I Can'T Have Your Heart.
kink Dareen.

While in a luxury car that was streaking through the streets of Seoul is a little crowded. Alpha, who was still silent with his own thoughts, stared out the window blankly.

"Don't it been a long time that the young master hasn't met Mrs Emery?" Tanya Dareen tried to open her voice.

"Hmm, long enough." Answer Alpha who is still in position, staring out the window of his car.

"How do you feel?" Dareen asked once more while glancing at Alpha's face through a glass located in the middle of his car.

"What kind of feeling do you mean?" Answer Alpha with one question while turning his gaze towards Dareen who was still focused on his steering wheel.

"What do you feel now?"

"Either.. I don't even feel a thing." Answer Alpha who again leaned his body on the back of the car seat while cursing, while massaging the nape of his neck.

"Young master.. "

"Hm,"

"Is it possible that you still hold a grudge for the Cullens?" Ask Dareen slowly.

"Why did you suddenly ask that?"

"I'm just worried about you, because I know, it's not that easy to forget everything." Answer Dareen.

".......... "

"I'm sorry, I never meant to bring this up again, but.. "

"What's Dareen doing?" Alpha asked as the tip of his eye caught the unusual expression of his Assistant.

"Dareen, what exactly do you want to know?" Ask Alpha once again, and this time Alpha's expression looks very serious.

"Sorry sir, I don't know if I still deserve to ask you this matter, but.. Is it true that my parents did not die in an accident? But because of Mr Chris?" Dareen asked which made Alpha speechless for a while.

You finally found out about the past that caused both of your parents to die.

The past he shouldn't have known, because Alpha knows, if the tragic story of Dareen's parents' passing could make him feel devastated. For what Dareen knows, for several years this is his parents died because of an accident, not because he was killed by sabotaging the car that his parents drove.

Not only did they get there, their car was also accidentally dropped into a ravine to explode with waste. And the perpetrator deliberately omitted a piece of evidence and made everything that happened to Millard's family a pure accident due to the driver's negligence, namely Mr Millard and his wife Daniah Millard, Personal assistant of the late Mr. Adley the father of Alpha.

"Dareen, I don't know, who did you hear all this from? obviously I don't want this to affect you." Ask Alpha.

"Did the young master know about it for a long time?" Ask Dareen slowly.

"I'm sorry, if I didn't tell you back then, no one would even know about this. The real problem I don't want to hear." Answer Alpha.

"No, young master need not apologize, I understand the young master's position back then."

"If we can be happy by forgetting everything, why don't we just do it, who else will be responsible for this incident, even if it's not young, anyway, for two years I have been trying to forget everything. I always try to be at peace with my heart and try to accept everything. But.."

"Alpha sir.."

"If you see Mom.. The only person who suffered the most from this incident, it was very difficult for me. Although he always said he was okay, but why, I find it so hard to believe him. Because I still often see him crying alone, and trying to smile when I see me, as if nothing happened. Those were my hardest times, Dareen."

"Alpha Master.. I'm sorry if I bring back your old wounds."

"No, even if you don't bring it up, when you set foot in this place I will definitely remember it clearly again. And that's why I don't want you and Leon to know everything, because I don't want you to feel the same way, like I've been feeling all along. Feelings of hate and pain, feelings of sadness and anger. Really am.. I really don't want you guys to feel that." Reply Alpha again closed his eyes, it is very difficult to forget the heartache that Alpha felt for many years.

"I will try to accept, and give it all away Mr." Dareen said with a voice that sounded vibrating.

"I believe you can do it, Dareen." Reply Alpha is trying to strengthen Dareen's heart, which he knows, if the current feeling of his Assistant is being hurt, Alpha can feel everything, because he has also experienced the same thing. And one thing Alpha is very grateful for, because he really didn't lose it all. He still had his mother beside him, in contrast to Dareen who had completely lost everything.

"Dareen, everything will be fine, and you're not alone." Alpha speech that immediately patted slowly Dareen's shoulder that looks to be wiping his tears.

"Thank you Mr. Alpha." Reply Dareen.

Whether until when Alpha will continue to be followed by the past that makes him always a man who is always shrouded in anger.

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* LUCAS ELFREDO MANSION.

The atmosphere at the Lucas Mansion is currently quite tense, where the owner of the Mansion is venting all his anger by destroying every object in front of him.

"AARRGHHHW... GODDAMN IT.. "

Shouted Lucas who kept breaking some neatly arranged ceramic jars in the middle room of his Mansion.

"Is he serious, refusing our cooperation? Just look at it later. What am I going to do with BRT GROUP and its very arrogant President."

"Calm down young master" Keano said trying to appease his President.

"You're telling me to calm down after what that guy did to me? he really made my pride fall, he also dared to humiliate me in front of people, damn it.. Who does he think he is." Bait Lucas.

"I understand Young master. We still have other ways to get Mr. Khandra to cooperate with our company."

"What else can you do?" Lucas asked, looking intently at his assistant.

"I'll try to think of everything, sir. And actually I still do not understand, why you are so interested in working with BRT GROUP Companies, while there are still very many other Companies that we can collaborate with."

"Of course to make EFR GROUP excel and to top the list as the largest Company. Did you forget that currently BTR GROUP is in the top tier as the highest Company? It is clear that if we succeed in cooperating with BRT GROUP Companies then we can dominate even BRT GROUP."

"I understand sir, I'll try to find a way."

"I trust you, Ken, and one more thing, have you got any information on him?" Lucas asked as he calmed down.

"As we thought, young Miss has been in Germany for 10 years." Answer Keano.

"What's? The germans? Why did I never find him?" Lucas asked.

"The young lady was very clever to silence her identity and her hiding place, all thanks to the help of Mr. Fredell."

"What's? Daddy's? so again all because of Dad, isn't everything enough?"

"Yes young master. And I think it's Mr. Fredell's last way to make you really not be able to find young Miss anymore."

"Arrrggghhh... " But Lucas looks furious.

"Mr Fredell did all this because he felt very disappointed and angry about your attitude, sorry.. "

"I know, but haven't you gone too far?"

"Yes, sir, but if you look at Mr. Fredell's attitude and power, I don't think we can do anything either."

"Aarrggh... Why am I so stupid,"

Shouted Lucas who looks frustrated, his weakness that can not fight the strength of the father really makes him feel tortured. Even before his eyes he could only watch the lover who had become his fiancee leave him.

And until now, even though 10 years have passed, Lucas still can not forget everything. He still misses the figure of his lover, even really hoping if the girl still loves him like before, and will return to him someday.

"I also hope that's Ken's way" Lucas replied expectantly.

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* ALPHA KHANDRA MANSION.

Alpha Khandra lay her body on the back of the sofa while shutting to relieve tired and confused mind. Today was quite tiring for him, too many things and events made him uncomfortable. Even he had missed the atmosphere of Munich and also his mother now, of course secretly he also missed the figure of Starla. Until 10 minutes passed, he only realized that the figure that should be in this Mansion was suddenly invisible to him.

"Ah syiit.. I forgot something important." Alpha murmured while rubbing his face rough.

"Where is Yoon?"

Alpha asked one of the servants in his Mansion, before the servant even answered, saying, he had seen the figure of Leon who was stepping from the outside while opening his suit and immediately walked closer to Alpha who had put on a sweet face hoping to be forgiven by Leon.

"What's wrong? You lookingforme?" Leon asked who immediately locked onto Alpha's movements with his sturdy arm.

"Sorry, I can't accompany you to Aunt's funeral."

"Then, what are you going to do to make up for everything?" Ask Leon who's still locking Alpha's movements.

"Anything,"

"With me a drink of wine?"

"No,"

"Then?"

"Ahk release.. You wanna die?"

"All right.."

"I'll accompany you to drink Wine once. But earlier I apologized for not being able to accompany you." Alpha replied resignedly with a facial expression filled with regret and only returned a smile by Leon who also leaned his body on a sofa after being satisfied toying with Alpha.

"I see, you're very busy today, and we still have plenty of time to visit Mom's grave again."

"Hm.. I'll definitely visit Aunt's grave soon."

"How was your meeting with the EFR GROUP leadership this afternoon?"

"Nothing is interesting, I just spent time dealing with a haughty and annoying person" Alpha replied as he recalled the figure of Lucas he had just met this afternoon. Not only that, he also recalled his encounter with Emery which made him again exhale rough to make Leon frown when he saw the behavior of Alpha a little strange.

"What's wrong? You look really upset today."

"It's all right, I just need a wife."

Reply Alpha as he got up from his seat and immediately stepped away leaving Leon who was still gawking at him.

"Young master, are you..... "

Dareen's sentence hangs as Alpha continues to step up while raising one hand, gesturing if he doesn't want to do anything right now, and Dareen who was well versed with Alpha's attitude and feelings right now could only nod and cancel his intention of offering Alpha for dinner.

"Is the day really hard today?" Asked Leon who was still directing his gaze towards Alpha who had disappeared behind the door of his room.

"Hmm, it's pretty heavy, Mr. Leon." Reply Dareen who also looked at the door of Alpha's room that was closed tightly.

"Hey come on Dareen, don't call me that, I'm not your boss, can we just talk to each other?" Leon asked while patting Dareen's arm.

"Good Leon."

"Yoon's.."

"Yes, Yoon.."

"What happened to him today?" Leon asked again, who was still very curious about the current Alpha's change in attitude.

"Perhaps because of this afternoon, Mr. Alpha accidentally met with Mrs Emery at a Restaurant."

"What's? Them? Then?" Ask Leon who is getting curious.

"Well, as you might expect, there's no special talk, just greeting each other."

"I see, there's no way All would go overboard after what happened between them."

"At least they're not what they used to be, especially Mr. Alpha."

"meaning?"

"Maybe you already know, how hated Mr. Alpha to Mrs Emery first."

"Yes, I know, even though I've never seen it in person, but I know enough of the story between them."

Reply Leon while taking a deep breath, even though he had not been with Alpha for a few years, at least he knew a lot, if Alpha's goal is to accept matchmaking at that time, it's nothing but revenge. In fact, he is also very familiar with all the deeds of Mr. Chris first to the Berta family, and also his family.

"Then what about his meeting with the one he said was so annoying?"

"Huh? Mr Lucas?"

"What's? Lu.. Lucas's? The name of the EFR GROUP Chairman is Lucas? Lucas Elfredo?"

Leon asks for reassurance, and that surprises him even more when Leon sees Dareen nodding confirming Leon's question just now.

As someone who knows a lot about the story of Starla's past, of course Leon is very familiar with the name, even he will immediately recognize the man if he accidentally met him. Maybe Leon missed a story when a few days ago he told all the stories of Starla's past on Alpha. He did not mention who the man who destroyed Starla's life was. And it was good luck for Leon, because he could have guessed if he had told the man his name, maybe Alpha and Lucas had ended up in a hospital with severe injuries at the moment, because cases hit each other.

"Ah, just barely." Leon muttered which made Dareen frown confused.

"What's wrong?" Ask Dareen confused.

"Ah no, there's nothing, I'm just just grateful for something." Leon replied with a sigh of relief.

"meaning?"

"Dareen, I warn you. You better not get them together often." Said Leon who exactly was warning Dareen.

"Huh?"

"I'm just giving you Dareen's advice. If you don't want to see your President behave like a psychopath, you better never do that."

Said Leon patting Dareen's shoulder which still looks confused with the words of Leon who at that time immediately moved from his seat and stepped away leaving Dareen who was still trying to digest the words of Leon.

While in a room with a dim lighting, Alpha appears to be standing in front of the window of his room with both hands in his pants pocket. His gaze was far forward, staring with all the thoughts that made his heart money since earlier felt a longing, even he himself did not understand, why the shadow of the girl had always mastered his mind lately. And the reality now is, Alpha suddenly misses the figure of Starla who has not been seen for a few days. There was something missing every morning when he did not see the face of the girl who always stood with a smile hopefully in front of the cafe. And it cannot be denied, if at this moment he feels he lost everything.

It's not that Alpha doesn't know about all of Starla's habits that always secretly pay attention to her, no one even knows that Alpha secretly also often notices Starla from a distance. although he never responded. Because from the beginning to see the funny behavior of Starla, Alpha has liked it very much, either because he can see the figure of Edrea that he missed so much in Starla, or because the girl is indeed interesting. All this time, Starla has been in Alpha view at all times.

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