I Can'T Have Your Heart.
Kanzia Edrea's.

"NO IBUUU.. STOP THIS..."

PRAANCK....

The sound of a thrown knife collided with the floor. Edrea hugged her mother's body tightly which was still screaming hysterically with tears constantly flowing down her pale face.

"Don't do it again, I beg you, not again" said the girl, who still hugged her mother tightly, letting the frail body cry in her arms for a few minutes, he could feel his mother's body weakening with regular breathing.

He gently rubbed his mother's back, and immediately rubbed the frail body to rest on the bed, covering it before gently tipping his mother's forehead.

Slowly Edrea stepped out of her mother's bedroom and walked into the living room that looked very messy. His eyes fell on a knife he had thrown on the floor when he managed to snatch it from the hands of his mother who had returned to try to injure herself. It's not the first time her mother has done it, it's been repeatedly attempted suicide since they moved to the city.

With tears streaming down from the corner of her eye, Edrea picked up the knife and placed it in a drawer for her key, and began to clean up the items scattered on the floor.

Since her mother was sentenced to suffer from traumatic stress in Soulder or commonly referred to as PTSD, her mother has never again communicated with anyone including herself, the woman's eyes were always enveloped in a deep sadness, even though she had not spoken since then, but Edrea can know the mood of her mother who sometimes feel sad, or afraid just by looking at the eyes of her mother.

And since then also Edrea began to spend his time by continuing to work the lungs of time, to finance his needs as well as the treatment of the mother. He must continue to work hard to survive in a city that is very foreign to him. Where he has no family in the city. Although it was not a sad thing for the life of Edrea who was born he only had a Mother and Aunt.

Edrea's father died in a car accident while Edrea was still in the womb, and that's what his aunt said when Edrea once asked the whereabouts of the father, the father, edrea argues that the Mother's disease is currently caused because of it. Until Edrea grew up he never again asked about the Father, how the father looked and character, because if by accident his mother heard it, he said, her mother would start crying and would not infrequently start hurting herself. Because Edrea knew her mother had been sick since Edrea was still in the womb.

"Sorry Mom, Rea came home late tonight" said the girl gently hugging her mother's body from behind, as she entered the room and found her mother there. He quickly grabbed a scarf that was attached to the back of the sofa to be wrapped around the neck of his mother who was still silent in front of the window of his room, because tonight the air was quite cold.

"When I have dinner, I've cooked my mother's favorite meal."

Edrea closed the window curtain and grabbed her mother's body to move from her seat and led her to the dining table, which there was neatly arranged her mother's favorite food menu.

Patently the girl fed her mother, while occasionally gently rubbing the corner of her lips affected by food scraps.

"When you take your medicine, Rea gets her first payday today, so you can buy her medicine again." Continue the girl while reaching for a glass and some pills for her mother to drink.

"Today I experienced a very interesting and frightening event, my brother saved someone, May the man be well, because I saw a serious wound on his arm."

The story of the girl that she did every day while she was with her mother. He will tell me everything that is in nature. Although he never got a response from his mother. And ended up sleeping in the lap of the mother.

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* ALPHA KHANDRA MANSION.

"How's it?" Ask Alpha slowly.

"Our man has arrested the driver of the car, sir, and as you might expect, he's Mr. Chris' man. Answer Dareen.

"Tsk, so he started acting sneaky again apparently?" Reply Alpha Khandra with a smirknya smile while leaning her body on the sofa while crossing her legs.

"What do we do next, sir?"

"Just let that guy rot in jail."

"Okay sir," Reply Dareen nodded.

"Did you get any information about the girl who helped me yesterday?"

"Yes Young Master," replied Dareen while placing a map on the Alpha desk which was immediately reached by Alpha and then read it. It looks like he frowned while reading some information from the girl who had stolen his attention.

Turns out you had a pretty miserable life, miss.

Inner Alpha took a deep breath as her heart suddenly felt pity for the Girl who had saved her yesterday.

"This girl is precious to the Thai state?" Ask Alpha slowly.

"Yes sir, and it's been a year that the girl and her mother moved to this town." Reply Dareen.

"Didn't you get the data on his father?"

"No sir, so far, that's all the information I got."

Dareen replied, accompanied by a nod by Alpha who somehow began to be interested in investigating someone who had just seen him, moreover he was a girl. Even Alpha never cared about anyone around him. But this time, it looks serious.

"You seem to be thinking of something young master."

"I was just thinking, if the girl wasn't there yesterday maybe I would have been lost. Is that a coincidence?" Ask Alpha while tapping the table with his index finger.

"Of course, sir, and you seem to owe the girl a big thank you, because yesterday you seemed to have forgotten to say it."

"Maybe next time, I'll definitely meet the girl." Answer Alpha Khandra.

"Yes, sir, I'm actually a little curious, because you're not usually interested in things like this."

"I just feel like there's something different about the girl. Suddenly my feelings said I wanted to protect her." Alpha Khandra reply that makes Dareen can only gawk at his words. Because a man like Alpha Khandra is a man who is not that easy to feel kasian or pity for others.

"What's wrong?" Alpha asked again when he saw the expression of his assistant who looked shocked and confused.

"It's okay, sir, it's just..."

"I want to rest." Reply Alpha Khandra while leaning her body on the back of the long sofa of her study room while keeping a quiet.

"Why don't you just rest in the room?" Ask Dareen slowly.

"no need. I'm more comfortable here." Reply Alpha Khandra who is still closed, even more comfortable on the sofa.

Today Alpha Khandra did not go to work due to severe injuries in his elbow and he was required by his personal doctor to rest at the Mansion in a few days.

While on the second floor right in Emery's room, there was the figure of Emery who was still curled up on his bed with his body still covered in blankets.

"Mrs.. Don't you eat anymore?" Ask Areta slowly.

"No Bi, I'm not hungry." Emery replied with a hoarse voice.

"But since yesterday you haven't touched a single meal."

"I just don't taste Bi"

"What's wrong, madam? Are you okay?"

"I'm fine." Reply Emery smiled, trying to hide the wound in his heart, the pain that seemed to make him want to scream as hard as possible. The fact that she was just a decoy that her own biological father used to seize her husband's treasure really made her really sick and devastated.

While Areta can only take a deep breath when she sees Emery's condition, puffy eyes with a face that looks very pale it is enough to illustrate that the big madam is not in good shape at all.

"Mrs, what exactly is going on? Since your Father's arrival yesterday, your mood has instantly changed, is there a serious problem?" Ask Areta slowly.

"It's okay Bi, it's,

I was just thinking, how much more will Alpha hate me if he finds out about this, what should I do now. Emery's inner self frightened him even more.

"Great master is fine Madam, Doctor Wil just came home after he had come to check his condition, Madam does not need to worry" replied Areta.

"What is the young master's wound?" Asked Emery who had not seen the condition of her husband since yesterday. In addition to Alpha not allowing anyone to enter his room, Alpha also does not allow anyone to approach him other than his Assistant Dareen and his best friend Doctor Wilfreed Maximilan, even if only to see the situation.

Emery slowly got out of bed and slightly tidied up her hair that looked a little messy. And keep stepping out of the room and followed by Areta who chose to be quiet, without any questions, until Emery stopped right in front of the refrigerator and began to take out some cooking ingredients.

"What are you going to do?" Areta asked when she saw Emery grab his apron to wear.

"I'll make young Master Samgyetang, it's good to recover his health." Answer Emery.

"But Madam."

"Aunt Reta.. Let me cook it."

Reply Emery smiled as he started cooking. Areta can only be silent when she sees Emery with her sad feelings.

Why do you keep doing things that will make you disappointed in the end Madam,

Inner Areta who quickly took some vegetables to wash, at least it can help reduce the work Emery who seems to be currently unwell. Until 60 minutes passed, Emery finished with his cooking, and immediately put it in a container.

"Boost,"

Call Emery as he steps up to Dareen who just came out of the Alpha Workspace.

"Yes Madam," Reply Dareen who immediately stopped his steps and bowed as Emery was standing right before him while carrying a tray containing a bowl of samgyetang that seemed to be freshly cooked.

"Can I ask for your help?" ask Emery.

"Please Madam, don't hesitate."

"Can you give this to Master Alpha?" Asked Emery while thrusting the tray that had been held since then to Dareen who was still silent with a face that looked confused.

I'm not sure young master will want to eat it. Dareens.

"What's wrong?"

Emery asked again as he looked at Dareen's face which still looked confused. As if understanding what was on her husband's assistant's mind, with a friendly smile Emery put the tray on the table.

"Alpha can throw it away if she doesn't like it." Emery said as she turned her eyes towards her husband's workspace which was still tightly closed with a face that seemed full of worries.

"Is Mr Alpha okay?" Ask Emery slowly.

"Yes Madam, sir is fine, the injury on his hand is not so bad either, sir just needs a rest." Dareen replied convincingly.

"Who would do such a vile thing,"

Your father Madam.

Inner Dareen while taking a deep breath felt concerned for her young mistress who was kind and gentle. Even such a woman is destined to be the daughter of a heartless and cold-blooded man like Mr. Chris.

"Why the Madam didn't just go inside and give it to Mr. Alpha directly" Dareen replied with a suggestion.

"But I.. "

"The lady just needs to put the food in there, and be able to see Mr. Alpha's state for a little while, after all Mr. Alpha is sleeping, so everything will be fine."

"Alright," Emery replied with a smile that looked very happy. She quickly grabbed the tray and stepped into her husband's office.

Emery very carefully placed the tray on the nightstand so as not to cause a sound that can interfere with her husband's sleep.

Emery sat next to her husband who was still asleep, with a fixed look at her husband's handsome face that was sleeping, a face that looked like an angel, he said, so calm with regular breathing like a little baby sleeping on his mother's lap. Even this is the first time Emery really looked at her husband's face closely after 5 years of their marriage. There he could see a nose that was so sharp, with thick eyebrows and eyelashes that looked long and slightly flattened, not to forget with lips that looked a little full also reddened, reddened, it is beautiful for a man like Alpha who does have a handsome face with white skin that looks smooth and soft.

If I could see this calm face every day, I would not want anything else.

Emery tampa's inner face turned away his eyes with a small smile that adorned his face.

"What are you doing here?"

Alpha's flat voice suddenly greeted Emery's sudden sense of hearing made him sit on the floor and slowly drag his beach back so that his body away from Alpha who had been awake since when he had awakened from his sleep. Even the angel's face that was seen a few minutes ago on Alpha's face has now turned into a face that looks cold and scary.

"How dare you look me in the face like that."

"Ma.. Sorry, I just delivered soup for you." Answer Emery.

"Get out."

"Baa.. Good Mr." Said Emery who immediately moved while stepping his feet towards the door.

"Bottom down the trash."

"What sir will not me..... "

"I SAID BOTTOM OUT." cried Alpha.

"But Sir... "

Alpha quickly got off the couch and grabbed the tray.

PRAANNKKKC...

Emery lowered his head while covering both ears as the tray clashed with the floor right before him, along with his tears flowing with a trembling body.

"Have I not warned you repeatedly?"

"Ma.. I'm sorry, sir."

"Tsk, seeing you like that makes me hate you so much, do you know? I HATE YOU SO MUCH THAT I WISH YOU'D LOST THE REST OF THE TAMPA ON EARTH?" Alpha cried out with his growing anger.

"WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS AROUND ME? WHY DON'T YOU JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME?"

"I'm sorry.. "

"GET AWAY FROM ME."

"Is that what you want from me?"

"WELL, I WANT YOU TO STAY AWAY, WHY DON'T YOU JUST DIE?" Shouting Alpha grabbed a chair and threw it against the wall right beside Emery standing up to vent his anger.

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* TO BE CONTINUED.