I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Emery feeling.

* THE RESIDENCE OF CAROLYN CULLEN.

In a slight hurry, Areta walked towards the second floor, until her steps stopped right in front of Madam Carolyn's tightly closed room. Areta slowly knocked on the door many times, until the sound of Knop along with the door opened.

"What's Areta?" Madam Carolyn asked straight out of her room.

"Under.. There's Mr. Fridell."

"Mr Fridell?"

"Yes, Madam." Areta nodded softly, along with the silence of Lady Carolyn who even began to feel uneasy, when she remembered the answer she would give to Mr. Fridell on Mr. Fridell's proposal to Emery at that time.

"Mrs Carol.. " Call Areta who suddenly surprises the dreamy Lady Carolyn.

"Yes Areta.."

"Mrs is okay? You seem restless" asked Areta who could immediately catch the uneasiness clearly on Madam Carolyn's face.

"I'm just a little worried about Reta, it must be the arrival of Mr. Fridell this time to talk about the application to Emery at that time."

"Mrs don't have to worry, whatever the lady answers, I'm sure, Mr. Fridell will definitely accept."

"I hope it's like Reta, too, all right.. I'll go see him. Thanks Areta,"

"Yes, Madam,"

"Oh yes.. Raeta, where is Emery... "

"He's relaxing in the back garden right now, with Mr. Daniel."

"Can you help me to call them both?" Ask Mrs Carolyn.

"Of course, Madam,"

"Thank you Reta" said Mrs Carolyn who immediately stepped into the living room where Mr. Fridell was sitting with his legs crossed waiting for the owner of the house.

"Good afternoon Fridell" said Lady Carolyn who immediately stepped over to Mr. Fridell.

"Color, sorry to interrupt your activities again,"

"Not at all Fridell" replied Lady Carolyn smiling and directly sitting herself in a chair right in front of Mr. Fridell.

"I'm sorry if you waited so long,"

"It doesn't matter Carol, I.. "

"Good afternoon uncle Dell," Sapa Emery who suddenly appeared from the outside with a sweet smile that was always etched on his lips, said the source, unlike the case with Kang Daniel who suddenly stared when his eyes collided with Mr. Fridell who was no less surprised.

"Daniel's.. Emery.. Please sit down, greet Mr. Fridell," said Mrs Carolyn who immediately invited Emery and Kang Daniel to sit down.

While Kang Daniel who had been silent since then with a bowed face did not escape the gaze of Mr. Fridell. Until the two faced each other in the same seat, which was only a few meters away, Mr. Fridell still did not let go of his gaze, even more fixed to look at Kang Daniel who was increasingly not wrinkled, and even more, even just to stare at Mr. Fridell's face, he was reluctant.

"Fridell, he's the Cullen family's personal bodyguard, and my personal assistant, Kang Daniel." Said Mrs Carolyn who seemed to understand the gaze of Mr. Fridell who continued to be directed towards Kang Daniel.

"Personal bodyguard?" Asked Mr. Fridell frowning.

"Right, long ago, Daniel's been following the Cullens." Madam Carolyn nodded as she turned her gaze towards Kang Daniel.

"Good afternoon Mr. Fridell," said Kang Daniel slightly bowed.

The awkward atmosphere was felt between Mr. Fridell and Kang Daniel, although the two women who were with them in the same room were unaware. But really the atmosphere now made Kang Daniel very uncomfortable. The guilt towards the father made Kang Daniel even more agitated until the touch of Emery's hand holding his palm made Kang Daniel slightly jerked.

"What's wrong?" Emery asked in a slight whisper, though only in reply to a slow daze by Kang Daniel while gesturing if he was okay.

"alright.. I think you already know, what I mean by coming here Carol," said Mr. Fridell.

"Yes, sorry.. If it makes you wait. But.. "

"What's up, Carol? Do I need to ask this directly to your daughter Emery?" Asked Mr. Fridell who immediately set his sights on Emery.

"Sorry Uncle Dell, I.. I have not been able to accept uncle's child's proposal. L am.. Not thinking about getting married again." Emery replied, staring at Mr. Fridell's face before he was bowed again. Even with the reflex Emery again grabbed Kang Daniel's hand to hold it tightly, he said, tighter than before, making Mr. Fridell who accidentally saw it a little frowned with breath drawn as deep as possible.

Don't tell me he's your alsan to be the Cullen family bodyguard again, Daniel. Because you'll never let him.

"Do you have your own choices?" Mr. Fridell asked while managing his feelings, and looked back at Kang Daniel's face, even though the question was addressed by Emery.

"Sorry.. Uncle Dell is right, I already have someone" Emery replied in doubt. Even Mrs Carolyn who heard Emery's remarks that she thought were very honest was a bit of a surprise to her. Because, Emery is not the type of woman who will say her feelings bluntly, let alone say if she is in love with someone. Similarly, Kang Daniel can only take a deep breath with his mind back to Alpha Khandra, the only man who will always be in Emery's heart.

"alright.. Uncle is happy if you're honest and don't hide your feelings, even though Uncle is disappointed at this rejection." Reply Mr. Fridell with a face that looks disappointed.

"Sorry Fridell.. I can't do anything about it. It's Emery's own decision. Again, I'm sorry for disappointing you." Madam Carolyn said that she felt bad when she saw Mr. Fridell's suddenly changed expression.

"No matter Carol, I also couldn't possibly impose Emery's will.. Can uncle ask you something?" Asked Mr. Fridell who looked back at Emery.

"Please uncle." Emery replied again feeling anxious.

"Who is that?" Asked Mr. Fridell again with a glance directed towards Kang Daniel.

Don't tell me that man is Daniel.

For a moment Emery was silent, clasping Kang Daniel's hand even tighter.

Even I myself do not know, whether this feeling is really a feeling of love or not. All I know is that I always felt comfortable being by his side, and missed him so much if he was far away.. I don't know what kind of feeling this is.

"Sorry.. I, can't answer it." Emery replied in response to a slow nod by Mr. Fridell.

"I'm sorry, Fridell, I really feel bad right now." Reply Mrs Carolyn.

"You've said sorry over and over again Carolyn, even I feel uncomfortable now, maybe I'm a little late."

"It looks so."

"alright.. Looks like I have to come back another time," said Mr. Fridell who immediately moved from his seat. And so did the three who stood up as well.

"And, your personal bodyguard.." Mr. Fridell's gaze returned to Daniel.

"It seems he's a pretty responsible guy." Mr. Fridell smiled back at Mrs Fridell.

"You're right Fridell, Daniel's a man full of responsibility, and I'm very grateful, because Daniel never left the Cullens. You know, he's Emery's father's confidant"

"Yes, I know." Reply Mr. Fridell. "alright.. Good afternoon Carolyn. I still hope, hopefully we can still be good." Mr. Fridell smiled. So did Mrs Carolyn and Emery who also smiled until Mr Fridell's shadow disappeared from their sight.

"Daniel's.. " Call Mrs Carolyn back to the living room after delivering Mr. Fridell.

"What's wrong? Ever since I noticed you look tense? Is there something?" Mrs Carolyn sits next to Kang Daniel and Emery.

"No, I just.. "

"Do you know Uncle Fridell?" Emery's question made Kang Daniel speechless.

He knew her very well, because he was my father.

"I'm just thinking about some work, sorry to make you feel uncomfortable." Reply Kang Daniel.

"Of course not, I'm just worried. Because you look different and not as usual." Said Mrs Carolyn, who had noticed Kang Daniel's movements since.

"Sorry.. "

"Is it possible that you're feeling tense with the answer I'm about to give Uncle Fridell?" Emery asked in a joking tone that made Kang Daniel nervous.

"Ah that's not true.. L'm.. "

"Emery.. Stop flirting with Daniel." Reprimanded Madame Carolyn when she saw Kang Daniel's face that suddenly blushed.

"Stop teasing me, you're even embarrassing me." Kang Daniel said.

"Either.. But I can't stop doing it" Emery replied with a grin.

"Well, do as you please, and I don't want to ruin your happiness right now."

"Hey, what happiness do you mean?" Ask Emery.

"Aren't you very happy right now? And it's very visible on your face." Kang Daniel looked back at Emery's smiling face.

"Maybe.. "

"What makes you so happy?" Ask Kang Daniel slowly.

"I've been seeing Alpha for a long time." Emery replied with a smile that made Kang Daniel smile but actually that smile was just to cover up the pain.

"really?"

"Hm, but I feel sad,"

"Why?"

"Because Alpha is not feeling happy right now. I don't know.. Seeing it like now makes me sad."

"Are you worried about him?"

"Hm, I just can't keep seeing her grieve." Emery replied that he looked glum again.

"He'll be fine, which I know he's a man who doesn't fall easily, let alone grieve for a long time. Don't you know that too. So stop worrying about it, and make your heart sad."

"You're right, I'm sure, if Alpha can handle it." Reply Emery while taking a deep breath. And again, Kang Daniel again said words that were able to calm Emery's heart. As sad as Emery feels, only Kang Daniel can make him so much calmer. And one thing that Kang Daniel seems to realize, if at this time Emery's feelings and attention have been fixed on him. As well as Emery who just realized, if the man he needs all this time is Kang Daniel. Because just being next to the tall man Emery can feel so loved. And that feeling is what Emery has wanted all along.

I don't know how long you'll realize Daniel, if you're the guy who took my heart back.

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* HOSPITAL'S.

Alpha slowly arranged some flowers in a crystal vase on Starla's bedside nightstand. The smell of white roses burst forth and filled the room.

It had been almost a week that Starla had been lying there in a coma, and since then Starla had abandoned her activities at the Company and preferred to keep her in the hospital, accompany him with some stories, bring him white roses, and play a song that became Starla's favorite. The thing that Alpha always does is feel bored. Although every moment of sadness and worry always enveloped his heart, because until now Starla's condition did not show the slightest change. Starla still feels at home, although the words long and sorry are always said Alpha every time he was beside Starla. Those words did not even make Starla budge in the slightest.

"Alpha.. It's been almost a week, you better go home to rest. You'll be sick if you keep hanging in here." Said Leon who had come to visit Starla.

"I will keep looking after Yoon.. I'm not leaving Starla for a second, at least until she wakes up." Answer Alpha who is still holding Starla's palm.

"But you don't have to do it yourself, All, you also need a wife."

"I know.."

"Then istrahatlah.. I can't keep Starla and you together if you suddenly fall into a coma from exhaustion."

"Yoon's.."

"What's wrong? Are you gonna hit me in the head again? If you remember that for a long time you haven't hit me." Tempted Leon when he saw Alpha's gaze on him.

"Stop.. I could've hit you right now if you had asked for it, but for now, I don't want to."

"What's wrong? Did you realize if you kept hitting me you'd..."

"I caused Starla to do all this." The Alpha Sela that immediately made Leon frown. He even quickly tried to digest Alpha.

"You mean?"

"He saw me that night, saw me with Emery."

"What's? But it's not one serious thing that makes Starla recklessly hurt herself, is it? If you just see you with Emery."

"We kissed."

"What?" Leon asked when he heard the words that had just come out of Alpha's mouth, he even looked surprised. Maybe for the kiss thing is very common for Leon, maybe, but what surprised him was an Alpha Khandra who suddenly wanted to do things that Leon was sure if Alpha had never done so all this time was quite surprising. Alpha did it with Emery, a woman who was once very Alpha hated even though Alpha had married.

"I.. I don't know why Starla was there that night, which is obviously all that happened because of my fault,"

"Why did you turn on yourself?" Ask Leon who does not accept with Alpha attitude.

"I shouldn't have done it, I..."

"What's wrong with kissing? Even you can do more than just kiss, you're a free grown man, and it's not your fault that Starla was there that night and saw everything." Reply Leon,

"But still, it's all because of me."

"Alpha Khandra's.. Why do you always blame yourself for all the bad things that happened to Starla? Not necessarily all of that because of you."

"Because I love her" replied Alpha.

"What?" Leon asked.

"I still love him, and really don't want him to get hurt, let alone get hurt because of me." Answer Alpha.

"Then, what are you going to do now? And what about the decisions you've made?"

"Everything will go according to my plan, nothing will change Yoon."

"Okey, then what about Starla? What about your love?"

"I can keep it to myself, this feeling, just enough I know, I will still be happy even though I have to love her in silence. And I'm used to it."

"All.. You shouldn't have done that. If you can be together, why should you choose another path and do the same.... "

"Yoon's.. Loving her does not mean having to have her, especially if my love makes her feel shackled. I'm not that selfish. And for now, while I can still be by her side and look after her, I will." Alpha speech that makes Leon do not have any more words to say. He prefers to be quiet, and tries to understand Alpha's current feelings.

"Whatever decision.. As long as it makes you happy.. "

"It seems like I will never feel happy Yoon, my happiness is just Starla. And as for the moment we are obliged to stay away from each other, the account will never regret, because I have felt happy together, even though it was very short. At least I've smiled at her, been happy and laughed at her."

"alright.. I-i understand. What about Emery?

"Emery already has her own life, maybe the kiss that happened that night was just a form of emotion from both of us, because we don't feel anything."

"Are you sure? If you don't feel anything, I believe it. But if it's Emery who doesn't feel anything, I'm less sure of it."

"Emery already has someone,"

"Huh?"

"He himself said it, I don't know what his purpose was to say it to me,"

"What's? She?"

"Hm, even I had time to think, if he deliberately said it just to convince me not to think bad things about him, but.. When I saw sincerity and happiness in his eyes when I said that, I became convinced. If he had completely forgotten everything. And honest.. I'm happy, because I've been off the load all this time."

"alright.. You should have forgotten everything."

"Although not completely,"

"Well, I know. I totally understand." Leon said as he patted Alpha on the shoulder, before his gaze returned to Starla.

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* TO BE CONTINUED.