I Can'T Have Your Heart.
EXTRA CHAPTERS.

...ALPHA AND EMERY. ...

* flashback.

Alpha leaned his body on the back of the sofa, his eyes closed with a mind filled with immortality. Even he himself felt confused with his heart at this time, since when the face of Emery, the girl who had filled his life for 5 years turned into a resident in his mind. His mind is raging, he is sure if all this time he loves Starla, even he is also sure if Starla is his first love, but why now the shadow of Starla seems to disappear replaced by the shadow of Emery, but why, the figure of the woman he hated desperately.

What's wrong with my heart, I love Starla, but why would my heart be afraid if Emery stayed away.

"All... Aren't you waving there long enough?" Asked Leon who suddenly appeared and immediately disperse the Alpha daydream instantly.

"Yoon's.. Do you think it's natural that right now my thoughts are often with Emery?" Ask Alpha who immediately confirmed his sitting position, even his face looks serious when asking a question that makes Leon immediately smile.

"I'm waiting for your answer, not wanting to see your smile."

"Why not? isn't Emery the first woman in your life?"

"But you know for yourself that I don't love her in the least, but... "

"Love Starla?"

"Even in my mind there's no Starla now,"

"All.your heart chooses Emery. That's the answer, and as for how you feel about Starla, you're just confused, because when you shut yourself down for two years, Starla is present and always around you."

"Either.. I miss him a little bit now, too,"

"Starla?"

"Emery.. Is she okay? is the wound on his neck okay? what's..... "

"Wouldn't you just visit her?" Ask Leon.

"You mean?"

"You're busy spending your time here wondering about Emery's situation, why don't you just visit him?"

"No. I'm still very busy today, I'm sure he's fine." Answer Alpha who immediately stepped up from his seat and stepped into his room.

Since the incident at the hospital at that time, Alpha has never met Emery again, although the feeling of longing sometimes bothers his heart, Alpha prefers to keep waiting and ensure his feelings to Emery, he said, either it was purely because Alpha was worried, or because he already really had a taste for the woman.

Until half an hour passed, Alpha again looks out of the room with an unusual appearance, even he looks much more handsome with his Casual clothes, he said, to make Leon who is still busy with the game becomes fixated on seeing the Alpha Appearance.

"You? where are you going?" Asked Leon who still had not distracted him, as well as Dareen who had just come and immediately sat beside Leon.

"Meet Clients."

"But the young master doesn't have a schedule to meet the Client tonight, sorry if I'm wrong, but.. "

"Can you just shut up, Dareen?" Ask Alpha who is immediately nervous.

"Sorry Sir, I... "

"Why did you get nervous like that? where are you really going with your handsome face?" Ask Leon.

"I... Come on, at home... Miss Caroline.." Alpha answered while tidying up his clothes.

"What's? since when do you have business with Miss Caroline?" Leon asked with a faint smile that made Alpha even more nervous. Even his ears look red tampa in his consciousness.

"Mom wants me to send a message to Miss Caroline, that's all."

"Auntie has a cell phone to contact Mrs Caroline directly if there is anything important to say? why do you have to bother going there?"

"True sir, or let me just go there to..."

"YAAAKKK... CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP? WHY ARE YOU TWO BEING SO FUSSY?" The Alpha screams that immediately stepped away left Leon and Dareen still glued with their mouths shut. They could only stare at each other with their hearts still pounding due to the Alpha's loud sound that left them shocked.

"Is there anything wrong with..... "

"Ssttt. You better shut up, if you still want to breathe until tomorrow." Replied Leon who immediately continued the game.

"What's wrong with Mr Alpha?"

"She's just confused by her feelings, you better let her."

"meaning?"

"He still loves Starla, but his heart always thinks of Emery."

"Emery?"

"Hm,"

"I think Mr. Alpha does care about Mrs Emery a lot, and it was very clear at the time of the incident at the hospital yesterday, how panicked and scared Alpha was when he saw Mrs Emery in a state of danger, even anyone who sees will think the same, if it is far from the bottom of Mr. Alpha's heart, he actually cares a lot about Mrs Emery, as much as Mr. Alpha hates Mr. Emery."

"You're right Dareen, however sensitive All is, he who never shows his feelings always makes us not able to guess what is in his heart, and only he knows. Whoever the owner of her heart is right now, she must be a very lucky woman. Although his grumpy attitude sometimes pisses off." Reply Leon who is still focused on his game.

* * * * *

* EMERY CULLEN RESIDENCE.

Long Alpha was silent in front of the door Emery home with nervous and anxious, even his hand that had been stretched out in the future still did not dare to touch the red button that functioned as the doorbell of Emery's house.

God fucking.. Since when did I get nervous like this, even more nervous about signing a big tender.

Alpha complains while rubbing his face, until the sound of door knobs is heard along with the door that opens, and shows the figure of Lady Caroline there.

"Good afternoon Aunt Caroline.. "

Alpha greeting who immediately bent his body 90 degrees to pay respects to Madame Caroline who was trying to hide her laughter when she saw the behavior of Alpha.

"It's 7 o'clock Alpha.. "

"Ah yes.. Sorry Aunt.. "

"Please come in." Reply Lady Caroline shook her head softly with her smile.

"I'm sorry. if I interrupt Aunt's time, I.. "

"No problem All, don't hesitate. You're free to come here whenever you want."

"Thank you Aunt, I won't be long, I just want to know the circumstances..." Alpha's mouth suddenly felt mute when he was about to mention Emery's name, he suddenly fell silent while regulating his feelings.

Was my decision right to come here, didn't it look so embarrassing? Jesus Alpha.. Why are you so despicable now.

"Alpha.. What's up?"

"I.. "

"Want to meet Em..."

"Yes Auntie.." Answer Alpha quickly, even before Miss Caroline finishes her sentence.

Gosh darn.. Good response Alpha..

Alpha's inner being while shutting down and taking a deep breath.

"Emery's not home right now."

"What?"

"Daniel picked her up this afternoon."

"Huh? Daniel?"

"Yes, and maybe we'll have dinner together."

"What's? Is not Emery's current condition still not possible to get out of the house? He still needs to rest, what if something happens?"

"Auntie is not so worried if Emery is with Daniel, because Bibi is sure, Daniel can take care of Emery very well." Madame Caroline said that instantly made Alpha's heart suddenly feel pain.

For some reason, he had never felt this sick before when he heard Emery with anyone, even he did not care one bit, but somehow when he heard that Emery was currently with Daniel really makes Alpha feel disturbed.

"Yes, I know.. Emery will be fine.. " Alpha reply looks lethargic even directly bowed.

"All.. Looks like something's bothering you, what's up? Does this have anything to do with Emery?" Ask Mrs Caroline slowly.

"I'm sorry, I just feel a little anxious about Emery's situation."

"Is that all?"

"I.. "

"All... Emery is now in a relationship with Daniel, and as a mother who wants to see her daughter happy, Bibi is very supportive, whoever Emery's choice is. And I think Daniel is the right man for Emery." Said Mrs Caroline who again made Alpha's heart sliced.

"Auntie's right, Daniel is the right man for Emery, unlike me.. "

"Alpha.. Are you comparing yourself to Daniel?"

"No Bi, I.. "

Obviously I am the best.

"Alpha.. Aunty wants you to be honest, actually Aunt was a little surprised when she saw you visit here, sorry, if Auntie was presumptuous to ask this. But, did you come here for Emery?" Ask Mrs Caroline who instantly silenced Alpha's mouth. Whether or not Mrs Caroline's question is correct, Alpha knows she is desperate to see Emery.

"If it's true, Auntie wants to know, what do you mean to meet Emery? Because what Auntie knows all along, your relationship hasn't been so good, ever since your divorce, you haven't seen a good relationship between you, so Auntie thinks, you have, it's only natural that Auntie asks this, I'm sorry.. If Aunt's question offends you Alpha."

"It doesn't matter Auntie, I'm fine, and maybe it's natural, if Aunt asks that question, because I don't really understand my feelings right now, I.. "

"Alpha.. How you feel about. Emery?"

"I.. "

"Emery told me everything, what happened at the hospital at the time, and Aunt should thank you, because you saved Emery's life, too, but.. Is everything you've done really just trying to help Emery?"

"Fearful?" Madam Caroline frowned, a question that only Alpha nods to.

"I'm afraid he's hurt, I'm afraid I can't save him, and I'm really scared to lose him, I don't know what kind of feeling this is."

"Alpha.. Are you sure?"

"Relatedly? Mean Aunt?"

"Your feelings for Emery aren't just about the feelings of an ordinary friend, your excessive fear arises because you want to protect Emery, protect someone who means something to you." Ms. Caroline's reply again made Alpha speechless.

*Is it true like this? since when? why I never realized."

"Alpha.. Aunt please.. If what Auntie thinks is true, can you stay away from Emery?"

"What's? Ma's.. Meanin?"

"Emery was hurt a lot because of you, and your marriage really tormented Emery, he even ended his own life that time, and you didn't care a bit. Aunt scared.. Emery will be hurt again. Can you grant Auntie's request? Pl-please... Stay away from Emery, he's happy enough now."

"But Bi.. I wasn't.... "

"Aunt please... "

"I'm sorry Bi. Emery has been suffering, sorry.. And if there's a way to make up for it, I'm willing to do it,"

"Auntie and Emery never blamed you for Alpha's past, not even if we never blamed you. But... If now your feelings have changed for Emery, Auntie is a little worried, maybe you just feel confused, and... "

"Yes I understand Bi, sorry... "

"Thank you Alpha."

"alright.. Excuse me Bi, and can Bibi convey my greetings... "

"Yes.. Aunty will deliver to Emery." Madam Caroline replied understandingly, although Alpha did not continue with her words.

"Thank you, Bi Caroline.. " Reply Alpha bowed again before Finally leaving the room, leaving Madam Caroline still seeing him, and headed straight for her car which was still parked in Emery's yard.

Long Alpha was silent there with an increasingly erratic feeling. The request of Mrs Caroline who wants her to stay away from Emery is a very difficult request for her, because at the moment she really does not want to stay away from Emery.

And the Alpha reverie that lasted for a few minutes finally came to a halt as sounds from other cars were heard greeting the Alpha sense of hearing. Until the net is fixed to the figure of Emery who just got out of the car.

Emery..

Alpha who with a smile immediately rushed to reopen the door of the car that he had closed, and immediately went out of there, but he had not stepped foot, but had not yet stepped foot, the net was again fixed on the figure of Kang Daniel who came out of the car and immediately took Emery's hand, to make Alpha stunned and returned to his car with a hasty step, before his presence was realized by both.

"Aarrghhh... " Snap Alpha when accidentally his head hit the surface of the car door. A sight he really did not want to see at this moment. Even if Alpha could choose, he would prefer not to be there and watch as Kang Daniel softly kissed Emery's palm.

What the hell are they doing? Don't they know what time it is?

Alpha quickly opened the door of his car and immediately went out to approach the two who were of course immediately surprised by the sudden presence of Alpha, even his gaze looked quite frightening as he looked at Kang Daniel who was still grasping Emery's palm.

"Alpha.. Since when are you there?" Emery's question made Alpha speechless, even he had no answer to Emery's question.

"Are you lost Mr Alpha?" Ask Kang Daniel.

"Be quiet, I'm just passing by." Alpha answered while putting both of his hands in his pants pocket.

"At a clock like this?"

"Is there a rule I have to pass in this place at what time?" Ask Alpha a little off guard with Kang Daniel's question.

"All.. What's up?" Emery's return made Alpha speechless.

"Are you okay? What about your wounds."

"I.. "

"He's fine,"

"I didn't ask you. And can you just shut up? and these... " Alpha replies that immediately drew Emery's hand that was still in Kang Daniel's grasp. "Get your hands off, Emery's not a kid who needs to be held anywhere." Alpha continues to make Kang Daniel gawk while staring at his own hands.

"Alpha... I'm fine, really. Thank you for worrying about me."

"Thank God.. Sorry if it bothers you..."

"Good indeed.. If you realize it." Kang Daniel muttered that immediately returned a look of horror by Alpha who could clearly hear the sentence coming out of Kang Daniel's mouth.

"No problem Alpha. Are you guys gonna keep going outside? You guys didn't go inside?"

"All right, I'm gonna..... "

"No, we're going home now." Alpha replies that quickly pulled Kang Daniel's jacket that was just about to step inside Emery's house.

"Yeah release... "

"What?"

"Stop you two." Emery's repulsive reprimand left Alpha and Kang Daniel speechless, only their eyes clashing with each other, the resentful gaze of a Kang Daniel and the triumphant satisfied gaze of Alpha who immediately smiled obliquely.

"alright.. I'm going in, Good night Daniel, All.. " Said Emery who immediately stepped into his house.

"Are you sure you're just gonna stop by the venerable Mr Alpha?" Kang Daniel asked as Emery had already disappeared from their sight.

"What's wrong? You look very curious."

"Of course, seeing you at Emery's house is highly unlikely."

"Why should it be impossible? What's wrong with that?" Ask Alpha cringing.

"Of course it's wrong, because you two don't have any relationship anymore. If you don't have any other intentions, it doesn't matter to me, but if you intend to disrupt Emery's life, I'd be very objectionable."

"What's? teasing? mind? Meanin?"

"I think you understand very well what I mean by Mr. Alpha, and I think you already know that Emery is my lover now."

"What?"

"You don't have to be surprised like that Mr. Alpha, even your reaction now makes me think if you want Emery."

"You... "

"Am I right Mr Alpha Khandra? and one more thing. You're no longer entitled to Emery, because she's not your wife anymore." Said Kang Daniel who immediately stepped up leaving Alpha who was still silent there.

With mixed feelings, Alpha left Emery's residence, which had been standing behind a window looking at Alpha's departure in confusion.

"Emery.. "

"Mothers.. "

Emery who was surprised by the presence of Mrs Caroline made her a little nervous and immediately closed the window curtain.

"Is Alpha home?"

"Huh? Yeah, just now." Emery replied as he stepped onto the sofa and sat himself down with an increasingly agitated feeling.

"May I ask you something?" Ask Mrs Caroline who also sat next to Emery.

"What's the matter, Mom?"

"How do you feel about Daniel?"

"Daniel? i'm.. Liked her, and I was pretty comfortable being around her."

"Then Alpha?" Emery asked once again which left Emery speechless with a deep breath.

"Emery.. Can you be honest with Mom?"

"What's Mom about?"

"Alpha.. Do you still love him?" Asked Mrs Caroline who again made Emery speechless with a troubled mind. Even just by hearing his mother's question, Emery's heart was pounding again very fast.

"Emery.. You know that, right? I don't want to see you suffer a second time, that's enough."

"I know Mom,"

"So, can you beg for one thing? Forget how you feel about Alpha."

"............ "

"You can do it, all this time you can get through it, right? and I'm sure. Daniel's presence can make you completely forget Alpha."

"............ "

"Emery, don't shut up. Can you do it for Mom?"

"Mothers... "

"It's for your own good, Emery, and Mother.... "

"I'm tired Mom.. I'd better be off too, it's late." Emery replied, stepping slowly into his room, curled up on his bed with a feeling of dismay.

I still love her very much, Mom.. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry,

Emery closed with tears streaming down from the corner of his eyes, squeezing his chest which felt tight, just by thinking of Alpha his heart had been beating very fast. Emery slowly opened his desk drawer which there stored one frame Photos that for 7 years in his storage. Wedding photos that were never displayed or seen by others. Emery hugged the photo. His feelings grew increasingly agonized, longing suddenly approached him, Alpha's face full of worry and fear again flashed in his memory and shadowed him, even just half an hour ago, he saw Alpha's face filled with jealousy. And honestly it makes Emery very happy.

"Alpha... " Emery muttered slowly while cursing.

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