I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Lucas's Dilemma. * ALPHA KHANDRA MANSION.

"I'm fine,"

Before you met Alpha, did you know, happy I am now, happy because it turns out you've been living so well.

While Kang Daniel who had been sitting next to Emery could only be silent with a faint smile on his lips, and who knows, who knows, if his heart is currently really feeling pain when he sees the happy smile of Emery which of course is addressed by Alpha. The smile she had barely seen for the past two years.

Looks like you still can't forget it, what should I do now Emery, all this time I can't even make you smile like now.

Kang Daniel, who was only dissolved in his daydream, finally snapped when Alpha's gaze suddenly fell on him, even though Alpha's gaze this time was different from two years ago.

"Alpha.. How's your mom doing? Is she okay?" Ask Mrs Carolyn.

"Mom's fine, '" Alpha answered slowly.

"Does your mother have any plans to come back here again?"

"Well, Mom must have come back here, but not now, I still want to linger there, because when she's there she always feels close to me," Alpha's reply made Emery's expression instantly change. He tightly squeezed his fingers with guilt that came back to haunt him.

"Emery, are you okay?" Alpha asked frowning as he looked at Emery's suddenly changed expression. Kang Daniel knows what is on Emery's mind now.

"Yes.. I'm good,"

"Are you sick?" Kang Daniel asked slowly as he clasped Emery's palms which began to turn red.

"I'm fine Daniel.. " Reply Emery slowly while looking at the face of Kang Daniel who looks worried, until a small smile appears on Emery's lips when reading a cue from Kang Daniel that seems to say if everything is okay.

"Thank God.. "

"Thank you Daniel.." Emery said slowly.

"Hm, I'll wait outside," Kang Daniel replied smilingly and immediately got up from his seat.

"Please.. " Answer Alpha, followed by Dareen.

"What's wrong? You don't look good" asked Emery when he saw Alpha massaging the nape of his neck. Alpha can not be denied if the current feeling and his heart is in a bad condition, because the image of Starla still fills his mind, added again with the incident to make him again feel anger and anxiety.

"I'm fine, I just..."

Is now Starla okay, what they're doing now, damn it.. Why can't I think clearly now,

"Ah, no.. It's okay." Alpha shook his head slowly while massaging the nape of his neck.

"What's wrong? Is something troubling your mind?" Emery asked a little worried.

"No, I just don't feel well." Answer Alpha.

"You sick?" Ask Emery again.

"No.."

"Well already.. You should have rested, you didn't look well." Tymphal Madame Carolyn.

"alright.. Sorry if I can't stay with you for longer,"

"It's okay Alpha, I understand. At least I'm relieved, if you're in good health." Reply Lady Carolyn smiled.

"Thank you Miss Carolyn, please tell Mom I'm fine." Alpha remarks that immediately made Mrs Carolyn smile widely, because Alpha already knows if the arrival of Mrs Carolyn this time at the wishes of Mrs Aleen.

"Ah yes.. I'll tell him to stop worrying about you." Said Mrs Carolyn who was just nodding by Alpha.

"alright.. Looks like you need Alpha's rest, rest, we're going home now. Sorry for interrupting your time." Continued Mrs Carolyn who immediately moved from her seat and immediately followed by Emery.

"No problem, thanks.. "

"Yes, take care of your health Alpha."

"Yes," Reply to Alpha briefly as she slightly bowed as Madam Carolyn stepped out of the room.

"Sorry.. Can I say something?" Emery asked who instantly stopped his steps and turned towards Alpha who was still standing looking at him.

"What's Emery?"

"If there is something that makes you uncomfortable, if you don't mind you can tell everything. I'm ready to hear it." Reply Emery with a smile.

"Do I look like someone with a lot of problems?" Ask Alpha slowly.

"Hm, sorry.. But I can see it."

I lived with you for five Alpha years, after all. Five years is not a short time.

"Sorry.. I just want to help you." Emery bowed his head as he looked at Alpha who was silent but a word came out of his mouth.

"Can you not call me that? We're friends now, you can call my name."

"Yes, Alpha.. "

"Thank you Emery, I'm sorry to bother you, I just.. "

Being in love with a woman who now turns to hate me, and I don't know what to do now.

"Alpha.. "

"Maybe next time I'll call you to accompany me for a chat, don't you mind?" Alpha is immediately replied to a smile and nod by Emery.

"Not at all Alpha.. Whenever it's, I'll wait."

"Thank you Emery."

"Yes.. All right, I'm home now."

"Hm, Careful.. " Alpha smiled and immediately stepped out of the living room as Emery's shadow had already disappeared from his sight.

Even Alpha ignored the call of Leon who was sitting on a sofa in the middle room. Alpha who went into his room and locked himself in there immediately made Leon turn moody. He even ordered his guards not to accept anyone who wanted to meet him. Leon who saw Alpha's behavior could only be silent with guilt over the incident this afternoon.

You even ignored me, boy. And why should I get involved with your romance. I swear I'll beat you up if you keep ignoring me, you fucking kid.

Bump Leon while continuing to put snacks in his mouth that already looks full.

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While in a simple house that is currently quite tense atmosphere since the arrival of Lucas that makes Starla continue to drive him away. Even a blow from Starla that was crammed landed on Lucas' chest and arm did not make the Elfredo man retreat in the slightest. With eyes that already look glazed Lucas can only be bowed tampa move a little.

"Leave me alone Lucas, please, never see me again." Starla said as she pushed Lucas' body straight back.

"Starlas.. I can't leave you anymore. I made a promise to myself, if I'd never let you go again if I ever found you."

"But I don't want to see you again Lucas, not even your shadow, I don't want to see it."

"Starlas.. Why are you acting like this?"

"Because I hate you, Lucas, I hate your family, I hate everything that's on you." Said Starla with her angry look.

"Starlas.. I'm begging... Don't be like this... "

"So what should I behave like? What do I have to do with you guys who killed my mom? Even to hate you guys is not going to be enough" asked Starla with a tone of voice that began to rise.

"Starlas.. "

"Even by hating you will not be able to pay for everything you have done to me and my mother."

"But not me... "

It's not me doing it, I don't even know anything, should you spend your time hating me Starla, even all this time I've spent my time waiting for you.

"Whatever Lucas' reason, you can't give my mother back to me."

"Starlas.. Excuse me.. "

"Starlas.. "

"TURN MY MOM BACK TO ME, AND STOP APOLOGIZING." Shouted Starla with her tears returning dripping from the corner of her eyes.

"Starlas.. " Murm Lucas who also shed tears when he saw Starla who was now sobbing in front of him. Even with a hard Starla brushed off Lucas' hand as it was about to touch his shoulder.

"Go.. "

"Starlas.. Don't tell me to go, because I won't."

"GO ON... GO LUCAS... "

"No Starla."

"alright... " Said Starla who immediately stepped into the kitchen and grabbed a knife on her dining table and slashed her arm to draw a lot of blood.

"No.. Starla, what's... "

"GO ON I SAID." Shouted Starla who re-attached the knife on her arm.

"I beg... Just kill me, but don't hurt yourself." Lucas's leech with his body trembled with his stuffing.

"If you don't want to see me hurt worse, go.. Leave me alone."

"Starlas... "

"I'm not going to repeat it, Lucas, if you really want to see my body here, then stay longer." Said Starla who increasingly hard pressing the knife on his arm that had been scratched due to the friction of the knife.

"alright.. Alright.. I'll go, but I beg you.. Allow me to treat your wounds first before I leave." Pinta Lucas is increasingly worried when he sees more blood dripping from Starla's wounds.

"You don't have to worry about Mr. Lucas, it's just a small wound, it's not worth the one your family gave me and my mother. I can treat my own wounds with help from you or from anyone." Answer Starla cynically.

"Starlas.. Why are you so stubborn? All I know is you're my obedient star, my meek girl."

"Your star is long dead Lucas. You and your family have made me like this. Go." Reply to Starla who directly stepped towards the door and opened it wide.

With a slow step Lucas walked towards the door while wiping the remaining tears on his face. Waiting for Lucas to leave the porch, Starla shut the door hard and locked it.

Alpha..

Starla's inner being somehow instantly saw the Alpha shadow within her mind as her eyes closed with pain in her body and heart. He could not deny if at this time he really missed the figure of Alpha. Although his heart tried to resist and hate Berta's man, but not with his mind that always presents an Alpha shadow.

With a step down Starla walked to her room and sat herself on the edge of the bed while opening the desk drawer that contained bandages and ointments to treat her injuries. Even Starla had taken a few tranquilizing pills to calm her mind. Saddened, Starla curled up on her bed while hugging her knees

Mothers... What should I do now, I was wrong for having made the decision to return to this city. Shouldn't I be back..

With a faint and reckless eye, Starla closed her eyes and began to fall asleep.

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While in a car that is still traveling at moderate speed, Lucas was still silent with eyes that still look foggy. Not a word came out of Lucas' mouth along the way. Until his luxury car parked in front of his Mansion there he was welcomed by some of his guards. Even his forehead had frowned when he saw some of the Father's bodyguards who were also there.

"Is he at the Mansion?" Lucas asked Keano's Assistant.

"Yes young master, Mr. Fridell went straight to the Mansion when he was discharged from the hospital this morning." Assistant Lucas answered while opening the car door for Lucas who immediately went down and stepped into his Mansion which was there waiting for Mr. Fridell with both bodyguards.

"Where have you been?" Ask Mr. Fridell to Lucas who hasn't even had a chance to sit down.

"Meeting clients."

"Do you have to trust me?" Ask Mr. Fridell again who made Lucas frown.

"Stop telling your people to follow me. I'm not a kid to be followed all the time." Lucas' protest began to grow angry.

"But you're getting good at lying to your father now" replied Mr. Fridell, leaning on the back of the chair, crossing his legs and staring at Lucas, who was also staring at him.

"Dad hope you didn't forget. If tonight we're gonna meet somebody." Furthermore Mr. Fridell again that makes Lucas again frowned.

"You mean? What else are you planning for me?" Ask Lucas.

"Of course I'll plan your wedding."

"What?"

"Tonight we'll meet your future wife Lucas,"

"Mr Fridell.."

"Quite Lucas, I don't want to hear anything from you."

"Well.. I-i know. I won't say anything, free. Because you'll never listen to me, even long ago, as if my decision means nothing to you,"

"Whatever you say, I don't care. Because what I've been doing all this time is for your own good, Lucas." Reply Mr. Fridell.

"really? A kindness? What good can you see? Even all this time I've never been happy with what you've done for me. So what kind of kindness do you mean? And what kind of happiness are you going to show?"

"Are you protesting now?" Ask Mr. Fridell with fused eyebrows.

"No. I just want you to realize, if all this time I've never been happy with your decision." Lucas said that made Mr. Fridell show his smile.

"Something you'll understand. And I'll thank you Dad."

"Well, I hope so too. Do what you want. But for this time, I won't follow your wishes anymore."

"really?"

"Do I look like I'm joking? There will be no meetings and no weddings. Forget your idea. Because at any moment I'll never marry anyone." Lucas said firmly.

"Are you sure?"

"I don't have to repeat my words anymore."

"okay.. " Say Mr. Fridell who grabbed the phone in his pocket and called someone.

"Bottom down the girl right now."

Said Mr. Fridell while looking at Lucas's already pale face.

"What are you doing?" Lucas asked when he saw his father's serious-looking face with a look full of threats.

"Dad's just gonna say welcome back, and it's probably gonna be a little bit of a tinker with the girl." Replied Mr. Fridell with one of his eyebrows raised upwards.

"NO... DON'T EVER TOUCH HER AGAIN." Lucas shouts as he realizes that his father's men are now at Starla's house.

"Do you have to obey your will not to touch the girl?"

"DAD.."

"After a long time, you've finally called me Dad,"

"GET OFF STARLA.."

"The more you yell out loud in front of Dad, the more I want to teach that girl a lesson. So I hope you can take care of your taste, Lucas. Because at any time you will never be able to oppose or fight Dad. And I can destroy that girl right now if I want to, do you want to prove what Dad said?" Threatened Mr. Fridell with a question that made Lucas freeze with breath as if suffocated, to make Lucas move and immediately rested at his father's feet.

"Don't bother him again Father, I beg you.. Enough Dad.. " Speak Lucas under his father's feet in a trembling voice.

"Then do everything you want, if you want the girl to be safe."

"Alright Dad.. I'll do anything."

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