DEVANYE. STILL LOVING YOU
part 78's
Wish what I was? Devan's not coming home tonight, and I don't know when he's coming. Mama could be rude to me at any time! He's trying to stress me out and maybe hoping I'm crazy, if he can still be patient, of course, and if he's impatient, he might put poison in my drink. Instant!
I got up from the bed, picked up my school bag. One book that became my diary, exactly I only write if there is something painful but I can not express. All my mother's treatment to me all this time, the rest I've slipped lonely because I'm alone here, there's happiness, sweet memories with my husband, and happy feelings with the presence of our baby.
Finished with my heart. I wrote something for my husband. Whether he wants to read or not. I'm just feeling angry right now, not being able to vent on others I can just pour on this white sheet of paper. I hate you Dev, but I still love you! You are just confused, from a long time ago you can not refuse what your mother and father said. You still believe and obey them. But I'm sure you don't hate me either, do you?
I cry, it feels so hard to think about getting out of here. But I can't stand to see you either, your face is angry, but your eyes are still full of love for me. You're just confused!
Get ready with the jacket on my body. One small suitcase I had about, quite a few clothes and cash that I had, the rest I did not bring, all the cards that Devan gave me left with the book.
Enough is! I'm sorry Dev, you wanted me to go by yourself, right? Let it be if I'm selfish and childish. I am not very mature yet! But I can take care of my son alone, I can work. It's just..I'm confused, where am I going?!
Thinking for a while, I guess it's better to go to Nanda's house, that's a pretty good choice. Nanda understood me and Devan a long time ago. As for Sofia, she'll definitely report to bang Ed, I don't want to disturb that guy, Bang Ed could have been angry that he came home here and took me away, it sounds good but I don't want to bother. He is learning to replace his father.
Nayara, he's too bucket! If Devan was looking for me he could have said I was there, how about I get dragged back to the apartment? Hahh... wish what am I? Dev's gonna find me and take me home? I'm crazy, it was he who kicked me out!
Opening the apartment door a little, the bodyguard was standing there. Devan wants me to leave, but still assign a guard here?
"Where's the hell is the hell you going?" the bodyguard asked, staring up and down at my appearance.
"I want to go!" my spoken.
"Can't go, miss! Young master forbid you to leave!" he said in a cold tone.
"You know he threw me out himself, so why do I have to be here?"
"Sorry, but the young master actually forbids you to leave the unit! Please come back in."
I went back and closed the door.
Dev why the hell? It wasn't that he himself threw me out, and now his bodyguard says I can't go! What does he want? Does he want to torture me until I die here?
I went back to my room. Lie down on the bed. Covering my eyes with my arms. The jacket and shoes are still on the body.
I don't know how long I've been like that. The door to the room is open. Devan looks close, his appearance chaotic with a suit draped over his shoulder. I saw it from the corner of my eye.
"Where are you going?" Dev asked, a cold tone of voice that already sounded ordinary to me.
"Certainly want to go." I said without lowering my hand from there.
"Do you have a destination?"
"Wherever, as long as it's not here!"
I felt Devan pull my hand until I sat down.
"Aren't you the one who kicked me out? If I can't believe what I'm doing here, Dev? Your disbelieving attitude is the same I made both of us hurt!" I said with the same cold tone. Looking at Devan's eyes that look teary.
"It's because of you! I've been wrong all this time letting you get close to that guy!"
"He's not wrong! You forbid me from getting out of here, I have no friends to talk to!"
"Huhh reason!!" Devan pushed me into the bed, in the rough grip of my lips, bitter taste, and unpleasant smell was evident in his body, was Devan drunk?
I couldn't fight back when Devan stripped me of my clothes one by one. His strength is too great, let alone he is drunk, he could have hurt me again and my son. I could only give up on her treatment even though my stomach hurt a little because I was still recovering, the doctor told me not to have sex for a week, but now...never mind I guess there won't be anything, Dev also did it quite gently this time.
Devan fell asleep. His face looked tired, the sweat on his forehead was still clearly visible. I rubbed his cheeks which were now a little thin.
I love you Dev, but if I keep on staying here I'm not sure I'm going to be strong, I could be killed or I'll kill myself.
I kissed her sweet lips, I will never forget the taste of these lips forever.
After cleaning myself up, I immediately prepared. Just plain clothes and I wear flip-flops that I used to wear. If I put it in my wallet, I'm lucky to strap this wallet around my neck and I hide my wallet behind my shirt.
Take the room key and I hold it tightly in my hand. Then I went to the door, the bodyguard was still standing there.
"Hey, you." Call me, he's looking.
"Yes, miss?"
"Devan has a slight fever, maybe too much to drink, can you please check and if necessary call a doctor?" my word.
"Why don't you just call the doctor?" he asked back. It's rude, disobedient. He sucks! I folded my arms acting like I was really angry and upset.
"No want! You know we're on the march. I don't want him to be big-headed and think I'm still concerned with him, I'm still mad! So there, check and get a doctor!"
He complied, stepped into the room, then approached Devan while I waited at the door. Holding the door handle then closing it and locking it.
I heard a bang from inside the room. I don't give a shit! I threw the origin of the key and then ran. My stomach is actually a little sore, but it will hurt even more if I stay here.
Damnit. I can't use the elevator. There is an elevator that is wearing. I can guess that's Devan's other bodyguard. Downstairs, in the unit that Samuel used to wear, now houses two of my new bodyguards. They'll take turns at night guarding my unit. I just realized I'm under house arrest!
I hid in the other hallway, at the other end there was actually a makeshift staircase, but it would take me a long time if I used that ladder. And I will not be able to run with my condition that is less fit!
The elevator door opened, sure enough that one bodyguard man came out running from there, must be the person I brackets earlier asking for help immediately.
After waiting for a while and I was sure he got inside Devan's apartment, I prepared to run towards the elevator. But someone snatched me from behind. And he dragged me to the end, towards the emergency stairs.
Am I caught?!