I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Masalalu.

* MAIN MANSION.

Lucas was silenced by the growing wounds in his heart when he heard all the mass stories he had not known all this time from Mr. Fredell. A past that somehow hurts a lot for Lucas. Even tampa in his consciousness, his body that a few minutes ago still standing firmly now slumped down with both hands supporting forward to hold his body. Her tears trickled as she felt the pain that now seemed to gnaw at her.

Why must Starla's father.. And why did Starla and her mother have to bear all her father's faults.. Why would.. Ken's.. Ii'm sorry.. Ii'm sorry..

"Then Starla's mother.. Is it because of this that he refused to perform the operation?"

"Do you think she'll receive all the good that Dad gave her after she found out that her husband killed Ken's mother?"

"But.. Still, Dad ruined Starla's life, he doesn't even know anything."

"Dad was not a good Lucas, life had to be paid for with life, and what Tiar Galenka had done had to be paid for, and I think you already know how a Mafia like Dad works, right?"

"I mean Dad? Don't tell me if Dad has.. "

"You're right,"

"What's? So it's true you've been telling people to do bad things to Starla? WHY DADDY IS SO... DAD'S EVEN WORSE THAN STARLA'S DAD.." Lucas shouted with a look filled with hatred that he addressed his father.

"Then what about you? Bring that girl into your life, and let Ken feel the pain of having to follow your desire to always be with the son of the one who killed his mother, even Ken was willing to endure the pain of seeing you happy, and now, when you know everything, are you still going to be with that girl?" Said Mr. Fredell who again made Lucas can only be silenced.

"Dad gave Ken a chance to kill the man, but Ken foolishly refused because he didn't want to see you sad when he saw the girl you love losing her parents,"

"But Starla is not wrong.. He doesn't know anything, he..."

"And that's the girl's stupidity, and also Dad's reason for not wanting that girl around you. I hope you can use your brain to think Lucas, you were born into a hard family, and no matter how hard you resisted Dad, you're still the flesh and blood of a Mafia man, the flesh of a Mafia man, and you can't deny it. So stop being weak just because of that girl. Father would never have disturbed Galenka's family if they hadn't disturbed Dad's life and done something wrong."

"Then, Daniel.. Who her? Is he the daughter of that woman? The woman who made you leave?" Asked Lucas who was still bowed with his tears.

"Well, also the woman who is willing to sacrifice her own life, so that you can live, the woman who is willing to leave her own child for your health, she is the woman you have hated all this time,"

"What?"

"She's a woman who's willing to give her heart for you, she's the one who wants you to stay alive, because she loves you and doesn't want to see Mom and Dad sad about the heart disease you've been suffering from since birth."

And again Lucas could only sob while squeezing his chest tight, even his breath suddenly felt choked. The reality is very painful for Lucas who has been arrogant and arrogant, even for the obvious reason he spent his life hating women who turned out to have given him a chance to live.

"Why... Why Dad never.. Saying this.. Why would.. Dad was very selfish.. And let me live in hatred for not knowing anything, why.. Did you deliberately want to see me live like this? Live like a father who is always in revenge? Why Dad?. WHYAAA? I DON'T WANT TO LIVE LIKE AYAAH... "

"Lucas, calm yourself.. " Reply Doctor Hanenda who was directly holding onto Lucas' trembling shoulder.

"AAARRGHHHHHW.... " Shouted Lucas while gripping his own hair very hard.

"Take him off Han, let him know everything, and come back to my senses that all I've been doing is for his own good" Fredell exclaimed as he watched Doctor Hanenda hug Lucas.

"Here Fred is, that's enough. Remember your son's condition, his heart wasn't strong enough, did you forget?"

"I just want him to forget about the girl, because until now in his brain is still filled by the girl."

"Because Starla's not wrong.." Mumbled Lucas

"Then? just because she's innocent, then you're going to keep pushing yourself to stay with her and ignore the people around you?"

"No.. Not like that, I.. "

"Then? you just stay stupid and ignore everything, until you see everyone close to you slowly disappear leaving you, is that what you want?"

"....... "

"Listen well, Lucas, from the beginning the girl wasn't your destiny, and up until now, she wasn't for you, no matter how hard you tried. Unless you want to see him suffer more. You just have to choose."

"alright.. Alright.. I'll leave Starla if things get better, I'll forget about it.. " Continue Lucas, trying to stand up with trembling legs, and continue to step up while taking care of Doctor Hanenda, who is trying to hold him back.

Lucas continued to run out leaving the Mansion in a very messy condition. Until his body bounced slightly when a car almost grabbed him.

"Please... "

Excited the driver when he got out of his car and immediately approached Lucas who was still sitting on the asphalt.

"What's wrong? You okay?" Ask the man who grabbed Lucas' body.

"Who are you..?"

"I... "

"Can you take me somewhere?" Asked Lucas who was still holding onto his chest that was honed in pain and tightness.

"Of course, come in.. " Reply the man who immediately led Lucas into his car and immediately left the place.

"Thank you for helping me, you help me,"

"No problem.. "

"Then, who are you? Why do you know my name?"

"Daniel's.. "

"What's? Daniel's? You're... " The surprised Lucas immediately stared intently at Kang Daniel who still seemed to focus on the wheel to care about Lucas' reaction which now looks very surprised.

"Do you know who I am?" Ask Kang Daniel who is still in his position.

"Stop the car" Lucas ordered.

"Shut up.."

"I SAID STOP THE CAR, ASSHOLE."

"Stop yelling Young master, you're making my ears hurt, can't you calm down? You spoiled child,"

"What's? You're... "

"What's wrong? Are you going to run again and crash yourself in another car? I'm gonna get you out of here, but at least calm your mind."

"But I can't calm down if I stay here with you." Reply Lucas who still insists.

"Why? Is it because I'm just a kid that nobody knows about? I'm your brother, not the angel of death."

"Damn it... " Empit Lucas was upset.

"And you even put your own brother on."

"You... "

"Calm down.. Take control of your emotions, you even look the same as your father."

"Currently, he's your father's a son of a bitch."

"Stop talking to me, or I'm gonna get you out of your car in those pajamas, do you want to? You don't even look like a Young Master right now" said Kang Daniel, who immediately made Lucas gawk while watching his pajamas and bare feet.

"And look at your pale face, your eyes even look puffy, have you just experienced heartache?"

"Well, you're right, I just had a heart attack, but not because of women. But because of Dad. Even the pain is more than anything." Reply Lucas who was immediately bowed. Even his eyes re-glazed as he recalled all the facts he had just heard a few minutes ago, a truth that came out of the mouth of Lord Fredell's father.

"What's wrong? What did you tell you?" Kang Daniel asked slowly, as if he understood the wound his sister was feeling right now.

"Everything.. All the things I don't know, including.. "

Lucas stopped when he recalled how he used to treat Kang Daniel's mother, he who was always rude, even every day always shouted words of hatred to the woman, he said, the woman who turned out to have helped him, made him live to this day.

"I'm sorry." Mumbles Lucas with glazed eyes.

"I never even thought about it again, you were very small then, and your mind was still very unstable, and if you were being so rude then, and always being angry about things that make you uncomfortable, I can understand."

"Aren't you feeling angry? Even I've been so outrageous to your mother."

"Who said I didn't feel angry? I was very angry, but I couldn't do anything, because you were so little back then. But now you have to make up for everything, so I can forgive you."

"What?"

"You must redeem everything young master."

"Tsk, basic.. What am I supposed to do?"

"Be nice to me, since you've been talking informally to me, remember I'm your brother."

"Damn it, I've been very nice before,"

"You've told me how many times."

"Aarrggh... All right, why are you so chatty as Dad?" Reply Lucas who was really furious, while Kang Daniel just smiled shook his head while continuing to concentrate on his steering wheel.

"Are you going back to the Mansion?"

"Hm,"

"Is there a problem?"

"Slightly,"

"What?"

"Should I tell that to the man who just called me brother?"

"Damn it.. "

"Dad wants me to go back to America tonight."

"Then?"

"I can't."

"Why?" Ask Lucas.

Because I don't want to leave the woman I love.

"Did you make a mistake? Because you're gonna send your son to America if you make one mistake, like Ken."

"Ken? So then? Do you know who Ken is?" Kang Daniel asked. Although he was not so surprised.

"meaning? You know if Ken is Dad's son?"

"Hm, I know everything,"

"It's true, the only one who doesn't know anything is me. Isn't that outrageous" Lucas said in a tone of voice filled with disappointment.

"Lucas, you were born with an unhealthy heart condition, even though you've got a new heart, but I'm still worried, and I don't want you to think about anything that would make your disease recur."

"Stay with it." Lucas replied with a look directed out the car window while trying to hide his sadness from Kang Daniel who was currently staring at him.

"You okay?" Ask Kang Daniel slowly.

"Hm, then, what did you do to make you decide to send your sister to America?"

"Because I've loved a woman, and become a personal bodyguard to a family who shouldn't know my true identity."

"What's? Who's the family you're protecting?"

"The Cullen family."

"What's? So then? The woman you love?"

"The woman you're gonna marry." Kang Daniel replied flatly.

"Shljyit... " Fetch Lucas.

"What's wrong? Are you disappointed?"

"Tsk, I've loved someone, too, even though that girl already loves another man, and all this because of Dad,"

"And the girl's father, too." Kang Daniel continues to make Lucas quiet again.

"Does my sister know who that girl is? and what's his dad doing?"

"I know, and I also know that the girl you love is already in love with the man surnamed Berta."

"What do you not know? Brother even knows everything."

"Because you've been dealing with Berta's family."

"I mean brother? the Alpha Khandra family?"

"Hm,"

"What's he.... "

"Stop asking about Berta's family, Okeyy.. "

"What's wrong?" Lucas asked the curious.

"Because the story with the Berta family is not a story that can be told, even today, if I am told to choose what memories I should forget, he said, I will choose to forget all that is concerned with the Berta family, because the guilt is still very strong, even though I do not regret it, because of work as a personal guard or an Assistant, he said, I am obliged to follow all the orders of the big bosses, and do whatever is ordered. Right or wrong, and I have only two options, kill or be killed."

"Sister is indeed the father's son, the soul of a Mafia is ingrained in the body of a brother."

"Stop.. I want to change, at least change for the woman I love."

"I mean brother? Brother will not be... "

"Stop asking and get off." Kang Daniel orders him to get out of the car and deliver Lucas to his apartment.

"Sister,"

"What's wrong?"

"Why have you been hiding your sister's identity all this time?" Lucas asked slowly while continuing to follow Kang Daniel's footsteps from behind.

"At the age of 2 years, my sister was kidnapped by a Mafia plot that became a rival of Dad, and since then, I became very afraid, even Mom insisted and asked Dad to keep her hidden."

"Then... "

"Stop asking and come in. You can stay here until you feel better, change your clothes and clean yourself, you can use your sister's clothes there, and heat the food in the refrigerator if you're hungry, can you?"

"No,"

"Had you guessed, in addition to spoiled and cursing hobbies, you also know nothing. Take a shower.. My sister will order food. If there's anything call brother."

"Hm.. " I replied Lucas who immediately laid himself on the sofa.

"Sister Daniel.. "

"What else now?"

"Thank you for everything, and... "

"And?"

"I'm glad to see you."

"Then be nice, okay?"

"alright.. Brother is so chatty." Lucas immediately turned his back to Kang Daniel who could only shake his head to see Lucas' behavior immediately and wait for a long time he immediately stepped out of his apartment to the main Mansion.

* * * * *

* HOSPITAL'S.

Alpha stepped into the VIP room with a few white rose stalks in his hands. And as always, this afternoon Alpha will return to visit Starla, as he has done many days. Until his steps came to a halt as he saw several nurses with slight steps running towards the VIP room where Starla was in the care now.

"What's wrong? Did something happen?" Alpha muttered in a panic and ran into the VIP room not too far from where Alpha is now, until the sound of his phone rang before he entered the VIP room.

"Yoon's.. " Alpha muttered his steps when he saw the nickname on his phone.

"What's up Yoon.. I'm in front of Starla's room now,"

Answer Alpha in hasty steps.

"Thank God.. Starla's awake and you can go straight in to see her, hurry up."

"What?"

Alpha's Footsteps stopped instantly with his gaze fixed on Starla who had already opened her eyes, even he could hear clearly as Starla clearly mentioned her name. Alpha continued to be silent but cared about the sound of Leon's scream on his phone that was still connected.

Mercifully.. You wake up, you wake up now Starla, thank you, because you've been fighting for life again. I'm sorry I couldn't be next to you when you woke up, I just wanted you to know, I love you Starla, I love you so much.

Alpha still continues to look at Starla's face from a distance, even his eyes have looked glassy, although a sense of longing and happy makes him very want to run to embrace the body, but somehow, somehow, he was looking at the body, his heart his body said another, He rewinded his steps and moved away from the VIP room, further and finally with his broad strides Alpha walked away from the hospital.

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* TO BE CONTINUED.