I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Old wounds.

Red yellow smoldering, that's the color of twilight seen in the eyes of Alpha who is currently sitting alone, while staring at the afternoon sky that feels so warm, for a moment Alpha feels calm, and calm, after a day his heart was gnawed by the longing and pain that came simultaneously. Long Alpha was silent there until a second later dusk in libas by dark heading into the night.

Starla's shadow is again present in Alpha's memory, a beautiful memory that flashed and had made him smile, but immediately the smile disappeared when he realized that he had lost everything, Starla was no longer beside him, and there would be no more memories created between them.

"Alpha.. What are you doing here?"

Ask someone who seems to have just realized the existence of Alpha who is currently sitting alone in a hilly park that night is not so crowded. There is only Alpha and some visitors who seem to be enjoying the beautiful atmosphere tonight. Until the Alpha netra is fixed on a figure who is now smiling towards him, even though their distance is not so close, but Alpha can see a sincere smile carved from the woman's face.

"Emery.. "

"Can I... " Emery's sentence came to a halt with Netra staring at the empty bench beside Alpha.

"Please." Alpha whispers that instantly shifted his body as Emery stepped closer to him and slowly sat down beside him.

For a moment the atmosphere returned to silence, Alpha who was still dissolved in his residence made Emery a little anxious, although he was very familiar with the habits of his ex-husband who was difficult to start talking, and open a chat, he said, but this time there is something different from Alpha, Emery can capture an expression filled with sadness there, eye circles that look black with a face that looks lethargic, and a face that looks sluggish, it is very clear if Alpha is not in good condition at the moment.

"Alpha.. Is everything okay? Sorry, if I.. "

"Why all women are always selfish, they only want to think about their hurt feelings, but think about the feelings of others who are also destroyed," Speak Alpha with his heavy voice while bowing trying to hide his sadness.

And seeing it all in contact makes Emery start to feel pain, Alpha who is falling down now really makes it sad, until with reflexes Emery's hand touches Alpha's shoulder, Alpha, things he never did during their 5 years of marriage.

Turns out you've started to love other women, but why do you feel Alpha pain.. You should be happy because this is your first love.

"Alpha.. Are you all right?" Ask Emery slowly.

"Come Emery.. I'm not feeling well, my heart feels tight right now,"

"Alpha.. "

Emery who was no longer able to hold back his sadness immediately moved from his seat and grabbed the body of Alpha who was still sitting to hug him, rubbing the wide back slowly while leaning his own head on the head of Alpha who is now only silent in his arms.

"Everything will be fine" whispered Emery, who somehow made Alpha's tears suddenly pierce itself. I don't know why those words could make his heart feel a little calm. Even the hug can also make him comfortable, but a scroll of bad and painful memories with Emery back flashed in his mind.

If given how he treated Emery, who was still his wife, how she always let out her tears, enduring the pain of his treatment, it really made Alpha feel even more claustrophobic, and shouldn't Emery have been this sweet on him, and should have ignored him and left him at the moment, but the reality is now, everything Alpha thinks about Emery is very much different from the reality that is happening now, with the woman actually coming to hug him, rubbing his back and saying if everything will be fine. What makes Alpha unable to endure his sadness anymore.

"Emery.. Sorry.."

"Sorry for what?" Asked Emery who was still standing while clutching Alpha's body.

"As long as you've been with me, you've always felt pain."

"I see, you also have a reason for your attitude" Emery replied slowly.

"Is this karma for me?" Ask Alpha.

"Alpha.. You didn't do anything, you...."

"I hurt you before." Sela Alpha, "And now, I feel the same way, and I finally understand, what you felt back then."

"Alpha.. Don't ever say that again, please.. " It was Pinta Emery who further tightened her embrace as she felt Alpha's body tremble slightly.

"I'm sorry Emery.. Sorry for the tears you used to shed for me.. Sorry."

"No Alpha.. I've forgiven you long before you apologized, I've forgotten everything. Really am.. I forgot about it, so please.. Don't scold.. "

Emery said with tears, while cupping the face of Alpha who is now looking up to look at him. Gently Emery rubbed the tears of Alpha who only resigned to receive Emery's treatment, even Alpha continued to be silent when Emery suddenly peeked his forehead, and even more, slowly touching her cheek and ending with a gentle kiss on Alpha's lips that had been soaked by her tears. Long they are dissolved in an atmosphere where their lips are still fused together. Emery, who is heartbroken by the sadness of his beloved man, is feeling the sadness, and Alpha, whose memory has returned to the girl he still misses so much. Until their lip link is released, telling the breath that hunts each other, and, Emery who seemed nervous when he realized that he had just given his first kiss to Alpha, who was none other than her ex-husband, could only be silent while continuing to look at Alpha's face, likewise with Alpha who still regulate his breath while rubbing his lips that still feel wet and warm. Although he did not feel any vibrations in the middle of their kiss, there was a sense of nervousness, because for the first time Alpha felt his lips touched by a woman. A short kiss that lasted only a few minutes but was enough to make both of them feel nervous, and it was clearly visible from the gaze of their eyes.

"It turns out I'm wrong to think you're sincerely in love with me Alpha.."

Starla muttered there who was currently standing with her body shaking with tears in hand, as she watched the scene before her eyes, where he clearly saw Alpha in the arms of a woman, even the intimate scene between them that Starla was not supposed to see, it did not escape Starla's sight that was currently only able to hold back her tears.

My decision to stay is wrong, and I have no reason to stay here, and you will eventually be with someone who is your equal. Alpha.. May you always be happy, I'm sorry.. If I've hurt you so much.

Starla turned her gaze away, trying to catch her breath, with her remaining energy she stepped out of the place, continuing to step while ignoring the strange gazes of the few pairs of eyes that saw her in awe. Again and again, he was back to fighting himself among the laughing crowd, and this was the umpteenth time Starla had attracted the attention of a few pedestrians because of her tears. Until his steps stopped when his body was suddenly grabbed by someone. Even the crackling grew tighter as Starla's sobbing sounded louder.

"Did that hurt you?"

Asked the man who was still hugging his body, though Starla did not open her eyes to see who it was, because she knew that he was in Lucas' arms right now, and it was enough to make him sure just by inhaling the body scent, the voice, and the way the man hugged him. Nothing has changed one bit.

"You shouldn't have seen it all,"

"Let go of me Lucas" Pinta Starla with a quivering voice.

"Before you stop fighting" replied Lucas, who was still holding Starla's body. Until a few minutes passed, Lucas did not hear any more stuffing from Heejin. He slowly loosened his embrace, and looked at Starla's face.

"Let me go."

"I'll be with you" replied Lucas who immediately followed Starla's steps.

"Enough Lucas.. Leave me alone." Starla orders when she realizes that Lucas is still following her.

"But I can't leave you in this state Starla."

"Why? Didn't you also leave me in a worse state than this" Reply Starla with a smile between her tears.

"Starlas.. "

"I'm sorry."

"Stop apologizing, Lucas, because whenever I don't.... "

"I beg... Don't say that word again." Lucas immediately hugged Starla's body and allowed Starla to finish her sentence.

"Why are you always like this Lucas" muttered Starla resignedly with an increasingly weakened tone of voice.

"I'm just sick if I always see you fighting like this, stop worrying about Starla, even I always find you crying alone, and it really hurts me."

"You don't have to think about how I feel, Lucas,"

"And that guy... You shouldn't have shed your tears for her, you... "

"I loved her.. " Reply Starla who made Lucas speechless with a thousand needles that are now piercing his heart.

Why should I hear that word from your mouth Starla. Did you break my heart on purpose, if that's true, you did it Starla..

"I'm like this because I love him Lucas.. "

"Did he love you too?" Lucas asked, which now leaves Emery speechless.

He loved me before I told him to leave, he loved me before I asked him not to love me again.

"Do you know who that woman was with him?" Lucas asked who at that time immediately got a gaze from Starla.

"The woman is Alpha's ex-wife Emery of the Cullen family."

Starla's body suddenly felt stiff, with her breath suddenly suffocating, she felt as if she had been hit by something so heavy that it made her heart ache.

"And the relationship between them was so close that it was impossible for their story to repeat itself, as you can see now." Lucas replies that once again can only make Starla silenced with tears that again flow from the corner of her eyes, Starla cries in silence, there was nothing he could do now but keep stepping away from Lucas, even with all his might Starla kept pushing her legs to run as she cared about the screams of Lucas who also came running after her.

"Starlaa.. Wait for... " Shouted Lucas who kept chasing. In a matter of seconds, he could no longer see Starla's shadow around the park. Even though he went around looking for.

"Starlas.. " Murm Lucas who is still running looking for Starla's whereabouts.

While in a black Mercedes Benz V-250 type car can be heard the sound of Starla's scream which is currently in a state of body that is flanked by two men with a burly body. And one man in all-black clothes was sitting comfortably in front of Starla who was still sobbing.

"The... Who're you?" Starla asked who kept staring at the man who was still sitting before her. The man who was still covering his face with a mask and hat, and when he saw the Hoodie that the man was wearing, Starla's face suddenly looked deathly pale, his body trembled violently with increasingly rushing tears flowing from the corner of his eyes.

"I beg.. Ja's.. Don't touch me.. Stay away from me.. " Pinta Starla with her tears as the man wrapped the tip of Starla's hair around her index finger, even bringing Starla's unravelled hair close to her nose and inhaling it deeply. Smirk smile etched on the lips of the man, the mask-covered smile was not even visible to anyone.

"It turns out you haven't forgotten me sweet.." Said the black-hated man who kept wiping Starla's hair, even her cold palms now stuck perfectly on Starla's face that was already sweating from fear.

"Tidaaakkp.. Keep your dirty hands off my face.. I'm begging.. Don't touch.. Don't you... Aarrggh... " The uncontrollable screams of Starla returned to the car. The car stopped with the glass door open.

Starla's eyes are perfectly rounded when the net is fixed on the right side right next to the car there is another luxury car with open glass and shows a figure that Starla has been afraid of all this time.

"Tu.. Mr. Fridell.. " Surmured Starla when she saw the sharp eyes of Mr. Fridell who was sitting in the other car while looking at her.

"It turns out you're brave enough to set foot in this country again" Fridell said.

"What are you doing, let me go." Pinta Starla is a little rebellious.

"Are all the warnings I gave you not enough to make you understand?" Ask Mr. Fridell who made Starla sobbing.

"If you don't want what happened 10 years ago to happen again, then leave the country quickly to Lucas's knowledge." Continue Mr. Fridell.

"Ti.. No. gabe.. Don'tdon't.. I'm begging.. Don'tdon't... "

"Then beg... Like what your mother did before. Begging for her son's happiness and her husband's safety." Reply Mr. Fridell with a smile.

"Leave Lucas, because soon Lucas will be married, and never mess with his life again."

"But I never.... "

"Enough, I don't want to hear your bullshit. For the past few days I've been patient enough to watch you stick to Lucas. Like a bitch, do you need money?"

"I'm not that low."

"Tsk, you're just like your father. Are you really going to challenge me?"

"Never mention my father's name again."

"What's wrong? you even have so much respect for that dirty guy,"

"Enough.. You don't know anything about my father."

"Tsk, you really are a bitch who doesn't know anything. What else do you know besides teasing my son?"

"Dear Lord Fridell, you have no right to say anything like that about my Father, and another, even though I never had any intention of meeting your son. It is precisely your child who continues to force to meet me, if you do not want your child to meet me, why do not you tie your child's neck so that he can not go anywhere, so that he can not go anywhere, so that he'll always be under your feet like a submissive dog." Reply Starla who made Mr. Fridell's facial expression turn dark. Until one signal from Mr. Fridell immediately made Starla crash into the side of the car with a body that hit the car door.

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