DEVANYE. STILL LOVING YOU
part 155's
Dad said I was in a coma for three days after giving birth to a cessar. I don't know, I certainly don't remember. All I remember is that I was in the darkness and the voice called out. A woman's voice called my name. Carnations... Carnation.so soft was the sound of her calling, she extended her hand to me. Instantly the dark space turned bright with a beautiful mountain scenery behind it.
He smiled so gracefully. Red lips, big eyes like mine, a sharp nose, but his skin looked pale covered in part by long hair that was stretched to his waist.
He greeted me, and I didn't think I was in his airlift. I was like a dream to fly through the vast white clouds hanging there. See the expanse of grasslands and also the ocean. We laughed happily without saying anything to each other. We were flying around each other while holding hands. Whirring and turning full of joy, but then... Shuhhh... He pushed me! I was thrown back to the bottom of the endless. Samar I heard him say...
'It's still not time, Carnation!' I finally woke up in this room.
Devan has been back in the hospital for treatment since he regained consciousness. Dad said, Devan came to his senses shortly after I screamed and fainted. It's magical! Why didn't I do that so long before? Maybe he'll wake up if I do that a long time ago!
I still have to be in the hospital to recover from Cessar's surgery. My baby is still in the nursery, still in the incubator because she is still weak due to premature birth. She said I could only see her and still not touch her, they said she looked smaller than the other babies. On his chest was also attached to a heart detection device. The doctor explained that during pregnancy I was too stressed, it made me give birth faster than I should and also my baby was a little weak.
How not to stress, even though I try to calm and please myself, I still can not turn away from the existing situation.
Today my condition has started to improve, the wound on my stomach is not as painful as yesterday. I would love to see my baby for the first time. With Daniel I went to visit my baby, saw him through the glass wall that limited our space. The nurse was giving her milk from a small bottle, she was drinking voraciously. Sometimes she cries and then comes back. After that he fell asleep. The nurse shifted my son's bed closer to the glass window to make it more visible to us.
Oh look. His lips were clucking like he was feeling the rest of the milk on his lips. He's so funny. Handsomest. Nose tiny, pointed. Her skin is still a baby red.
"He's handsome!" Daniel spoke while putting his forehead on the glass. His fingers were twitching against the glass as if he were touching the tiny baby. Sometimes he smiled and laughed when he saw his little brother.
"Yes. She was exactly like her brother!" I wrapped my hand around Daniel's waist and kissed his arm.
"When can we get him home?" Daniel turned to look at me. Highlight happy eyes and a sense of impatience radiated from there.
"soon!" my spoken. Daniel turned his eyes to his brother. I can't wait to bring him back to the mansion.
"May I give him a name?" Daniel turned to me again, expectantly.
"certain. You've been taking care of her all this time." Daniel smiled happily.
"What's his name?" my many. Daniel looked at his sister again. He thought a little.
"Axhelen. Axel Felix Rudolf!" the answer. Also his name choice. I haven't even thought of a name for this baby.
Axels. I hope you grow up like other kids. Forgive mama who has not been able to face the trials of son, until you are the victim of mother's helplessness.
Satisfied looking at the little sleeping baby, we went to Devan's room. The nurse helped push my wheelchair while Daniel walked slightly behind.
Arriving at Devan's nursery, the nurse opened the door and took me in. Devan was with the doctor, they turned their eyes to me and smiled. The doctor said goodbye to Devan as if they had just finished, then allowed me to get closer to his safe.
The doctor left with the nurse and left me and Daniel there.
It feels really unbelievable. The man I've been seeing lying around is now looking at me and smiling very warmly and sweetly even though he's lost a bit of his good looks.
"Hi!" she was soft, her lips were smiling. A voice I haven't heard for a long time. I opened my mouth, but could not make my voice. My eyes are hot and painful. My chest is rising, between happy and sad because of haru. I suck! When I was five years apart, it was never like this!
"Don't cry, I don't like it!" again he spoke slowly. I just shook my head slowly while wiping my tears.
"Hi.., I-I don't cry. I'm glad you're awake, and also sad because I can't freely hug you. I'm still sick too!" isakku slow. Yeah maybe if I'm healthy and don't remember the stitches post-cessar I'll jump in her arms.
"But you can hold my hand, right? I can't move my hand yet!" said pleading. I nodded and held her hand, warm. "Thank you!" smirking again.
"Daniel!" call again. Daniel just lifted his head. Then a second later he threw his gaze in the other direction.
"Daniel, forgive papa son! Papa can never do anything for you and your mama!" smirking again. It felt like my chest was pierced by sharp thorns, there was a sense of pain there hearing Devan's statement. Daniel's still holding out there.
"I'm sorry if you haven't been able to be a great father to you all this time..."
Silent.
It felt like the air was getting uncomfortable here seeing the two of them like that.
"Niel." Overshipped. Daniel was still silent, not reacting, just that his hands were squeezing the strong shirt he was wearing.
"Papa's sorry that papa can't do everything you want. Really. I'm sorry!"
Silent again.
Niel. Have your feelings changed because of yesterday?
"Father!!!" daniel shouted as he ran, tears falling down his cheeks. Daniel ran over and hugged Devan tightly, his little shoulders shaking violently. Thankfully, I was afraid that Daniel would never consider Devan again. What a beautiful portrait seen between the son and his father. Maybe this is the real hug and the first for Devan with Daniel.
"sorry. Ii'm sorry. I promise I won't be angry with you anymore. I'm sorry I hated papa all this time!" he said between his whims.
"You hate papa in your mouth, but in your heart, you know you never hate papa!" devan said with a choked voice. Devan's eyes are wet. Daniel's getting sobbing. All the feelings that were in him he could finally pour out in his papa arms. She cried until she found it hard to talk.
Just this time I saw Daniel so loosely let out his grievances and grief.
"I'm sorry you couldn't get up and see your match. I'm sorry you couldn't protect you from that bad boy. And who's the little redhead girl who gave you her lunch?" ask Devan streak. Bad boy? Little girl? What'd he say? I don't get it!
Daniel raised his head from above Devan's chest, he looked at Devan with a questionable gaze. Staring at me. I just shrugged my shoulders. Really don't understand!
"Where do you know if a child is being mean to me?" ask Daniel. "I never told anyone, including Matt and Hanson!" name of both bodyguards.
"Of course papa knows. Here. Come nearer..." Daniel drew his ears closer to Devan. Slowly his sad face changed, astonished. Baffled. Then change happy.
What did Devan whisper?
"Hey, what the hell are you guys noisy about?" manya curious. They swerved towards me.
"RUBBER!" exclaim they both compact while smiling ignorantly. Their behavior is almost similar. Father and son! Then once again Daniel heard Devan's whisper they shared a secret that was out of nowhere. Basic sucks!
After a while I was ignored, they were finally done. Daniel smiled shyly, his cheeks red. What the hell is wrong with this kid? While when I looked at Devan he just smiled. Aaah! Basic men!
"You're not gonna tell mama what you whispered?" Fighting for my feelings once again.
"No!" answer them again compactly.
"Huhh. If I had a daughter, I would do the same! You can't know!" pissed me. Daniel jumped down from the top of the gurney and stood behind me and hugged me tightly.
"It's a secret between men. Mama doesn't need to know!" daniel said with a smile. It feels so good to see this kid smile again. The happy look on his face beat everything.