitors that night, until the fight can not be avoided anymore.

Half an hour passed, Alpha could feel his body being held by someone, even taking him out of the Club and putting him in the car.

"Are you okay?" Leon asked who apparently got a phone call from the Bartender to pick up Alpha who was drunk and even lost control.

"He's... How dare he hug my woman.. How dare he touch.. My woman... "

"Alpha... What exactly is going on? you even made a troublemaker at the Club."

"You're quiet... L'm... I'm gonna kill them all... "

"alright... Alright.. You can kill anyone as you please, but not now, because we have to go home to take care of your wounds."

"No... I'm gonna go see Riry..."

"All... It's so late, please don't do it again, we're going home now."

"TIDAAAC... UNDER ME NOW ASSHOLE... I WANT TO SEE RIRY.... " Alpha shouted that immediately moved and tried to take control of the steering wheel that was in Leon's grasp.

"Yaaaaack... We'll die if you keep moving like that, all right... I'll take you there, and I hope Emery doesn't see you in that state." Omel Leon turned the wheel and drove back to Emery's residence.

"Yoon's.. What's wrong with her?" Emery asked immediately outside the house when getting a phone call from Leon who deliberately contacted him.

"Either.. When I picked her up at a nightclub, she was already in this state."

"All.. What the hell is wrong with you? Why are you being like this?" Emery asked slowly as he held onto Alpha's still-subdued shoulders in a squatting position in front of Emery's porch.

"Rirly... Don't you know, if I... I'm so jealous... Her... Why did you let him hold you... Why would... "

"All... Whatchu mean?"

"He's... He hugged you, and it made me.. Made me crazy.. L'm.. I don't want you to be touched by another guy Riry... "

"All... I'm sorry, I'm sorry... " Emery said as she rubbed Alpha's back which suddenly sobbed.

"I'm not willing... Really am... You are Emery Cullen's... I don't want any other man to touch you... I'm begging... Don't do this again... Don't let anyone else hold you... I'm going crazy... I Please... Ririy.. " Alpha spoke immediately, his head pecking at the floor with a trembling body.

"All... Please don't do this... "

"Please... Reply me... Do whatever makes you feel better... Reply to everything I did Riry... But I beg you... Don't make me crazy for jealousy... I can't... Because I love you.. Ririy.. Ilove you.."

Alpha recognition that makes Emery sob, because after a long time Emery awaits the word, finally tonight he can hear it, hear the word love from Alpha.

I love you Alpha too..

An unconscious Alpha makes Emery even more frantic, with Leon quickly grabbing Alpha's body and breaking it.

"Emer... I'll take him home."

"Yoon's... Please take care of him, and his injuries."

"Yes, I'll take care of him, just calm down, and.... Can you consider Alpha's feelings? He's very sincere now, I know it's hard for both of you, especially for you, but. You can still unite, if you trust Alpha." Said Leon who immediately stepped towards the car and put the body of Alpha, alight in a matter of seconds the black Alphard Alpha car had gone fast.

* * * * *

* EMERY CULLEN RESIDENCE.

"Will you marry me?"

"Yes, I want to marry you."

The warm words that still ring in Alpha's ears when he reapplied Emery, even had a few fingers passed, the word still feels very happy until now, to date, The moment where he returned to say a sacred promise to Emery witnessed by each of Berta's extended family as well as the Cullen family. Until the time Alpha Khandra Berta and Emery Cullen declared legitimate as a couple. Although it is not easy to get through it all, but with the determination and patience of an Alpha he finally managed to convince the Cullen family, if Emery is the woman he chooses, the woman he wants, he said, and the woman he loved.

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...TO BE CONTINUED. ...