I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Prustrations.

"Aarrhhgg.. "

Starla's moans endured the pain all over her body. Not even getting there, his body was suddenly forcefully pulled by the black-hated man who was trying to tear apart the clothes that Starla was now wearing.

"You want what you... Untie me.. Aargh.. Lepaaass.... " Shouted Starla trying to escape from the black-hat man's confinement.

"Do you still dare to make a sound?" Ask Mr. Fridell again. While Starla who was still sobbing with a face that looked pale eloquently because of fear could only cross her hands on her chest, curled up to try to protect her who already looked messy.

"Throw him in the street, women like him deserve it." Mr. Fridell's orders were immediately nodded back by the two guards who had been flanking Starla's body since, and they violently pushed Starla's body to the edge of the sidewalk.

"I think you know me well enough, if you still want to live in peace, leave this country, and never come back. If you can't do it, I'll make sure you disappear off the face of this earth." Said Mr. Fridell, who in a matter of seconds his luxury car had already driven away from the place. Leaving Starla who is still battered on the edge of the sidewalk with conditions that look very messy.

While dragging her already heavy steps, Starla continued to walk through the depths of the night, forcing her body that had since been still trembling with fear that never disappeared. Even with all her strength Starla tried to hold her balance so as not to fall back. Even her tears that had been dripping for an hour had continued to pierce as if they were endless, after all, the pain all over his body is now increasingly felt due to being thrown just like that from the car carried out by Mr. Fridell's men.

"Starlaaaa... Starla.. Wherever you have been, what has happened..." Excited Lucas who immediately ran over when the net was fixed on the figure of Starla. Until a minute later, Lucas' expression suddenly changed when he saw Starla's condition that was completely chaotic with a slightly torn clothing and hair that looked very messy.

"Starlas.. What the hell's going on? Who did this to you?" Lucas panicked.

"LEAVE ME ALONE...." Shouted Starla with his cold gaze, even violently he pushed Lucas' body back.

"Starlas.. What's wrong with you?" Lucas asked in surprise at Starla's unusual reaction.

"LEAVE ME ALONE, NEVER SEE ME AGAIN, NEVER TOUCH ME, NEVER... GOEII... GET OUT OF MY LIFE NOW.. I HATE YOU LUCAS.. HATED YOU SO MUCH...." Raung Starla continues to push Lucas' body, not even giving Lucas a chance to talk.

"Starlas... "

"PEERRGYII... GOII NOW...AARRGHGH...." Shouted Starla very loudly, like a person who was experiencing depression, even Starla to grab her own hair very hard.

"Starlas.. What's going on, don't make me crazy.. Please, tell me.. Who did this to you."

"AWAY FROM ME... GOIII.." Starla's screams grew hysterical and ran straight away leaving Lucas still on the asphalt road, bowing and staring at the road with pain and anger.

"Actually what has happened to you," muttered Lucas with a flushed face holding back tears, even his body seemed to tremble with the anger that suddenly appeared while clenching his hands tightly, even shaking, Lucas continued to stare at Starla's increasingly distant back and was swallowed into the depths of the cold and silent night.

While Starla still continued to run while rubbing her body very roughly, she even began to feel if many stains were stuck all over her body. Even as she entered her own home, Starla ran straight into the bathroom, turned on the shower and continued to rub her body red and almost bled.

"disgusting... So disgusting.. Dirty.. You're Starla's filthiest and disgusting girl, you don't deserve to be loved by anyone.. You're too dirty.. Why this stain cannot be lost.. Disgust.. Aarrhgg.. Disgust.. Aarrhhgg.." Shouted Starla who continued to rub her own body continuously, even an hour passed, Starla still continued to rub her body, leaving behind scratches with a body full of rash reddened half-blooded.

Alpha and his mother's shadow again flashed through Starla's mind, He continued to doubt her true nature until he again grabbed her hair very hard, the feeling of pain as if he was going to kill her in a moment, just breathing is very difficult.

Why it's all like this, it's not the life I want..

Starla's body curled up in a dark corner of the room inside her house, the events of 10 years ago in which he had to lose everything when one's selfishness forced him to frown on all his happiness and future was again present in his mind, where on that night, he was, he had to give up his body by a foreign man he did not know, not even just a foreign man there, but three foreign men who heartily kidnapped and seized him, even fucked her in turns. And just one face that Starla saw that night, there was only one voice recorded clearly in the ear as well as her memory to date, the man in the hat was also a black hoodie, he said, who only a few hours ago returned to see him even back to touch him very roughly, even though the man did not touch his body like what he had done 10 years ago, he said, but the man's treatment was enough to shock Starla because she again felt excessive fear.

"AARRGHHHW..... AARRGGGH.."

Starla's loud screams filled her stuffy, dark room again, her tears flowing from a few hours ago. Starla again felt that if this world was really unfair to her, all seemed to be taken by force from her and did not tell her that at least she could make her smile and still survive to live life alone. All seemed to go and disappear, recounting the wounds and pains in his heart and in his every day.

"Alpha.. I want to be in another life, I want to live another life, and want to be back with you in another life, I will love you and always be with you. Can you wait for me.. Alpha.. Alpha..." Mumbled Starla who kept calling the name of the figure she missed so much at this time. Continue until his body weakens, with eyes that start to blur, and a head that feels heavy. For a moment everything slowly darkened, until Starla could no longer feel her body. Heejin collapsed again unconscious with an incision wound on her arm along with flowing viscous blood. And for the umpteenth time, Starla again hurts herself and tries to end her life.

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* ALPHA KHANDRA MANSION.

Alpha pensive on the balcony of his room with a glaring gaze over the night sky which tonight looks dark covered with clouds that seem to be soon to rain, even the sound of thunder began to earthy, even the sound of thunder began to earthy, along with occasional flashes of lightning that look bright.

Since an hour ago, Alpha has felt something strange with his feelings, his heart suddenly felt sadness as well as anxiety that came from his eyes, even Alpha had thought if all the disturbing feelings were present because of his longing for the mother, but after making a video call and talking to the mother for a few minutes, the sad feeling is still being felt by Alpha, I don't know what's wrong with his current feelings. What was clear was this sudden feeling of uneasiness as if it made him want to shout as loudly as possible.

Alpha slowly stepped out of his room and headed to Leon's tightly closed room. Long Alpha stood in front of the door with his glassy mind, until his hand knocked back on the door several times.

"Leon.. Are you sleeping?"

Alpha asked as he continued to knock on Leon's closed room door, Alpha who felt careless immediately stopped the movement of his hand, and immediately turned Leon's bedroom door knob while calling the owner of the room. Tampa waits for the room's answer, Alpha barges in, and pulls the blanket over Leon's sleeping body. Until a small disturbance from Alpha managed to make Leon wake up feeling upset and confused, while opening his eyes, Leon immediately found Alpha who was standing next to his bed while holding her back with a look of anxiety.

"What's wrong with you?" Leon asked as he glanced at the wall clock that already showed at 2 midnight. While Alpha prefers to be silent in comparison to have to answer Leon's questions, even tampa Alpha stale bases directly sit on the edge of Leon's bed with an increasingly agitated feeling.

"Are you going to stay there and not sleep? at least talk, what do you want at night this late." Leon asked once more as he continued to rub his eyes.

"Yoon's.. I feel like there's something wrong with how I feel" Alpha replied, holding his chest.

"What's wrong? Are you sick?" Asked Leon who directly attached the back of his hand to Alpha's forehead which was still normal.

"Either.. I just.."

"Alpha.. What the hell are you thinking? You're okay, aren't you, what's wrong with you?" Leon asked a little worried and also felt strange, because Alpha who did not usually wake him in the middle of the night, suddenly banged on the door of his room, even woke him by force.

"No, I'm feeling nervous, maybe it's just my feeling,"

"Are you sure?" Ask Leon who is still not sure.

"Hm.. "

"All.. I've known you for a long time, aren't you really thinking about something? Does this have anything to do with Starla?" Leon asked immediately made Alpha speechless for a moment when he heard Starla's name coming out of Leon's mouth, because since a moment ago, Alpha really misses Starla.

"Is that true?"

"Stop it.."

"Alpha.. You seem to miss him so much, why don't you just go see him?" Leon's Advice.

"I think I could see her, and Starla herself doesn't want to see me." Alpha's reply suddenly looks very sad.

"But don't you miss him so much now?" Asked Leon who was already very understanding with Alpha feelings.

"But that doesn't mean I should go see him, and come back to make him feel a bad mood for seeing me?"

"You're wrong.. Maybe Starla is also very eager to meet you now" Reply Leon who tried to convince Alpha who looks to have lost confidence, especially when it comes to Starla's problems. Alpha really can't do anything anymore.

"Either.. I even look like a dumb guy now, missing something you didn't expect."

"Alpha.. "

"Maybe I'm just having trouble sleeping tonight, and want to have a chat.. "

"alright.. I'll accompany you" said Leon who immediately pulled over the blanket that still covered his body.

"No need.. Istrahathlah.." Answer Alpha who immediately moved from his seat.

"Are you sure?"

"Hm.. I'll take some pills and try to sleep." Reply Alpha who immediately stepped out leaving Leon who was still gawking. And went back to his room while reaching for the phone located on the nightstand and contacting someone.

One call went unanswered, and Alpha went back to calling the name stored on his phone, until a few calls, but still, the Alpha call was ignored.

You really don't want to see me, Starla..

Alpha who felt increasingly uneasy, immediately stepped towards the exit which was immediately greeted by the rain that had suddenly fallen so hard tonight. Alpha immediately drove his car, hit the rain and crossed the already deserted road to the house of someone who had made his feelings uneasy. I don't know what's on his mind right now, which is clear his heart is eager to see Starla.

At least let me see you once.

Alpha who immediately stopped the speed of his car suddenly felt increasingly agitated, when the net was fixed on the ambulance parked right in front of the Starla house, and some nurses were running around carrying gurneys and some hospital kits for dying patients.

Starla's..

Alpha immediately got out of his car and continued to run closer to the Ambulance car, even Alpha was not paying attention to the rain again that increasingly heavy flushed his body which suddenly stopped pecking right in front of Starla's house, when he saw Starla's body that was unconscious and filled with blood was in Lucas's sling.

"Starlas.. " Alpha muttered with a trembling body, upon seeing the blood continuously dripping from Starla's wrist Even her mouth was suddenly silenced as a cold gaze from Lucas was directed towards her. It was as if Alpha was the main culprit of the current incident that befell Starla.

"What's going on... What happened to him.. Lucas... " Alphas who looked frightened and panicked immediately ran towards the gurney where Starla's body lay, which looked blue. Before finally his body slumped backwards as Lucas with all his might unleashed a single blow and hit his face.

"Stay away from her.." Lucas stood next to the gurney before the nurses put the gurney into the ambulance.

"Please.. I'm begging.. Let me see it.. "

"Go away.. "

"I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE BEFORE I SEE HIM SON OF A BITCH." Alpha screams that immediately released a hard blow towards Lucas to make the tall body topple over.

Alpha quickly ran towards the ambulance that had been traveling at high speed along with the rain that fell more and more, as if intentionally to cover the tears of Alpha who is currently crying while continuing to chase the ambulance that carries Starla.

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* TO BE CONTINUED.