I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Emery's Visit.
"What are you gonna do?" Ask Alpha with his flat face.
"Companying him... "
"Stay where you are" Reply Alpha, which immediately makes Leon gawk. He has not even finished his sentence.
"Why did you suddenly forbid me from seeing Starla? You're..."
"Stay in your place, and don't ask too much, I'm tired" replied Alpha who made Leon shake his head slowly, as if understanding Alpha's current attitude.
"It turns out you're an overprotective guy, I just found out." Babe Leon with a smile that looks more like he's mocking Alpha.
"Whatever.. What's clear is, from now on, if you want to meet her, you have to tell me first, do you understand?" Follow Alpha who immediately moved from his seat.
"Huh? Aren't you overreacting? Are you planning on becoming Starla's security guard? Which everyone should report if they want to meet him?" Asked Leon who in just a matter of seconds, Alpha's palm had already landed right on his head.
"YAKKKKIS... ALPHAAAAA..."
Shouted Leon who immediately threw a sofa pillow towards Alpha which unfortunately even missed and made Leon more upset, so he could only curse while stroking his head, while the Alpha shadow had disappeared from the sight of Leon who was still grimacing in pain.
"What's wrong? Are you okay?" Dareen asked who had just come out of the Alpha workspace and immediately stepped towards Leon who was still rubbing his head.
"Dareen, has All hit you so much?" Ask Leon.
"You mean?"
"Do you know, it looks like soon I could have amnesia if I kept close to Alpha, ahk shit.." Let Leon who just in reply a small smile by Dareen.
"What's the problem? Why did you get another blow from Master Alpha?" Ask Dareen who seems to have found out that Leon often gets punches from Alpha.
"I just said I wanted to accompany Starla in Panthouse." Answer Leon casually.
"And Mr Alpha to react like that?" Ask Dareen who seemed to not believe the words Leon had just said.
"Hm.. "
"What possible.. "
"All love Starla." Leon replied reassuringly waiting for Dareen to finish her sentence.
"It looks like it,"
"It's not like it anymore, but it is." Said Leon with certainty.
"But I'm actually worried about Mr. Alpha" Dareen continued.
"What else should you worry about? He seems fine, even his temperament has been increasing ever since he fell in love with Leon" Reply Leon as he steps into a pantry and returns with a few cold bier cans in his hand.
"Mr Alpha does look fine, but he's not, it looks like he's having a little trouble dealing with his problems this time,"
"Usually he never had trouble every time he faced any problems, but why, with problems like this alone he even looks like a stupid man with a worsening temperament. Said Leon who immediately gulped down a can of cold Bier in his hand.
"Yes, but given the problem he is facing right now, it seems very complicated. Even to deal with Miss Starla alone, Mr. Alpha seems to have a very hard time." Reply Dareen with a tone of voice filled with worry.
"It's very complicated for Alpha who has never experienced such problems in life" Reply Leon a little worried about the state of Alpha.
While in a room that looks dim with minimal lighting, Alpha appears to be leaning his body on the sofa with closed eyes. Although his body was in the room at the moment, his mind was fixed on Starla. From the beginning he never intended to hide everything about his true self to Starla, because from the beginning Starla also never asked about who he was, because from the beginning Starla also never asked about who he was, and that's what makes Alpha so nervous today, because he never knew if Starla's hatred for people like her was so great. And it's possible that, if Alpha held back his feelings again not to fall in love with Starla, he might never feel the anxiety, pain, and worry he had today. But it seems that everything is too late, Alpha who has already fallen in the charm and love of Starla makes it can only resign and hope that everything will be okay, even though it is not easy.
What pain did you feel before, to make you so tormented until now, and what do I have to do for you, do I have to let go of everything so that I can be with you?
Alpha who still with the immortality of his heart can only take a deep breath, to calm his mind as well as his current feelings. Even his complicated feelings made his eyes so hard to shut.
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* PANTHOUSE ALPHA KHANDRA.
"Good day, sir.."
Greet one of the Alpha bodyguards currently in charge of guarding the Panthouse. His face looked deathly pale with his head still lowered, as if he was avoiding the sharp gaze of Alpha who currently looked extremely angry.
"What the hell are you doing? Why didn't you realize Miss Starla was missing?" Ask Alpha with anger.
"Ma.. Sorry Mister.. " Say one of the guards stuttered with his head still down.
"I ASKED, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" Shouting Alpha.
"All.. Be calm.. " Reply Leon who tried to calm down Alpha who is currently controlled by anger.
"Don't I tell you, take care of him like you're taking care of your own life?"
"Sorry sir, I am negligent, and I am prepared to accept any punishment from the young Master." The bodyguard replied.
"STOP APOLOGIZING.." Shouted Alpha very loudly while kicking a table that was not far from the reach of his feet to make the table was thrown with some objects on it.
"All.. Be calm... Can you sit down first? you look fucked. We're gonna find Starla at her house." Reply Leon while gripping Alpha's arm that has been lifted and ready to land a blow to his bodyguard who is still bowed down.
"You're telling me to calm down now, what if Lucas manages to find it there."
I don't want Starla to meet that jerk again, let alone make Starla cry again..
"alright.. So you're going to stay here with that scary emotion of yours? I'm going to Starla's house now." Said Leon shook his head and immediately stepped away leaving Alpha who could only gawk at Leon's departure.
"Master.. " Excited Dareen who immediately made Alpha aware and immediately stepped foot following Leon who was still waiting for him in the car. Up to 40 minutes later the Alpha car was parked in front of a simple house owned by Starla.
But their expressions suddenly changed and looked at each other when in front of it appeared parked a luxury car with initials L on the license plate number,
There's no way he's..
"I'm not senile All,"
Isn't he the bodyguard of that stupid man?"
Inner Leon as his eyes caught the figure of a tall, well-built man who was standing beside the terrace. The man he saw in the hospital one day ago.
So that guy's with Starla right now, damn it.. Alpha can lose their mind if they know this.
"It seems I was wrong.. This isn't Starla's house." Leon steps on the accelerator and drives his car away from Starla's house before Alpha realizes that Lucas is currently at Starla's house.
"What's that guy?" Alpha asked slowly while continuing to set his gaze forward.
"Huh?"
"That guy right here at Starla's house right now?" Alpha asked once again with a face that suddenly turned dark.
"meaning? I-i didn't... "
"Stop pretending Yoon, I know, it's Starla's house, and the man Starla's house is now Lucas. Don't we? " Tanya Alpha with a cold gaze that made Leon could only be silent and even more forward his car seemed to care about the expression of Alpha who had turned furious.
"Ahhkk... " The Alpha Bump hit the window of the car next to him so hard that it cracked the car glass, along with fresh blood coming out of the back of his hand.
"Alpha.. Be calm.. You even hurt yourself." Said Leon with a surprised expression as he looked at Alpha's current rage, even other than anger, Leon could also see the immense jealousy from Alpha's eyes right now.
"Why do you always tell me to calm down Yoon as if you don't understand how I feel right now." Alpha talks with a face that looks red, even his hands have been clenched perfectly until his knuckles look white.
"All.. "
"Stop the car." Alpha Command.
"Alpha.. This is not a good time to see them." Reply Leon tampa heed orders from Alpha even more forward his car.
"What's? Not the right moment you say? Are you crazy? Do you have any idea who that guy is with Starla right now?"
"Well I know, but... "
"STOP THE CAR NOW YOON... " She shouted Wang Yibo who immediately made Leon reflex step on the brakes of his car until the car stopped with a loud squealing sound when his car tires collided with road asphalt.
"Then what are you going to do now? Are you gonna go back in there and drag Lucas? Hit him in front of Starla? Do you think after doing something like that Starla will thank you?" Said Leon with his tone of voice starting to rise.
"I know you're worried right now, but at least think about what you're going to do." Leon again.
"Wouldn't Starla be with Lucas now? You know what Lucas did to Starla?"
"Well I know, and I'm sure too. Starla still has a good mind if it's just protecting herself, she's not a stupid girl who will want to accept the man who has hurt her" Leon continued trying to give understanding.
"You're wrong... If we have loved someone so much once, then that feeling will not be easily lost." Alpha Sayings.
"But Starla isn't what kind of woman you're in your picture All."
"Well I know. Maybe I'm the only one who has that feeling,"
"Alpha Khandra's.. Starla also has the same feelings as you do right now, are you still not aware of it?" Ask Leon slowly.
"He hates me now, and that's the fact."
"All.. "
"He wouldn't have possibly just walked away from Panthouse if he really thought about my feelings, even he would have refused any man to approach him if he did love me, but look.. Even now he's in a house with the man he once loved." Answer Alpha in a tone filled with disappointment.
"Alpha.. Are you jealous now?"
"Well I'm jealous, so jealous that I really want to kill that guy right now. I was so jealous that I was sick and sick. I also never wanted to feel this feeling, if I knew the feeling of jealousy would hurt this much, loving someone would hurt this much, from the start I would never have given my heart to anyone. I HATE THIS FEELING YOON... " Alpha screams that only made Leon speechless.
"I'm sorry All, for not understanding how you feel." Leon Said.
"That's it.. I'm pretty tired today. Let's just go home." Alpha speech that directly rested his body on the back of the car seat while closing his eyes that began to fog, even Leon could see clearly there were teardrops coming out of the corner of Alpha's eye, although Alpha is trying to hide his tears right now.
Even Starla is the only woman who can make you cry, now I just know, how much you feel about Starla, I'm sorry..
Leon slowly returned to blame the car engine and returned to drive his car at high speed. There was no more conversation between the two of them. Alpha is still with his position as well as Leon who prefers to focus on his wheel. Until 30 minutes passed, their car was parked right at the gate of the Mansion where there were already waiting for some Alpha guards to welcome their arrival.
"Sorry, big sir.. " Said Akirra one of the guards who immediately bowed in front of Alpha
"What's Akirra?" Alpha asked as he stepped foot towards the main door.
"In there is Madam Emeru and her mother, waiting for you" replied Akirra who suddenly made Alpha frown. Even Leon and Dareen could only stare at each other.
With his broad strides Alpha entered the door of the main room of his Mansion and immediately met Emery as well as Lady Carolyn who was sitting waiting for him. There also appears the figure of Kang Daniel who immediately bowed when he saw the presence of Alpha who immediately approached them.
"I'm sorry if we suddenly came to visit you on notice first." Mrs Carolyn said slowly.
"No problem Madam, you can visit anytime." Reply Alpha with a smile. Until the net is back to Emery who immediately smiled when his eye bead collided with Alpha's eye bead.
I miss you Alpha.. And I'm really happy right now to see your smile, a genuine smile that I've never seen.
"Emery.. How are you?" Alpha's question made Emery blush.
You even mentioned my name now, after five years, only this time I heard it straight from your mouth, I'm really happy with this little thing.
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* TO BE CONTINUED.