I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Bitter reality. * HOSPITAL'S.

"Young man, remember. The matter would be even more complicated if Mr. Fridell found out."  Keano said once again which made Lucas soften a bit.

"I'll never let you have Starla, remember that."  Threatens Lucas to Alpha who doesn't really know what to say now, because right now his whole mind is on Starla.

"Curtain, who do you think you are? You're a really shameless kid."  Oceh Leon is back to make Lucas furious.

"Leon, stop.. " 

Alpha exclaimed with a thought of his death, although his gaze still looked scary, but the attitude of giving up Alpha this time was enough to make Leon stunned. Even Leon had thought that Alpha would be brutal and finish off anyone who had distracted him as usual. But the reality he sees now is very much different from Leon's shadow. And this is where Leon came to understand, if Starla had really changed Alpha's attitude.

"We'd better get out of here." Said Alpha again, who immediately stepped away leaving Lucas who was still trying to regulate his feelings. Likewise with the rest of his bodyguards who immediately followed Alpha's wide steps left the hospital.

* * * * *

* PANTHOUSE ALPHA KHANDRA.

Starla was silent on a sofa in Alpha's magnificent Panthouse. Since then, he just kept silent with tears that kept dripping from the corner of his eyes. Condemn his stupidity that again feels stupid because he is trapped back into a love and feelings for a man who should not. Actually there is nothing wrong with his feelings of love, also with Alpha, but Alpha status is not much different from Lucas really can not be accepted by Starla as well as his past that has been slumped, even the trauma that Starla experienced back then is still very imprinted to this day.

Starla's hatred for all the men who had power and wealth was already deeply ingrained. The trauma he had felt really made him feel a deep pain. The bad memories he once had from the Elfredo family to make him lose his mother is really one thing that Starla will never forget. Where at that time he was very humbled, even his mother Liora had to exchange her life to get an apology for him.

"Miss Starla.. Be eating.. "

Say Dareen while putting a glass of hot chocolate and Sandwich on the table. Although Starla did not respond in the slightest, she simply continued to be silent with a gaze that pointed out the window.

"Areally who's the real Alpha?"

Starla asked in a hoarse-sounding voice, she again threw her gaze towards Dareen who for a moment fell silent over her question, even Dareen was confused because he did not know what kind of answer to Starla's question.

"Did Miss Starla really not know who she was?" Ask Dareen.

"No, since an hour ago I feel like Alpha is just a stranger I don't know." Starla replied in a tone filled with disappointment.

"Sorry, but whatever Miss Starla thinks of the young master, I hope Miss Starla doesn't have bad thoughts about him, and whatever Miss Starla hears later, please.. Never leave it." Pinta Dareen with a face full of pleadings.

"Young master? So right, Alpha's not a regular guy?" Starla asked increasingly agitated.

"Did Miss Starla really never hear of a family surnamed Berta?" Ask Dareen who made Starla back silenced.

Don't tell me Alpha's from the Berta family.

Hearing Dareen's question made Starla feel suffocated, because she knew how powerful the family surnamed Berta was, even though she never knew who they were, but Starla once heard and finally found out.

"Did Miss ever hear of BRT GROUP companies?" Ask Dareen again.

"BRT GROUP? Who doesn't know that." Answer Starla.

"BRT GROUP is a Berta family-owned company, which belongs to Alpha."

"What?"

"As Miss Starla heard, Alpha Khandra Berta is a President Director of BRT Group. The only child of Mr. Ivander Adley Berta and Mrs Kinandita Allen Berta."  Said Dareen who made Starla can only be silent, really he never guessed if Alpha is a man who is even higher than Lucas. And what makes him feel more stupid, because all this time he never found out the name of the Alpha clan. Even Leon never said their surname, because Leon himself never used his surname.

"Actually from the beginning Mr. Alpha did not have the slightest intention to plunge directly into his Father's Company, spending his youth doing all the work that should not have been the time he did, because at the age of the young master at that time who was very young, the job was very draining of his brain and energy, he also had to have a big responsibility, he also had to have a big responsibility, which he himself was not sure would be able to hold to that responsibility. But circumstances and fate require him to live it all, inevitably he must enter into a world he really does not want." Dareen again.

"Actually the young master was just an ordinary man like the others, before the event happened and destroyed everything in his life. Had you known all the suffering that the young master had gone through so far, you might have understood it a little. Being a man of high standing is not his fault. He is different, because he has a genuine love and affection that can protect you, anyone and whatever his position, he is also still a man who has the right to love anyone, he said, and certainly he will not see how and how big the status of someone who has entered his heart, because for him loved enough, it has made him very happy." Dareen.

"Suffering? Mean you?"

"Maybe I don't have the right to tell you everything, I'm sorry.. I just want to ask you one thing Miss Starla, never leave Mr. Alpha." Pinta Dareen with eyes full of sadness as well as supplication.

"Sorry.. If I can't fulfill your wish, I.. "

"Starlas.. Stella..."

Call Alpha with his broad strides, even he slightly ran to find the figure he had been calling for repeatedly.

"Dareen. where is Starla..."

Call Alpha once again as he enters the living room, and his baritone voice becomes clearer as he enters the living room, even thinking long, Alpha immediately ran up to Starla who was still sitting on the sofa and quickly he opened his jacket and immediately put it on to Starla who was still in his hospital pajamas.

"Are you okay." Alpha asked worriedly, though he did not get an answer to her question, because Starla had been silent since with tears in her eyes.

"Starlas.. Do you feel pain in your body? why are you just speechless, answer me," asked Alpa once more.

Not in my body, but in my heart, I felt a pain in my heart.

"I'm fine." Starla replied with a slow nod as she looked at Alpha's face. Starla just lowered her head as if reluctant to look at the figure of Alpha who had been sitting opposite her with a face filled with sadness and worry.

"I'm sorry."  Said Alpha slowly who was still very familiar with Starla's feelings that seemed to have not fully accepted her.

"Sorry for what? because it makes me look like I'm stupid now?"

"Starlas.. Can you understand me, please.. Can you not.."

"I can't, sorry.." Sela Starla's.

"I'll take you to your room to rest, so that your mind is much calmer." Alpha was immediately countered by Starla who still refused to look at her face.

"Starlas.. I'll do it for a moment, your body hasn't even fully recovered yet."

"No," Rejected Starla who took Alpha by surprise.

"Starla.."

"Take me home." Pinta Starla begged to look at Alpha's face.

"No, you better be here first."

"Please, let me go home." Pinta Starla once again.

"Starlas.. Can you listen to me just this once? You're not safe there, because I'm sure Lucas will be there to find you, unless you want Lucas to find you." Speak Alpha in a worried tone of voice. Especially when he saw Starla who was only speechless with eyes filled with fear and hatred, whether the feeling of hate was directed to whom, he said, alpha doesn't really want Starla to leave him.

"Starlas.. Stay here, don't you really see my worries?"

"But I don't want to... "

"Well, I'll get out of here" Sela Alpha, "If you don't want to see me here, let me go. But please, let some of my bodyguards stay here to take care of you." Pinta Alpha again while reaching out her hand to regain Starla's hand, despite Starla's seemingly indifferent response and making Alpha undo his intentions.

"Why do you have to do that, Mr. Alpha, why did you have to get knocked out of your own house for a poor girl like me?" Starla asked slowly as she continued to bow, as if she was trying to avoid the Alpha gaze that had been staring at her since.

"What's wrong with you? What kind of girl are you? Why are you suddenly putting yourself down?"  Alpha asked with a tone of voice that began to rise, instead of answering Starla's question, and it was enough to make Starla surprised by the tears that kept dripping from the corner of her eyes.

"Don't cry." Pinta Alpha who currently really wants to hug Starla's body tightly, but again he undoes his intention, because when he saw the response Starla who seems to be putting distance between them makes Alpha illustration, because when he saw the response Starla, and made Alpha even more confused as to what he should do.

"Whoever and however you are, I never care about that Starla, because I.. " 

Alpha hung up his sentence, his lips suddenly clenched perfectly.

"I just want you to stay here." Said Alpha who immediately grabbed Starla's body to carry her, tampa care about the rejection of Starla who was squirting in her carrier, tampa,

" What are you doing, put me down.."

"Shut up.."

Speak Alpha, with Alpha's wide steps directly walking up the stairs to a room that is quite spacious. In fact, he immediately broke Starla's body and covered her. While Starla with a heart that almost stopped was no longer able to say anything.

"I'll go home, call me if you have anything you need." Alpha, who had immediately moved from where he was now, stepped out and left Starla's room. It left Starla who was still silent with mixed feelings.

* * * * *

Alpha stepped down the stairs to the living room where Dareen seemed to be waiting for him. Alpha who immediately leaned his body on the sofa while closing his eyes enough to make Dareen understand, if the current Alpha is experiencing serious problems, because it has been a few minutes since Alpha there, because it has been a few minutes since, not a single word was heard, Alpha was still reluctant to open his mouth, he was still silent with all the problems that seemed to weigh heavily on him.

"Young master, how? Is everything okay?" Asked Dareen who could not stand the situation anymore, and finally opened his mouth which had been silent since then with one question that he himself already knew the answer, he knew, he knew, if Alpha is not okay at this time, there is a clear wrinkle on his forehead, when Alpha occasionally frowns his forehead between his eyes that are closed, like thinking of something heavy.

"Looks like he hates me," Alpha replied after a few minutes, and finally opened his mouth, yet still remained with his still-cruel position, even reluctant to stare at Dareen.

"But sooner or later he'll understand and one thing you need to know, Miss Starla never hates you" replied Dareen who seemed to be trying to dispel Alpha's bad thoughts.

"Are you sure? But.. Why do I feel like saying he's going to stay away, and he's going to leave me" Alpha replies.

"Master, does the young master feel fear now?" Ask Dareen.

"Either.. I always thought about what would happen if he left and left me." Alpha replied increasingly feeling anxious, even he himself did not understand the feeling now that he really did not want to lose the girl who was currently around him, one roof with him, and one roof with him, even shared oxygen with him.

"You love Miss Starla" said Dareen, who suddenly surprised Alpha.

"what?" Ask Alpha to convince her hearing.

"You've fallen in love with Miss Starla, your cares and concerns clearly show that you're trying to protect her, protect someone you love, and worry about someone you really care about, am I wrong, sir?" Daren's loud speech that suddenly made Alpha speechless.

Alpha never even realized that, in his mind only one, that he just wanted to protect Starla, not want to see Starla cry and hurt, even tampa thought of his own feelings, he said, a feeling of love that is clearly visible, if all the things he does because he loves the girl.

"You're right, I.. I felt a different feeling towards him, but.. Why is it that now my heart is in pain, even to look me in the face he is reluctant." Said Alpha holding his chest.

"Maybe this time Miss Starla needs some time to calm her feelings. And the pain that the young master is feeling right now is that Miss Starla is ignoring you." Reply Dareen.

"Why is it all so complicated, why does loving someone have to be this sick Dareen?" Ask Alpha slowly.

"Unlike that Young Master, the pain that the young Master is feeling right now is due to the problems that are happening between the young Master and Miss Starla" explained Dareen who now feels concern. It's Alpha's first love, and even he already has to feel pain.

"Everything will improve, Miss Starla just misunderstood you, and it's natural for someone who has experienced trauma to make them suffer. The young master just needed some time to be more patient in dealing with it,"

"I get it, I'll wait for him.. " Alpha murmured softly as he moved from his seat and immediately stepped out who was followed by Dareen.

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* TO BE CONTINUED.