I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Starla Arrival.

For the first time in 10 years, Starla Galenka has finally set foot in this country. The country that he cursed every day, and which he hated. Because there are too many bad and painful memories that he went through here.

Her steps trembled slightly as Starla stepped into a house that was quite small and simple in size. The house he used to live in with his late mother. Starla's tears came back when she saw some of her mother's frames that were still neatly plastered on the wall, even though they were very dusty. Until the good memories he had gone through with his mother again flashed in Starla's memory, even bad memories did not escape his current memory.

* FLASHBACK.

"Mother, I love Lucas, I can't just leave him." Starla said in a pleading tone as she laid her head on her mother's lap, asking for understanding from the mother who had sobbed when she saw her son bowed while hiding his tears.

"But why should that man be son?" Madam Liora asked with her voice that sounded trembling.

"Mothers.. "

"Why do you have to love a man whose degree is not comparable to our family, son" continued Lady Liora who again made Starla can only be silent.

"I'm sorry, Mom, if Mom's selfish, instead of Mom not approving of your relationship, instead I hate your lover, but I just don't want Elfredo's family to reject you, son, I'm afraid they're going to hurt you, because we don't deserve to be among their families."

"Mother, Lucas will protect me, he loves me so much, he can't possibly let his family hurt me."

Reply Starla increasingly sobbing, his current belief in Lucas is very large, to a little ignore the feelings of the Mother who is very worried about him.

"Son, I know very well that Lucas loves you, but he can't possibly be against his family, the family that raised him. As with Mom, the Lucas family must also want the best for their child."

"Mothers.. I'm begging.. Everything's gonna be fine. Even Lucas would propose to me in front of Mom. And that's enough to prove that Lucas is serious about our relationship." Reply Starla who still hopes that her mother understands her feelings.

"Don't love it, don't do it, I beg you, I don't want you to get into big trouble later, Mother..."

"Mothers... I'm begging.. Restui my relationship with him, everything will be fine."

"Son.. "

"I promise you, as long as Lucas is by my side, no one will be able to hurt and separate us, Lucas loves me Mom."

"Why are you so stubborn, son."

"I'm sorry Mom, sorry... "

Until Starla woke up again from her daydream, tears dripped again for the umpteenth time, she grabbed the frame that was still plastered on the wall and immediately hugged it tightly, holding it tightly, and continued muttering while saying an apology that had somehow come out of his mouth dozens of times.

"I'm sorry Mom, I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry for not listening to you, sorry..."

Emery continued to cry, until his voice sounded hoarse, curled up on the sofa, leaving his body in the cold that entered in the empty room. Even just to turn on the lights, Starla was terrified. Feelings continue to haunt him. To make him prefer to stay in place tampa do anything.

"Alpha.. Miss you.. Miss you so much.."

Starla murmured as she closed her eyes, hoping she could get through tonight without thinking of anything.

At least for tonight, let me sleep, I'm tired of it all. Good night Mom..

Brush Emery with regular breathing. Now night took him in a dream, forgetting the moment of sadness that had been holding him back.

* * * * *

* MISTRESS CAROLYN'S RESIDENCE.

"Emery.."

"Mother."

"What's up, son? Since you've been silent here, how many hours have you spent daydreaming." Said Mrs Carolyn as she approached her son and immediately sat beside Emery who only smiled to welcome the arrival of the Mother.

"Mom, a few days ago, I met Alpha." Emery said slowly.

"Yes, I know." Miss Carolyn smiled.

"Huh? So you know if Alpha's back here?" Emery asked in disbelief.

"Hmm, Mrs Aleen contacted Mom two days ago, if Alpha and her cousin Leon would come back here."

"really? But, why didn't you tell me?"

"Darling, it's not that I don't want to tell you, but I don't think this is important anymore, aren't you separated."

"I know,"

Emery replies bowed, he should have been able to accept the reality, but either feeling is very difficult to accept, although he himself knows, if there is someone who really expects it. He should have been more sensitive to the feelings of Kang Daniel who had loved him for the last few years.

"Emery, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bring up your past story." Said Mrs Carolyn. "But, I just want you to be able to accept the fact that Alpha should have been erased in your memory."

"But Ma'am,"

"I'm sorry if I'm being selfish by forcing you to do something that's hard for you to do, but please, I just want to see you happy, I really don't want to see you like this."

"I understand Mom, I'm trying to forget everything, maybe it's only temporary, I just miss her too much, when I first saw her after so long, I'm so happy, I'm so happy, because he's fine."

"Dear,"

With Mrs Carolyn gently reaching for her daughter's body to hug her, however, she is very understanding with Emery's current feelings, Emery has been trying hard all this time, and Mrs Carolyn has seen it too.

"You know, all this time I've been thinking about Alpha's feelings, I've always thought about whether she's forgotten all her anger, but after seeing her smile, I'm a little relieved." Emery looks happy.

"It's not just you who always think about it, even Mother always thinks the same thing, even though Mrs Carolyn always says if everything is okay. But that doesn't mean your anxious feelings make you ignore the feelings of someone who truly loves you, does it?"

".......... "

"Your life isn't just about thinking about Alpha's anger or resentment toward our family, but you're also gonna have to think about yourself and your feelings."

"............ "

"Darling, you should be happy too." Mrs Carolyn said as she looked at Emery, who continued to be silent.

"Yes mother, even now I feel very happy." Reply Emery nodded slowly, returning the embrace of the Mother. And finally he can breathe with relief, everything is fine, that's what Emery is thinking at the moment.

"When are you going to open your heart to Daniel?" Miss Carolyn asked for a moment that Emery was unable to answer.

"Emery.. "

"Come on, Mother,"

"What makes you doubt?"

"I'm still not sure of my heart, I still can't accept anyone in my heart." Emery replied.

Although Daniel always made my heart feel good, but I don't know.

"Mom understands, at least you can consider Daniel's feelings, he's very sincere Emery." Mrs Carolyn.

"I can see that, too, but I really can't mother."

"It turns out that I haven't been able to get into your heart yet" muttered Kang Daniel with his nanargument staring back at Emery from a distance not so far from where he was standing right now while taking a deep breath. Until he finally walked away before Emery and Mrs Carolyn realized his arrival.

* * * * *

Leon stepped up his legs in a slight hurry when 5 minutes ago he received a phone call from someone. It took only 30 minutes for Leon to get to his destination, and now the sports car is parked right in front of a house that is very small and looks like an uninhabited house.

For a moment Leon was glued in front of the house with a slightly agitated and sick heart. Especially when he saw the condition of the house. Until finally he stepped foot onto the porch of the house and stood right in front of the door, Leon slowly knocked on the door of the house. And tampa wait a long time, saw a door knob sounded from inside until the door slightly opened and showed a shadow of a girl who immediately made Leon's smile spread from his lips.

"Star.."

"Come in.. "

Said Leon in a hoarse-sounding voice while slightly opening the door of his house even though it was not fully open, at least Leon's body could go inside. And again Leon could only be silent when he saw the atmosphere in the Starla house which was even worse, because in the room, Leon only found one room dark and stuffy, and, because all the curtains that hang in the living room window are tightly closed.

"Star, since when did you.... What's wrong with your face?"

Leon asked who looked surprised and a little worried when he saw Starla's current condition. Eyes with dark circles under the eyes appear to decorate his face that looks pale.

"Star, are you okay?"

"I'm fine."

"But what I see is you don't look okay Star, are you sick?" Leon asked again while sticking the back of his hand to Starla's forehead which was indeed hot.

"I'm just exhausted,"

"Fatigue? What have you done? And since when are you here? Aren't you the one who said you didn't want to set foot in this country again?" Ask Leon who still looks worried.

"I.. "

"Is this because of Alpha?"

"I miss him."

"Starlas.. Look at you, and how long have you been here?" Leon asked when he saw a suitcase that was still in the middle of the room that seemed not to be opened at all.

"Three days ago."

"What's? Three days? And you didn't tell me at all?" Asked Leon who slightly raised his tone.

"Sorry.. I just don't want to bother you." Starla replied in a hoarse voice while rubbing her forehead which began to fill with sweat.

"Actually what are you thinking? And I'm also sure, for the past three days you've kept yourself locked up, haven't you?"

"I'm afraid, if they realize my presence here."

"Even if you don't eat one, do you intend to kill yourself?" Ask Leon. "Why didn't you call Alpha?"

"Do I have to do that? While I'm not sure myself, Alpha will take my phone call or not, I'm not even sure, he'll see me or not." Starla replied in a voice that was getting weaker.

"What if what you've been thinking all this time is wrong?"

"Yoon, don't give me hope."

"If you're not sure how you feel, then what's the point of you being here?"

"I.. "

"Are you that stupid?" Ask Leon who made Starla silenced.

"I just want to see it, once, that's enough." Starla replies along with her tears from the corner of her eye.

"And what would you do if Alpha refused to see you?"

".......... "

"Are you going to stay here, and let that son of a bitch hurt you again?"

"......... "

"And I'm also sure, if that man must still be looking for you."

"Cannot be.. " Angel replied in a voice that was getting louder.

"Starla, your place isn't here, you shouldn't be here."

"But the man I love is here." Starla muttered down with a flushed face holding back tears.

"Is that how you feel about Alpha?"

Asked Leon again who didn't even get an answer from Starla who just lowered her head. Leon who saw Starla's silent reaction now did not want to ask anything more, because he already knew with Starla's answer who agreed to the question but he had to say the word 'Yes'.

"It turns out you really love Alpha very much, but think of yourself."

Said Leon who moved from his seat and stepped closer to Starla, grabbed Starla's limp body and immediately held the body that looked unhealthy and seemed to care about all questions and protests from Starla. Leon stepped out of the house and went straight to his car, sat Starla's body quietly in the passenger seat beside the steering wheel and followed him who seemed to wait a long time straight forward his car very fast.

"Leon.. Where are you taking me?" Ask Starla with her hoarse voice.

"The hospital."

"No need Yoon, I'm fine, '" declined Starla who immediately tried to open Leon's locked car door.

"You're sick Star."

"No, I'm good.. "

"Shut up and follow my words" snapped Leon who was already upset.

"But Leon.. "

"Star, I beg you, just this time, you just have to shut up and Istrahatlah while we're still on our way." Seduce Leon with a soft-turned voice.

Thank you. Because you always care, even just you, you're the only one who cares..

"Thank you Yoon.."

"Hm.. "

Reply Leon nodded softly with his smile as he rubbed the shoots of Starla softly until it did not take long, Starla finally fell asleep. And Leon who saw that could only take a deep breath while continuing to concentrate on his wheel, and hoped that they would quickly get to the hospital, because he knew that Starla was not sleeping at the moment, but the girl was already unconscious from fainting, even her body felt increasingly hot.

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* TO BE CONTINUED.