DEVANYE. STILL LOVING YOU
part 1

"Ma, Anye leave first yaaa!" I screamed loudly and rushed to leave before my mother came out of the house and dragged me to breakfast.

Lately I don't like breakfast because it means after breakfast I'll leave with sister Melati. Not that I don't like my brother, but I don't like the guy who's going to pick him up, pick him up every day!

I half ran to stop the white freight. The transport that will take me to school. Some school children in uniforms, white-blue, and white-gray, there are also some mothers who will go to the market with woven baskets in their hands. Luckily there was still one place for me to sit even though it was very narrow.

Arriving at school, with sweat pouring out from the hot air in the angkot, I went down and paid the freight. Just about to step up, I fell silent. Damnit damnit!!

"God!" jasmine's voice sounded shrill between the noise of the students and the passing vehicle. He waved his hand at me.

Beside him stood a tall, towering, handsome-looking man with hair in a neat comb backwards, a stature that always looked sexy, a, he was looking at me with both hands put in his pants pocket. His tall body rests on the door of his black car. Fucking Ish! Stop looking at me like that or I'll plug your eyes!

"Yes, Mel?!" I grinned when I saw him shake his waist with a face that made him angry, but honestly he was not at all scary. Not being considered as a criterion for being an antagonist.

"You are, habit!" he said while shuffling my hair.

"Sister, it's a mess again, isn't it?!" murmured me while clasping his hands and tidying up my messy hair.

"This, mama kasih bagal. Next time napa breakfast, Nye? Mama's worried that your maag is coming back! What if you faint? if you go to the hospital again will pity mama. bla..bla...bla.." geez. This brother. So chatty.

"Sister Devan, quickly take Mel's sister away. If sister Mel continues to nyerocos here would be late to the office. Kuping Anye has also started to curl, brother Mel, this!" I smiled grimacingly at the quiet figure behind Melati's sister.

"What are you?! Hey sister Mel is worried about you, you're the same sister?!" his eyes are bulging, round, funny.

"Hehe, sorry, sister Mel. But yes, Anye also wants to enter this class! Bye brother! Brother Devan!" I quickly passed with the box in my hand. Not caring about my brother who still sounded grumbling behind me.

Running into the school area and then stopping when I was sure I was some distance away from those two people. I turned around and saw Devan opening the door for Melati's sister. Then he walked around the car. Before opening the car door he looked at me, I'm sure it was because he didn't go straight inside either. Our eyes crossed each other. I immediately turned my body around and ran back towards the classroom.

Devan. The person who was once in my heart. Split up because he betrayed my trust. It's my fault I trust him too. He was a grown man while I was still a Junior High School student!

Our distant age, seven years, made me realize that Devan could not love me who still stinks. He's a grown man who's ready to build a commitment with women, and me? Haha, I'm all wrong! I was too confident he could wait for me until I graduated college!

That night I saw him alone with a woman who seemed to be the same age as him. They look very friendly, with the woman who continues to wrestle spoiled on Devan's arm. God fucking. I'm jealous!

And at that time I did not want to hear his explanation, even though he swore the woman was nobody, he said. Ah ego teen labile! He said he'd keep seeing me until I could forgive him, but where's the evidence he left before he got an apology from me!

I should have liked men who were the same age as me! Wandering feels the love of some guy who likes me seems like fun! But it's like my heart is closed, nothing can make me fall in love like he did. Devan!

*

"Nye, yuk canteen. Laper!" Nanda tugged at my hand holding her phone, almost falling over.

"Ish you know, my hp is almost all right! Do you want to take responsibility if my phone breaks?" looking at me, Nanda just grimaced to see the rows of white teeth.

"Sorry, I'm a laper. Not yet breakfast." his lips whimpered.

"Who told you not to have breakfast?!" I stood up and started walking away from Nanda. "Kneel!" myrag. Nanda smiled and took my hand.

Before long we were in the cafeteria, during break hours like this the canteen was always full, fortunately there were still two empty tables.

"Gue has a really nice sister deh Nye! His time is love for me again! You can't, can you?" confide Nanda with her lips.

I know who Nanda meant. Nanda's father remarried a widow with one child and she was only one year above Nanda. Damn the young man was the man Nanda had loved all this time. They love each other, but fate can only make them love like sister and sister.

"Gue is uncomfortable if he keeps looking" said Nanda. He inched a move to one of the chairs that turned his back on the young man.

Everyone has their own problems. I'm with Devan, and Nanda is with her half-sister!

***

"Ma, Anye's home!" myrag. It's my habit to come home always calling out like that. Mama would come to see me, but not this time. Tumbens!

I stepped inside the house. Slender. No one, where's mama? don't usually go without locking the door. What if there is a thief?!

"Anyelir, are you home?!" the voice of someone I know very well was heard calling from the direction of the kitchen he was standing with a half-empty glass in his hand. Goddamnit! Why is he here? my thinking.

I immediately escaped my steps as quickly as I could to the stairs. Not wanting to see him again which led to my helplessness. Hahh I suck!

"Anye, can we talk?" her door.

"Nothing to talk about!" ketus.

"But this is important, Nye!"

"It's important to you, but I'm not!" I almost got to the top step. Suddenly he pulled my hand and took me a little run with him. She quickly led me into my room and locked the door? What's he want?

"Nye, please. You want to beat me up, right?" please, I just gawked away from the front door keeping my bag on the bed, and opened my shoes.

"Three minutes!" bargain with my hands folded in front of my chest.

She's speechless.

"Two minutes!"

"Anye, i..."

"Time's up!" I cried, when I was sure there were still a few seconds left. "Get out of my room!" expirku. Other than being uncomfortable with him being in here, what if someone caught us in the room? Even if we do nothing!

"Anye, i..."

Fuck up! "Just talk, how hard is it!" my ketus.

I was shocked that he was not talking but pulling both my shoulders and putting his lips on mine. Trying to move his tongue into my mouth. Damnit damnit! Why can't I move?!

He's getting on me tighter and tighter. I try to get away from my surprise. Then with all his might push him!

"You're crazy!" my cerca. "How about if Mel saw her?" I rubbed the wet tip of my lips because of the salivation.

"Nye, we have to straighten up our situation."

"Lurusin what do you mean?"

"About our relationship!"

"What relationship? We have nothing to do!" I said emotion.

"About us first!"

"That's just the past, Devan! Remember I'm now your fiancee's sister." point me right in front of her face.

"But we haven't broken up Nye!"

"It has. I sent you!"

"But I don't accept it!"

"Whatever!" I said and pushed him towards the door and turned the key, opening the door for him to come out. "Get out!"

"God!"

"Please, before it's too late Nye. I can cancel my engagement with Melati, we can be together again!"

"And the heartache of Jasmine?" I shook my head. "No, Dev. I can't possibly break my brother's heart!"

"Then what about your heart?"

"My heart, it's up to me!" reply indifferently. I turned my gaze away, afraid that he would look into my eyes and see the reality inside.

Devan clasped my cheeks with both palms, pulling my face until we looked at each other. Oh My God! I hate this!

He kissed my lips again.

"Still the same, sweetie! I'll tell them everything!" I held his hand that would open the door.

"Don't Dev, please." I shook my head. I really don't want to see my brother hurt anymore.

"Then say you still love me!" I shook my head again.

"It's not my fault that after this Melati will hate us!"

"Not Dev please. Don't make Mel sad!" beguile.

"Then you tell me, you still love me!"

I tried to forget him, but he was still in my heart all along.

"Okay, you won! Out!" this time he smiled winning. Then step out.

"I'm waiting for you tonight in a normal place!" he said it while passing me.

I closed the door to my room, then leaned back there. My body sank from weakness. All of this has rendered me helpless.

I'm sorry, Mel! I'm a traitor! my mind, my eyes are hot, as soon as tears come out of my eyes.

I tried to breathe again. All makes me cramped. Not only this time Devan urged me. But now Devan's threat is freaking me out.

Brother Mel is a woman with full of tenderness and affection. He's my greatest brother. Can rise from the slump because in the residence of her future husband, and finally after all this time she found someone. But the hell is that guy Devan! My lovely ex. My first love!

*

Many times my phone rings. Call from the same person.

I saw him standing there madly waiting for me to come. I deliberately came late from the time he asked. Let him be angry, is it good, right? He got angry and hated me and stayed away from me. That was my plan.

It's been almost an hour I've waited, not intending to approach her. Just leave him alone.

I saw Devan standing up agitated. Then sit. Standing again. Some people who visit this place began to be uncomfortable with Devan's behavior. I just smiled looking at him. Still as it used to be. It's just that our situation is different now.

If I couldn't bear it and it would have splashed into his warm sling back, and he would have pinched my nose with a smile, but now it's all just wishful thinking.

"Who did you see?"

"Nothing!" I answer when someone asks. My eyes are still focused forward. But I don't see Devan there anymore.

"I'm here!" I jumped in shock. Since when was he behind me.

"Eh, Dev. Hehe. You been waiting for me for a long time?" as usual, I let out my special grin.

Devan stood with both hands folded in front of his chest. His expression was flat, with one eyebrow raised.

Devan pulled my hand. "Where are we going? you asked us to meet here, right?" I asked, trying to take off his hand, but couldn't. I finally resigned as he pulled me away from there and took me near his car and forced me to come in

"Devan, where are you taking me?" I'm upset because Devan didn't answer my question. She further irritated me for simply answering with the shoulders she raised together.

"You'll find out later!" he said he started the engine of his car.

I just kept quiet, watching the streets still crowded with vehicles. No matter where he takes me.

"Nine o'clock I should've reached home!" ketus.

"okay!" that's the answer from Devan. You shitty Devan!

The car stopped somewhere. I just refused to go out. A night market.

"Come on!" Devan came out first, I remained silent on the spot.

tok.

Car window glass on tap from outside. Devan stood there ready to knock on the car window again, but stopped because I opened the door.

"Come on! You don't want to come down?"

"Go home."

"Kok home? why?"

"I don't want to go in there!" Devan breathed a rough sigh.

"Would you like to go home?" i'm nodding. Devan walks around and sits in the driver's seat.

The car starts and then drives. I can see from the corner of my eye, Devan's face looks upset.

The night market was one of our favorite places. We spent many nights riding all the games. But now it feels like I hate it because maybe our circumstances have been different.

Devan stopped his car on the edge of a deserted road. His hand gripped the steering wheel so tightly that I could see his whitened handbooks.

"I want to go home Dev!" my door. I can't stand it anymore, my heart hurts.

"Why are you asking to go home? Didn't you like the night market?" his tone was cold.

"That was Dev, now I don't like it. I'm not a kid anymore!" obviously that's not the answer. That's just an excuse!

"Bright.." Devan set his upset breath. "So. That's because you're not comfortable with me!"

"If you know the answer why are you still writing me down?" I started to get emotional.

"You should realize, you are soon going to be engaged to Mel! I don't want you to pffttt.." My eyes were round when suddenly Devan kissed my lips, I couldn't dodge anymore because his hands slid into the back of my head and held him back.

I was inflamed, trying to break away but I couldn't, his strength was greater than mine.

Devan keeps on smearing my lower lip, and playing his tongue. His one hand forced my chin down making me open my mouth. Freely his tongue swept across the entire area of my lips. Sucking one tooth and twisting my tongue.

The kiss was rough, but over time it became soft, making me lulled with the play of his tongue.