I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Saying goodbye.

"Oh yes.. What about Auntie, is she coming to Korea?" Leon asked continued their night chat.

"Either.. I'm still thinking about it, I'm just afraid that you're recalling the bad memories there, you know, too many bad memories you've had there." Alpha's reply looks worried.

"But if Auntie stays here, are you sure Auntie can stay away from you?"

"I'm not sure, I can't stay away from you anymore."

"Looks like you should reconsider All." Reply Leon gnawed Bier a can in his hand.

"Hm.. I'm gonna do it. But Yoon.."

"What's wrong?" Leon asked as he heard the sentence hanging from Alpha.

"Do you really mind going to Korea with me?" Alpha asked doubtfully.

"Not at all, I was even happy because I could visit Mom's grave, you know, as long as Mom died I never visited Mom's grave even once." Reply Leon with an expression that looks gloomy.

"Bibi's grave is fine, there's Dareen who always visits her and always holds a Do'a ceremony together for Auntie, you don't have to worry about Yoon."

"Hmm, I know, you're definitely gonna do it for me, I'm really grateful to you All." Reply Leon smiled widely.

"Yeahkk.. Since when have you been so polite like that?" Alpha protests at the sight of Leon's unusual behavior.

"Aiisshh stop, this time I'm very serious."

"Well I know, even your face shows that." Alpha nodded slowly.

"Tsk, what's wrong with my handsome face?" Leon asked as he flicked his hair up while enjoying his own face from the reflection of the window glass next to him.

"Yoon's.. "

"Hm,"

"Has Starla been all right?" Ask Alpha slowly who instantly changed the subject of their conversation.

"Well, as long as he's your secret unemployment, I think he's fine. What's wrong? are you getting interested in Starla's life?"

"No, I mean, before he knew me, was he okay?"

Alpha asks with a serious expression that makes Leon take a deep breath before telling all the stories about Starla that he knows.

"Not at all All,"

"meaning?"

"Well, when you first met Starla, she was crying on the sidewalk."

"What?"

"Hm.. Even for two hours I sat there to accompany her crying." Leon replies as he recalls his first meeting with Starla.

"What really happened to him?" Ask Alpha a little curiously.

"What's wrong? Why do you suddenly want to know Starla's past?" Leon asked with a suspicious look.

"Either.. I just want to know why she's crying." Alpha answers ignoring Leon's gaze.

"Alpha, if you don't have any feelings for her, you better not know her past either." Leon warned me.

"But I really want to know about Yoon."

Reply Alpha while looking at Leon, maybe what Leon says is true, Starla's past doesn't matter. But for some reason, hearing Starla cry was enough to make Alpha sick. And the strange feeling that just suddenly appeared made him even more confused.

"He was betrayed by his own fiancee, the man he once loved, not only that, Starla was also alienated, kept away from her own family." Leon said, "And the one who did it was none other than the man's family."

Said Leon who made Alpha silenced for a moment, his heart pounding due to anger that came out of nowhere, he could only duck while clenching his hands until his knuckles looked white.

"Maybe I can't tell you everything, you can ask Starla directly, if you still want to know everything,"

"Are you crazy? what will Starla think later,"

"What else would he think?"

"I'm tired.."

"Are you going to sleep now?"

"What do you want me to do?"

"The company I spent this." Leon answered while raising a glass of Champagne.

"Maybe next time, I'm really tired tonight." Reply Alpha who immediately moved from his seat.

"You'd better change your habit of consuming Yoon alcohol" Alpha said.

"Hm, thank you for your concern, I definitely...."

"Do you think I'm watching you? I'm just too tired tonight, and I don't want to serve your rapport" Reply Alpha, who's familiar with Leon's habit of being drunk.

Leon will continue to talk all night hugging Alpha, even Leon will cry if Alpha refuses to be hugged by him, a bad habit that sometimes makes Alpha frustrated.

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* ALPHA KHANDRA CAFE.

"You're here?"

"Sorry.. Did I surprise you? I'm just not used to it yet" replied Starla.

"I see, come in, it's cold outside."

Alpha said as he found Starla standing in the usual spot. It was a very difficult habit to get rid of, even though he had tried not to do it again, by standing in front of Cafe Alpha while waiting, but still, as he crossed the Cafe, her legs would pause to wait, and it became a habit and happiness for Starla.

"Don't I tell you not to do it again." Speak Alpha slowly.

"I'm sorry, but I'm not used to it yet." Reply Starla.

"I know I'll be gone soon. So you don't have to bother to change your habits." Alpha, what a sentence that hurt Starla.

"Yes, I even forgot about it." The real Starla reply never forgets that in a moment she will lose Alpha, even since one day ago she could not sleep because she thought of Alpha, and it was very visible from the circle of his eyes that looked black.

"When are you going?" Ask Starla slowly.

"Tomorrow."

Seon Heejin fell silent again as she squinted her fingers, trying to hold back her tears that would soon drip.

"Starla.."

"Huh?"

"Why are you quiet?"

"Ah that.. I was thinking about what gift I should give you as a memento."

"You don't have to do that."

"Why?"

"Because I won't take it."

"Huh? But.."

I wouldn't accept it if it was a sign of goodbye, because I still want to see you again.

Inner Alpha while staring in the face of Starla who looks disappointed.

"alright.. I wouldn't force it, I'd better go back, it's time to open the florist." Said Starla who was forcing herself to keep smiling.

"Goodbye Alpha,"

Starla slowly moved from her seat, only nodding back by Alpha, until a second later Starla felt her palms warm up, until he realized that the palm of his hand is currently in the grip of Alpha.

Cup..

One warm kiss landed on Starla's cheek that made her speechless with a body that suddenly froze. His face instantly reddened as Alpha's smile was clearly plastered before him.

"See you later Starla." Said Alpha while waving her hand which immediately made Starla realize from her silence.

"Sa.. See you later Alpha." Reply to Starla who immediately stepped slowly with a gaze that was still pointing at Alpha.

"What should I do for you, I'm sorry if I hurt you."

Alpha murmured who continued to stare at Starla's back until the slender body disappeared from her sight.

The sound of Alpha cell phone instantly disperse his daydream, he stared at the screen of the phone that there is the name of Dareen Assistant.

"Yes, what's wrong?"

"The president of the company EFR GROUP is forcing to meet you."

"Tsk, set up my meeting with him, and he better not act in front of me."

"Okay sir, I'll set your schedule."

"Wait..What is the name of the president of EFR GROUP?"

"Lucas Alfredo."

"So he's the one who replaced Fredell Alfredo?

"Yes sir, as a sole heir, Lucas Alfredo who succeeded his father's current position."

"alright.. See you tomorrow at Korea Dareen."

"Okay, sir,"

Dareen replied, and they ended the short call. And stay Alpha with face veils that are filled with confusion.

While there, precisely in a flower shop, Starla who was sitting quietly with a feeling of turmoil.

"Should I go back."

Starla muttered as she closed her heart, feeling her heart suddenly ache. Not many know if he really hates the place, because there are too many things that hurt there, even he himself is not allowed to step on the country, whatever the reason. Even though it had been a long time ago, but still a story of the bad past was still very imprinted in his heart.

"Get out of this country, never come back."

"But sir, I have no reason to leave here."

"Maybe your mother who is lying in the hospital at this time will be your reason for obeying my orders."

"No.. Don't bother my mother, sir, please, my mother has nothing to do with this matter."

"Of course there is, because your mother presumptuously gave you permission to get engaged to my son. It was a fatal mistake."

"I'm sorry, sir, please.. Don't bother my mother."

"Then be a useful girl to your mother and follow my orders, otherwise I'll make sure you never see your mother again."

"What are you going to do?"

"Tsk, I could've told all the hospital parties not to have heart surgery for your mother, did you forget who you were dealing with? And poor people like you can never stand against Alfredo's rule."

"Don't Master, I beg you, my mother must be in surgery immediately,"

"The choice is in your hands."

"Mr Fredell.. Signore.. I'm begging.. Mr. Fredell... "

"ARRGH... "

Starla's screams so violently as she awakens from her long daydream, the re-dreaming leads her to memories from 10 years ago that cost her everything. Starla covered her face with both palms along with the tears that had been flowing from the corner of her eyes ever since.

"Mother.." Lirih Starla while continuing to stare at the picture of her late mother.

"Mothers.. I'm sorry Star left Mom, sorry... Sorry.."

Lirih Starla who he always muttered for 10 years, regrets that seemed unable to disappear from his mind made him always doubtful to condemn his stupidity at all times. Maybe he had forgotten everything, but he could not forget how tormented the Mother who was struggling with pain when she was beside the Mother. Even Starla had thought, if she was not that weak, maybe this would never happen, even though she had to lose her mother, at least not in this way, she said, and don't make him regret for a lifetime and spend time hating himself.

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* PANTHOUSE ALPHA KHANDRA.

"Mother,"

Call Alpha who immediately approached Madame Aleen who was sitting in a chair beside her house while enjoying the afternoon breeze that greeted her graceful face, enjoy the golden yellow sky that will soon turn into pitch black as the night comes.

"What are you thinking?" Ask Alpha while sitting her body next to the mother and enjoy the warm atmosphere in the afternoon.

"Mother is just missing your Dad, this is your Dad's favorite place to spend time reading books in the afternoon." Mrs Aleen smiled.

"Did you miss Dad so much?" Ask Alpha who continues to look at the face of the mother who is smiling, but the eyes of sadness filled with longing cannot be hidden by her mother.

"Yes, I miss him a lot. Excuse me.. I can't accompany you to Korea, is that okay?"

"Of course, Mother,"

"Mom's already feeling very comfortable here. And being here makes me feel close to your dad."

"I understand Mom, whatever your decision, I will obey her, even though I will miss you very much." Speak Alpha while grasping the warm palm of the very mother.

"All dear, it won't take long, son, I'll catch up with you there soon. Nor can I be separated from you."

"Hm.. I understand mother."

"And can you take good care of yourself while you're there?" Asked Madam Aleen in a worried tone.

"Yes, Mom, I'll take care of myself. Did you forget I was Mom's tough son." Temptation Alpha with a joke that made Mrs Aleen smile with relief while reaching for her son's tall body to hug her.

"Mother please, don't get hurt again." Said Mrs Aleen while rubbing Alpha's face.

"Yes Mother, it's never going to happen, I don't have to worry about it."

"Mom trusts you, son, and one more,"

"What's that?" Ask Alpha.

"Mommy wants you to have an All lover soon."

"Mother.."

"For this time alone All, follow Mother's request."

"Didn't Mom have any other requests than to ask me to find a lover?"

"No, I don't have any more wishes,"

"But why should..."

"All.. I want you to be happy with someone who can be with you,"

"But I have Mom, I have Leon, Dareen.... "

"All, they won't always be with you, do you forget, they're also the same grown men as you, men who will definitely have a family. And I won't always be by your side, either,"

"Mothers.. Please don't ever say that, because you're gonna make me sick."

"I'm sorry dear Mom, I just want you to be able to have someone you love, and vice versa, a place to share grief, do you understand?"

"Mom, I really don't want that,"

"But you need it All.." Said Madame Aleen, who made Alpha give up and immediately nodded, with a smile that made Madame Aleen feel relieved.

"Please promise Mom" Pinta Madam Aleen pleaded.

"alright.. I'll think about it."

"And watch Yoon." Pinta Madam Aleen once again made Alpha instantly breathe in air, and re-release it.

"If you're worried about that boy, you don't have to bother, even Yoon will take care of me, did you forget what kind of boy he is? Even he once knocked a thug unconscious for a week." Alpha Sayings.

"Mom knows, even if it's demimian, I'm still worried about you both."

"Thank you Aunt Len for worrying about me."

Said Leon who suddenly appeared and immediately sat down beside Madam Aleen who directly rubbed Leon's hair gently.

"Yoon's.. Remember to always take care of your health, and do not forget one thing, help All to quickly have a lover." Mistress Aleen's whisper was immediately nodded back by Leon.

Alpha who did not understand the conversation between Mrs Aleen and Leon could only shake their heads while sipping a cup of cappucino.

"Of course Bi, I'll make sure of that, even though I have to be single because I'm busy looking for a companion to life for Aunt's poor favorite son."

Reply Leon who had to accept some chips from Alpha who was enjoying his snack and accidentally heard his words.

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* TO BE CONTINUED.